What am I doing...
Damn me.
real.
Mei Fang, ah Mei Fang, you are such a shameless man.
Others invite you to live together because they think you are from the same hometown and they trust you, but can you really be so self-indulgent
She is a girl who lacks love and companionship. Bipolar disorder will cause her to misunderstand her emotional needs, but you cannot misunderstand her so easily.
We are just friends.
Yes, just friends...
Mei Fang, who had been awake all night in bed, had been constantly denying every bit of his time with Lin Youxi over the past few months.
For the ordinary Mei Fang, although he has had a lot of intimate interactions with Lin Youxi these days, in his eyes, Lin Youxi is still an unattainable existence like a goddess.
Even though she is a goddess with broken wings, she is still a goddess.
I'd better not think too much about it.
Isn't it nice to just live with her like this...
But speaking of it, it’s not appropriate for me to live here all the time.
When this game is finished, I will live separately from her...
Mei Fang barely slept that night, and the next morning he felt as if he had died suddenly, full of energy.
But he still waited until the time when he and Lin Youxi usually went to work before getting up, but Lin Youxi's door remained closed.
Mei Fang didn't dare to disturb Lin Youxi. She just sent her a message asking her to rest more today and remember to take medicine on time, and then began to wash up quietly.
When he finished washing up, Lin Youxi still didn't show any sign of leaving.
Mei Fang thought about it, and then prepared a portion of fried dumplings as breakfast and lunch and put it in a box. Then he put the medicine next to it and put a note on it to remind Lin Youxi to take the medicine on time. After doing all this, he sent another message to Lin Youxi, but there was no response.
…
Should... still be sleeping
Mei Fang didn't think much about it and left the house.
Even the door was closed gently.
Mei Fang has experienced this situation many times, where she had to stay up all night and still go directly to work the next day. However, when she went to work the next day, she always had a strange feeling of being full of energy and was very motivated to work.
"Xiao Cao, the case I asked you to do yesterday—"
"It's done, it's done, Brother Fang. The document has been sent to you. Please take a look at it."
After sending the document, Xiao Cao came to Mei Fang's workstation to wait for review. Mei Fang just glanced at it and nodded.
"These event planning proposals are just re-skinned, and the procedures are similar, but you have to pay attention to the table structure of the matching table, and discuss with the programmer how to make the matching table more convenient. Otherwise, if there are hundreds of gift packages in a table, it will be difficult to configure it without errors."
"Okay, okay... Got it, Brother Fang."
Xiao Cao glanced at Mei Fang and said, "Brother Fang, shouldn't you be more restrained recently? You haven't been working overtime much recently, but you still have dark circles under your eyes."
"You had a bit of insomnia last night, what were you thinking about?"
"They all say that you are living with your girlfriend now. Is it true?"
"What are you talking about... She and I are not in a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship."
"You didn't deny living together, right... If they're not boyfriend and girlfriend, then it won't be long before they do, right?"
"Stop talking nonsense."
Xiao Cao returned to his workstation with a sullen look on his face, then looked up to the sky and sighed.
"Even the perennially single straight guy Fang Ge is leaving my camp of singles. What am I going to do in the future?"
"Don't be afraid, Xiao Cao. You are still young and you will have many lonely days ahead of you."
“Hahahahahaha!”
"I agree!"
"Just laugh! When I find a girlfriend someday, I'll see you still laugh at me!"
"Why, it's almost May 20th, you're not going to pick up roses from the trash can this time?"
"Your words remind me that it's time to prepare."
"Ha ha ha ha… "
Mei Fang was listening to his men chatting and laughing, and suddenly realized that the day of May 20 was approaching.
…
Anyway, any holiday can be celebrated as Valentine's Day, right
It doesn't really matter to me...
Mei Fang said this, but Lin Youxi's face appeared in his mind.
Oh, my love brain...
Mei Fang opened WeChat to check the message, but Lin Youxi still hadn't replied to him.
…
Is she still angry about what she did yesterday
No wonder...
Because my fellow villager trusted me, he let me hug him.
but…
It's just a hug, no need to be so—
oops…
What on earth is she thinking
Mei Fang thought about it and prepared to send a message to Lin Youxi.
[I was wrong about what happened yesterday. If possible, I hope you can forget it... If you can't forget it, it's okay. If you think I crossed the line, I will move out of the house in the next few days. No, but since I help you cook and clean, don't go to the police station to sue me. I can't bear it QWQ]
With the mentality that he didn't know how Lin Youxi would respond, Mei Fang sent out this long message. He wanted to take a good look at Lin Youxi's reaction, but what popped out was these words.
[The message has been sent, but was rejected by the other party]
Oops, Oops—
Seeing this, Mei Fang quickly called Lin Youxi, but the call didn't go through and she got a busy tone.
[Sorry, the user you dialed is busy, please try again later. ]
…
Is this an attack? Another attack
Mei Fang is now equipped with sufficient theoretical knowledge, thinking that after such a long time in the manic period, he is probably falling into the jade period again.
But I am probably also to blame for the mental stimulation I caused her last night.
Although she felt very sad and upset about being blocked by Lin Youxi again, Mei Fang knew about her bipolar disorder after all, so she didn't think much about it and directly asked for leave from her leader.
"Brother Yu, something happened at home today, I have to leave early."
The boss nodded immediately, "What happened at home?"
"It's my roommate—"
"Oh, roommate, I understand."
Boss Yu patted Mei Fang on the shoulder and said, "Since it's your roommate's business, go ahead!"
"Don't look at me with such strange eyes..."
Mei Fang scratched his head and said, "Then I sent a message to the work group."
[@All members, if you have something to say, please go back first. If you have any questions, please send them to me directly. I will reply as soon as I see them. If you are in a hurry, please contact Xiao Cao directly. ]
Employee A: [@Fang Ge, can Xiao Cao do this? ]
Xiao Cao: [How can I not be able to do what Brother Fang can do! ]
Employee B: [Fang Ge has a girlfriend, do you have one? ]
Xiao Cao: [Just laugh and you'll be fine.jpg]
After taking leave, Mei Fang immediately took a taxi home.
Yu Yuqi will feel very lost and it is easy for him to fall into a strange state of pessimism. Timely attention and care are very important, not to mention that he has not supervised Lin Youxi to take the medicine today.
…
Mei Fang now had the key to open the door, so he opened the door and came in. The room was empty, but Lin Youxi's door was also open.
"Lin Youxi? Are you home? Lin Youxi?"
There was no response from home, and there was no sign of Lin Youxi in the open door.
Mei Fang saw that the dumplings were still on the table and there was no sign that the pills had been moved.
Shoes… Shoes—
Lin Youxi seemed to have gone out without even changing her shoes.
But her slippers are also at home!
Could it be that he went out barefoot
Bare feet, in pajamas...
The more Mei Fang thought about it, the more anxious she became, and the more anxious she became, the more worried she became. When she didn't see Lin Youxi at home, she immediately rushed out, asked the security guard downstairs in the community, tried to retrieve the surveillance footage, and asked the aunties who were playing cards nearby about Lin Youxi's whereabouts, but none of the aunties noticed a girl with such obvious signs.
Outside the community is a walking path along the river bank. Because the water is very shallow, there are no fences.
But if people really can't let go, it doesn't matter how shallow it is -
call…
Mei Fang searched for Lin Youxi along the trail. He walked slowly at first, then began to mutter something, and finally gradually quickened his pace, and his roars became louder and louder.
"Lin Youxi—where are you?"
"Lin Youxi!"
"Lin—you—xi—"
Oh my god...
I didn't sleep all night yesterday.
Mei Fang, who could no longer walk, was gasping for breath. He felt a throbbing pain in his heart.
I can’t keep running like this… If I keep running like this, Lin Youxi will die before she finds me.
But she is not here, nor at home. Where did she go
How far can you go barefoot
How come no one has seen it yet!
Mei Fang, anxiously waiting, walked on the way home under the setting sun, looking at the lights of thousands of houses and the curling smoke from cooking fires. The only thing accompanying Mei Fang was the afterglow of the setting sun.
Gradually, a sour feeling began to emerge in Mei Fang's throat.
If only I hadn't hugged her.
She's fine if I don't hold her.
There wouldn't be so many things.
I shouldn't have gone to work today since she was so unstable.
I should just stay with her.
If I lose her like this, and if something really happens, how can I explain to her parents - her parents' spirits in heaven
I, I don't know...
Mei Fang, distraught, returned to the house where Lin Youxi was not.
Lin Youxi’s message could not be retrieved and the phone call still could not be reached.
He felt thirsty, so he went to the refrigerator and got a bottle of drink.
He had just opened the refrigerator when he suddenly fell to his knees weakly. He held onto the refrigerator door as an unprecedented feeling of weakness and paleness invaded his whole body. He lowered his head and his body kept twitching.
No one could see the sadness on his face.
Just as he wiped his eyes and was about to turn on his phone to dial 110, a noise suddenly came from Lin Youxi's bedroom.
…
Mei Fang, alert, immediately got up and went to check Lin Youxi's room.
There was no one on the bed.
The bunny slippers were still lying next to the bed.
It was still a scene where Lin Youxi was not there.
Mei Fang turned around and was about to leave when the wardrobe in front of him caught his attention.
…
Mei Fang swallowed, put his hand on the closet door handle, and slowly opened the closet.
Gradually, the afterglow outside the window shone through the window onto Mei Fang's back.
It also fell on Lin Youxi, who was squatting in the closet with her knees hugged, looking up at Mei Fang.
She was still wearing her pajamas, her clothes were disheveled, her hair was unkempt, and she looked dazed.
Only the eyes are still clear.
She stared at him somewhat blankly.
Mei Fang tried hard to swallow his saliva and talk to Lin Youxi, but it took him a long time to finally swallow it. Then, he used a trembling voice with a hint of tears, and tried to force a smile to ask Lin Youxi:
"What are you doing here?"
"Playing hide and seek... huh?"
Lin Youxi just shook his head blankly:
"You can just scold me or hit me, there's no need to force yourself."
"I'm such a disgusting wretch when I'm ill."
"There were times when I was more disgusting and outrageous than I am now."
"It would be better if I were dead."
"I'm just a burden anyway."
"Don't you think so?"
"No, I don't think... I never thought..."
Mei Fang, exhausted, tried to support his body, stretched out his hand to Lin Youxi and said, "Come out to eat, you must have not eaten or drunk water for a day."
"Also, you haven't taken your medicine today... You'll feel worse if you don't take it."
"Leave me alone."
"I'm a sick psychopath, I don't deserve this."
Lin Youxi hugged her knees and didn't move. "You don't have to play the game anymore. Before that, I will torture you to death."
"I don't want to see you like this."
"It's okay... I really don't care... I will take good care of you... I said it's okay..."
Mei Fang gently coaxed Lin Youxi to come out of the closet. The churning feeling in his stomach made him feel extremely uncomfortable, but he kept encouraging Lin Youxi.
"I am a masochist, I like being tortured by you, it's okay... it's really okay... but you can't do this, you haven't eaten anything yet... keep doing this..."
"Please, just treat it as a plea from me... come out and eat something..."
Mei Fang's body couldn't hold on and he almost collapsed to the ground, and in the end he just knelt down.
But at this time he had already fallen into Lin Youxi's arms.
There was not a single extraneous thought in his mind.
He hugged Lin Youxi again.
Kneeling and hugging Lin Youxi.
No matter how hard Lin Youxi pushed him away, he wouldn't let go.
"Will you just listen to me and come out to eat? Please."
Mei Fang hugged Lin Youxi tightly, and all his remaining strength was used to hug Lin Youxi tightly.
"What's so good about me? I've already blocked you twice, and you just keep chasing me? You want me so much, don't you?"
"Do you want to hurt me?"
"Yes or no?"
"I'll let you fuck me once, or play until you're happy, can you leave me?"
"Um?"
Lin Youxi teased Mei Fang with words that were ambiguous, but she only felt the trembling and sobbing of the man on her shoulder.
ah…
After many attempts, Lin Youxi finally gave up.
"Mei Fang, you are such an idiot."
"If you fall in love with me like this, you will definitely regret it later..."
She leaned close to Mei Fang's ear and whispered:
"Afang, I'm hungry."
"I want to come out."
This sentence was the password for Mei Fang to let go of Lin Youxi. He simply wiped away his tears and then continued:
"You figured it out, right? I'll go make you something to eat. Or if you want to eat something, I'll order takeout for you."
"Just the fried dumplings you made during the day will do. That was my breakfast anyway."
"Okay, I'll go heat it up..."
Mei Fang was about to get up to clean up the food, but Lin Youxi grabbed his arm and pulled him back.
Just when Mei Fang didn't know what she was planning, Lin Youxi suddenly came forward and became intimate with Mei Fang.
Although it was a very clumsy way of kissing, she tried very hard.
Work very hard.
Holding Mei Fang in his arms, he kept working hard.
This was the only way for her to express her gratitude to Mei Fang.
Or in other words…
Another emotion
Mei Fang, who was kissing someone for the first time, also seemed clumsy and shy. She could only obediently endure Lin Youxi's attack during the intimacy, and finally held Lin Youxi's hand to continue the action.
After more than ten minutes, the two people's intimacy came to an end.
Phew…
After that, Lin Youxi held Mei Fang's cheek, her eyes full of the tender smile from before.
"Afang."
"Um?"
"I find that you still taste the best."
"I want to have another bite."
"Ah... please forgive me."
This is an additional update to the IF chapter. There will be normal updates today, so don't worry.
(End of this chapter)