"How can you tolerate these sparrows?" Lin Haihai asked with lingering fear.
"Did you know? My country is a small country with a population of only 300,000, but it is a battleground for every country. Because our country's terrain connects east and west, if you want to attack other countries, you must use our country. In other words, it is a borrowed road. In fact, it was an invasion. My father was afraid that our territory would be invaded by an ambitious country sooner or later, so he married me into the Daxing Dynasty early and sought protection through marriage," the queen said quietly.
"So you can't lose your position as queen, because once you are the queen of the Daxing Dynasty, other countries will not dare to act rashly!" Lin Haihai said clearly.
"This palace is like a cage. If you had a choice, who would want to be trapped here?" The queen forced a smile that was uglier than crying.
"That's why you agreed to be my technical advisor, because you can travel around the world!" Lin Haihai said with a smile.
"Of course, the emperor has given me permission to leave the palace. From now on, I don't have to look at the fake faces of those women. I will leave the palace very early in the future and then return to the palace at the time of the lantern lighting. You have to take care of me!" the queen said with a smile. .
"Of course, you are our master, and the people below will rely on you to teach them skills!" Lin Haihai nodded vigorously.
The two walked talking and laughing, and unknowingly reached the garden. Lin Haihai looked at the queen and hesitated, and the queen asked: "What are you talking about?"
Lin Haihai thought for a while and asked: "Of the concubines just now, was Concubine Li the most favored by the emperor?" In fact, she shouldn't ask such a question, but she couldn't control her emotions.
"Can I call you Haihai?" the queen said softly.
"Well, of course!"
"Do you like the emperor?" the queen asked in a low voice, worry flashing in her eyes.
Lin Haihai raised his head and looked at the queen, his head was pounding! Does she like him? Lin Haihai turned his head in embarrassment and said, "Nothing!"
"It's really good if you don't have one. You know, you are the sixth princess and it is impossible for you!" the queen said sincerely.
"I know, I never thought about it, really, I never thought about it!" Lin Haihai explained, the bitterness in her heart made her overwhelmed.
"Well, I believe you. I know you don't think so, but if you really think so, you have to kill me with a sword immediately, because this matter is related to the reputation of the royal family, and women's lives are very cheap. In any case, you will always be the one who is sacrificed!" The queen's voice was full of sadness, as if she had experienced it before!
"Have you encountered anything before?" Lin Haihai could hear the sorrow in her words.
"Why do you ask that?" The queen lowered her head and picked off the dead leaves of the osmanthus tree. It was not the blooming season of the osmanthus, but the queen still took care of it carefully.
"Feeling! My feeling tells me that there must be a sad story in your heart!" Lin Haihai's eyes were distant, as if he was guessing the queen's story, and as if he was tasting his own bitterness.
The queen stopped what she was doing, walked up to the mandala, and asked, "What do you mean by the flower language of these flowers?"
Lin Haihai took a look and saw that there were several kinds of mandala here. She knew that each flower of different colors had different flower meanings. When she saw the queen's eyes fixed on the black mandala, she said: "Black mandala, It refers to unpredictable darkness, death, and wandering love. This is desperate love. Why would you plant desperate love here?"
The queen stared at her closely, with sparks igniting and extinguishing in her eyes. She sighed heavily, and then fell into memories. Her low voice seemed to slowly overflow: "I was eight years old that year. The first time I saw Wenxuan at the Hundred Flowers Banquet, he was two years older than me. He was the adopted son of my father. He was full of knowledge at a young age. My father called all our brothers and sisters to us and said, Wenxuan will be yours from now on. Brothers, you should treat him like a family member, and no one can bully him! In fact, none of us will bully him, because in addition to being knowledgeable, he is also polite and respectful to his father, emperor and mother, and he is humble and studious! We all like him!" The queen's face was covered with light, and Lin Haihai had never seen such a sweet expression on her.
"I think I fell in love with him from the day I met him. He likes to take care of flowers and plants very much, and it has reached the point of obsession. In order to cater to his interests, I started to learn to plant and grow flowers from him. I felt that he also He liked me, but he asked me to wait until I was sixteen to confess his love to me! I had a wonderful time with him. But I was not the only one who fell in love with him, there was also his sister who was one year younger than me. Wenxuan and I agreed in the imperial garden, and then went back to instigate Concubine Hui to advise the father about her mother-in-law and send me to the Daxing Dynasty for marriage. For the sake of the country's stability, the father had no choice but to accept Concubine Hui's opinion!
In order to beg his father to take back his life, Wen Xuan knelt outside the palace gate for three days and nights in the heavy snow. I was put under house arrest by my father in the palace. Only my maid, Xiaoman, passed me many news about Wen Xuan from the window. My heart is like a knife, but I can't do anything about it. I want to commit suicide, but I can't let go of the propaganda!
The imperial sister came to see me. She told Wenxuan that he was dying from the cold, but she still refused to get up and crawled in the snow. If this continues, your life will be in danger!
The imperial sister asked me to write a letter to Wenxuan, urging him to let go and find another chance to meet again in the future. But I know that he and I will never see each other again. Wenxuan received my letter. He ordered someone to send me a black mandala and a letter, which only said: Unpredictable darkness!
On the day I got married, Wen Xuan followed the wedding procession to the border between the two countries. I met him from a distance during a break. He was wearing black clothes with flying skirts. From a distance, he looked like a black mandala! That was the last time I saw him, and I couldn't even see the expression on his face clearly.
Two years after I got married here, I received a letter from the imperial sister. The letter said that Wenxuan jumped off the red Datura Mountain the day after I got married. There were mountains of Datura blooming there. The terrain is dangerous and steep. How can you survive if you jump? I wanted to go with him, but I had already given birth to Tingchu by then, and I couldn't let go of my baby! "The queen covered her face and cried bitterly, and her trembling shoulders revealed her sorrowful mood. With the safety of the country at stake, her lover died, but she was still alive. What a sad thing it was!
Lin Haihai's eyes were moist. She gently patted the queen's shoulder and said, "Cry, just cry!"
"I have never cried. He left and took my heart with him. My heart has always been missing, numb, and empty!" The queen grabbed Lin Haihai's hand, and the sorrow in her eyes was clearly revealed. !
"Has your father ever looked for him?" After all, he is a member of the royal family, so the emperor will not just ignore him!
"I can't find it! Everyone said there was no chance of survival!" The queen suppressed the pain in her heart and tried to force out a smile, but that expression made Lin Haihai extremely sad!
"Since we can't find the body, it proves that there is a possibility of survival. Jiren Tianxiang, you have to have hope!" Lin Haihai said bitterly. She remembered Li Junyue saying that her family was extremely painful about her death. During this time, she only thought about planting. It's time for Li Junyue to go back!
"I don't dare to hold out hope anymore, for fear of getting more disappointment, and then I won't have the courage to live!" The queen exhaled and said lightly.
Lin Haihai didn't speak anymore. Looking at the charming and strange mandala in front of her, she suddenly felt that the feelings in the world are actually the most difficult thing to grasp. The love is strong today, but they don't know that they will be separated tomorrow! Black mandala, desperate love, and unpredictable death!