The sentence at the dinner table that Qin Fang can barely be called Xing Yan is because the atmosphere at the time was a joke, even though his eyes are so serious.
But all of this at this moment, the heavy heart in his hand, those dizzying words, and the... kiss that Xing Yan landed on his shoulder. These let Qin Fang understand that everything is true.
Suddenly, unprepared, never thought of from this direction.
Qin Fang looked down at the star-like ore in his hand, and called out, "Brother Yan."
"En." Xing Yan replied.
After calling him that, Qin Fang didn't speak again, really didn't know what to say. My mind is a bit empty, but my whole chest is very restless, and my heart is beating very fast, which is not in the same state as my brain.
"Needless to say anything else." Xing Yan saw his current confusion and said softly.
Xing Yan originally stood upright by the bed, and after speaking, he touched Qin Fang's head, bent down, looked at Qin Fang's face, smiled slightly, and asked, "Are you confused?"
"Well, who wouldn't be fooled." Qin Fang bent his fingers and scraped the tip of his nose, "I'm blown out."
"Don't get dizzy, I don't want you to respond." Xing Yan shook his head, and said to him in a natural tone as usual joking, "I just want to give you a gift, let's talk about other things later."
"Thank you, Brother Yan." Qin Fang took a deep breath, and then laughed at himself, "Actually... I don't know if it's real now, or it's just a dream I had when I drank too much."
"I was in the dream?" Xing Yan said with a smile, "Whether it's real or a dream, you are very dangerous boy."
Qin Fang didn't deny it, nodded and smiled: "I admit it."
It is indeed dangerous.
If these are true, it means that Qin Fang has stepped into the gun of the hunter, and he was told some extreme love words by his brother, and the brother is cool, handsome and charming. If this is just a dream, if he can dream about such content, then Qin Fang is quite worthy of his status as a straight man.
So the first thing Qin Fang did when he woke up the next day was to look for the bedside to see if there was that stone.
Qin Fang closed his eyes again - yes, so it's all true.
Xing Yan didn't stay in this room last night, fearing that Qin Fang wouldn't be able to sleep. After Qin Fang washed up and went out, Xing Yan had already finished his breakfast and was playing billiards with Hua Tong. When he came out, Hua Tong greeted first: "Are you up?"
"You are all early?" After Qin Fang finished talking to him, his eyes accidentally met Xing Yan. He quickly turned his eyes away, but felt a little deliberate, so he turned his eyes back again.
Xing Yan looked at him with no expression on his face. Qin Fang felt that his eyes turned too abruptly just now, so he smiled and said, "Good morning, Brother Yan."
"Okay." Xing Yan asked him, "Did you sleep well last night?"
A very normal sentence always sounds a bit... ambiguous to Qin Fang. After what happened last night, this sentence is inexplicably hot on the ears.
"Very good." Qin Fang pretended to be natural, said a few words to them casually, and went downstairs to eat with others.
Anyway, it was still on vacation, and they could have continued to play here for a day or two. But Qin Xin was too confused and couldn't stay any longer, so he went back to school in the afternoon.
Hua Tong didn't go back to school, and went home directly in someone else's car. So only Qin Fang and Xing Yan were left in the car.
The atmosphere was different from when we came here. At that time, no matter whether the two of them talked or not, it was very natural, and there was no need to think about anything. Two close friends, a pair of close brothers.
Now it's completely the opposite. No matter whether he speaks or not, the atmosphere is so deliberate and embarrassing. Qin Fang didn't really want to do this, so he kept looking for topics to talk about, so that the two of them looked more natural.
Qin Fang, a young social expert, has spent the whole day on Xing Yan. He can't find a topic, and if he does, he doesn't know how to chat naturally.
"Are you disgusted?" After a long period of silence, Xing Yan suddenly spoke.
Qin Fang understood what he was asking almost instantly, cleared his throat, then shook his head and said, "What's the resentment... no."
"That's good, you can tell me directly if you have something to say." Xing Yan looked at the front and said, "Anything."
Xing Yan was telling him that if he didn't accept it, he could say it directly, and Qin Fang understood. But he just frowned slightly. He really didn't know how to express it, and he hadn't figured out his thoughts yet. At this time, he didn't want to say anything for the time being.
"Brother Yan," Qin Fang licked his lips and organized his words, "I used to... really never thought about this, never."
Qin Fang felt uncomfortable talking about these things, and felt uncomfortable all over. It was too suffocating for a straight man to let him say such things to his brother. Qin Fang took a deep breath before continuing: "I... I used to talk about... When it comes to love, my targets are all girls."
"En." Xing Yan nodded to signal him to continue.
"And we are so nice," Qin Fang smiled wryly, "I can't change this relationship, and now my biggest feeling is that it's awkward, everything is awkward, and it's out of order."
That's the end of Qin Fang's words, Xing Yan understands what he means, and there is no need for him to continue. Xing Yan said: "Okay."
"I hope we can still be the same as before." Qin Fang parked the car downstairs in Xingyan's dormitory without turning off the engine. "If I lose a friend because of this, I will feel very, very sorry."
Xing Yan smiled at Qin Fang before getting out of the car. Qin Fang pursed his lips, and Xing Yan reached out and pressed his head again and shook it. Brother Yan is really handsome when he smiles.
This matter was sealed in Qin Xin's heart and no one said anything, including Hua Tong, he couldn't open his mouth. What do you say about this? I can't say it, and I don't want to say it. After all, this is between him and Xing Yan.
Thinking of Huatong Qin felt relieved. He's still fucking around, like a fool.
Hua Tong didn't know anything about what happened, and asked Qin Fang stupidly: "Hey, why did you find me again? Where's your brother Yan?"
"Shut up," Qin Fang frowned, "You didn't find me?"
"I was looking for you, but you were not free when I was looking for you before." Hua Tong drank the juice and made a snoring sound through the straw, "Xinhuan kicked you? Thinking about the mess again?"
Qin Fang picked up the small square box containing tissues and threw it at him: "Can you shut up."
Hua Tong directly asked Qin Fang's irritable point. Since that day, Qin Fang hasn't seen Xing Yan again, it's been half a month, and he hasn't seen each other.
Qin Fang felt a little irritable when he thought of this, and didn't know how to deal with it. He sent messages to Xing Yan several times, but Xing Yan was quite indifferent, and Qin Fang couldn't take it anymore. After making an appointment for dinner, Xing Yan said he was going to the laboratory, but he didn't come out.
It was like this the few times he looked for him, and he never took the initiative to look for him unless he looked for Xing Yan. Qin Fang hasn't received a call from Xing Yan for half a month, and their relationship has suddenly changed from a "passionate love period" to a "frozen period".
This gap is actually somewhat disappointing. Although Qin Fang was confused, his words were true. He really cared about Xing Yan, whether as a friend or a brother. Qin Fang really didn't feel comfortable with the two of them now, but he couldn't help it.
This is not a matter of hypocrisy, it is a shock to Qin Fang's concept of more than 20 years. In fact, it’s not that no man has ever chased him before. In high school, there was a boy who chased Qin Fang very fiercely. At that time, Qin Fang refused decisively, and said to the other party dumbfoundingly: “Don’t look for me anymore. I'm straight, it's useless for you to pester me any longer."
At that time, in Qin Fang's view, there was a wall between the straight and the bend, and the things inside and outside the wall had to be done hard, which completely separated the two spaces.
But if the other party is Xing Yan, Qin Fang is really a little confused. Very complicated emotions, I can't say a simple rejection, and I have a lot of scruples. At the same time, there were other thoughts involved, which made Qin Fang unable to figure it out every day, and his brain circuits became entangled.
Although the relationship has cooled down, the habits left behind when it was good before are still there. Sometimes the news has already been sent without realizing it.
For example, Qin Fang checked Weibo in the middle of the night and saw a friend bought a motorcycle, which looked pretty good. He casually sent the picture to Xing Yan.
After I posted it, I saw that the chat box between the two of them had been silent for several days, still stuck at the last time Xing Yan said that he was going to the laboratory. Qin Fang finally replied: "Okay."
But the pictures were all posted, so I had to say something, Qin Fang posted it: Dong bought a car and posted it on Weibo to show off.
After a few minutes, Xing Yan replied: "Fair but not useful"
Qin Fanghui: Haha, he doesn't understand at all, just playing around.
Xing Yan said: Why haven't you slept yet
Before receiving Xing Yan's message, Qin Fang was chatting normally, and thought that the relationship between the two of them was slightly awkward. But as soon as Xing Yan came, a nerve in Qin Anxin's heart suddenly pricked.
It's been a long time since Xing Yan brought up this kind of topic on his own initiative. In the past, the two of them chatted every day. Now that Xing Yan took the initiative to send such a simple message, Qin Fang was even surprised.
Qin Fang scratched the side of the phone with his fingers, and replied: Not sleepy yet.
Xing Yan returned after a few minutes: Go to bed early, I have class tomorrow morning
Qin Fanghui: Brother Yan, good night.
Xing Yan: good night
The short conversation is over, including the picture, adding one piece is less than ten sentences. After speaking, Qin Fang didn't continue to look at other things, he directly locked the screen and put down the phone.
Miss Qin Fang has chased after a lot, but she has never dealt with a relationship like this one, and it is a headache.
He was cold with Xing Yan, but Han Xiaogong was not cold with him, sending him messages from time to time.
Qin Fang had just finished class that day, and was about to go back to the dormitory with his books, when Han Xiaogong's voice call came at this time.
Qin Fang answered: "Hello?"
Han Xiaogong's voice is always with a little smile, it sounds a bit seductive and lazy: "Hey, what are you doing?"
"Just after class." Qin Fang asked him, "What's wrong?"
"Help me take pictures?" Han Xiaogong said, "It's not for nothing, it's paid for."
Qin Fang smiled and asked him: "It's okay to shoot, what's the reward?"
Han Xiaogong laughed softly on the phone and said, "How about I introduce a little girl to you?"