This summer, in Gu Yang's memory, is filled with pain, torture, unwillingness and despair.
To Gu Yang, who didn't know that he would be reborn in Fan Yuan's world after death, death was the end.
Even after waking up again in "Fan Yuan" later, he didn't want to think about this summer.
But God seemed to like playing jokes, causing Gu Yang to lose focus when lighting the match, which eventually led him and Fan Yuan to such a dream world.
Not only did Gu Yang have to go through this terrible torture again, but Fan Yuan also had to witness his departure with his own eyes.
Gu Yang's will was somewhat depressed. He forced himself to smile in front of his parents who came to visit him every day, but when he was alone, he curled up in bed and endured the pain.
Fan Yuan would take Gu Yang downstairs for a walk every day. If it weren't for Gu Yang's illness, this would have been a very beautiful summer.
Mostly sunny, little rain, suitable temperature, clear blue sky and no clouds.
Gu Yang leaned against Fan Yuan and walked slowly with him on the grass below the hospital.
Compared to the surrounding environment, Gu Yang is more curious about Fan Yuan today.
The dream world directly pulled Fan Yuan back to his adult twenties. His height was much taller than the eighteen-year-old Fan Yuan. When Gu Yang walked beside Fan Yuan, he looked even thinner and smaller.
Gu Yang broke the silence between the two people, put his hand into the pocket of Fan Yuan's white coat, walked in front of Fan Yuan, and stretched out his hand to measure the height difference between the two people.
"Fan Yuan, you are so tall! I wonder if this dream world has any special connection with the real world. Maybe you will really grow this tall in the future!"
Fan Yuan's black eyes looked at Gu Yang quietly. He did not answer Gu Yang's words, but suddenly stretched out his hands to put around Gu Yang's waist and pulled him in front of him.
"Gu Yang, you also know that this is just a dream. I am with you, always with you."
The smile on Gu Yang's face slowly stiffened and disappeared. He took a deep breath and rested his forehead on Fan Yuan's chest.
"I know, I know, it's just a dream. When I wake up from the dream, it will be over."
Fan Yuan didn't say anything else. He just bent down and picked up Gu Yang. He held Gu Yang's legs with both hands, let Gu Yang hug his neck tightly, and slowly circled with him on the grass of the hospital.
The tall and handsome man held the thin and weak boy tenderly and walked slowly around the hospital. This scene attracted the attention of many people, but Fan Yuan and Gu Yang didn't care.
It was not until Gu Yang's body began to tremble slightly and repeated severe pain came again that Fan Yuan took him back to the ward.
As soon as he returned to the ward, medical staff rushed over and gave Gu Yang painkillers and sedatives, trying in vain to relieve his pain.
Everyone knows that these painkillers and sedatives should not be used too much, as excessive use will have severe side effects.
But for such a young boy with not much time left to live, the side effects seemed meaningless. At least taking these medicines could make his life easier in his last days.
After enduring the severe pain for who knows how many times, Gu Yang lay exhausted on the hospital bed, his mind was empty and he didn't even have the strength to think.
The companionship that Fan Yuan mentioned was not just simple companionship. He even took care of Gu Yang's three meals a day and prepared light yet sophisticated food for him.
Gu Yang's appetite was rapidly decreasing. The food he ate always made him feel extremely uncomfortable. But if he didn't eat, his body would become weaker faster.
More importantly, Gu Yang didn't want Fan Yuan's work to be in vain.
He always endured the pain and ate all the food in front of Fan Yuan, and then when Fan Yuan took the dishes out to clean up, he secretly ran to the toilet to vomit out the food in his stomach.
After this happened several times, Fan Yuan finally discovered something was wrong.
When Gu Yang squatted in front of the toilet to vomit again, he was caught by Fan Yuan.
Fan Yuan stood by the door, his expression was indistinguishable, he just asked Gu Yang calmly:
"Why didn't you tell me you couldn't eat?"
Gu Yang's shoulders shrank, and he stood up by holding the wall, lowering his head. He looked pale and thin.
"I don't want you to waste your time..."
Fan Yuan was silent for a long time, then suddenly strode forward, hugged Gu Yang in his arms, and held him tightly.
"If you can't eat it, eat less."
From then on, Fan Yuan would still prepare all kinds of elaborate food for Gu Yang, and feed him a little bit at a time personally, but not much at each meal.
Gu Yang's parents were surprised by Fan Yuan, the intern, and were finally sent away by Fan Yuan on the grounds of increasing medical observation. After all, having one more person to take care of Gu Yang more carefully would make Gu Yang's parents feel more at ease.
Under Fan Yuan's careful care, Gu Yang's health seemed to be gradually getting better. He looked much more energetic and ate more.
But Gu Yang's physical examination report told everyone that all this was just a flash in the pan.
Gu Yang himself was aware of this, so on a day when he was still in good health, he secretly left the hospital with Fan Yuan.
He took Fan Yuan to the place where he had lived since childhood, walked through the alleys he had walked for more than ten years, visited the school where he went to school, and finally took Fan Yuan to his room.
Gu Yang's parents were busy at work during the day, so there was no one at home.
His room had been vacant for a long time because his parents were busy going back and forth between work and the hospital, and no one cleaned the room, so it was covered with a layer of dust.
Gu Yang carefully brushed off the dust, took Fan Yuan to sit on the bed, pointed at everything in the room, and explained it to Fan Yuan in detail.
Finally, Gu Yang suddenly shrank into Fan Yuan's arms and gently rubbed Fan Yuan's chest with his cheek.
"At first I was very reluctant to come to such a dream world, but now I think it's not bad. At least I can personally take you to the place where I lived and let you know me better."
"From now on, these memories will not only be known by me."
Fan Yuan didn't say anything, but just patted Gu Yang's back again and again.
After the two returned to the hospital, Gu Yang's condition suddenly worsened that night. He could no longer eat anything on his own, and the familiar, cold tube was inserted into his body again.
After his last burst of energy, Gu Yang couldn't even walk.
But Fan Yuan would still push Gu Yang's wheelchair and take him downstairs for a while every day.
They would spend summer days in the shade of trees, kissing each other softly, and watching children play by the flower beds.
Soon it was the day when Gu Yang left in his previous life. Although it was such a painful day, the weather was very sunny.
The summer cicadas are still chirping, the sky is blue, and a cloud is floating in the distance.
The window of the ward was open, and the white curtains were blown by the breeze, fluttering gently, without any sorrow.
Gu Yang looked at his parents sitting beside the bed and smiled:
"Dad, Mom, I had a dream. I dreamed that after I left, I would go to another world, where I would meet the most important person to me. We would support each other and walk on together. So, please don't worry about me. Please also live a happy life in this world."
Gu Yang's parents knew intellectually that Gu Yang wouldn't be able to hold on for much longer, but emotionally, this was the child they had raised for more than ten years, their own biological child, so what pair of parents could accept this
Mother Gu's tears burst out like a dam breaking, and Gu Yang reached out and gently helped Mother Gu wipe away her tears.
"Mom, I suddenly want to eat the wontons near our house and the oden near my school. I really want to eat them and can't wait any longer. Can you buy them for me?"
This was the first time that Gu Yang said what he wanted to eat since he was hospitalized. Of course, his father and mother would not refuse, and they were even very happy.
They discussed excitedly, one person went to buy wontons, the other went to buy oden, and they all left the ward quickly.
Gu Yang looked at the door of the ward that opened and closed, and lowered his head:
"I'm sorry, I don't want you to see me leave again."
The door of the ward, which had just been closed, was opened again and Fan Yuan walked in.
The two people looked at each other silently. Fan Yuan took off his white coat and put it on Gu Yang, picked him up, and quietly left the ward.
Fan Yuan took Gu Yang to the top floor of the hospital. He held Gu Yang in his arms and slowly walked to the edge of the top floor, looking up at the sky above his head.
"Gu Yang, do you like the sky?"
Gu Yang looked like a dying man, his eyes gradually becoming lifeless, but he still tilted his ear and listened carefully to what Fan Yuan said. When he heard Fan Yuan asking him a question, he slowly shook his head.
Fan Yuan held Gu Yang in his arms and stepped onto the protective wall of the rooftop. The protective wall was only about 20 centimeters wide. Fan Yuan stood on it holding Gu Yang. It seemed that a strong gust of wind could blow both of them away.
"Do you like clouds?" This time, Fan Yuan asked Gu Yang close to his ear.
Gu Yang still shook his head, not afraid that Fan Yuan would take him to such a dangerous place.
He just snuggled quietly in Fan Yuan's arms, holding the lapels of Fan Yuan's shirt with both hands, breathing weakly.
Fan Yuan raised his lips and asked Gu Yang again:
"So what do you like?"
Gu Yang opened his lips as if he wanted to speak, but only meaningless sounds came out. He didn't even have the strength to speak.
He just stubbornly tugged at the hand that was holding Fan Yuan's collar, as if to express his unspoken meaning:
The only one I like is you.
Fan Yuan slowly lowered his head and pressed his lips against Gu Yang's, feeling Gu Yang's slow and weak breathing.
"Gu Yang, I want you to go to the same university as me, live in the same city, live in the same house, sleep in the same bed, and finally... lie in the same cemetery."
"I want you to never leave me."
"Go to sleep, Gu Yang."
"Open your eyes and you will see me."
Gu Yang's lifeless eyes blinked slowly and finally closed.
The faint breath that had been sprayed on Fan Yuan's lips had disappeared, and Gu Yang's hands, which were grabbing Fan Yuan's collar, also dropped weakly.
Fan Yuan stood up holding Gu Yang, looking at the endless blue sky. He turned around, and with the lifeless Gu Yang in his arms, he faced the tall building with his back, took a step back, stepped on empty air, and fell down.
As the two people continued to fall, this dream world began to collapse and shatter from the corners, like inferior glass shattering and disappearing piece by piece.
Fan Yuan's Favorability:
60 points.
Gu Yang woke up to Fan Yuan's kiss. As soon as he opened his eyes, he met Fan Yuan's dark eyes.
What kind of black eyes are those
There is a fierce desire rolling inside, ferociousness, possession, longing and fighting.
Fan Yuan kissed him fiercely, and his black eyes were not closed during the kiss. He was looking at Gu Yang the whole time, staring at him intently, and there was even a hint of ferocity in his eyes.
For Gu Yang, reliving the last period of his life again was undoubtedly painful and torturous.
But for Fan Yuan, watching Gu Yang's departure with his own eyes, how could the torture he felt be less than that of Gu Yang
Gu Yang felt the pain in his mouth but did not resist. He just reached out and hugged Fan Yuan even tighter, very, very tightly.
When Fan Yuan was finally willing to let him go, Gu Yang immediately raised the corners of his mouth towards Fan Yuan, revealing the most obedient and dependent smile.
"Fan Yuan, I'm back, right in your arms."
"We are back."
Fan Yuan's favorability towards Gu Yang reached 60 points in the first spring when Gu Yang came into this world, after he experienced the seventh fairy tale golden finger and the fourth match.
For ordinary people, 60 points is enough to agree to never be separated and to sacrifice for each other in all their lives.
But this score is not enough for Gu Yang. He not only wants Fan Yuan's 60 points, he also wants Fan Yuan's 70 points, 80 points, 90 points, and up to 100 points.
He wanted Fan Yuan to be inseparable from him forever, and of course, he also couldn't be inseparable from Fan Yuan.
I can't live without it anymore.
They woke up from the dream world of the fourth matchstick without bringing out any special attribute settings.
But there have been some changes in the way the two people get along. The main change comes from the Taoist Couple Seal that blooms black flowers on their hearts.
They can sense each other's heartbeat and position through the Taoist Couple Seal. Fan Yuan seems to be more proficient in the use of the Taoist Couple Seal, so he can sense Gu Yang's position and even Gu Yang's occasional emotions in all directions.
After waking up from the dream, the two went to class as usual.
Zhuo Wan has taken a leave of absence, so the Chinese class will be temporarily taught by a teacher from another class.
At the end of the first class, Gu Yang handed the matchbox with two matches left to Fan Yuan.
He didn't even explain to Fan Yuan, he just said:
"You light the next match. I want to go to the world you subconsciously want."
Fan Yuan immediately guessed that the dream worlds they experienced were related to this match, and without even asking Gu Yang to say anything more, he asked directly:
"Five days later?"
Gu Yang was a little surprised. In the dream world of the fourth match, he knew that Fan Yuan had already discovered that he was not the original Gu Yang. Now that he found out that Fan Yuan had even guessed the rules of this dream world so accurately, he did not feel scared, but rather felt relieved.
From the beginning to the end, Fan Yuan's favorability was towards his appearance, towards Gu Yang.
Gu Yang watched Fan Yuan put away the matchbox, then he started reading again.
As soon as he opened the book, Fan Yuan pulled him over.
Fan Yuan wrote a sentence on Gu Yang's book and then pushed it back.
"From now on, every time you get a question wrong, you will accumulate 10 minutes."
Gu Yang was confused:
"What 10 minutes?"
Fan Yuan hooked his finger at Gu Yang, and Gu Yang turned his head and leaned one ear towards Fan Yuan. Then he heard Fan Yuan speaking the most embarrassing words in the most plain tone, close to his ear.
"After the college entrance examination..."
The students in Class 1 of Grade 3 discovered that a handwritten timer made of a notebook was suddenly placed on the desk of their class monitor Fan and Gu Yang.
At first they thought it was some kind of 100-day countdown to the college entrance exam, but it turned out to be a forward timer that accumulated minutes.
They watched as the timer went from 10 minutes to 10 hours in just a few days.
Gu Yang lowered his head, with his bangs hanging down to cover his eyes, and was holding a pen to correct the wrong questions on the test paper that Fan Yuan had just corrected.
There are a bunch of red crosses on the test paper, and at a glance, there are very few correct marks.
Fan Yuan picked up the notebook with the time written on it, turned another page, and wrote 840 minutes again, which was about thirteen and a half hours in total.
Putting the timekeeping notebook neatly in front of Gu Yang, Fan Yuan supported his chin, stopped studying, and just looked at Gu Yang for a while.
Being stared at by Fan Yuan's dark eyes, Gu Yang's hands were shaking a little nervously while he was writing.
He didn't notice that he had rewritten all the wrong questions correctly without any pause, and it didn't look like he didn't know how to do them at all.
Fan Yuan was not surprised at all. He just stretched out his hand, put his fingertips under the inside of the necklace that Gu Yang was wearing, pulled Gu Yang closer, and asked him softly:
"Gu Yang, do you want to die in my bed?"
Gu Yang avoided Fan Yuan's sight, his black hair dropped down, only one red ear was exposed facing Fan Yuan, he was still quibbling:
"W-What are you talking about! I didn't do anything wrong on purpose."
Fan Yuan loosened his fingertips that were hooked on the necklace, and with his backhand, he clasped the back of Gu Yang's neck and squeezed it gently.
"Gu Yang, I hope you don't regret it."
Gu Yang looked down at his paper which was covered with big red crosses. His fingertips nervously scratched the tabletop, still stubbornly saying:
“Who, who will regret it!”
When the time in the timebook reached 900 minutes, Fan Yuan lit the fifth match.
Gu Yang nestled in Fan Yuan's arms with great anticipation, and the two fell asleep together.
This time, they are about to come to the dream world that Fan Yuan subconsciously desires.
Everything is quiet in the dark night, and the magical fairy tale golden finger leads the two people to officially start a new round of dream world.
As soon as Gu Yang opened his eyes, he was shocked by the chaos in front of him.
He was dressed in pure white, elaborate attire similar to that of ancient Western emperors, with a diamond-studded crown on his head, and there was even a faint white halo emanating from his body.
Around him, countless people, also emitting a faint white light, were fleeing in all directions.
A man came over and pulled Gu Yang, and ran out with him, saying anxiously as he ran:
“Father God, you should run as well! We can’t stay in this God Realm anymore! That damned traitor has completely surrendered to the Dark God and is attacking us with him!”
Gu Yang staggered a few times and asked him:
"What traitor?"
When the man heard this, he turned around and looked at Gu Yang with a complaining look:
“Father God, if you hadn’t picked up that traitor, ignored our advice, loved him in every way, and given him every power, the temple wouldn’t have collapsed and the divine world wouldn’t have been shattered by the attack!”
"Look! Because the sacred tree was cut down, your divine power also disappeared. Now you only have a divine body, but you can't do anything."
The man pulled Gu Yang and ran two steps, but Gu Yang shook his hand off.
"You go first, I have something else to do."
The man turned around and glared at Gu Yang with disappointment. The respect and worship he once had for the Father God had disappeared completely after the God Realm was attacked repeatedly and became increasingly chaotic over the years.
“Father God! You still stubbornly believe in that traitor! Just wait for death in this collapsing God Realm!”
As he spoke, the man had already run far away, but Gu Yang was still wandering leisurely in this so-called divine realm.
The divine realm is now filled with broken walls and ruins, and the palaces that were supposed to be majestic have all been burned down. From the ruins, one can see how majestic and sacred the divine realm was originally.
There was a huge sound of fighting coming from below the divine realm. Gu Yang stood on the altar and watched the fighting below.
The contrast between the black and white camps is extremely obvious, and it can be seen that there are not many people left in the white camp.
Until a warm arm wrapped around Gu Yang's waist, and the crown on his head was taken off and thrown far away.
Gu Yang immediately grabbed the arm that was around him, turned around, and saw Fan Yuan in black.
"Fan Yuan!"
At this moment, strange black lines were drawn on one side of Fan Yuan's face, and his dark eyes looked at the battlefield below, with little emotion in them.
Only when he heard Gu Yang calling his name did he lower his head to look at Gu Yang, with a hint of warmth appearing in his black eyes.
"Gu Yang."
Fan Yuan leaned close to Gu Yang's ear and whispered about each other's identities.
"This time, you are my God."
"But I betrayed you. I destroyed your divine world, razed your palace, and imprisoned you forever."
This time, Gu Yang is the almighty God King, he cares about the world and is kind and loving.
He picked up a child from the dirt, brought him up, doted on him, and gave him power.
But as the child grew up, he gradually discovered that God the Father loved not only him, and that God the Father’s eyes were not only on him.
God the Father is merciful and loving. He loves this world, the flowers, trees, birds and fragrance in this world, and he loves every person in this world.
He is just a small one among those whom God the Father loves.
So he betrayed his Father God who trusted him the most.
He destroyed everything that God the Father loved with his own hands and deprived God the Father of his divine power. He wanted to lock God the Father in a world where he was the only one in the world, so that God the Father could only look at him, think about him, and love him alone.
This is the dream world created by Fan Yuan's subconscious mind. Gu Yang turned his back to the noisy battlefield below, wearing a noble divine robe, and jumped up childishly, jumped into Fan Yuan's arms, and wrapped his hands and feet around him.
Gu Yangcai is not some messy noble god king, he has no interest in the fighting on the battlefield below.
He didn't need any towering palaces or a broad-minded heart. He buried his cheek in Fan Yuan's neck and rubbed it hard.
"I'm not some messed up God King, Fan Yuan, you are my God."
After Gu Yang finished speaking, he couldn't help but complain about Fan Yuan's dream world.
"What kind of messed up dream world is this? It's worse than mine."
Fan Yuan did not say anything, but just hugged Gu Yang tightly, took him down from the altar, crossed the battlefield, and walked towards the cage he had prepared long ago to imprison the gods.
That was the perfect place he was determined to build, even if it meant making the world his enemy and bearing the crime of being a traitor.
He wanted to hide Gu Yang inside, even if it was only for the time of this dream.
Behind Fan Yuan, the road he walked on was stained with thick black air.
The black air was cold, evil, and eerie. It roared and swallowed the surroundings, but was eventually wrapped and blocked by the faint light that emanated from Gu Yang's body, and slowly became docile and obedient.
Gradually, the black air forgot its devouring instinct and only chased the white light, entangling and chasing it, and no longer had any interest in devouring the surroundings.
Welcome to Fan Yuan’s dream world.
The author has something to say: Gu Yang: I have a bad feeling.
Fan Yuan::)
Xiao Fan’s subconscious dream is not much better than Xiao Gu’s, they are both the same, picking their noses.
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