Because of Mo Nianchen, all because of him, she didn't have the joy that she should have. She thought she could live very well without Mo Nianchen, but the facts proved that this was not the case at all.
She left him five years ago and walked unrestrainedly. She thought she could live well, but in fact she had never walked out of the shadow he gave her.
It's the same now. She left him thinking that she could do well, live well, and deal with it well, but in fact it is not the case at all.
When she sees him again, she will still panic, still feel distressed, and still can’t let go...
She held the phone for a long time, and repeatedly searched through the contact list.
Every time she jumped to the'husband', her fingers would subconsciously stop, she wanted to press the dial, and then desperately quit before then, repeating...
Not knowing how long it took, she finally selected a contact and decided to send a message.
"Are you still angry with me? Don’t you think it’s unreasonable to make trouble? Me and Yin Tangyi really have nothing to do. Last time I and him just accidentally ran into him. He insisted on sending me home. I refused him and the ring fell. In his car, I didn’t want to make you angry, so I concealed you. Today is just a coincidence, I know it’s hard for you to believe it, but..."
When Li Shengxia wrote, she couldn't write any further, so she deleted all of them.
Her explanation was too pale, he wouldn't believe it anyway. Maybe it will only make him think about it again, even more angry.
Rewrite.
"Are you still angry with me? I really have nothing to do with him. I just happened to meet him today. I didn't mean to say that to you. I just don't want anyone to get hurt because of me. I see you fighting like that, I was really scared, so I would say something like that..."
Or not-
Don't mention Yin Tangyi!
She thought about it and deleted it again.
"I apologize for what I said today, can you treat it as if it didn't happen?"
no.
"Does the contract continue? If it doesn't continue, let's discuss the termination of the contract?"
Or not.
"Mo Nianchen, let's talk?"
Delete.
"Mo Nianchen, are you asleep?"
Delete.
"Mo Nianchen, I'm sorry today."
Delete.
—Mo Nianchen, do you know that I want to talk to you, but I don't even know what kind of prologue to use.
Are you ok? Are you OK
Are you really hurt because of me
What are you going to do next? Want to torture me, ruin me? Or let me go
Why don't you do anything? Won't you torture me? Don't come to ruin me? Not to deal with the Lai Group? Don't call me, as if the world has evaporated, isn't it weird
People who have been entangled all the time, suddenly doing nothing one day will make people feel very scared, do you know
I will be afraid of you really, really, hurt...
Li Shengxia looked at the name of the contact.
husband…
husband…
She opened her mouth, trying to yell these two words, but found that it was more difficult than reaching the sky.
I have imagined what kind of person I will marry one day, and the object of my fantasy is that person...
Now that his dreams come true, everything is completely different from what he imagined when he was sixteen.
I also hoped that my child would have the surname Mo. I also hoped that the person I liked would become a'husband'.
How much hope has finally become what it is now.
Mo Nianchen, what kind of mood did he use to memorize his number as these two words and save it on her mobile phone...
She wanted to know, but she couldn't guess no matter how hard she tried.
Because he has never been smarter than her.
Several hours have passed, and she has never been able to knit a text message completely.
Finally gave up.
She had already said she hated him just now, and she couldn't speak to him first anyway.
She knew that the words she blurted out at that time were very hurtful, maybe it really hurt his proud self-esteem.
She knows how much language can hurt others. She has been stabbed like this by Mo Nianchen more than once, so she understands the weight of what she said today. That's why she feels restless and tossing.
But in a flash, she thought again. Perhaps the reason why he appeared at the entrance of the lounge just now was just passing by? She couldn't pretend to be passionate about putting the reason for his presence there on her.
Otherwise, if she thinks too much about one, her position in his heart will become even more embarrassing.
She had been in a low voice for long enough, and she always felt that if she gave in again this time, she would have to suffer for a long time.
Look, he didn't call her at all, he didn't have any information, he didn't have anything, and he didn't let anyone contact her. So, she can't even call him.
She couldn't guess what he was thinking, and she didn't know what he would do in the next second. When she thought of her, she would be confused.
Li Shengxia, you have enough. He didn't even contact you, so what do you contact him first? Doesn't he hurt you, touch the people around you, or ruin you, will you feel uncomfortable instead
Do you want to go back to his side and make his toys again
Do you want him to laugh at you and despise you again
You are humble enough. You are just his toy. The owner may pick it up again after throwing it away, but why should the toy go to the owner by himself
Enough. Whether you hate him or not, it's enough.
Maybe it's better to lose contact just like this. Gradually, she never contacted anymore, maybe she would be healed again...
Thinking of this, she put her phone aside in a daze.
My head hurts...
I don't remember when I fell asleep, "Snee--" She sneezed.
Because of taking cold medicine, she finally fell asleep tonight.
*
The next day, because of a cold, Li Shengxia still felt groggy when he went to work.
But the company is still the same uneasy, even seems to be worse than before
"Look at her, she's back to work again."
"It's her, she didn't know what method she used to drive away Sister Dan."
"Designer Jane is a world-class designer. Without her, our design department has lost a pillar. Li Shengxia is a fledgling little girl. Does she think that Jane's designer can be replaced by her?"
"That's right, isn't it that I won a design award in a small clothing exhibition, and I dare to be so dazzling, and I will pay it back in the future."
"That's right, I was so dragged when I first debuted, it was disgusting. After others hear her name, they won't have to take a detour."
The strange eyes of colleagues, as well as occasional whispers and occasional loud contempt, were deliberately ignored by Li Shengxia.
It seems that she wants to do what she likes in the design department, it seems more difficult than she thinks.