That day, after Qin Fang asked these two sentences, before Xing Yan could give him an answer, he turned around, waved his hands, and left. When I walk, my shoulders are very straight, and my walking posture is as straight as usual, and every step I take is firm. Sweat slid down his forehead, down his eyelids, down his eyelashes, and down his eyes.
Qin Fang bent his index finger and scraped it, feeling hot, he lifted the hem of his clothes and wiped his face.
Qin Fang went back to the dormitory and took a shower, then lay down on the bed and slept from noon until the next morning. Sleep deeply, sleep until dark and dawn.
There are many calls on the mobile phone, some from Xing Yan and others, but there is no news. Qin Fang went out to class after washing, without even bringing his mobile phone.
Chen Ke said that Xing Yan came to look for him in the dormitory yesterday, and he slept all the time. Xing Yan left after sitting on his chair for more than an hour.
Qin Fang said, OK, I know.
When he came back from class, his roommate had already bought him food and put it on his desk.
Shen Dengke looked at him carefully and asked, "Master, are you okay...?"
Qin Fang smiled and asked, "What's wrong with me?"
Shen Dengke said: "I think you are not in a very good mood."
Chen Ke said beside him, "You are the only one who knows how to watch?"
Shen Dengke didn't dare to say more, Qin Fang said: "I'm in a good mood, going out to drink at night?"
"Okay!" Shen Dengke nodded, "Call Tong Er?"
Qin Fang said: "Okay, you guys call him, I'm a little sleepy, sleep for a while."
Qin Fang went up and lay down again, with his eyes closed as if he had fallen asleep, and he didn't move all afternoon.
I really slept yesterday, but today I am actually very energetic. I have been awake all the time, but I just don’t want to move or talk much. He asked him to turn the phone to silent, and then turned it off when it ran out of power, and Qin Fang didn't bother to charge it.
The emotions were too chaotic, and he didn't want to think about it, and he didn't plan to stroke it.
Just be messy, Qin Xin thought, if messy can make you happy, then it's better to be confused all the time.
It is estimated that Shen Dengke told Hua Tong that Qin Fang was not in a good mood. Hua Tong didn't ask much when they met, but just bumped him on the shoulder. He called Qin Fang during the day and kept his phone turned off, but he didn't reply to the message. Hua Tong asked him, "Your phone was stolen?"
Qin Fang touched his pocket, but he didn't carry it, and said, "I ran out of battery, I threw it in the dormitory to charge it, and I didn't bring it."
Normally, if Qin Fang came out alone without Xing Yan, he would never leave his mobile phone, fearing that Xing Yan would not be able to find him. If you don't bring your mobile phone, there is obviously a problem, but Hua Tong didn't say anything, just said: "I thought you lost your mobile phone."
Shen Dengke ordered a lot of wine and said he planned to get drunk outside together today.
Qin Fang still didn't drink much, he just took that amount. Halfway through the meal and halfway through the wine, Hua Tong finally asked Qin Fang, "Did you quarrel with Xing Yan?"
Qin Fang shook his head and said, "No."
"Then what's the matter with you?" Hua Tong still knows Qin Fang very well, and Hua Tong can tell at a glance if there is any problem with him, and vice versa.
Qin Fang thought for a long time, and finally just said: "Wake up from the dream."
Hua Tong didn't ask further questions, just smiled and said: "The graduation season and the breakup season, what happens and what ends, it's all normal. Brother, wake up when you wake up."
Hua Tong received it so naturally, Qin Fang was quite surprised. He looked at Hua Tong, who clinked glasses with him and said, "If you think the previous few months were a pretty good dream, then it's worth it. If you don't think it's very good, then you can wake up." It's sharp, that's a good thing. What do you think it is?"
Hua Tong was so deep from time to time, Qin Fang listened to him, smiled lightly after listening, blinked and said: "...that must be a good dream."
"It's worth it, and we don't lose anything." Hua Tong said.
Qin Fang nodded and asked him, "Why did you comfort me before I said I was broken in love?"
Hua Tong took a sip of beer and said, "I'm going to the graduation ceremony."
After hearing this, Qin Fang laughed softly and nodded: "I'm talking."
Hua Tong came later that day, and went around after class if he had nothing to do, and sat in the last row on the other side. When Xing Yan was standing in front, Hua Tong even took pictures at the beginning, and if it wasn't for the lack of internet there, he would have posted it in the group, posting a boyfriend for Qin Fang. Later, Hua Tong also saw what the dean said and the pages on the screen.
Hua Tong was also very surprised at the time, and cursed in his heart after the accident.
When the two of them talked about this last time, Qin Fang didn't know anything about it. Looking back now, it's a bit ridiculous.
From the day of the ceremony, Qin Fang and Xing Yan never saw each other again. Except for Xing Yan calling him in the first few days, Qin Fang never answered, and then the call disappeared.
Qin Fang wanted to talk about understanding Xing Yan, but he really didn't understand, otherwise he wouldn't be flashed like this now. But it would be wrong to say that he didn't understand. If you give him a clue, he can connect all the threads together, and now he understands many things that he could figure out but couldn't figure out before.
The tacit understanding between the two of them prevented Qin Fang from asking any more questions.
Qin Fang goes to class to review every day as usual, life seems to have not changed, but there is always something missing. Occasionally, he could feel a familiar figure behind him. He knew this person too well. Qin Fang could feel his breath and temperature. But he never looked back, he won't look back.
From the very beginning, Xing Yan never had him in the future he planned for himself.
Xing Yan wants to give him a perfect and passionate love, and Xing Yan wants to give him a dream.
It's not time to wake up from the dream, but Qin Fang woke up early, and he shouldn't look back when he wakes up.
Qin Fang would wear earphones when walking, lower his head, and never look back once.
The roommate stayed for two more days after receiving his graduation certificate, and then left. Before leaving, Shen Dengke didn't cry, but Chen Ke did. They didn't have a breakup meal, these three words are too unpleasant, anyway, they have eaten so many meals together during this time, so let's forget about the breakup meal.
The dormitory was emptied in an instant, leaving only Qin Fang himself.
Qin Fang spent every day in the self-study room, his time was full of reviewing, and his mind was also full. When you are full, you will not think about many things, and your mind will be calmer.
Hua Tong reviewed with him when there was no class, and went to class separately when there was class. They didn't mention Xingyan very much, but they didn't deliberately avoid it when they mentioned it. It is natural to mention the name Qin Fang, and he will not have negative emotions. He can even say with a smile, "I want brother Yan to give me half of my brain when it's time to study."
The person Xing Yan, the title "Brother Yan", hurt Qin Fang a bit, but apart from the pain, what was left was still good.
He never went to the old house again. Both he and Xing Yan had keys. Qin Fang put the keys in a drawer and never touched them again.
That small building is so beautiful, everything inside is beautiful, memories, breath, these are not something that Qin Fang can bear now, so he won't go, and he doesn't dare to go.
Cheng Dong sent a WeChat message and asked: Brother Fang, do you want to play on weekends
Qin put him back: there is no time for review.
Cheng Dong: Is Brother Yan coming
Qin Fang said: I don't know, you ask him.
Cheng Dong: Why do I ask? Why don't you ask.
Qin Fang never came back.
Xing Yan's circle of friends didn't post anything at first, and Qin Fang didn't post anything after that. The last item in his photo album was still the pot of walnuts and sugar. The unfinished candy is still frozen in the refrigerator of the old house. After making the candy, the kitchen has that sweet smell for a long time. I don’t know if it is still there, it may have dispersed.
Qin Fang smiled, put down the phone, picked up the pen next to it, and turned it around gently.
What a wonderful feeling.
Before that day, Qin Fang and Xing Yan were stuck together every day and couldn't be separated. It was so sweet that it seemed to fall into a jar of honey.
After that day, the two of them were able to cut off all contact, clean and tidy. The last message in the chat interface turned out to be Qin Fang's previous message, "I'm downstairs baby."
The record is set here, and I will get tired of saying "baby".
Qin Fang has read the chat history too many times these days. Flipping through it from front to back, Xing Yan doesn’t talk much, but occasionally he jokes very crudely. There was a time when Xing Yan liked to send messages and call him “brother”. It is to mock Qin Fang when he always said they were "brothers" when he was half-straight.
Qin Fang has been acting calm these days, he won't bother to dream again when he wakes up, he can't look back, his free and easy spirit is very similar to him in the past.
How many times has Qin Fang been broken in love before, and if he is broken up, it means that he has no fate, so forget it.
This time it seems to be the same.
But one day when he woke up in the middle of the night, he opened his eyes and saw the empty dormitory. Qin Fang hadn't gotten out of the dream just now, and his heart felt empty for a while. Qin Fang took a deep breath, closed his eyes, lay on his side on the pillow, scratched the sheet in front of him with his fingertips.
There was someone in his arms in the dream. White, thin, with charming eyes. They were lying in that sunny room, lying on that bed, the people around them slept comfortably, they didn't get angry, they smiled at him quietly, they were good-looking and obedient.
Qin Fang closed his eyes, grabbed the pillow, the veins on the back of his hands stretched, and his hands trembled so hard. He rubbed his face on the pillow, rubbed his eyes hard, then buried his face in it, and kissed him lightly again.