Qin Fang shook his head at Xing Yan in the car. He didn't want to talk yet, so Xing Yan didn't insist anymore and made way for him.
At such a time, they still understand each other, knowing what the other is expressing with a look and a movement. Such a tacit understanding now seems a bit sad and regrettable.
What he said when he met Han Xiaogong made Qin feel a little confused and soft-hearted. This is not a suitable time to talk, chatting with Xing Yan at such a time, Qin Fang's heart is not sober.
He and Xing Yan will definitely have a meeting, and there must be a meeting, but not now. When Qin Fang fell in love, he was hot-blooded and somewhat romantic, but once he jumped out of love, he was always sober and rational. He is very cautious about any choice, so every time he makes a choice, he runs all the way to the black ground and insists on it, without regretting any results.
Now every time he sees Xing Yan, he is not calm, and it is difficult to control his emotions. As long as the two of them chat, there will be a result. Before Qin Fang can make a clear decision, this result can't come out, and he doesn't want it.
Xing Yan knows him well. He knew Qin Fang so well, so he gave way as soon as Qin Fang shook his head. Give him space to think, Qin Fang needs time to clarify himself every time before making a decision, Xing Yan gave him time.
Before Hua Tong took the final subject test, his family called to say that his grandma had fainted suddenly, and the local hospital couldn't do it, so he was sent directly to the hospital here, and he was still on the way.
Both Hua Tong's parents are away on business trips, and only uncle and aunt came with them. Hua Tong was about to leave the dormitory at that time, and the exam would start in 30 minutes.
Hua Tong was about to leave immediately after hearing this, but Qin Fang stopped him.
"I'll go now, I'll go right away." Qin Fang had almost listened to his phone call, he jumped off the bed and said to Hua Tong, "I can do anything, the hospital pays for pushing the bed. Me, you go and finish your test."
Hua Tong's face was a little stiff, he shook his head and said, "I have to go."
"I don't know what's going on with grandma. It may not be a serious problem. It's normal for the old man to faint if his blood pressure is unstable. You answer quickly, and come to me after answering." When Qin Fang spoke, he had already changed his clothes, squatted down and put on his clothes. Xie, "Didn't my uncle also say that on the phone? Let me not worry."
Qin Fang took his mobile phone, sent his uncle's and aunt's phone numbers to his own mobile phone, and patted Hua Tong on the back: "Brother, I'll go for you first, trust me."
Hua Tong is a top student, not comparable to Xing Yan, but he is also the kind of top student who won the national award in the academy. If their school missed the exam, they would directly fail the make-up exam. If they failed the last exam during the entire undergraduate period, Huatong's postgraduate insurance would be gone. I'm still not sure what the problem is, whether it's big or small. It would be a bit reckless to just miss the exam.
Qin Fang brushed his teeth and washed his face as quickly as possible, stuffed his mobile phone, car keys and wallet into his schoolbag, and said to Hua Tong: "I'll go first, you take your mobile phone, if the situation is not good, I will call you immediately, you see If it was my phone call, I just handed in the paper and didn’t answer it.”
Hua Tong was also a little flustered when he received the phone call just now, but now he regained consciousness, pursed his lips and nodded.
Qin Fang said: "If I don't call you, I'm fine. Don't worry about answering you."
If it was someone else, Hua Tong probably couldn't let it go anyway, but this is Qin Fang, Qin Fang is too trustworthy. He can take care of things, but if there is a problem, he will definitely call the first time, and will not be stupid to wait until the exam is over to notify him. He can tell the difference between the serious and the serious, and Hua Tong believes in him very much.
Qin put the car in the hospital and parked the car, and the ambulance just arrived. Qin Fang and Hua Tong went back to grandma's house together, and he also met his uncle and aunt. This is not an occasion for pleasantries, just talk about things and do things directly when they meet. Grandma was pale on the stretcher bed and never woke up. Hua Tong was not there, so Qin Fang ran away if something happened. The bigger the hospital, the more difficult the procedures are. If you don't go to the hospital, you don't know how many patients there are.
After stopping in the emergency room for a few minutes, he was pushed out for various examinations, and then the doctor told him to go directly to the brain department on the 22nd floor.
Qin felt relieved when he heard that he was going to the brain department. Usually, it is more serious to go to the brain department.
Grandma was still in the operating room when Hua Tong passed by. She had a sudden cerebral hemorrhage, and it is unknown whether she can be rescued. Hua Tong's face was pale, Qin Fang hugged him, patted his back hard, and said, "It's okay, brother."
Hua Tong usually looks carefree and jokes all day long, but at this time he is also very closed, and doesn't say a word except to communicate with the doctor. Qin Fang didn't leave, and waited with him in the hospital.
The operation is temporarily successful, but the dangerous period has not yet passed, and the person has to be pushed directly to the intensive care unit.
In the next few days, Qin Fang also accompanied Hua Tong to the hospital, and spent most of the time in the hospital. Hua Tong is very close to his grandma, so now every winter and summer vacation, he goes back to his grandma's house. Qin Fang understood this feeling very well. He was already so scared when his grandfather was seriously ill when he was so young.
Sometimes Qin Fang thinks, if he is older, if it is now, it may be more difficult for him to accept his grandfather's departure. The older he is, the more he cannot bear this kind of separation.
It will be several days after the old man has passed the critical period. When the person wakes up, he can speak, but he is very confused and cannot remember the person. But this is already much better than expected, and the doctor said that it is still possible to recover with time.
It was only at this time that Hua Tong relaxed. He had been tense before, and now he said to Qin Fang in the corridor: "I'm really scared to death..."
"Don't be afraid." Qin Fang hugged him again, the brothers bumped into each other's shoulders, squeezed their arms, and comforted him silently.
Qin Fang actually breathed a sigh of relief, people don't like parting, and he was very afraid that Hua Tong would have to experience this kind of helpless forced acceptance. Although there are many times in life, the later the better.
Qin Fang felt relieved for Hua Tong, and was also very envious.
His old man didn't come back at the beginning, and he left forever when he left.
Because he has been busy in the hospital for so many days, the matter between him and Xing Yan has been put on hold. But when Qin Fang sat with Hua Tong on the chair in the corridor day after day, he also thought a lot.
Such an environment seems to be able to settle people's state of mind, let people automatically screen out the emotions floating on the surface, and be able to think about the most essential line and ponder the problem from the root.
In the past few days, Qin Fang sometimes emptied his mind and soul and sat in a daze, sometimes thinking about him and Xing Yan. Studying himself, studying his thoughts and feelings, also pondering Xing Yan. Think about Xing Yan's experience, think about Xing Yan's character, think about what they said every day from the beginning to the present.
This is a very good relationship, Qin Fang never doubted it.
But this is also a relationship that stepped on Qin Fang's minefield.
He said it right from the very beginning, Qin Fang has always been sincere to people, and he also requires the same sincerity, the premise of everything is it.
But Xingyan didn't give him this. Xing Yan gave him so much love and so many sweet dreams, but Xing Yan didn't give him what he cared most about.
That is still the person Qin Fang likes, really likes, likes so much. Qin Fang hopes that he will shine, that he will fly high, and that he will have no regrets in his life. Qin Fang had always hoped that there would be himself there.
Or he was naive.
But thank you.
Putting everything aside, it was his brother Yan, the kindness to him was real, and Qin Fang's happiness was also real. He had to tell Xing Yan face to face for this thank you, Xing Yan definitely deserved this thank you.
On the day they met, no one made an appointment in advance.
It was a cloudy day with no sun. Qin Fang got up in the morning and changed his clothes, sent Jian Muyang to the make-up class, and then drove directly to the small building. He didn't call Xing Yan, he went directly.
The gate was unlocked, so Qin Fang drove the car in.
The melodious and long tune came into the car, Qin Fang turned off the ignition and got out of the car. Following the sound, Qin Fang raised his head.
Xing Yan was sitting on the roof playing the harmonica.
The two looked at each other, Xing Yan didn't stop, he was singing the nursery rhyme of Qin Fang and his hometown last year, when they went out to eat noodles by bus one evening, Xing Yan picked a leaf that day.
Qin Fang raised his head and smiled at him, Xing Yan looked down at him while playing the harmonica.
Qin Fang climbed out from the attic and also went up to the roof. He walked over and sat next to Xing Yan, quietly listening to Xing Yan finish playing the tune. Both of them were sitting on the edge of the roof with their legs hanging down, looking at the memories and beautiful things that Xing Yan restored to Qin Fang in the yard.
There is a thick cloud above the head, not a dark cloud, but a little gray because it is too thick. The cherry tree in the yard was still alive, and it was already sparsely covered with small light pink fruits.
Qin Fang looked at the dwarf tree, and said softly—
"Brother Yan, let's talk."