No matter how hard it is, whether he is willing or not, whether he remembers or not, she will fulfill her promise and save him from the last hopeless relationship.
(one)
On the day of Xia Mu's funeral, Dan Dan also went there, changed into a black coat, and went with Tang Xiaotian. That day, when he went out, the weather was too clear, with a breeze and white clouds, everything was so quiet and beautiful. When the car drove to the cemetery, Shan Shan Looking at the people outside the car window, they are still busy running in their own lives, some are anxious, some are leisurely, some have relaxed smiles, and some are tired. The living world is clearly in the Outside the car window, but she felt that it was far away.
Because the person next to her hadn't said a word for a long time. Shan Shan looked at him worriedly, he looked very refreshed today, he was still so handsome in a black windbreaker, but there was no expression on his face, his eyes were full of grief.
When the car stopped at the foot of the hill in the cemetery, it started to rain lightly. Tang Xiaotian didn't hold an umbrella, and walked forward in the rain. He only held an umbrella to catch up. A thin and haggard woman knelt there sluggishly, her hands stroking the cold tombstone inch by inch, and she seemed to be saying something to the person who had been sleeping here forever.
Tang Xiaotian stopped in his tracks, and he frowned tightly, as if his heart was about to break. Shan Shan handed the umbrella in his hand to Tang Xiaotian, Tang Xiaotian took it, walked over heavily step by step, walked to her side, covered her head with the umbrella, far away, Shan Shan in the rain, seemed to hear him whisper One sentence: "Yawang, you have to be strong."
Shan Shan lowered her head, wiped her tears sadly, and looked at the two people on the top of the mountain with red eyes. Shu Yawang didn't know what she said. Tang Xiaotian nodded, put the umbrella beside her, stepped back and slowly faced the tombstone. Slowly bowed three times, then turned and walked down the mountain.
He lowered his head slightly, the rain hit his hair, flowed down his forehead, and his cheeks, his eyes were red, but his back was still straight.
He walked to the foot of the mountain, but couldn't help but look back, the lonely figure of the man on the mountain, it was like a fatal wound, piercing his heart with hatred. Tang Xiaotian bent down slightly in pain, clenched his fists tightly, and hit the white tree at the foot of the mountain. He only took a step forward, trying to help him, but he heard him grit his teeth, and looked at him with a voice almost screaming. The tombstone on the mountain asked: "Xia Mu, why did you snatch her away but not give her happiness? You have won this life and the next life, you are such a bad boy."
"How can you leave her alone." Tang Xiaotian closed his eyes forcefully, as if the psychological sadness was almost unbearable for him.
Just stopping her pace and looking at them from a distance, she suddenly felt that it was their world, she couldn't get in, she could only stand outside, watching his sadness and sadness, but it couldn't help anything.
The rain kept falling, and the woman on the mountain had no intention of leaving. Tang Xiaotian stood at the bottom of the mountain and guarded, just watching, turned around silently, and walked down the mountain step by step.
The tears in the eyes and the rain fell down one after another. He can't see her anymore, he can't even remember her anymore, his eyes and heart are full of that person on the mountain, Dan Dan finally understands that a strong man like him doesn't need company at all, There is no need for her to save and protect.
Because his spirit is stronger than anyone else, even if he will be sad, but he will still live well, and will still love Shu Yawang with all his heart.
Just knowing that this disaster not only left Xia Mu, but also the only possibility for her and Tang Xiaotian.
Such a firm but sad back seems to have told her the answer in the strongest posture, that is, his heart will never let go of that person, that person named Shu Yawang, he can't let her be alone, sad alone, even if If he can't be by his side, he has to protect her from afar.
Shan Shan couldn't help crying, and looked back, Tang Xiaotian still maintained his original posture, looking at the people on the mountain, completely unaware that the girl who accompanied him had already left by herself.
Shan Shan sniffed her nose all the way, crying silently and walking home, her whole body was wet, and she didn't know whether it was because of the cold, or because of crying for too long, her whole body was shaking, she pushed open the door, took off the clothes that were completely wet Shoes, stepping on rain-soaked socks, clattering, walking back to the room step by step, leaving one wet footprint after another on the expensive floor along the way.
"Oh, Shan Shan, what's wrong with you! Change your clothes quickly, you're going to catch a cold." The aunt of the Shan family's helper hurriedly shouted nervously around her.
Shan Yi'an came out of the study, looked at the drowned Shan Shan, blinked and asked, "What's wrong?"
Shan Shan didn't speak, walked past him like a wandering spirit, left two footprints patteringly, walked up the stairs, and after walking a few steps, the soles of his feet slipped, and he fell down the stairs with a loud noise, Shan Yi'an hurried forward and squatted down nervously: "What's wrong? Did you fall there? Can you stand up?"
Shan Shan held back her mouth in pain, the whole morning's sadness mixed with pain made her unable to bear it any longer, she pulled the clothes on Shan Yi'an's chest, leaned against his chest, and burst into tears of grievance.
Shan Yian's heart was disturbed by her crying, but he hugged her skillfully, patted her back tenderly, put his chin on the top of her head, and held her in a very gentle but caring manner. Asked in a dangerous tone: "Little sister, stop crying, be good, tell brother, who bullied you?"
Shan Shan buried her head in his arms and cried, "Xia Mu is dead."
"Xia Mu? Who is it?" Shan Yi'an asked puzzled.
"Shu Yawang's boyfriend." Shan Shan sniffled.
Shan Yi'an was a little puzzled: "Then it's none of your business, it's not that your boyfriend died, why are you crying?"
"You don't understand!" Shan Shan patted Shan Yi'an's chest and said, "When her boyfriend dies, Tang Xiaotian will go back to find her! I have no chance!"
"Oh, that's how it is." Shan Yi'an finally understood Shan Shan's meaning: "Isn't this right? You should give up a long time ago. I really don't understand why you like someone who doesn't like you."
Shan Shan cried and yelled at him: "What do you know, when you fall in love with someone one day, you will know that this kind of thing is involuntary, you don't like whoever you want, and you don't like whoever you don't like. "
Shan Yi'an yawned: "Don't worry, there will never be such a day."
Shan Shan stared at him and said, "Bah. Let me tell you, the more categorically said such a person, the more he will be slapped in the face by Cupid."
"Cut." Shan Yi'an still had a face of disbelief and indifference.
At that time, he would never have thought that later on, he would really fall in love with someone who absolutely, absolutely, could not love.
"Okay, don't cry, go up and take a hot bath, change your clothes, don't catch a cold." Shan Yi'an pulled Shan Shan up from the floor.
Just standing still, she was still sad and confused, she didn't know what to do now, it seemed that she had lost the qualification to pursue him again.
Shan Yi'an took the towel handed over by the maid auntie, put it on Shan Dan's head, and while helping her wipe her hair, said: "If you like Tang Xiaotian so much, I will help you out. I will definitely be your husband. I will serve you forever."
Shan Shan quickly jumped up and objected: "No! You are not allowed to have Tang Xiaotian's bad idea!"
"Okay, okay, then get that woman named Shu Yawang away?" Shan Yi'an asked in a low voice.
"No! You are not allowed to do bad things!"
"Okay, okay, I can't do anything well." Shan Yi'an said helplessly, "I don't think you can't figure it out. It's been many years, and you haven't caught up with a man yet."
"It was all the fault of chasing him! It was all the fault of Qu Weiran! It was all the fault of him! Why did he kill Xia Mu for nothing! If he didn't want to live, why did he drag others to die with him! I hate him so much! I hate him so much! Blame him! Ruined so many people's happiness! I hate it!" Shan Shan cried childishly as he spoke.
"Okay, hate hate."
Shan Shan suddenly stopped crying, looked at Shan Yi'an and said, "Shan Yi'an, aren't you the best at bankrupting people! That Qu's Group! Help me get rid of him!"
Shan Yi'an smiled: "Okay, what's the problem?"
Shan Yi'an agreed very happily. Bringing down others is his favorite thing to do. Besides, this was ordered by his sister. He has already begun to form more than a dozen sets of plans to bring down the Qu family in his mind, ah, How to break them down? Really been waiting.
The smile on Shan Yi'an's face was sinister like a poisonous snake spitting out a letter, but the movements of his hands were still as gentle as before. He picked up a corner of the towel, raised his hand, and gently wiped away her tears: "Okay , little sister, don’t cry, brother promises to help you do it properly.”
Shan Shan nodded, hugged Shan Yi'an while crying, and rubbed her face against his chest. Now she liked this brother more and more.
It's great to feel like a family member. Someone coaxes her home and wipes her tears away. She thinks, this is why she has been chasing Tang Xiaotian for so many years.
Because no matter how rejected, how hurt, how not valued or loved by him outside, there is still a warm harbor to protect yourself.
(two)
Shan Yi didn't look for Tang Xiaotian for several weeks, she suddenly stopped in the state of actively chasing, the schoolwork was not stressful, the weather was getting colder and colder, she just stayed at home every day, curled up on the swing in her room On the sofa chair, shaking once and for a while, with a book in his hand, he seemed to be reading it, but he didn't seem to be reading it at the same time.
The phone rang and rang on the bedside table, and she didn't bother to answer it. She knew it wouldn't be him because she set a special ringtone for him. If it wasn't him, it wouldn't be important for other people to find her. It's over.
There was a knock on the door, and before she agreed, she opened the door and came in, glaring at her and saying, "Can you answer your phone, it's so noisy."
Shan Shan lazily said: "It's too far away, I'm too lazy to pick it up."
Shan Yi'an sneered, stepped forward, picked up Shan Shan's mobile phone and said, "In that case, I'll throw it away for you."
"Hey, don't." Shan Shan quickly jumped off the sofa bed, grabbed the phone, hid it behind him, and fell back onto Yuanyuan's swing bed.
"Don't you need your mobile phone? What are you grabbing?" Shan Yi'an mocked.
Shan Shan put one foot on the floor, kicked off and shook the sofa bed, and lazily argued: "I said I was too lazy to answer the phone, but I didn't say I don't use my mobile phone."
Shan Yi'an was too lazy to chat with her, he had a lot of things to deal with, and when he walked to the door, he turned around and said, "Mute me."
"Got it." Shan Shan lazily swiped open the phone, set it to silent, and took a look at who was looking for her today.
As a result, the three missed calls showed Mama Tang's mobile phone number, and she sat up excitedly, and immediately called back: "Hello, auntie."
"No, no, how could I have any objections to you." Shan Shan held the phone and quickly explained: "Hey, I was sleeping just now, and my phone was left in the living room, so I didn't hear it."
On the other side of the phone, Mama Tang's voice was still kind: "It's fine if you don't have an opinion. I think you haven't come to Auntie's house for dinner for a long time. Auntie misses you."
Shan Shan quickly said: "I've been busy with the thesis assigned by the teacher recently. I'm very busy, so I haven't had time to go out to see you."
"Then study is important. When you are free, you must come to eat."
"En, okay." Shan Shan agreed softly, she could hear the expectation in Tang's mother's voice, she knew that she might really miss her, if she wanted to visit her tonight, and eat with her, say something. But she hasn't adjusted her mentality yet, because if she wants to see her, she can't avoid the topic of Tang Xiaotian.
Shan Shan lay down, held the phone in her hand, turned to Tang Xiaotian's number, and looked at it number by number. She had already firmly remembered this number in her heart, but when she was really asked to call, she rarely There are very few of them.
Shan Shan turned over and thought, what is he doing now? Are you on duty, or are you looking for her
She wanted to know his news very much, but was afraid to know.
She sighed, walked down from the sofa bed, opened the closet, took a random set of clothes to put on, and combed her hair carefully. On the dressing table, the pearl earrings given by Tang Xiaotian lay there quietly. With today's white coat, but she didn't have the courage to wear it.
Shan Shan picked up his bag, said hello to Shan Yi'an, and drove his own little red car to Tang Xiaotian's house.
Yes, she couldn't stand herself anymore, it was just such a weak reason, such a weak call, she couldn't resist, and even ran away without thinking.
Just because, where, there is news about him, there is his taste, and it is more likely to see him again.
Enough is enough, she is so stupid that she can't stand it.
(three)
When Shan Shan arrived at Tang Xiaotian's house, it was just after five o'clock in the afternoon. She stopped by and bought some fruits and mother Tang's favorite stewed vegetables and roast duck, and went upstairs to knock on the door. The door opened after a while. Mother Tang was originally dim With an irrelevant face, he immediately smiled when he saw her: "Oh, Shan Shan, why are you here?"
"Didn't you say you missed me? I'll come here as fast as I can." Shan Shan smiled as brightly as before.
Tang's mother hurriedly welcomed her in, wiped her hands and said, "Little girl, don't call me, I haven't bought groceries yet."
"You don't need to buy it." Shan Shan picked up the stewed vegetables he bought along the way: "I brought you, your favorite roast duck and stewed vegetables."
"Hey, we are the most caring, most caring." Mother Tang couldn't help but hugged Shan Dan, looking reluctant to let go, and for some reason, her eyes turned a little red as she spoke, and she turned her back She went to wipe away her tears secretly: "Come on, come and sit down, Auntie will wash some fruit for you." Mother Tang took the things in Shan Shan's hand, pressed her on the sofa and finished, and went to the kitchen by herself to do some work After a while, a fruit plate was conjured up, and all the fruits on it were Shan Shan's favorite fruits.
"Auntie, don't always be so polite." Shan Dan took the fruit plate with a smile and put it aside. Mother Tang's eyes were red, and there were even tears, as if she had just cried.
"Auntie, what's the matter with you?" Shan Shan caring took her hand and asked, "Why are you crying? Uncle made you angry?"
"How could your uncle have the guts to make me angry? It's not my invincible son." Mother Tang wiped her tears and poured out to Shan Shan: "Since the Shu family's child came back, he has been running to other people's houses every day. , running every day! I didn’t dare to go in, just wandered around stupidly, you said that this compound is all in the same unit, who doesn’t know him, who doesn’t know what’s going on, it’s shameful.”
Shan Shan lowered his head, did not speak, and sighed.
Tang's mother continued to wipe her tears and said, "What's so good about that girl? I didn't see what's so good. I said a few words to him, but he was not happy!"
Shan Shan asked softly, "Did he talk back?"
Tang's mother shook her head: "It's fine if he wants to talk back. Just like his father, he doesn't let go of a single fart when he scolds for a long time, and he doesn't hide from hitting him. He just stands there stupidly."
"Oh, I'm so panicked, I'm almost dying." Mama Tang said, patting her heart.
Shan Shan patted Mother Tang on the back, helped her calm down, and persuaded her in a very gentle voice: "Auntie, don't think so, think about it, it would be great if brother Xiaotian could chase Shu Yawang back. Well. Being able to be together after such a long circle does not mean that they are really destined to be together."
"What fate! How can there be such a thing!" Tang's mother was like a mirror in her heart. If Tang Xiaotian had the ability to recover Shu Yawang, he wouldn't have waited so many years for nothing. Go in, but it's really over! Old Tang's family is truly unprecedented!
Well, let’s not talk about whether there are any offspring. There must be a wife. When the husband and wife die, there will be someone to accompany him, so that he won’t be alone in this world, with no relatives or reason, and die alone.
Every time Tang's mother thinks of this, she is so anxious that she can't sleep at night. Her only hope is the girl in front of her. She holds Shan Shan's hand tightly: "Shan Shan, Xiaotian is a little out of his mind, but you don't know how to do it. Don't give up."
Shan Shan lowered her head and smiled wryly: "Auntie, it's not as long as I don't give up. Brother Xiaotian, I really love her. No matter how hard I try, I can't separate them."
Yes, no one can break apart the deep bond between them, she can't break it apart, and neither can the dead young man, only sometimes I wonder if that young man knows, Even if it was possible, he would never get the girl he wanted, so he left.
Just thinking of this made me feel sad and helpless, but there was also a hint of blessing in his tone.
"Actually, it doesn't matter what, as long as brother Xiaotian is happy." Shan Shan raised his head with a smile, his smile was very forced.
Tang's mother muttered, "How can you be happy?"
"Happy, although we can't be together, we can still see her every day. Even if we are far away, we can still get news about her and know what she is doing. For Brother Xiaotian, this is enough." Shan Shan As she spoke, her eyes were red, she sniffed, wiped away her tears with a smile, and said to Mama Tang very strongly: "Although he still feels pain now, compared to before, the feeling of wanting to see but not being able to see , the situation of wanting to love but not being allowed is much better."
Tang's mother was a little anxious: "What's better, where is it better? I don't think it's good at all! Silly girl, after so many years, others don't know, don't I know? Your love for Xiaotian is better than Shu Ya Wang is tens of millions of times better! You child, don't be so talkative, go earn it, go grab it."
"Auntie, people's hearts cannot be earned or robbed. I have known this since I was very young." Shan Shan smiled again, and now she seems to have returned to the girl who lived alone in the United States. No matter what sad things she encounters, she can face them with a bright smile: "Auntie, I know you like me very much, even if I can't be your daughter-in-law, I will visit you often, you In my heart, it’s just like my mother.”
Shan Shan coquettishly held Tang's mother's hand: "Stop scolding brother Xiaotian all the time, let him go, do whatever makes him feel comfortable."
Tang's mother took a look at such a sensible Shan Shan, and she really wanted to push Tang Xiaotian into the cesspit, so that he would be smelly and hard together with the stones in the latrine! Such a nice girl, he doesn't want it! What a crime!
(Four)
In the evening, Shan Shan accompanied the Tang family couple after dinner, watched TV at his house, chatted with Tang's mother for a while, and stayed until 8:30, but Tang Xiaotian hadn't come back yet. Although she kept telling herself that she didn't deliberately wait He, however, knew very clearly that his heart was still longing to see him.
At nine o'clock, Shan Shan got up to say goodbye. Tang's mother reluctantly took her hand and asked her to come more often. Tang's father extinguished the cigarette in his hand: "Girl, uncle will take you home."
Shan Shan quickly refused, saying, "No need, I came by car."
After persuading the two elders to go back to the house, she went downstairs quickly and started her little red car. She has driven this way home countless times. She should walk straight to the gate of the compound. But today, after driving for a while, she turned left, parked the car under the shade of a tree, got out of the car, and walked forward for dozens of meters.
I heard that Shu Yawang's family lives in front...
Shan Shan didn't know why she came, but she walked forward uncontrollably. She wanted to see, wanted to see what he looked like while waiting.
Just downstairs of Shu Yawang's house, she went around a few times, but she couldn't find the person she wanted to see. She returned to the car, sat quietly for a while, and suddenly covered her face with her hands and smiled wryly, that was enough.
No one is more stupid than you Shan Shan, forget it, give it up, please.
Think about what my mother said, even if it makes her feel at ease, give up! give up! Please, Dan Shan, give up, don't do this again, don't live in such pain anymore!
I just said this to myself in my mind countless times, countless times.
She rubbed her face vigorously, and took out the key to Tang Xiaotian's dormitory from her bag. The eyes that were shining with happiness on weekdays were now full of dark shadows. She held the key in her hand vigorously, and then drove to Tang Xiaotian. to the dormitory.
At 9:30 p.m., the main entrance of the Public Security Bureau was closed. We just pushed the car outside and entered through the small gate. The guard knew the girl who came often, and let her in without stopping her.
Just bypassing the new administrative building and walking to the old dormitory building, I didn't meet anyone on the way. It seems that it's extraordinarily quiet here today. Shan Dan has been holding the bronze key tightly in his hand.
She wanted to use a little more force, to make that pain stay in her heart forever, to let her remember that she once, almost got the key to open his heart...
When Shan Shan walked up to the third floor, her steps became slower and heavier. This decision to give up really oppressed her, and she almost couldn't even lift her steps. She supported the pale wall and walked up step by step. , When I reached the door of his room, for the first time, I knocked on the door politely.
Just waited for a while, but there was no movement at the door. At the moment when she realized that he was not there, she was actually relieved, even a little excited, maybe because she could keep the key for a while longer.
Shan Shan knocked on his head vigorously, scolding himself for not being up to date, and wanted to turn around and leave, but found puffs of smoke coming out of the crack in the door of Tang Xiaotian's room
Shan Shan blinked, bent down to take a closer look, and found that it was really smoke! Could it be a fire inside
She quickly picked up the key, opened the door and looked, and was instantly stunned by the scene inside.
I saw that the small single dormitory was filled with thick smoke, and the lights were not turned on in the room, but only in the smoke, I saw Tang Xiaotian's figure. He was sitting on the floor with his head down. The flames, and the smoke in the room came out of the flames, and he coughed a few times just because of the smoke, but Tang Xiaotian didn't seem to feel anything at all, he still lowered his head, blowing the flames one by one. Throw things in the pile.
Because Shan Shan opened the door, the wind from outside came in, and the flames were blown everywhere. Shan Shan quickly closed the door, then ran over, and grabbed Tang Xiaotian: "What are you doing!"
Tang Xiaotian's body was full of the smell of alcohol, and there were still a few white wine bottles thrown at his feet. Without saying a word, he shook off Shan Shan's hand and continued to throw things into the brazier. Shan Shan finally saw clearly that it was a letter A letter sealed in a brown paper envelope, and the recipient on the envelope is written with a person's name, that is: Shu Yawang.
"Tang Xiaotian, you are enough! If you burn others again, you will think there is a fire!" Shan Shan grabbed Tang Xiaotian again.
Tang Xiaotian shook off her hand again, and only pulled him hard: "Don't burn it!"
Just looking at Tang Xiaotian who was unmoved, anxious and angry, he picked up the washbasin in the dormitory, took a basin of cold water, and poured down the basin of water facing Tang Xiaotian and the fire!
In the winter of January, even in the south, the temperature was more than ten degrees below zero. The fire was extinguished in an instant, and Tang Xiaotian stopped his movements. He just threw the iron basin, which spun on the ground and made a piercing sound of palm nuts.
"Are you crazy!" Shan Shan yelled angrily, "You actually burned something in the liquor pile! You want to die! Burn you to death! Bastard!"
"What are you doing! What are you doing, you!" Shan Shan slapped him on the shoulder in fear. She couldn't imagine that if she didn't come over tonight, the consequences might be really unimaginable. The liquor bottles all over the floor could be destroyed at any time. Start a terrible fire!
Tang Xiaotian slowly raised his head, his eyes were bloodshot, his brows were tightly furrowed, as if he was suppressing great pain, he didn't speak, just looked at Shan Shan like this.
But this look in her eyes alone was enough to break her heart. The decision to give up just now disappeared in an instant. She just squatted gently beside him, stretched out her hand, and held his arm. Wen Wen in a gentle and gentle voice: "Brother Xiaotian, what's wrong?"
Tang Xiaotian looked at Shan Dan, and said slowly in a hollow voice: "She told me not to look for her again. She returned all my letters to me, and she said she read all my letters, Six years, 1086 letters, she said she read them all."
When Tang Xiaotian said this, a tear fell from his eye socket, his voice became a little more excited, with a choked sob, he continued: "But she said that she had nothing but thanks after reading it. She said she was wrong She should have read these letters a long time ago, and then proved in front of Xia Mu that she doesn't love me at all. She said she can prove it now, but he is gone. "
Tang Xiaotian frowned, smiled wryly, tears slowly ran across his resolute cheeks, his hand waved in the air, and then fell weakly: "She proved in front of me that she doesn't love me at all, she is here I have proved in front of me that the relationship I have had with her for so many years has left no trace in her heart."
"It's all covered."
"It's all covered by Xia Mu." After Tang Xiaotian finished speaking, he closed his eyes forcefully: "Actually, I knew it a long time ago, but hearing her tell me so clearly, it hurts more than cutting my heart with a knife."
Just from the time when Tang Xiaotian shed his first tear, she has been crying with him. She has long forgotten the purpose of her coming here. In her eyes, only this man in front of her, this man who is usually strong, courageous, just and brave, is in his eyes. At this moment, hiding in this dark room, being hurt so deeply by the person he loves the most, it hurts so much.
Shan Shan exhausted all her strength and hugged Tang Xiaotian vigorously: "Xiaotian, Xiaotian, Tang Xiaotian! Don't cry! You forget her too, please, forget her too, and use someone else Anyone can cover her, not me, so you can cover her too."
"Don't cry." Shan Shan wept and said, "Brother Xiaotian, don't cry, I feel so bad..."
"I didn't cry. The man bleeds and doesn't shed tears, so I won't cry. It's just that you are crying."
"Well, I'm the one crying, I'm useless, I love crying the most."
That night, in Tang Xiaotian's single dormitory, the girl's crying lasted for a long time, and it didn't quiet down until late at night.
That night, Tang Xiaotian fell asleep on the floor. He couldn't move him, so he could only take the quilt down and cover him, and cleaned up the ashes and water stains on the ground. But most of them are soaked in water, just pick it up, wrap each one in a dry paper towel, absorb the water, and count, there are 12 left, just clip them with book pages, and put them carefully in the bag.
After tidying up the room, Shan Shan squatted down and looked at Tang Xiaotian who was sleeping soundly. Just watching like this, her heart was very calm, she didn't have any thoughts, but she knew very clearly that she would never give up on him in this life.
She will never give him up to that person who will only hurt his heart. No matter how hard it is, whether he is willing or not, remembers or not, she will fulfill her promise and save him from the last hopeless relationship.
(five)
When Shan Shan returned home, it was nearly 1 o'clock in the morning. She entered the living room directly through the small door in the garage. There was actually a floor lamp turned on in the living room. Shan Yi'an was sitting on the sofa, typing with a notebook in her hand. .
"Haven't slept yet?" Shan Shan asked strangely, this guy's biological clock was always on time.
"I'm sorting out materials for tomorrow's board meeting." Shan Yi'an was so busy that he didn't have time to look up.
"Oh." Shan Shan muttered, turned around and walked upstairs, thought for a while, then walked back suddenly, sat next to Shan Yi'an, without saying a word.
Shan Yi'an was busy for a while, and finally took the time to look at her, then turned his head to stare at the computer screen, his slender fingers fluttering on the keyboard: "What? You were bullied by your sweetheart again?"
"No." Shan Shan said sullenly.
"Like a rabbit without eyes?" Shan Yi'an moved closer to the computer, carefully looked at the pile of data on the screen, thought for a while and continued to dance with his fingers.
Just sitting on the side and not talking, just listening to his typing on the keyboard, looking at the busy Shan Yian, suddenly felt relieved and envious, look, how easy it is for a heartless person to live.
"It's okay, go to bed quickly, I'm busy, I don't have time to talk to you." Seeing that she didn't speak, Shan Yi'an urged her to go upstairs.
Shan Shan yawned, took off his shoes, nestled on the sofa and said, "I won't go, I'll stay here with you."
"Hmph." Shan Yi'an smiled, turned around and rubbed Shan Shan's head: "It seems that I was bullied a lot, and I can say this kind of words, you, you, can you be more successful, at least it's me Shan Yi'an's younger sister."
"I hate it! It's not good to be with you! Don't want me to go!" Shan Yi'an was so angry that he wanted to leave, Shan Yi'an grabbed her and said, "Go and make me a cup of coffee."
Shan Shan obediently made a cup of coffee for Shan Yian and served it, then nestled on the sofa again, listening to Shan Yian's typing, slowly fell asleep, in the middle of the night, she seemed to feel someone gently covering her The quilt, touched her hair, the movement was very light, but full of love.
Although Shan Shan took back those letters, she never read them. She felt that if she read those letters, she might not have the courage to chase after Tang Xiaotian. Fortunately, her biggest obstacle, Shu Yawang, actually decided to leave China and go to the United States. Go to the country she and her boyfriend agreed to go to, and see what it looks like.
Shan Shan thought to himself, it was just a place far away from relatives, lonely and dying.
Later, after nearly a year, Shan Shan only found out that Shu Yawang's trip abroad was not accidental, but Shan Yi'an contacted a garden company in the United States and invited Shu Yawang over there. With this thought, this opportunity came again, without even thinking about it, he took the bait of Shan Yi'an.
Just for this matter, she still found Shan Yi'an, and she asked him: "Why did you take Shu Yawang away?"
"Tsk tsk, it's not because you are so useless." Shan Yi'an said with a look of contempt for her, "I will be very annoyed if you come home crying every night."
Just stared at him without speaking.
Shan Yi'an put her chin in one hand and smiled: "If you don't want me to meddle in your affairs, I can get her back."
"Forget it, let her stay in America." Shan Shan replied without thinking.
"That's right, this is my sister. To be soft on the enemy is to be cruel to yourself." Shan Yi'an said with a smile, "Let me tell you, my dear little sister, after a year of hard work, I have followed your Qu's group went bankrupt due to his orders."
"Hey... Did I give you an order?" Shan Shan can't remember, did she say that
Shan Yi'an nodded vigorously, as if he was very happy to do this kind of thing for her.
Just say: "Okay, thank you then."
Shan Yi'an shook her finger: "Thank you, brother."
"Cut!" Shan Shan turned his head and left without yelling, although he had admitted in his heart that he was her closest person and her brother, but he couldn't yell out of his mouth.
Maybe... In a few years, a little more time, she will be able to call out easily.
(six)
Year after year, nothing seems to change, and everything seems to change. Tang Xiaotian was like a workaholic in the Public Security Bureau. He didn't go home once for ten days and a half months. He was so busy that he disappeared. After that crying, he seemed to have changed. Unseen, untouched by anyone, with a resolute expression and agility, he is fully armed.
But just knowing that there is a wound in his heart that is bleeding and festering all the time, and he... has completely given up on treatment.
Let the terrible illness pour into his body.
The relationship between them has changed back to the state where he has been hiding and she has been chasing. In fact, many times, Shan Shan also feels tired, too tired. But she didn't want to stop, she knew that besides loving him, she also didn't want to leave him alone...
When she was twenty-three years old, she was admitted to graduate school, and she still went to the Tang family to report every day after class. Like the youngest daughter of the Tang family, she chatted with her mother and played chess with her father. Her bright smile brought joy to the dull Tang family. color.
At the age of 24, Shan Yi'an expanded the scale of the company again, and established branches in five major cities in China. He spent half a month running outside, and his family often became deserted. Shan Shan often baked delicious cakes, biscuits, and even chicken legs at home, brought them to the bureau, and gave them to Tang Xiaotian's colleagues.
At the age of twenty-five, Shan Shan graduated from graduate school and once again rejected Shan Yi'an's invitation to let her join the company. She relied on her doctorate from the school. Shan Yi'an laughed at her and said: "If you go to higher education, you won't be able to get married!"
It doesn't matter if it's just or not, they still go their own way, go to Tang's house every day, or go to the bureau, everyone around Tang Xiaotian is used to this girl, they even treat her better than Tang Xiaotian, everyone thinks of ways to match Watching them, until one time, Tang Xiaotian threw away the cake that was just delivered in an outburst. The people around him no longer dared to say a word for Shan Shan, and it wasn't that they didn't dare to say it, because they felt sorry for the girl and didn't want her to suffer more embarrassment.
At the age of twenty-six, all the classmates around Shan Shan were already married and had children, and even Shan Yi'an was married and divorced in the same year, but she still hadn't even had a boyfriend, so she forced herself Running wildly on the road of the leftover women in other people's population. That year, Tang Xiaotian was alone, and Shan Shan was still alone. The number of times she went to him gradually decreased, but every time he rested, she would still appear in front of him with a smile, but her smile seemed more and more bitter. But his heart is still hard.
At the age of twenty-seven, Shan Shan graduated with a Ph. D. Shan Yi'an said, "See what else you can study?" Shan Shan had no books to read, so he took a large sum of money from Shan Yi'an, and opened a hot pot restaurant on the street. On the day the hot pot restaurant opened, Tang's parents and mothers all came to support him. Tang Xiaotian came late, but fortunately, When the whole family arrived, she served a large table of food for the Tang family alone, and ate with them. Mother Tang looked at the two of them at the dinner table, but couldn't do anything except sigh. holding hands alone. Just looking at her and smiling, his eyes were a little wet from the smoke from the hot pot.
Half a year later, Shan Yi'an looked at the hot pot restaurant that was in a mess with losses in the books, and wanted to scrap Shan Dan.
But that day alone, she called him brother for the first time, and she said, "Brother, I want to open an amusement park, please give me some money."
Shan Yi'an instantly broke the chopsticks in his hand, and said in a low voice, "Get out."
On her twenty-eighth birthday, it was rare for Shan Yian not to hold a birthday party for her. In Shan Yian's words, for the bosses in the business district, she was already old and no one wanted her. Without funds, there is naturally no need for a birthday party.
But Shan Shan put on a gorgeous red evening dress habitually, pulled up her waist-length hair, and carefully put on makeup for herself in front of the mirror, including foundation, eyeliner, eyelashes, sunburn, more than a dozen kinds The cosmetics applied her face thickly, like wearing a delicate mask, making her face so beautiful and noble.
Looking at herself in the mirror, she could no longer remember what she looked like when she was eighteen years old. She remembered that at that time, she had short hair that reached her ears, and her eyes were full of innocence and arrogance.
But now? In those eyes, there was only fatigue and stubbornness left.
Think about it, time flies so fast, ten years, from the age of eighteen to twenty-eight, she spent her most beautiful years chasing a man hard.
But he remains indifferent...