The hospital was too unfamiliar, with more than a dozen buildings next to each other, Qin Fang couldn't even find the inpatient department of the respiratory department. He ran back and forth twice, and finally found the ward after asking two guidance desks.
He was still panting badly when he ran in, Qin Fang saw Gong Qi and Si Tu on the hospital bed.
Gong Qi didn't cry, but her eyes were swollen.
Si Tu had a ventilator on his face, his blood pressure and heart rate were being monitored, and he was still dangling water from his hands. Si Tu's eyes were closed, and he slept peacefully.
Gong Qi spoke to Qin Fang in a low voice, Qin Fang took a few deep breaths to calm down his breathing.
"He didn't let me talk. He said he would call after he left. But I..." Gong Qi covered her face with her hands, and said in a low voice, "But I was too panicked. I don't know what to listen to." Whether he is right, I should respect his ideas, but I think that is too cruel."
Qin Fang patted her, did not speak, and comforted her silently.
He looked at Si Tu on the hospital bed, and he still felt dazed even now. His face was as white as paper, and he frowned slightly, probably feeling a little uncomfortable.
Qin Fang looked at him, unable to think that this person was about to leave, he just seemed to be sick for a while.
"Why is it like this?" Qin Fang looked at Si Tu without blinking or turning his head.
"It's burning." Gong Qi also looked at Si Tu, her voice was hoarse, "It's just a cold, his body is so bad that he can't even handle a cold."
Si Tu has always known that he is not in good health. He coughs badly and can't do heavy work. Qin Fang always thought that he was just ordinary pneumonia, weaker and not as healthy as others, that's all.
But it is definitely not to the point where a cold can kill you.
"He was still able to talk the day before yesterday, and he talked a lot with me." Gong Qi's voice was soft, but she still didn't cry, "He said he was a little tired, and he wanted to be quiet for the last few days, so he didn't want people to know. I don't know if he will wake up, if he wakes up and sees you, will he blame me."
Qin Fang looked back at her and said, "No."
Gong Qi said: "We talked about you, and I asked him who he wanted to tell, and he said you. I was surprised, and I confirmed it with him once. He said he wanted to tell you, you are friends, and you It's different from others."
Qin Fang looked at Si Tu and said "Yes".
Except for Si Tu who was lying on the bed, there were only Gong Qi and Qin Fang in the hospital.
Gong Qi called too late.
It will take Han Xiaogong more than three hours to get to the nearest airport at the earliest, and there is no flight until evening. Xingyan is on the other side of the earth. Zhou Si will also go abroad for exchanges after next year.
When Gong Qi called, the only person who could arrive the soonest was Qin Fang.
Qin Fang stood by the hospital bed, looked at Si Tu, and asked him softly, "Did you do it on purpose? You picked such a time, aren't you afraid that they will hate you?"
Interstitial pneumonia, Si Tu has struggled to live for so many years, he has tried his best.
He was sick from a very young age, and then he got really tired. I drink traditional Chinese medicine all the year round and eat it as a meal. Si Tu was very thin. He looked handsome at first, but later he became too thin and looked very pale.
The devastating blow caused by this cold seemed accidental, but it was also inevitable. The immune system of the respiratory system is almost unable to hold on, and the fibrotic lungs have dragged him down.
Gong Qi said: "Now I feel relieved for him, and I can finally rest."
Zhou Siming was flying in the sky, Xing Yan was waiting for the flight at the airport, and Han Xiaogong was still on the road.
The critical illness notification has already been sent, maybe this second, maybe the next second. But Si Tu was still there. He was still in a coma, breathing with difficulty. The nurse came to check on him from time to time and changed his medicine. There was regret in the eyes of the doctors and nurses, but they had seen too much life and death.
Qin Fang hoped that Si Tu could hold on longer, until another person came back.
Si Tu woke up for a while in the afternoon.
Gong Qi leaned over to talk to him, and asked him what was wrong and if he wanted to eat.
When Si Tu saw Qin Fang, he slightly raised his eyebrows, and then smiled at him.
Qin Fang stood at the end of the bed, smiled at him, and patted his leg through the quilt.
Si Tu pointed to the ventilator on his face, signaling to take it off. Gong Qi was a little hesitant, Si Tu touched it and wanted to pick it off herself, so Gong Qi reached out and took it off.
Si Tu was panting heavily, and he tried to control his breathing to be longer. He looked at Gong Qi, with a slight smile in his eyes, and said to her: "Disobedient..."
He spoke very softly, with a little difficulty.
Gong Qi said to him, "I'm sorry... I just panicked."
Si Tu was still gentle, he just waved his hands and said to her, "Don't panic, big girl."
Gong Qi's eyes were a little red, she raised her hand and shook the red string on her wrist at him. Qin Fang saw that Si Tu also had one on his hand. Si Tu looked at Gong Qi and smiled, he was always smiling.
Si Tu's coughing sound was muffled, but his expression was calm after coughing.
Qin Fang sat by his bed, talked to him softly, and asked him, "Wait a minute?"
Si Tu still waved his hands, joking with a smile: "I finally found the right time."
Qin Fang also laughed and said, "You are really not afraid that they will hate you."
Si Tu took a few calm breaths first, and then said: "...they must hate me."
Qin Fang didn't speak, but Si Tu said, "We don't like to say goodbye."
It was too much effort for him to speak, so he tried to shorten the sentences as much as possible, and said each sentence slowly.
"Like this, when they come back...they go away. If you hate them, you will hate them. They all hate them, and I'm not the only one." He smiled after he finished speaking.
The nurse came to nebulize him, but Si Tu waved his hand and refused.
Si Tu didn't wake up for too long, and soon fell asleep again.
Before he closed his eyes again, Qin Fang asked Gong Qi: "Do you have a pen?"
Gong Qi gave Qin Fang a pen in her bag.
Qin Fang quickly drew something on his palm, then went to hold Si Tu's hand. Si Tu was held tightly by him, their palms pressed against each other. Si Tu's hands were cold, while Qin Fang's were hot.
Si Tu looked at their hands, panted and smiled and said, "Don't you want...to confess to me, then I can only refuse. Don't blame me for being ruthless, because I can't... follow my heart."
Qin Fang also smiled, even Gong Qi laughed.
Qin Fang held his hand tightly, and then separated, Si Tu's palm was imprinted with the shape of Qin Fang's palm. Qin Fang said to him: "I give you a star, follow it. There is light ahead, don't be afraid."
"...Okay." Si Tu still smiled, closed his eyes and shook hands.
Gong Qi stood beside Si Tu's bed, touched his face, and put the ventilator back on him. Qin Fang asked her if she had anything to say, Gong Qi shook her head slightly.
They laughed all the time when they talked, and no one said goodbye sadly.
In the end, Si Tu didn't wait for anyone, and he didn't open his eyes again. He never saw anyone.
I can't tell whether it's cruel to meet each other, or it's more cruel like this.
When all the instruments and needles were removed from her body, Gong Qi was still crying. He didn't cry bitterly, but squatted in front of Si Tu's bed and wept silently. Qin Fang didn't have time to cry, there were too many things to do. When people really face death, there must always be someone sober.
Although this is like a dream, someone needs to continue to carry the dream to the end.
Gong Qi didn't cry for too long, her eyes were swollen badly, but she was doing what she should do soberly.
She brought everything she needed, and Si Tu changed her clothes in advance when she was awake, and she was no longer a hospital gown. He said that instead of wearing a suit, just an ordinary set of clothes will do. Gong Qi brought everything with her, and they handled everything calmly. The ward was as peaceful as if nothing had happened.
Si Tu has always been very decent, he doesn't seem to lose his temper, and is always gentle and calm. So Qin Fang protected his calmness, and even Gong Qi didn't panic when he was around.
It was already dark on the way from the hospital to the funeral home. It was a sunny day, and the sun scorched everything. At night, there is still that undissipated heat in the air. Looking up, the sky is full of stars.
After everything was temporarily settled, Qin Fang let himself stand in the small open space and took a few long breaths.
He stood a little stiffly, he had just experienced a parting.
There are still many lucky people at their age who have never experienced parting. But Qin Fang has experienced that he was still young when his mother left, and there were no stars in the sky on the night his father left.
Xing Yan and the others have also experienced it, and after experiencing it, they have no home since then.
They always say that they just grew up tied together, but in fact they are all bluffing. They grow in that house, and then go away one by one. They each have their own lives, but the roots are always entangled.
Qin Fang looked up at the stars in the sky, then slowly closed his eyes—
My beloved teenager lost his last friend today.