After the military doctor left, He Ruojin dismissed everyone and sat alone in front of the bed, lowering his head in silence and breathing slowly. He could clearly feel the unprecedented pain that was compressing his entire heart and lungs. He closed his eyes for a while, then slowly opened them.
He Ruojin seemed to have used a lot of effort to muster up the courage. He stretched out his hand and gently held Lin Banxia's soft and weak hand. He pressed the back of her hand with his fingertips and slowly pulled her cuffs. He slowly lifted it up, and then the movement slowly stopped.
He saw several shocking cuts under his wrists, staggered in depth and depth, some of which had not even scabbed.
He remembered that when Lin Banxia married him, she carefully listed her advantages with him. Her hands were proficient in music, chess, calligraphy and painting. He had seen her write, and the way she held the pen and wrote was indeed very beautiful.
It could be seen that Lin Banxia had always cherished her hands very much, so he had always seen her slender fingers. He had also held her fingers and knew that her fingers were white and tender, without any calluses.
But in order to die, Lin Banxia made several scars on her hands, as if she didn't care at all that there would be scars on her hands...
He Ruochen looked at her hand for a long time, finally recovered, opened the ointment left by the military doctor, and applied it to her carefully.
His heart was very confused, and his whole head was very hot, but he still did this seriously. But after bandaging her wound, he looked at Lin Banxia's pale and quiet little face, and felt that There was a sharp pain in my heart.
what's the function…
Even if he erased all the scars on her body, what about the scars on Lin Banxia's heart
The trauma he brought to her has long been countless...
If before the expedition, he still hoped that Lin Banxia would one day be able to forgive her, then this time, how could he have the face to beg her for forgiveness when he hurt her so badly
He Ruojin stayed by the bed for a whole day, until it got dark and Luo Yi called him outside. He Ruojin seemed to come to his senses. He looked at the person on the bed, then got up and walked out after a moment.
"Ruo Jin, can you have something to eat?" Luo Yi saw He Ruo Jin coming out with a very bad expression. He didn't think much about it at the time. He just assumed that He Ruo Jin was feeling uncomfortable because of Lin Banxia's affairs, so he advised him He said, "Don't think too much, the military doctor didn't say anything to death. Besides, the North Country is so big, there will definitely be a miracle doctor who can cure the young lady's leg."
He Ruojin looked gloomily into the vast white distance. At the end of the sky was a gray and gray patch of white, and the sad and cold sound of wind and snow could be heard in her ears.
He stared at the distant horizon for a long time, and then said slowly and seriously: "When I was in Beicheng, every time I asked her if her legs were better? She always said yes, so I really thought that she was slow. Getting better slowly."
Then the military doctor gave him a blow to the head and told him that Lin Banxia's leg was broken this time and would never recover.
Frost and snow rushed towards his face, and he narrowed his eyes harshly.
He suddenly remembered that a long time ago, when Lin Banxia was still willing to call him husband, she was always waiting for him silently. She was either standing outside the academy or standing in the mansion, her posture was gentle and well-behaved, She was always... waiting for him alone.
Every time she waited for him, she would never complain to him, saying how long she had been waiting for him.
(End of chapter)