At this time last year, Qin Fang and Xing Yan had just started to get acquainted. They often occupied seats in the library together, and occasionally made appointments for dinner. Later, Qin Fang went home with him as soon as he had a summer vacation, and came into contact with a different Xing Yan.
He sat in the sidecar of Xingyan, stepped on the wind together on the highway, went to strange places with those strangers, felt the sky and the never-ending road. That's real freedom.
Now he is sitting on Xing Yan's back seat, with his arms around his thin waist, the sky above his head is still the same, he is already too familiar with Xing Yan's back seat.
In fact, looking back now, it was only about a year ago.
Feng Zhe had a lot of sentimentality for a while before, but now that melancholy energy has disappeared, and he has become a carefree little fool again. He sat in the back seat of Cheng Dong and yelled, thinking that Cheng Dong was not fast enough and not exciting. Cheng Dong annoyed him so much that he almost stopped and threw him on the road.
After returning from the end, Feng Zhe complained to Fan Linyi, saying that Cheng Dongbai had been playing with the car for a year and couldn't run at all.
"I'm flying brother," Cheng Dong was speechless, "Do you want to take off directly?"
"I just can't, I don't have a certificate, why don't I still use you?" Feng Zhe sat next to Fan Linyi and said, "We also have the whole certificate?"
"Forget about you," Qin Fang said to him, "With your character, it's too crazy to play, it's not safe."
Fan Linyi also nodded and said, "Forget it."
Feng Zhe will go abroad after graduation next year, and his family has already made arrangements for him. Feng Zhe's overthinking before probably had something to do with this. Fan Linyi didn't want to go out with him before, and Feng Zhe couldn't screw the family, and he couldn't screw Xiao Fan either, but he was still a little unwilling to let him go like this.
Seeing how happy he is now, it is estimated that Fan Linyi has compromised and is willing to go with him. They have been playing together for so many years, and they are really inseparable. Feng Zhe is actually quite dependent on others.
Feng Zhe also urged Qin Fang: "Let's go together? Go out and play for a few years."
Qin Fang shook his head: "What are you playing, you don't care about how old you are."
"I don't care," Feng Zhe leaned back on the sofa with a smile, "I just want to play."
"Then you can have fun." Qin Fang said with a smile, "Xiao Fan will accompany you crazy."
When they go out, they can't get together as often as they do now. Feng Zhe pushes this and that to go abroad with him every day, fearing that no one will play with him. Apart from Fan Linyi, Qin Fang was his first teaser, and he chanted scriptures endlessly in Qin Fang's ear.
Qin Fang said: "I have no idea of going abroad at all, no matter how much you say, it's useless."
Xing Yan came down after changing clothes upstairs, Feng Zhe looked up at Xing Yan, nodded and said, "That's right, you brother Yan is here, where are you going?"
Qin Fang smiled, but said nothing.
After a while Feng Zhe patted the sofa next to him, suddenly thought of it, and said, "You two can be together!"
Fan Linyi gave a "tsk" beside him, and said in a low voice, "Shut up..."
Qin Fang couldn't help laughing: "We are free, why go out and make trouble."
Fan Linyi pinched Feng Zhe's arm, Feng Zhe glanced at him, and did not continue speaking.
They didn't know much about Xing Yan, and Qin Fang wouldn't tell them about Xing Yan. Feng Zhe usually met friends with similar conditions, so he tacitly agreed that Xing Yan did too. Later, when they went out to eat, they each took their own cars. Fan Linyi said to Feng Zhe, "When you talk, you have something in your mind, so don't say anything."
Feng Zhe also asked him: "What did I say wrong, why are you pinching me?"
Fan Linyi said: "You know what's going on in someone's family, just tell me, you just want to play like you are?"
"They don't have to play. It's not impossible to study hard and improve every day, so why not?" Feng Zhe looked puzzled.
Fan Linyi didn't want to talk about this, but Feng Zhe, a silly Baitian, didn't have anything in his mind. Fan Linyi asked him after a while, "Are you getting the money?"
Feng Zhe blinked and said, "Brother Fang is not short of money."
Fan Linyi glanced at him, and Feng Zhe understood a little bit. After a while, he smiled and shook his head: "You mean Xing Yan? He is not short of money. He also plays motorcycles. Who can play that without money? What should I do? You don't need to worry about it." .”
He was right, Fan Linyi only reminded him because he was afraid that he might say something wrong, and felt that he was overthinking.
Qin Fang hadn't thought about going abroad, and hadn't thought about it before. But after having a meal with Feng Zhe and the others, it suddenly occurred to him.
When Xing Yan was taking a shower in the bathroom after dinner, Qin Fang stood at the door and asked him, "Brother Yan, do you want to go abroad and continue studying?"
Xing Yan had finished flushing the water, heard that he turned off the shower, and looked up at Qin Fang.
Qin Fang said: "I don't mean anything else, but Feng Zheyi said that I thought of it. Actually, if you study chemistry... it would be better to go out and continue to study. If you think about other things... that's not a big deal. And me."
Xing Yan kept looking at him, his eyes were wet and a little red from the excitement. Qin Fang felt a little embarrassed when he saw him, touched his nose with the back of his hand, and said, "I'm serious. Do you want to go?"
Xing Yan came out of the shower, took out a bath towel and wiped off the water. He kept silent, and Qin Fang took another towel and rubbed Xing Yan's hair in a disorderly manner. Qin Fang said: "I'm actually... very rich, and it's very easy for the two of us to go to school. So you only need to consider whether you want to go, nothing else matters."
Qin Fang spoke quite seriously, he was really planning for their future. He said that he has money is not to comfort Xing Yan, he really does not lack. His grandfather has planned a lot for him. After all, he has no mother, and he is afraid that he will be angry with his stepmother in the future, and he is also afraid that he will suffer. Before the old man left, he made it very clear to Qin Fang's father: "What I left for Xingxing'er will always be his, you can't move."
Qin Fang's father nodded and agreed.
Xing Yan showed his face from under Qin Fang's towel, Qin Fang kissed him on the mouth, and said, "You want to be free."
Qin Fang was seriously considering this matter, but Xing Yan never said a word, he just hugged Qin Fang hard afterwards. Qin Fang didn't dare to say too much, for fear of putting pressure on Xing Yan, he didn't want Xing Yan to feel that there was a big gap between the two of them, no matter what it was. Xing Yan hugged Qin Fang and patted his head.
Xing Yan said to him: "I will tell you something after you finish the exam."
Qin Fang asked: "What's the matter? I still have to wait until I finish the exam. You can tell me yours."
"Wait until you finish the exam." Xing Yan kissed Qin Fang's ear, and kissed again. Pressing his neck with his hand, the palm was pressed against Qin Fang's skin, the temperature of his palm was a little hot.
Qin Fang was tickled by his kiss, smiled and said, "It's almost Valentine's Day after I finish the exam."
Xing Yan closed his eyes and said, "Okay."
This should be the last month of exams that Qin let go, and he will have no exams starting next semester. Qin Fang started to go to the library study room every day again, and sometimes there would be a top student sitting next to him, but the top student didn't study the same thing as him, and the third year was a professional course, so he couldn't help him much.
Occasionally, Hua Tong would come to find them to study together. He is also a university bully, not as good as Xing Yan, but he is also very good. When Qin Fang was reviewing, when he looked up, there were two masters, and he was under a lot of pressure.
In the dormitory, Chen Ke and Shen Dengke have almost packed their things, and they can leave after they get their diplomas. Shen Dengke was a little melancholy every day, and he didn't dare to say it, but he should be very reluctant to part with this dormitory where he lived for four years, and also with these two roommates. So Qin Fang lived in the dormitory more recently, and the three of them often went out to eat and drink at night, mainly the two of them drank, and Qin Fang would get them back after drinking too much.
Fortunately, Qin Fang doesn't have to live in the school all the time next year, otherwise he will be left by himself after the two brothers graduate.
Shen Dengke made arrangements for him, saying that he would go out to live with Xing Yan in his senior year, and he would just leave the dormitory. Qin Fang doesn't know where he will be next year, so he doesn't have to leave the dormitory, but he probably won't be able to live there for a few days.
Their graduation ceremony was on the 10th. Before that, their school had a graduation party, and each college had its own party one after another. Xing Yan did not attend. He accompanied Qin Fang to review the exam until ten o'clock that night.
On the day of the ceremony, Han Xiaogong actually went and insisted on taking a photo with Xing Yan. At that time, the ceremony had not yet started, so I had to go to the front of the library to take graduation photos in the morning. After taking the group photo, Han Xiaogong refused to let Xing Yan take off his academic uniform. Xing Yan thought he was annoying and refused to take pictures with him, but Han Xiaogong forced him to take pictures. Han Xiaogong also went to Zhou Siming to hate people, Qin Fang looked at Zhou Siming from a distance and frowned and glared at Han Xiaogong several times. Han Xiaogong didn't mind either, and asked his classmates to take pictures of them, and he even put his arm around Zhou Siming's shoulder. Zhou Siming looked impatient, but still took several pictures.
Someone in the school recognized Han Xiaogong, and several girls came to ask him to take pictures. Han Xiaogong happily accompanied him in the photoshoot, and told them happy graduation, like a gentle brother.
The girls were very excited and asked him if he could post on Weibo.
Han Xiaogong said: "Of course, there is nothing wrong with it. I can also like you."
"Ah, you are a fairy!"
Qin Fang looked at him from a distance, and laughed with a "puchi", Xing Yan asked him what he was laughing at, Qin Fang pointed his chin to that side, and said, "The little girl praised him as a fairy."
Han Xiaogong also smiled helplessly, and said: "If you have to praise it, then it's a fairy."
"Yes, Fairy Fairy!" the girl nodded.
When Han Xiaogong came back from taking photos, Qin Fang asked him, "Is the fairy coming back?"
"I'm back." Han Xiaogong smiled indifferently, "The two big brothers are too lazy to talk to me, but there are still people who are willing to take pictures with me."
Xing Yan had already taken off his bachelor's uniform and was holding it casually in his hands. The clothes were too ugly.
Xing Yan will also attend a ceremony later, not all students are required to attend, each college will send out a few outstanding representatives, and the principal will personally issue degree certificates. How could there be no Xing Yan at this time, he was the first one in the School of Chemistry.
Xing Yan and the others sat in the front, and Qin Fang and Han Xiaogong joined in the fun and sat in the back. There were too many people in the staircase hall, and they sat in the second-to-last row, very close to the air-conditioning outlet.
The principal and vice-principal who spoke in the front were all accompanied by Mai, and the sound was amplified very loudly. There were a few people in front of them who were dedicated to taking pictures and videos. Every year, several graduation ceremonies are popular on the Internet, and now the speeches of the principals are very interesting.
Standing in a row of outstanding graduates from each college, they looked a little silly in their bachelor's uniforms and hats. Qin Fang waited to watch Xing Yan later, and Han Xiaogong wanted to take a picture of Xing Yan from a distance.
"A lot of fans from your school know you." Han Xiaogong whispered.
Qin Fang said: "Sometimes girls we don't know greet us, hey, it's too popular."
Han Xiaogong looked at the photos he took with Xing Yan and Zhou Siming before, and Qin Fang asked him, "Do you want to post them?"
"Don't post it, it's too stupid." Han Xiaogong looked down at the photo and smiled, "I just took two photos for my thoughts."
"Why are you talking so strangely?" Qin Fang said, "Where are you going?"
Han Xiaogong thought for a while and said, "I don't know, let's talk about it."
Although their school is a comprehensive university, the School of Chemistry is the strongest in their school, ranking very high in the country. When Xing Yan and the others stood up, what was displayed on the screen was the academic achievements of the outstanding students of their chemistry school, and Xing Yan took up several pages by himself.
The dean also mentioned a few students in his speech, and when he talked about Xing Yan, there was a small amount of restlessness in the auditorium. After all, he was a starlet from the School of Chemistry.
Qin Fang had a very beautiful expression, and said to Han Xiaogong in a low voice: "My brother Yan is amazing."
Han Xiaogong said: "He really likes chemistry, he has been studying it since junior high school."
Qin Fang listened to the speech by the dean of the School of Chemistry, and looked at the boyfriend standing in front of him who was expressionless and cool: "He is very good, right?"
"Yes," Han Xiaogong couldn't stand his embarrassment, "don't show off."
Han Xiaogong told Qin Fang that Xing Yan's liking for chemistry may be in his genes. Xing Yan's father was originally an engineer and studied this, and so did his mother. At the time when the chemical plant exploded, Xingyan lost his parents all of a sudden, but he didn't hate chemistry, he still loved it.
Qin Fang listened to this, looked at the results of Xing Yan on the big screen in front of him, and also looked at the most shining and handsome brother Yan on the stage. He felt that Xing Yan should continue to do this, he should not stop, he belongs to chemistry, and should continue to do those experiments he likes.
Han Xiaogong said: "I have seen several rows of people, and only your boyfriend is pleasing to the eye."
The dean's speech was over, and Qin Fang applauded along with him. He said to Han Xiaogong: "I suddenly felt that I should let him continue reading, and wanted him to continue to study this."
Han Xiaogong glanced at him and said nothing. The dean on the stage was issuing degree certificates to the graduates, and Han Xiaogong asked him: "Have you talked to him about this?"
Qin Fang shook his head and said, "No, he doesn't like to talk about these things. I don't know why he doesn't want to read it anymore. Is it because of... money? I don't know him very well in this regard. If it's because of some messy external factors, then no Okay, what are you afraid of if you have me?"
When Qin Fang spoke, his voice was very low, and Han Xiaogong looked at his mouth shape, half listening and half guessing. After Qin Fang finished speaking, Han Xiaogong remained silent, looking at Xing Yan in front of him, and just shook his head.
Xing Yan stood in the middle, and the degree certificate was issued to him. When he arrived, the dean stopped and said a few words.
"Xing Yan, a talented student." The dean stood next to him with a smile, patted Xing Yan on the shoulder, and said to the audience, "I said I couldn't keep him with me personally, I said let him be My last closed disciple, I still have to leave after all."
Xing Yan smiled and shook his head lightly.
The dean's appreciation for his favorite student can be seen from his eyes. Holding Xing Yan's degree certificate in his hand, he was reluctant to hand it over.
The dean later patted Xing Yan on the shoulder, said the name of the school, then nodded and said: "Good job, study hard, and come back after studying."
The name of the school was so loud that Qin Fang didn't realize it at first. Xing Yan's expression changed.
Before Xingyan, Qin Fang was just talking to Han Xiaogong and didn't pay attention to it. Later, Qin Fang found out that when the dean sent each student, the results of the student and the direction of the next step would be displayed on the screen. And prepare to continue to read the school.
There is a conspicuous name of the school on Xingyan's page.
Qin Fang's first reaction after regaining consciousness was excitement, his eyes were full of pride and surprise, he had never experienced this kind of emotion in himself, now Qin Fang suddenly understood those parents who gave birth to a gifted child. This metaphor may not be appropriate, but Qin Fang himself felt that the mood at that time was like a proud parent.
He was so excited for half an hour, and Qin Fang was able to recover from the tension after several colleges had been changed in front of him.
Han Xiaogong knew that he was going to praise again, so he smiled first and said, "Your boyfriend is so good."
"Thank you." Qin Fang nodded with a smile, "I think so too."
Han Xiaogong patted him on the shoulder and said with a sigh: "...where did he pick you up?"
The initial emotions have passed, and my rationality has gradually returned, and many thoughts have gradually become clear.
The smile on Qin Fang's face gradually disappeared, and the voices of the deans of various colleges were still very loud in the stereo, but Qin Fang couldn't hear clearly. Perhaps the air conditioner was turned on too cold, and Qin Fang felt more and more cold. It's so cold on the body, but the palms are sweaty.
He lowered his eyes, and his mind began to run slowly. He seemed to figure out a lot of things in an instant, and it seemed like he couldn't figure out anything at all. The brain is like an old machine, the gears are stuck and can't move.
Han Xiaogong looked at him sideways, touched his arm, and called him.
When Qin Fang raised his head, his expression was a little ugly, he looked at Han Xiaogong, and asked him what's wrong.
Han Xiaogong slightly raised his eyebrows and asked softly, "Are you okay?"
"What's wrong with me?" Qin Fangxu clenched his fists, rubbed his thumbs against the knuckles of his index fingers, and after a moment of silence asked Han Xiaogong: "You... all know that he is leaving?"
Han Xiaogong pursed his lips, but did not speak in the end.
Qin Fang nodded, and asked in a low voice, "Only I don't know, right?"
Han Xiaogong still didn't make a sound.
Han Xiaogong didn't want to lie to him, so he kept silent. Qin Fang saw it, so he didn't continue to ask other questions.
For the next hour, Qin Fang sat on a chair, turning into a stone man. There are many pictures spinning rapidly in his mind, which can make him say in his heart that it is so. But his mind was very stuck, and every frame he captured was enough for him to think for a long time.
A short message came from the phone, the phone was in his hand, Qin Fang looked down, it was Xing Yan.
-have they gone
Qin put him back: no, what's the matter
Xing Yan asked again: Where is it
Qin Fang said: Behind.
Xing Yan: don't go
Qin Fang: Yes.
Xing Yan: I came to find you
Qin Fang didn't return. He put his arms on his knees, lowered his head, and rubbed his scalp with the palm of one hand. He hasn't let it grow back since he shaved his head last summer, and now the short stubble pierces into his palm, and it hurts every time he hits it.
The fine and slight tingling pain spread along the palm to the heart, making the left chest a little empty and a little numb.
Xing Yan came over from the side aisle, Han Xiaogong patted Qin Fang and motioned for him. Qin Fang sat still, Han Xiaogong stood up and bent over to go out. After he went out, Xing Yan came in and sat next to Qin Fang.
Qin Fang didn't look at him, Xing Yan went to touch his hand, feeling the sweat in Qin Fang's palm.
Xing Yan didn't pay attention to these things, and held hands with him, the fingertips of both of them were trembling slightly.
After the ceremony was over, Xing Yan didn't care about anything else, and never let go of Qin Fang's hand. The two handsome guys walked out holding hands like this. Many people around them were watching them, and neither of them had time to take care of them.
When there were fewer people, Qin Fang cleared his throat and called him: "Xing Yan."
Xing Yan paused for a short while, and responded with a "hmm".
Qin Fang seldom called him that, but always called him "Brother Yan".
Qin relaxed the hand he was holding with Xing Yan, rubbed his joints lightly, and asked in a low voice, "When did you decide?"
Xing Yan was silent at first, then said: "It's been a long time."
Qin Fang asked softly: "... last month?"
Xing Yan shook his head.
Qin Fang asked again: "Chinese New Year?"
Xing Yan still shook his head.
Qin Fang looked into his eyes, his voice trembling: "Your birthday? Is it my birthday? A stone?"
He asked endless questions, but Xing Yan understood.
Qin Fang's eyes were all red, but there was no expression on his face, and his tone was very light, not questioning. But Xing Yan couldn't speak, couldn't answer.
Qin Fang stood there and looked at him, looked at Xing Yan's face, looked at his favorite pair of eyes, and then suddenly smiled.
He bent down, as if he had let go of the strength on his body, supported his knees with his arms, and looked up at Xing Yan. They stood in the sun like this, the sun was very poisonous, and Qin Fang's forehead was covered with sweat. He took two deep breaths and let them out slowly. Qin Fang looked up at Xing Yan, his eyes were red, there was a slight smile on his lips, and his voice became hoarse.
He asked Xing Yan a few words—
"is it fun?"
"Am I having fun?"