The star was given out by Qin Fang as a trinket. An IOU was stuffed in the New Year's red envelope, and he owed someone for several months. Xing Yan took it seriously and asked for it several times.
When we met Xing Yan that day, he didn't say a word, as if he accepted it, but he kept silent and seemed a little indifferent. But in the end, when Qin Fang turned his head, Xing Yan gave him a shallow smile, which also allowed him to see the star in his mouth tenderly.
He didn't say anything, but he seemed to say a lot.
At that moment, Qin Fang's emotions were almost defeated. He ran away from the airport without looking back. There are some words that Xing Yan can't say, and he can't speak, but he wants Qin Fang to know.
Their tacit understanding made Qin Fang know everything at a glance.
But that doesn't change anything, and they all know that.
From the hot summer to the very snowy winter, it feels very long, but it will be here in the blink of an eye.
When Qin Fang returned to Jian's house, Jian Muyang was having a snowball fight with his little classmates in the backyard, and seeing him come back was overjoyed. The little classmates came to the house as guests, and Qin Fang watched them play for a while.
The little brother babbling and crawling on the carpet is also very interesting. Qin Fang liked to hug him very much. The child gnawed on his hands, and all the saliva rubbed on Qin Fang's face. He didn't think it was dirty.
He rarely comes back now, and his sense of presence is very low. Every time he comes back, Dong Yin appears very friendly. Qin Fang doesn't care about these at all now, he just came back to see his younger brother.
Qin Fang didn't want the car his father gave him. It was too high-profile, and it didn't suit him. He just needs a transporter. Dong Yin drove it for a while, but didn't like it very much. Later, she didn't know where it went, and she probably gave it to someone else.
When Jian Muyang chatted with him before going to bed at night, he asked Brother Tong where he was.
Qin Fang said that Hua Tong was doing a project at school.
Jian Muyang looked at him, opened and closed his mouth, and then asked: "What about Brother Yan?"
Qin Fang glanced at him and smiled: "Brother Yan..."
Jian Muyang blinked.
The kid has always liked Xing Yan, and in his heart Xing Yan is a very gentle brother. During the meal before, Jian Muyang knew that Qin Fang and Xing Yan were talking about friends. Later, Xing Yan disappeared and did not play together again. Jian Muyang asked twice at the beginning, but never mentioned it again.
Now that the question came out, Qin Fang patted his head and said, "Brother Yan has gone to school, Brother Yan is super powerful."
Jian Muyang pursed his lips and smiled, then asked: "How powerful is that?"
Qin Fang raised his eyebrows and said easily, "The most powerful thing you can think of."
Jian Muyang giggled, and said in a very relaxed tone: "Then I will learn from Brother Yan."
"That's not necessary," Qin Fang flicked his head, "Just be happy, kid."
In fact, Jian Muyang is not young anymore, he is in the fifth grade. He understood many things, so he didn't mention Xing Yan much after so long. I couldn't bear to ask today, and I won't mention it after I finish asking. He didn't ask that brother Yan when he would come back, and if he would come back.
If his brother knew, he would have just said it directly, and when your brother Yan comes back, he will take you to play.
The change in relationship can be heard from the words, Jian Muyang has always been very delicate and sensitive. Qin Fang didn't say that, and didn't mention Xing Yan's return, so don't ask any more questions later.
Qin Fang looked at him, and raised his hand to stroke his hair again.
This year's Spring Festival, Qin Fang still didn't spend at Jian's house, just like before, he packed a bag and left.
In the middle, he also went to live with Si Tu and Han Xiaogong for a few days, and went around the house he was familiar with. I still live in the same room and the same bed.
The small courtyard is still the same as before, and the flowers in the courtyard are blooming very well.
Gong Qi's place of work is not far away, she often comes here. Si Tu looked thinner than before, but his speech was still gentle and peaceful as before. Han Xiaogong is still the same, but his hair is cut short. Although it wasn't cut so that it could be seen that it was a boy at a glance, it couldn't be as long as before and hang down the back.
The two sat on the steps and chatted casually. Qin Fang asked him why he cut it, Han Xiaogong raised his hand and grabbed it without paying much attention, and said, "I'm too lazy to wash it."
Qin Fang looked at him and said, "The temperament has changed."
"Do you like the original one better?" Han Xiaogong chuckled, "You like Hei Changzhi, Xiao Zhi."
Qin Fang smiled and nodded, but he was quite honest.
"I regret cutting it," Han Xiaogong blew upwards, blowing his bangs into pieces, "I'm a little heartbroken after cutting it."
"Stay again." Qin Fang said, "I know you really like your hair."
Han Xiaogong didn't speak, and grabbed the hair on the top of his head again.
He hasn't posted on Weibo since that incident, and Han Xiaogong basically disappeared from the Internet. Qin Fang was also implicated because of his affairs. Many fans who came from Han Xiaogong sent private messages and scolded him together. Don't even think about having anything to do with him.
Han Xiaogong didn't sign with a company and had no team in the first place. His Weibo is played by himself, so at this time, there will be no one behind him to support him. Many people have long disliked him. He is too popular and doesn't cooperate with others. At this time, many colleagues want to trample him to death.
Many of the marketing accounts have a rhythm, and his rumors are spread everywhere, and the previous photos of Sha Matt have become emoticons. True and false information, these buried him in the soil and could never turn over again.
Qin Fang posted a Weibo to help Han Xiaogong say something. After that, his Weibo was also flooded, but Qin Fang didn't play much at first, so he just uninstalled it and never went back, and didn't care about these shitty things.
Han Xiaogong said before that his hair is his capital, but now he says he cut it because he no longer needs it.
He said: "I used to be annoyed every time I washed my hair, and it was also annoying to dry it, and I had to do some nourishment to keep it shiny. At that time, I wanted to cut it when I didn't take pictures, and I kept enough. I regret it, I feel something is missing."
Qin Fang asked him: "Aren't you going to take pictures in the future?"
"No more shots."
"What about Weibo? Don't you want it too?"
Han Xiaogong said: "It can't be done, it's useless."
Qin Fang frowned: "After a while? No one will always remember other people's affairs."
Han Xiaogong shook his head: "Yes, I can't make it through. And I don't want to play anymore. And no matter how I play, there are always people who want me to disappear. It's because I haven't said anything. If I say it, it will only make things worse. This is a trick."
Qin Fang said: "I uninstalled Weibo later, and I didn't bother to read it."
Han Xiaogong laughed and said, "You missed all the wonderful things."
Qin Fang raised his eyebrows, and Han Xiaogong said: "Now everyone says that I have undergone sex reassignment surgery, and I am already a woman. There are also a bunch of people who say that I have done it, and it turns out to be true. Isn't it very interesting."
Qin Fang frowned and scolded "Idiot".
"Want to say something?" Qin Fang asked.
"What are you talking about?" Han Xiaogong leaned back, half-smiling, "No one will believe what you say. Those who want to scold will not listen to what they say, and those who don't want to scold will not believe if you don't tell them. And what did I say? Unless I take off my pants and take a video, how can I prove it? The video can also be said to be face-picking, and I didn’t shoot it. You can’t say it with a hundred mouths, so just shut up.”
Qin Fang didn't feel anything if he didn't play, and he didn't take it seriously. But Han Xiaogong is different, that is even his job. His life, everything he does now, actually depend on the internet. The Internet made him a different person and changed his original life trajectory.
In fact, Qin Fang could tell that he was very dependent. Taking photos, sending photos, chatting with fans, this is his life, but now it's all cut off.
Qin Fang said after a while: "In fact, there are still many people who are talking to you, and they don't believe it. Think about it anyway, it's just what the irrelevant people say, you play your own game."
Han Xiaogong still shook his head, he pulled the grass that came out of the cracks of the bricks on the side of the steps, and said: "I know, many girls are working hard to help me, and they scold others when they can't say it, as if they can help me if they speak louder." We won the quarrel. The little girls are very cute and kind."
"Yes, those who like you are still there."
"Half it, half believe it and leave, or turn around and scold me, I feel blind that I have liked me for so many years, and a bad person." The grass in Han Xiaogong's hand unconsciously wrapped around his finger a few times, Speak slowly, "The other half think it's not me, or believe it, but are willing to forgive, and are willing to protect the people they like like little soldiers."
"But why bother," he said with a faint smile, "liking anyone has become a very unspeakable thing, even a bit shameful. If you like it, you are stupid, have no three views, brain damage... Wait. It’s not necessary, it’s too hard, and I don’t want to see little girls working hard. Like someone on the Internet should be a happy pastime, but it’s meaningless if it becomes a burden, right? And I have nothing to give them, so I just An Internet celebrity, good-looking, take some photos, and make money from popularity. Forget it.”
When he said this, he could still see that he was a little depressed, and it was still different from before. In fact, let alone him, Qin Fang, as a friend of his, was shocked when he saw the countless malice that surged up in those instants. People nowadays speak too harshly, every word is like a knife, it would be the best if they can penetrate the network and directly stab this person to death.
Qin Fang asked him: "Then what are you going to do in the future?"
"A lot can be done," Han Xiaogong looked at him, raised his eyebrows lightly, "Are you afraid I won't make any money?"
Qin Fang didn't speak, Han Xiaogong said: "The money is enough. Accepting advertisements and so on has not been my main income for a long time, and then it is actually just playing, otherwise I would be so lazy?"
"That's good." Qin Fang still felt a little heavy in his heart. In fact, he wanted to ask Xie Zhe why he didn't stand up and say something for him, but he didn't know what Han Xiaogong thought about Xie Zhe, whether his feelings were deep or not, I was afraid to poke the pain point, so I didn't ask.
But Han Xiaogong also saw that he wanted to ask this, so he took the initiative to say indifferently: "I said, this is a trick. He hates me and thinks I'm cruel, and they have already broken up. The woman came to him and wanted to borrow I'm popular, fuck me with my ex-girlfriend."
Qin Fang couldn't speak, and cursed a few dirty words in his heart, and couldn't help but also cursed, feeling annoyed. At that time, Xie Zhe looked very sunny, but I really didn't see that he could do such a thing.
Han Xiaogong looked at him and smiled, and Qin Fang suddenly remembered that Han Xiaogong said that Xie Zhe's feelings for him made him insecure, rootless and floating. So Han Xiaogong has read countless people, and he is still very accurate.
But reading countless people is useless, the ship capsized.
After chatting with him, Qin Fang was obviously very unhappy, and his face was very gloomy. His temper was not very good at first, and his violent emotions came up.
Han Xiaogong laughed with a "chi" and said, "You look too much like Brother Yan when you keep your face calm and expressionless."
Qin Fang looked at him, and Han Xiaogong said, "It's really similar."
After he finished speaking, he patted Qin Fang on the shoulder, shook his arm lightly, and said, "Don't be angry for me. Life is divided into stages, you go through each stage, and you have to change when the time comes."
"I've been stuck at this stage for a long time, and I should have left long ago. In fact, everyone has already left, only me. This is just a signal."
"That's why I asked you to come over for a meeting. I will leave after the year, and Brother Yan and Zhou Siming will also leave. There is nothing to worry about Si Tu leaving it to Gong Qi. Go out and find life."
Han Xiaogong stood up, Qin Fang looked up at him, Han Xiaogong looked around, looked at the yard and the small building behind him, pulled his lower lip and said: "I don't actually depend on this place, I even hate it. I hate our past , I also hate the process of our growing up. This is for us to grow up, and we should not stay when we grow up. Just like the things we used to find out on the Internet, we have seen too much evil in human nature. Disgusting to look at. We all hated, so they all went away."
Qin Fang looked at him with his head up all the time, while Han Xiaogong lowered his head and said, "We have to say goodbye in life."
Life is always about saying goodbye.
Grow and say goodbye and never stop.
Qin Fang came this time by coincidence. It rained for two days and the second floor leaked again. Two basins were placed in Han Xiaogong's room to catch water. Qin Fang happened to be there, and spent the afternoon repairing the roof for them.
He has been on this roof before, and he lay on it with Xing Yan on New Year's Eve last year. Xing Yan called Xing Xing in his southern accent. After putting it up, Qin patted the ashes on his hands and smiled.
Now there are only two most incapable people left in this building, one is weak in physical strength, and the other is too weak in hands-on ability. Qin Fang consciously went up to repair, and Han Xiaogong stood on the ladder and handed him things.
Zhou Siming and Xing Yan used to protect these two, but now the two protectors are gone. They're so determined to go, they won't even say goodbye from here.
Fortunately, everyone is mature enough, and their lives are already peaceful. No one needs to be protected, and they can all live well.
When Qin Fang squatted on the roof and sprinkled asphalt, he said to Han Xiaogong, "I don't know where you are going in the future, but if you have anything to do, please call me."
"What are you doing?" Han Xiaogong chuckled, "Even though Brother Yan is gone, I won't poach someone, so don't be interested in me."
"That's impossible, your hair has been cut." Qin Fang knew that he was joking, so he joked back.
Han Xiaogong said, "Thank you."
Qin Fang smiled: "You're welcome."