He leaned close to her and picked her up from the ground. She was very light, as light as a cloud, she had no weight in her hands, and she didn't seem to feel it in her arms.
He hugged her all the way to the sofa, put her on the sofa, and covered her with his clothes.
She was not awakened, and she slept peacefully all the time.
Sometimes, he really wanted to ask, is it because she is too unaware of danger, or subconsciously believes that he will not harm her
If it is the former, how can he rest assured of her; if it is the latter, how can he give up her
"I'm going back tomorrow, and I will return to an unclear relationship. Maybe, I will never have a chance to spend a night with you like this again. But Xia Xia, am I sick? I thought, if I had such a chance, I must do everything possible to get you so that you can't leave me. But I actually didn't even have the courage to hug you..."
"How afraid to see your indifferent expression, how afraid to see your gritted teeth resenting me..."
"How scared, I will lose again, and then I can't find you."
"Some people say that people become fragile because they have things they want to protect. Probably I am like this too. Because I have things I want to cherish, so I have things that scare me, so I become Become weak, become fearful, become at a loss as to what to do..."
"Promise me, think about it? Think about what I said to you in Shilihongzhuang."
"Don't always rush to reject me, don't always rush to run away from me..."
"please… "
Mo Nianchen took a breath and leaned against the wall behind the sofa, lost in thought...
He did not realize that at this moment, Li Shengxia tightly held the corner of her own clothes, her body trembled slightly...
What did she hear
He said that he would be afraid of losing her.
In fact, she was no longer his, but he said he was afraid of losing her.
She wanted to cry, she wanted to open her eyes, she wanted to say a lot to him, but she didn't know what to say. She couldn’t persuade herself to open her eyes, she couldn’t persuade herself to talk to him...
She remembered so clearly that he looked at her mockingly at her engagement banquet, as if watching a stupid clown, and told her that they didn't even get a divorce. He also held the divorce agreement she submitted to the court...
At that time, she hated him a lot, not because she hated him for not divorcing her and binding her life. But hate him, always hurt her self-esteem with such a high attitude.
In fact, he is really learning.
Learning how to be gentle, learning how to love.
However, if you forgive him easily, then what is the pain that you have experienced in the past five years? What is the kind of hysteria five years ago, wandering on the edge of death, and the dark years
I really want to forgive him...
But, can’t forgive him...
Can't forgive him for letting go of her hand easily after getting it, leaving her behind, coldly and without looking back...
Too cruel.
He said he was afraid, why is she not afraid...
She was not afraid to do it again, and the result was the same.
He said he was afraid of losing her.
Why is she not afraid to love him again and lose him again...
Because she was too afraid of losing like that, she didn't even have the courage to get it again.
Even if he was walking around, even if he asked her to accept him again.
But the heart that has been hurt can't say that it has forgotten.
The long and long pain awakened in her heart.
She tried too many times, too many times, so this time, she couldn't persuade herself to take that step anyway...
Like the end of hell, she no longer has the courage to do it again...
'Mo Nianchen, do you really love me? '
'But even so, you will still let go of my hand, or you will leave me one day, and there is still no way to give me trust and company...'
'How can I repeat the same mistakes, how can I return to you...'
'I really love you time and time again, every time I see you, I can't help but fall in love with you once. I always forget the injuries I have suffered, the stupid things I have done, I love you again and again, and my body is wounded again and again. I’ve tried so many times... Every time the ending is the same... '
'It's the same every time...'
'Still, don't try again. '
'I've loved you for so many years, if I love you again, I am afraid it will not end differently...'
But my heart is so chaotic, so chaotic... It seems that no matter how I organize it, I can't calm my mood at this time...
*
The next day, dawn...
Li Shengxia woke up from his sleep and found that he was still asleep on the sofa. Mo Nianchen leaned aside and was suddenly awakened by a phone ringing...
"Hey?"
"Hey, Achen, did you have,'Uh-huh' last night, that feels good?"
Mo Nianchen heard Ouyang's voice and said coldly, "I don't know how good it is!!!"
"So fierce!?" Ouyang smiled: "I will help you today. You must remember my kindness. One day, I will ask you to pay it back."
Mo Nianchen snorted coldly, "Don't worry, I will remember it clearly."
"..." Ouyang felt that his voice was a little weird, and he couldn't help but sweat, "Don't tell me, you didn't do anything? Achen! I gave you all the opportunity, you should take it well! I just said it was like you. How can a man catch up with a woman? No wonder it has been so many years in midsummer, but you still haven't caught up with you!"
"You continue talking."
"Of course I have to say it! You are really mad at me. You are wasting the time and place, and you want to die me in a hurry."
"You think everyone is just like you!?"
"That's a hundred times better than this bastard who is inferior to a beast! At least the women I chase can fill in a sea."
"Yeah, and then drowned them all." Mo Nianchen ignored Ouyang's continued complaints and coldly choked off the phone.
Three seconds later, his cell phone rang again.
"You call me again and be careful that I killed all lines in your house."
"..." The other party paused weakly before saying: "Hello, are you the prince!?"
Not Ouyang!
"Who are you!?"
"Yes, it's like this... The patient you arranged in our hospital is in very good condition this morning and has already begun to slowly move on his own. Do you have time to meet him? He seems to miss his relatives very much..."
A hint of joy suddenly appeared on Mo Nianchen's face, "I will pass now!"
Mo Nianchen cut off the phone, walked to Li Shengxia, patted her cheek, "Wake up."
"Um... Why slap me in the face early in the morning!" Li Shengxia wanted to continue pretending to sleep and avoid the embarrassment of being alone with him, who knew he would wake her up like this.