Her lowered eyelashes were trembling slightly, but she still tried to calm herself down and said, "I'll change it myself."
But he stared at Lin Banxia, and said slowly and seriously: "Banxia, during the time you were unconscious, I looked at the wounds on your wrists every day. I could even count the wounds on your wrists. superior… "
However, before He Ruojin finished speaking, Lin Banxia abruptly interrupted him, "General, stop talking."
She tried hard to suppress the trembling in her voice. Her voice was very low, as if it was going to sink into the dust. "Please."
She didn't want to hear it, didn't want to know at all.
Lin Banxia didn't really care about anything. She had her own self-esteem. She was not willing to listen to him tell her in detail how many wounds there were on her wrist and how shockingly ugly they were.
She didn't want to at all.
He Ruojin seemed to be silent, holding her slightly trembling hand, and after a while, she whispered: "Panxia, it's okay, I don't think it's ugly at all."
"General, I care." Lin Banxia said with her eyes closed.
Lin Banxia could bear the severity of her injuries. It didn't matter how serious they were. She could lick the wounds silently and secretly by herself.
But the injury on her wrist was evidence that her unreserved love had been shattered to pieces. She couldn't hold on to anything, but she still tried to hold on to this last bit of self-esteem. At least... don't let him see her wrist in front of him. Don't see the scars on his eyes, don't see the pity in his eyes, let alone see the other emotions in his eyes.
For her, Lin Banxia, that was just adding insult to injury.
She is such a person, she can swallow all the pain without complaining, because from beginning to end, the pain was caused by herself, but now she just wants a little dignity.
So she held his hand down, preventing him from uncovering it.
Even though she knew very well in her heart, no one would be affected if she exposed it or not, so she was just trying to comfort herself.
He Ruojin finally let go of her hand and said okay slowly.
He Ruochen stood up and asked Lin Banxia to have a good rest before he stood up and left.
The sound of wind and snow outside was raging on his ears and temples. When he wanted to jump on his horse, the soles of his feet trembled with coldness, and he fell down to the cold ground outside the courtyard. He held down half of his foot that was hurt by the fall, and felt violently He coughed twice, licked his teeth slowly and tasted the sweet taste of blood.
He Ruochen squinted his eyes and looked at the other end of the street. There was a tea shop where the hot mist curled up, covering the condensed point in his eyes.
He Ruojin finally raised his finger to wipe the corners of his lips, then lowered his head and saw the deep red blood on his finger.
He Ruojin stared at the blood on his fingertips until the snowflakes fell and covered his fingertips. He rubbed the blood away with white snow, supported the cold courtyard wall, and slowly stood up from the ground.
He didn't seem to give up, so he got on the horse again, fell off again, tried his best again, and finally got on the horse this time.
When he held the riding crop, his fingers that were red from the cold were trembling slightly.
He Ruochen's eyes were very red, but she forced herself to calm down.
He went to the market. He didn't know what Lin Banxia would like, but he still bought her a lot of cold-proof items that she would need on her way back.
When passing by a jewelry store, I stared at the name of the store for a long time, and slowly remembered something.
(End of chapter)