Su Chang left again, for the second time.
This time, Yu Zhou heard the intelligent female voice that said "door closed" very clearly because Su Chang did not slam the door.
Even when she left, she remembered to quietly pick up her coat and bag that she had left at the entrance.
It was like an ordinary day, the most inconspicuous farewell, just like when she went to work when they first lived together.
But Yu Zhou knew that she would never come back.
As mentioned before, Yu Zhou is a very self-reflective person, and as an author, she fully understands what Su Chang means.
What Su Chang cared about was that in every choice she made, she treated Su Chang as the one who could be abandoned at will.
She was attacked and her self-esteem was hit. She didn't think about facing it with Su Chang. Instead, she wanted to stay away from her every time.
It seemed as if Su Chang was the root of all the harm.
Su Chang’s mood is understandable, because she feels that those boring words are just sand in the eyes. They are very uncomfortable, will make people feel resentful, and even make people cry. But how can someone choose not to have eyes just because they don’t want to face this grain of sand
If Su Chang was her eyes.
The fact is, the eyes she cherished so much were never Su Chang. Su Chang was perhaps just a few eyelashes that she could pluck off at will.
But Su Chang treated her as his eyes.
She has always felt that there is a phrase that is extremely romantic: "you are the apple of my eye", which translates into Chinese as "you are the apple of my palm". Su Chang does not like this translation very much, because she feels that "the apple of the eye" seems to be more precious and can make people smile at the mere thought of it.
Yu Zhou was the apple of her eye, the light in her eyes, and later, he was her eyes.
It’s a pity that Su Chang has never been the one that Yu Zhou firmly chose.
So Su Chang's words almost convinced Yu Zhou.
She kept wondering if she didn't like Su Chang enough or love Su Chang enough. If she really loved Su Chang, why couldn't she muster up the courage to hold her hand
Why can't we always see the efforts Su Chang has made for her
Why do you always ignore Su Chang’s feelings
But her heart clearly told her that she was in so much pain that she was about to die. If it was not because of love, then what was the reason
She couldn't understand why she couldn't write about her own feelings well after writing nearly two million words. So she blindly thought that Su Chang was right and thought that she didn't like her enough. Maybe she should let her go.
This way everyone will be better off.
So she got up, took a shower, washed her hair, cooked some frozen dumplings, and then started mopping the floor. As she mopped, she thought, why not find a job? She attributed her current pretentiousness to being too idle. If she had a regular nine-to-five job, she probably wouldn't have the time to read those weird things.
If she could get money in real life, perhaps she would value the three-dimensional world more.
She suddenly felt that people who survive on the Internet are really amazing, because they don’t have a fixed financial transfer to their cards every month. Without this life-saving money, they can be pulled back from the virtual world to the living three-dimensional world time and time again.