After Xing Yan went out, Qin Fang lay there in a daze for a long time, probably going to Si Tu's room.
In fact, Qin Fang wanted to stay, but he didn't think about what to say, and he couldn't stay when he left. It's true that he couldn't sleep because he was in the same room with Xing Yan, but it wasn't because he was uncomfortable.
Not uncomfortable, there is something uncomfortable.
Xing Yan still thought too much. After all, Qin Fang was still a sick patient. After taking a shower and changing clothes, he felt much more comfortable. After thinking about it for a while, he fell asleep again. Sleep till dawn.
It's almost ten o'clock on the phone.
It's been almost twenty hours since I slept yesterday afternoon, and I'm tired from sleep. Qin Fang stood up, stretched his arms, and walked out slowly. Han Xiaogong was sitting on the sofa in the living room, cross-legged, playing with his mobile phone.
The sun was very bright outside, and it seemed to go back to two or three years ago, when he came out of the bedroom every day, Han Xiaogong would sit casually on the sofa, occasionally accompanied by the sound of Si Tu playing the piano in the room. Qin Fang stood there for a while, Han Xiaogong looked at him and smiled: "Are you looking stupid again?"
Qin Fang also laughed, said "um", and walked towards the bathroom.
After taking a shower, I feel completely alive. After all, I am young and have good physical strength. After two days of being sick and tired, I got a good night's sleep and passed away. He walked over and sat on the sofa, Han Xiaogong asked him: "Are you feeling better?"
"Much better." Qin Fang said.
The room was very quiet, Qin Fang looked around, and asked, "Where are the others? Are you up?"
Han Xiaogong said, "Brother Yan?"
Qin Fang shook his head and smiled lightly: "And Zhou Siming."
Han Xiaogong said: "Zhou Siming is still sleeping, Brother Yan is gone."
Qin Fang was stunned for a moment, then blinked: "Where did you go?"
"Where else can he go?" Han Xiaogong said lightly.
Qin Fang's mind went blank, feeling like he didn't bring it up in one breath. Xing Yan was so busy that he would definitely have to leave, and he didn't think about what happened, and he didn't even know what to say to Xing Yan, but Qin Fang still felt surprised when he left like this, and Xing Yan left without any preparation.
They didn't say a few words altogether.
"You..." Han Xiaogong raised his eyebrows and asked, "Have you talked?"
Qin Fang shook his head.
Han Xiaogong looked at him and said, "I've seen you two talking awkwardly these two days, do you feel embarrassed?"
"It's not embarrassing," Qin Fang shook his head again, "it's quite natural, isn't it?"
"That's because you think it's natural on your own." Han Xiaogong smiled, "I rarely see Brother Yan like this..."
Qin Fang raised his eyebrows and waited for him to speak.
Han Xiaogong said with a smile: "...Count."
Qin Fang didn't know what to say, he hadn't recovered from the fact that Xing Yan had left. We had a quick meeting, and then we left.
"The road is made by oneself, and the road chosen by oneself bears the consequences." Han Xiaogong shook his head, "Everyone has to be responsible for their own choices, and he is the same."
Qin Fang lowered his head, and said "um" after a while.
After that, the two of them stopped talking, Qin Fang was in a daze, and Han Xiaogong was also in a daze.
Until Han Xiaogong suddenly asked him: "Are you still single now?"
Qin Fang was taken aback by his question again, and raised his head: "What do you think?"
"I guess so," Han Xiaogong leaned his head on the back of the sofa, and said, "If you weren't single, you probably left yesterday and hooked up with your ex-boyfriend, you probably wouldn't give yourself this chance."
Qin Fang thought about his words, then smiled and said, "It makes sense."
Han Xiaogong spread his hands, Qin Fang will always let himself be frank. But Qin Fang shook his head this time, and said with a light smile, "...but I'm not single."
Han Xiaogong looked at him, Qin Fang looked straight at him, nodded, and confirmed, "I'm not single."
Footsteps came from behind, and someone walked in through the door. Both of them looked back, Qin Fang blinked, and watched Xing Yan walk in with a lunch box.
His last words were still ringing in his ears, Xing Yan lowered his eyes, and asked when he walked by: "Are you up?"
Qin Fang cleared his throat and responded.
He turned his head to look at Han Xiaogong, killing people with his eyes. Just now Han Xiaogong said that Xing Yan had left.
Han Xiaogong was a little innocent, he didn't say anything, it was all Qin Fang's own imagination.
Xing Yan put the things on the dining table, and said to Qin Fang: "Eat something light when you have a fever."
"Okay." Qin Fang cleared his throat again. He felt good after waking up, but now his throat started to feel dry again.
Xing Yan didn't raise his head very much, put down his things and went out. Han Xiaogong raised his head and asked him, "Aren't you going to eat?"
"You eat." Xing Yan finished speaking and went out.
His walking posture is the same as before, very straight. Qin Fang looked back at his back, and remembered last night that Xing Yan asked him if he was uncomfortable, and then left the room. It is probably the same reason not to eat with them now.
"I went to cry alone, don't worry about him." Han Xiaogong shrugged, motioned Qin Fang to eat, glanced out, and said, "Since you are not single, don't be soft-hearted and eat yours."
Qin Fang raised his eyebrows: "Shouldn't you try to match up?"
"You're not single anymore, what should I match, I don't want to lose it." Han Xiaogong laughed, "You are a sensible person, so I don't need to say anything. If there are people around you, you have to look forward. If you look back, the three of you are all uncomfortable."
Qin Fang said "um" and opened the lunch box. It's the casserole porridge he used to love, and he often eats it for breakfast when he comes here. Now the taste is a bit different from before, probably the chef has changed.
There is also a tacit understanding between him and Han Xiaogong, they won't look unfamiliar after a long time without seeing each other, they are quite familiar. Qin Fang asked him how he was doing now, and Han Xiaogong said it was fine.
They ate and chatted until Zhou Siming came down.
Han Xiaogong asked him to go over for dinner, and Zhou Siming also came over, and he even greeted him peacefully.
"I'm more mature, I don't bite people randomly anymore." Han Xiaogong said with a smile.
Zhou Siming glanced at him and said flatly, "Do you have to scold me?"
Han Xiaogong also stopped talking.
The three of them were eating here, and Xing Yan didn't know where he went. Qin Fang actually felt a little uncomfortable, so he stopped eating after two more mouthfuls. He walked out and saw Xingyan sitting on the edge of Xingyan flower garden with his head bowed.
Qin Fang looked at him, Xing Yan didn't move for a long time, quietly.
Later Qin Fang called him, Xing Yan looked up, Qin Fang pointed inside: "Go eat."
"En." Xing Yan hooked the corner of his mouth, "Okay."
This was the first time Qin Fang saw Xing Yan smile when he came back, so let's just call it a smile.
When he walked to Qin Fang's side, Xing Yan asked him: "Is it still burning?"
Qin Fang shook his head: "It's not burned."
Xing Yan nodded and went in by mistake.
When they were eating, Qin Fang sat on the sofa and listened to them, looking over from time to time. Occasionally, Xing Yan would meet eyes, and the two would look at each other for a short while, and then Xing Yan would look away.
He felt that Xing Yan had put a little distance from before because he said that he was not single, which was not even as natural as the two of them on the phone before.
Qin sighed inwardly.
Zhou Siming is leaving tomorrow, Han Xiaogong has free time, Xing Yan and today are three days away.
Qin released the ticket and booked it the day after tomorrow.
Then they left each other and went their own way. I don't know when we will see each other next time. So no one went out that day, they all stayed on the first floor, although no one talked to anyone for a long time. There are fewer people in this house, and it seems that there are many fewer. The one with the best temper is gone, and it seems that the middle line is missing. Although the others are not bad tempered now, they can't bond naturally.
Xing Yan was sitting in the yard, but Qin Fang went out and sat next to him.
Qin Fang wore a lot of clothes because he was not feeling well and felt cold because he had a fever. Normally the weather here is very hot now, Han Xiaogong and Zhou Siming are both wearing short sleeves, only Xing Yan is still wearing tight clothes.
When Xing Yan looked at him, Qin Fang asked, "Aren't you hot?"
"It's okay." Xing Yan said.
"I thought you would look very scholarly now." Qin Fang joked with him, "You look very naughty now."
Xing Yan followed his words and smiled: "Is there?"
"Well, it looks like a fight if there is a disagreement." Qin Fang said.
"Because of hair?" Xing Yan touched the top of his head.
Qin Fang thought for a while: "Maybe, why did you shave it? Are you also playing motorcycles over there?"
Xing Yan shook his head, twitching the corners of his mouth: "It's too troublesome and expensive to cut hair over there. I bought a clipper and pushed it in front of the mirror."
Qin Fang laughed for a long time because of his words, imagining Xing Yan pushing his hair in the mirror, and thought it would be quite... sexy.
Because of a few relaxed conversations, the atmosphere between the two of them became more natural, and there was no tension anymore.
"You haven't changed much," Xing Yan told him, "It's still the same."
"What kind?" Qin Fang asked him.
Xing Yan lowered his head and smiled, and said: "If I praise you now, you should be embarrassed, so stop talking."
Qin Fang laughed again.
In fact, the two of them didn't have much to talk about, and Xing Yan could take the initiative to bring up too few topics. Talking about not seeing each other for the past two years would bring the distance between the two of them infinitely farther, reminding each other that they had been blank for two years. Let alone words related to the past, it is out of date.
Qin Fang said "I'm not single", and they couldn't even make phone calls in the future. This sentence fell like a knife hanging above the head, smashing people empty.
Xing Yan was not frank enough, nor could he take it easy. He is still sinking in the past, but Qin Fang has already moved forward.
Qin Fang could even ask him with a frank smile, "Have you talked about friends yet?"
Xing Yan looked at him, shook his head and said, "No, I'm too busy."
Qin Fang nodded and said, "There are many people chasing you, right?"
Xing Yan said: "I didn't pay attention to these."
It was so natural for Qin Fang to talk about these things, as if they were really just a pair of friends who hadn't seen each other for a long time. His magnanimity makes other people's hearts ugly and embarrassing, so he doesn't show up on the stage.
Xing Yan has never been a person who makes people feel uncomfortable to get along with. Since Qin Fang is not single and has friends, he is an ex-boyfriend, and many things are inappropriate.
At night, he didn't even enter the room, and went directly to Si Tu's room.
Han Xiaogong and Zhou Siming returned to their respective rooms, and they were the only ones left on the dark floor. When Xing Yan was taking a bath, Qin Fang sat on the sofa in the living room. After taking a shower, Xing Yan only wore a pair of pants and his upper body was naked. He thought Qin Fang had already fallen asleep. As a result, when he opened the door and came out, he saw Qin Fang stunned for a moment. When Qin Fang looked up at him, Xing Yan quickly closed the door, and when he came out, he was already dressed.
"Didn't sleep?" Xing Yan asked him.
"Not yet." Qin Fang said.
"Then you... rest early." Xing Yan whispered.
Although it is not completely dark in the line of sight, you can see what you need to see, but it can still play a role in covering up. Qin Fang sat there, took a deep breath, and suddenly asked a sentence that had a great impact on the two of them now.
"That question at the beginning—have you thought it through?"
Xing Yan stood where he was, pursed his lips, and looked in Qin Fang's direction. After a long time, Xing Yan said: "It's useless now."
Qin Fang said, "I want to hear it."
Xing Yan walked over in silence and sat on the sofa on the far right. They sat on one side, with a long gap between them. Xing Yan said in a deep voice, "I won't talk about those."
Qin Fang didn't make a sound, Xing Yan touched his head, which was the same as touching Qin Fang's head in the past, and he often does this now.
"I have to think about every sentence before I say it. Is it appropriate to say it? It may not be appropriate to say it later, but I will say it again." Xing Yan leaned on the sofa, no need to hold himself up in the dark Very straight, he raised his head, and his Adam's apple twitched slightly when he spoke, "I hope you... well. I've figured out the answer a long time ago, but if you've put it down and looked forward, if you're doing well now, That's all in the past, it doesn't matter."
Qin Fang turned his head and looked at him: "Then what if I'm not good?"
"It's not good, you tell me." Xing Yan also looked at him, and the eyes of the two met directly under the blurred moonlight, "I owe you the answer, the wrong things I did - I will pay back slowly in the future."