When Xie Xingshen came over, Lu Mingshu was sitting on the roof drinking alone.
"Hey, it's so rare! You actually drank secretly by yourself!" Xie Xingchen got out from behind, snatched the bottle in her hand, took a sip, and then said to himself, "I didn't smell it, I don't think so, As soon as you smell the wine, the worms come out."
Back then, when he entered and exited the Ming River, in order to resist the fog on the Ming River, he developed the habit of drinking. Later, because she didn't like it, it took a lot of work to quit drinking.
I haven't touched wine for many years, and I suddenly smelled the aroma of wine, and I couldn't help it.
The wine was taken away, and Lu Mingshu didn't intend to take it back, but just leaned back and looked at the sky.
"It's so hard, relying on me!" Xie Xingshen moved her position spontaneously.
Lu Mingshu just glanced at him and said nothing.
If there is no rejection, it means acquiescence, Xie Xing smiled and was in a very good mood.
"Drinking alone, what's on your mind?" He played with her long hair that fell down.
"Um."
Xie Xing was surprised, she was willing to open her heart to him
"What are you thinking?" He couldn't hide his excitement in his tone.
Lu Mingshu looked at the stars for a long time, and said slowly, "I'm recalling the past."
"Past? What happened?"
Lu Mingshu stopped answering. She closed her eyes, feeling the night breeze in her ears, and it took a while before she spoke: "Fu Mingxi saw her son."
"So?" Xie Xing Shen's heart moved, and he lowered his voice, "Does it mean that Yue Lingyin and Fu Mingxi both have children and want to have children? Don't worry, I will make your wish come true—ouch!"
Lu Mingshu withdrew his hand and continued: "It's a perfect ending, isn't it? Zhou Miaoru is dead, and Fu Shangqing is now a bereaved dog. Fu Mingxi has come to his senses, and Fu Mingtang has escaped from the mud pit. Everyone has their own place."
"But you don't seem happy?"
"I can't say I'm unhappy." Her voice was a little low, as if she was talking to herself, "The nightmare that kept me awake at night when I was young was finally broken by me myself, and everything returned to its original position. But..."
"Um?"
"I think back then, I tried my best to break free from the net of sophistication. I didn't want to be bound by the rules, and I didn't want to be a victim. Why did I have the strength, but I was predestined by someone in power long ago? The Tianmen Controversy That’s right, so is the Qilin Society.”
She withdrew her distant gaze and fell on Xie Xingshen's face: "I still remember that you deliberately defeated my belief with words at that time. You asked me why I had to be like this, walking alone in a thousand mountains, going forward indomitable."
Speaking of the past, Xie Xingshen felt a little ashamed. At that time, his only hobby was to play with people's hearts. Her arrival was like entering a fresh fish in a stagnant pond, making him eager to try it—what a toy!
"You know, I did it on purpose."
Lu Mingshu didn't seem to hear it: "Actually, what you said is correct. At that time, I had nothing but myself, so I could only fight hard with my own courage. The world is full of malice, and a web called rules , Catch everyone. Others think that wherever you should be, you should stay there obediently."
"Later, the situation got better and better. The princess let go, and you didn't force her anymore, and I even gained a few more friends." She closed her eyes, recalling those years.
"Returning from Beiming, life is getting better and better. I have enough strength to protect the people I value, and I can also take revenge on the enemy openly, and even clear the Lu family from the stigma. My reputation is getting bigger and bigger. The right to speak is getting higher and higher. No one dares to take it seriously. So, I also became the rule maker.”
Listening to her soft voice and saying these words, Xie Xingshen's memory also returned to that time.
At that time in Feixian Palace, they often fought wits, trying to overwhelm each other. Lu Mingshu once said sarcastically, those of you who are in positions of power think that you are giving others a chance to make progress, but in fact, you have charted a path. Only by becoming an excellent person recognized by them can they be qualified to make progress.
She said lightly: "Look, how popular we are when we go back to Guxia now? Grandmaster Dongxu greeted us personally, and powerful figures from various factions visited. All this is not because I have broken away from the rules, but because I have obtained the peak status. "
"So?" Xie Xing asked dryly. He found that he couldn't laugh, and even he couldn't come up with a definite answer to the questions she was thinking about.
"I'm very scared. Over the years, I've been afraid that if I climbed up, I would draw a path for others just like those who oppressed me back then, and those who didn't follow the rules would be eliminated and become losers."
"..."
"Power is fascinating." She said softly, looking at the outstretched hands, which were white and thin, and it was impossible to see how strong the master possessed. "Turn your hands into clouds, turn your hands into rain, as long as you are alone Thinking about it is a life-or-death decision for others. This feeling is too scary, and I am afraid that I will be obsessed."
Xie Xingchen gently held her hand, and replied in a low voice: "But haven't you always tried your best to be kind? I have never seen a person who is as self-controlled as you. Facing people and things."
"Because I don't dare to let myself relax, I would rather soften my heart than become the person I hated." Lu Mingshu turned around, pressed his hand, and looked directly into his eyes, "I know your creed in life, and I It's completely different. But since we want to be together, we should coordinate and synchronize. I try to understand you, can you restrain yourself like this?"
…
The next day, Lu Mingshu went to visit the Queen Mother alone.
I haven't seen you for more than 20 years, and the appearance of the Queen Mother is the same as before.
Gossip with her kindly and care about her sincerely.
Compared with the princess of Zhongzhou who showed her sharpness when we first met, the current queen mother is like a kind elder.
Shi Yu has married a concubine and had a son, and has become the real king of Zhongzhou who promises everything.
But the Queen Mother did not retreat into the background. She was injured that year and missed the critical opportunity. The possibility of her cultivation base improving is very small, but it is far from the end of her life.
For a woman who used to have a lot to do, idleness is scary. Therefore, the affairs of Xuanmeng are almost all handled by the Queen Mother.
After Lu Mingshu finished talking with her, he met Yue Lingyin, Wei Chunqiu, and Kou Wei who happened to be stationed in Zhongzhou.
Then, she entrusted Fu Mingxi's matter to Xie Xingchen, and set off for Jiuyao Mountain by herself.
After the honest talk that night, they needed time to think.
Lu Mingshu didn't ask him to make a decision. They have gone through so much wind and rain together, and it would be too hypocritical to refuse.
She asked Xie Xingshen to restrain the malice in her heart, and she also tried to enter his inner world.
Being together is not a simple sentence, but an action. Don't talk about spiritual resonance, at least we must reach an agreement, right