Occasionally thinking about these inexplicably may come from a little bit of confusion about the future. But after all, the future is still long, and it is not something that is right in front of us, so there is nothing to worry about or what.
On the eve of graduation, there were a lot of criminal affairs. When not together, Qin Fang would attend classes by himself or make appointments with Hua Tong to play ball. After the game, the two sat next to each other to rest.
Hua Tong asked him: "How will Xing Yan's work be decided? If he doesn't study, what direction will he work in? He majored in chemistry... really don't study anymore?"
Qin Fang said, "I don't know."
Hua Tong laughed: "No, isn't that you... Brother Yan? You don't know?"
Originally, what Hua Tong wanted to say was "your partner", but the words were still awkward, so he didn't say it, and changed the word.
Qin Fang really didn't know, he shook his head: "I asked twice and he didn't say anything, so I didn't ask again."
"I'm really convinced," Hua Tong sat next to him and took a bottle to drink, "He's graduating soon, and they'll leave school next month, what will you two do after that? It's impossible for him not to sign a job, he must have signed .Where are you going? Stay here or go back? How did you do it? I don’t know.”
Qin Fang laughed to himself, he had nothing to say, he really didn't know what to ask.
In fact, Qin Fang felt that Xing Yan didn't like to talk about it very much, so he didn't mention it after asking twice. In his opinion, this is not something particularly worth thinking about, no matter where Xing Yan signs, he will be the same. He will be in his senior year soon, and they don't have classes in their majors in their senior year, just an internship, and he can go wherever Xing Yan falls, so this matter is not important to him at all.
There will naturally be a direction when the time comes, so let’s talk about it when the time comes, what’s the rush.
Hua Tong felt strange, and asked him with a blink of an eye: "Brother, are you two talking and playing? Playing together?"
Qin Fang immediately denied it, shook the water bottle in his hand, smiled calmly, and said seriously: "How is it possible, we are so distracted."
"Really?" Hua Tong raised his eyebrows, hesitating to speak.
Qin Fang glanced at him: "Say."
Hua Tong then asked: "Your dad... can't you let me go?"
Qin Fang shook his head and sneered lightly: "I'm too worried, my dad doesn't bother to care about me at all."
"Impossible, do you really want to come and try with him?" Hua Tong raised his eyebrows, "Don't be with your father, anyway, he usually doesn't care about you, and he can't see you."
Qin Fang looked at him and said, "It's just passed."
Hua Tong was shocked: "What do you mean?"
Qin Fang said: "He saw the video last time. Can Aunt Yin make him see it? I said he was too lazy to care about me. It's true."
"Aren't you two still okay at that time?" Hua Tong asked.
"Yeah, but I didn't explain it either, in case it gets better in the future." Qin Fang took a sip of water, squeezed the water bottle, smiled and said, "So I really don't worry about Xing Yan's future plans, I'm a free man, Let him go, it doesn't matter."
In Qin Fang's place, nothing is a big deal. For him, there is nothing to worry about. In his eyes, as long as there is no problem with the relationship between the two, then nothing is a problem.
Of course, there is no problem with their relationship. There can be a problem with the silly love between two naive ghosts.
Qin Fang woke up from the bed in his underwear, turned over, and Xing Yan woke up too. Xing Yan smiled at him, Qin Fang raised his eyebrows and asked: "It seems that brother Yan is sleeping comfortably? He is not angry about getting up."
Xing Yan stretched his arms, straightened his hand and it happened to be next to Qin Fang's face, Xing Yan grabbed his face and said, "I don't get angry every day."
The late spring and early summer in the north is still very comfortable and the temperature is suitable. The two large glass windows in Qin Fang’s bedroom in the old house have good lighting. The light-colored curtains block half of the light, and the rest of the light passes through to make the bedroom feel warm. Hazy shades.
The two of them didn't get up in a hurry, Qin Fang grabbed Xing Yan's hand, and the two shirtless people with morning boobs just lay on the bed and held hands innocently. Qin Fang closed his eyes and said, "I dreamed of my grandpa. I dreamed that I was still a child, me, you, and grandpa."
Xing Yan asked him: "Then what was I like when I was a child?"
Qin Fang smiled and said: "I didn't know, you are still so big, but I have become smaller."
"Then you must be very cute." Xing Yan scratched the back of his hand with his thumb, "Star."
"As soon as you pronounce this sound, I really want to laugh." Qin Fang said.
Xing Yan just let him laugh, he likes to see Qin Fang smile very much, so he just looked at him sideways like this, he often looks at Qin Fang like this recently.
Qin Fang said: "I also dreamed of the walnuts I ate when I was a child. When I was a child, I loved to eat sweet ones. My grandfather would occasionally make me something that he ate when he was a child. It is a small snack with a special sense of age. A lot of it is sold outside, it is honey. Walnut kernels, walnuts are covered with honey and sesame seeds, but I always feel that it is not delicious, and it is delicious just after dipping. There is also sesame candy, which is soft and not sticky to the teeth, and it is very fragrant. I loved it so much when I was a child. "
Xing Yan chuckled and asked him, "Are you hungry?"
Qin Fang shook his head: "I'm not hungry, but I dreamed about these little things. I haven't thought about them for many years, and I forgot."
Xing Yan has never eaten these things, he is not very keen on sweet things, even when he was a child, so he has no concept of these things, and cannot communicate with them.
He said that he had never eaten Qin Fang and felt a little distressed, so he touched his mobile phone and bought some online, and sent them to Xing Yan to eat.
Now Jian Muyang and Xing Yan are also very close, and often come out to play with them, and sometimes ask the driver to send him to Qin Fang's old house on weekends, and spend the weekend with his two brothers.
The child has grown up and has his own thoughts, holding the little secret between Qin Fang and him tightly in his hands. At home, when his mother chatted with him about his brother, Jian Muyang would basically change the subject, afraid of making too many mistakes, so he didn't talk about it.
He likes to play with his two elder brothers very much. Boys always have unconscious admiration for them.
The old house used to make Qin Fang's childhood stable and happy, but now it makes him as happy as watching a movie this spring. The small building was restored to the way he remembered it, with flowers, cherry trees, canopy and, of course, a cool motorcycle in the courtyard.
Dreams and dreams are sweet. These are given by Xing Yan.
It started to rain in the middle of the night, not very heavily, but Qin Fang still woke up.
He turned his head to look at Xing Yan, but he wasn't there. Qin Fang was a little surprised, went to the bathroom
Xing Yan didn't come back for a long time, so Qin put down the bed to look for him. There is no bathroom, and there is no living room downstairs, and no one is there.
We slept together before going to bed, and no one was there in the middle of the night? It was so funny, Qin Fang smiled, wondering where Xing Yan had gone. He went downstairs, searched around but couldn't find it, and finally opened the door.
There is a spot of light in the canopy, someone is standing there smoking a cigarette, that spot of light in the rainy night looks really lonely.
Qin Fang took the keys and went out, ignoring the rain and ran over. Xing Yan was a little surprised to see him come out, and put out the cigarette, even the light was gone.
"Why are you here?" Qin Fang asked him softly.
Xing Yan smiled and said, "I can't fall asleep when I wake up, come out to get some air."
Qin Fang was wearing short-sleeved shorts, Xing Yan asked him if he was cold, Qin Fang shook his head.
"You said you liked to watch the rain here when you were a child, so I'll come over and have a look." Xing Yan's voice was originally pleasant, but it was even more humid and cool at night like this, making it particularly fascinating.
"What did you see?" Qin Fang asked him.
Xing Yan said: "I don't know, my mind is empty after watching it, it's very quiet."
"When I opened my eyes and you were not here, I thought you were gone." Qin Fang said with a smile.
Xing Yan didn't speak, just shook his head, touched Qin Fang's hand, and squeezed his palm. Qin Fang held him and said, "I'll watch with you for a while."
Xing Yan said "hmm".
Qin Fang can't ask anything, and he doesn't talk too much. He has always been a very comfortable person to get along with. The two stood there quietly, watching the rain and listening to the crackling of the raindrops on the tarpaulin.
Xing Yan called him: "Xing Xing."
Qin Fang tilted his head, but he couldn't see clearly, but he could see a little outline, and he knew that Xing Yan was also looking at him. Qin Fang responded, "Huh?"
Xing Yan said: "I want to smoke."
"You smoke," Qin Fang smiled, "I can also smoke with you."
The lighter was turned on, and Qin Fang had a brief glimpse of Xing Yan's face. He lit his cigarette with his eyes downcast like this. The combination of his eyes, bridge of nose, and the smoke in his mouth was very sexy.
After Xing Yan finished lighting his cigarette, he suddenly called him again: "Xing Xing."
"Hey, I'm here." Qin Fang said.
The lighter had been turned off, and it was pitch black again. Xing Yan said "I love you" in a low, deep and solemn voice.
Qin Fang was a little confused, thinking he had misheard.
Xing Yan took another breath of the cigarette, and when he took it off, he lowered his head and repeated it slowly.
Qin Fang was stunned by the three words and couldn't respond. He never thought that Xing Yan would say this at such a time. He didn't say it, and he didn't say it himself. In fact, the two of them never said this from the beginning to the end. When Xing Yan gave him the stone, he said a lot, but there was no straightforward expression in it. Later, they gradually became ambiguous and ambiguous.
Like, love, these have not been directly mentioned with the other party.
And with Xing Yan's character, Qin Fang didn't think he would say it, he felt that Xing Yan didn't like to talk about it.
But on such an unexpected night, Xing Yan actually said that twice, a few heavy words, and he even said that he needed to light a cigarette before saying it.
Qin Fang stood there silent for a long time before calming down the strong throbbing and shock, he took a deep breath: "I also..."
When I spoke, my voice was a little hoarse, and I had a lot of thoughts in my mind, but I was really embarrassed to say it, and I couldn't say it. The two of them knew each other too well, and it was too embarrassing to say this seriously.
Qin Fang gave up later, and stretched out his arms to hug Xing Yan, with his chest against his chest and his chin against his shoulder. Xing Yan quickly took the cigarette away from his mouth, almost scalding Qin Fang's ears.
"I won't say anything, as long as you know." Qin whispered in his ear.
Xing Yan said "Yes", saying that I know.
Qin Xin was beating very fast, as long as he thought of what Xing Yan said just now, his heart would tingle. They were close to each other, and they could feel each other's heartbeat. Xing Yan put his face close to Qin Fang's ear, and held Qin Fang tightly with the hand that was not holding the cigarette. His fingertips trembled a little, which was hard to detect.
They hugged for a while, and Qin Fang suddenly asked, "Do you want to do it?"
Xing Yan didn't make a sound, buried his face on Qin Fang's shoulder and didn't speak.
Qin Fang said, "I want to do it with you."
Xing Yan said after a while: "I didn't say that to let you do it with me."
Qin Fang smiled and said, "Nonsense, of course I know."
After he finished speaking, he pushed forward, took a breath and said, "I'm hard. I want to do it with you."
…
The two of them have been together for so long, and they have done everything they can and can't do, but they haven't really made it to the last step. Qin Fang was stimulated today and had to finish it.
Anyone can come, Xing Yan can come if he wants, and he can come by himself if he doesn't want to, but he really doesn't know how to do it, but what kind of thing does this kind of thing do
But Xing Yan still stopped him and called him out.
Qin Fang was determined to finish it, but Xing Yan just hugged him. With the two of them hugging each other like this, he could hear Xing Yan's panting clearly. Qin Fang asked him: "Aren't you... also not? It doesn't matter, just come."
Xing Yan bit his ear and said, "Calm down a bit."
"Why should I stop?" Qin Fang deliberately raised his leg to touch him, "Why are you so innocent, you're an adult."
Xing Yan pressed his neck to prevent him from moving, kissed him on the lips, and still called him "Xing Xing".
Qin Fang couldn't stand Xing Yan calling him that on the bed, he closed his eyes and his ears were numb.
"Xing Xing..." Xing Yan's voice was very hoarse, and he pressed Qin Fang not to let him move, and his voice sounded a bit fierce, "Shut up."