It's because in my previous life, I was not a good person and didn't take good care of our children. I can't get close to you anymore. Even if you are innocent in this life and you think you love me to this extent, I can't get close to you anymore. I don't hate you anymore, you are not the same person as before, but I still can't forget the past, and I can't reconcile with you on behalf of the Xi'er of the past.
In this world, you are so lucky, unaware of the past, Xier has also forgotten the oath he made to you. You are not father and son, but better than father and son. In Xier's eyes, you are the hero he admires most.
That's it, good enough.
Mu Fulan thought blankly until she felt a pain. The pain came from her shoulder being held by his ten fingers. Her eyes were dry and bitter, as if her tears were about to be blown down by the mountain wind blowing in her face.
She closed her eyes for a moment, waited for the sourness to subside, and then opened her eyes.
"Why did you pursue me so far?" she asked him, her voice gentler than ever before.
"Is it because you love me that you do such a rash thing?"
The man did not respond to her. His lips were stubbornly closed, his expression was like a rock, only the bloodshot streaks under his eyes slowly became redder, as if a spider web had formed in his eyes.
"You want to seize the world because you desire supreme power and are driven by instinct. You take care of your mother because she gave you your body and hair, which is only natural. What about me? Why can't you let go of me?"
"Chang Geng," she stared at him, her voice in the wind still so gentle.
"If you are willing to face your heart, it is not difficult for you to figure it out. People with your background and experience seek rewards for every step you take and every effort you make. In my case, you think you have paid a lot, but you have not received any return. You are unwilling to give up, and you become obsessed and unwilling to give up."
"I just ask you, why do you hate me to this extent?"
"I want you to say it!"
Mu Fulan shook her head.
"You are wrong. I don't hate you that much. In this life, since I married you, in the past few years, you have done nothing wrong that can make me hate you to this extent. On the contrary, I am somewhat grateful to you for your generosity and treating Xi'er like a father. But Chang Geng, you also heard what Mu's mother and I said that night. Every judgment I made about you at that time was my judgment of you. If I give my heart to you and entrust myself to you, I must be prepared to be abandoned by you for some reason at any time. You care too much. In this world, except for the throne and your mother, there is probably nothing else that can make you do your best. And I will never entrust my life to such a man again. Do you understand? This is why I stay away from you and do everything I can, even if it means destroying my innocence, to go our separate ways."
"What right do you have to make such a judgment about me?" he said. "Even if I am stubborn and refuse to stop, you said it yourself that I did nothing wrong. It would be fine if you made such a judgment on me based on your own imagination, but you even implicated me in the future. Where is justice for me?"
"Then let me ask you, between me and the throne, you can only choose one. How will you choose?"
He seemed surprised and paused. "How could you have such a ridiculous idea?"
"I want you to give up the throne for me. Can you do it?" she asked.
"There is a god on Junshan Mountain. You swear to the god that in the future, if you and I have to choose one, you must choose me and give up the imperial cause. Then I will follow you without any regrets."
He opened his mouth, but no sound came out.
Mu Fulan smiled.
"You see, you won't swear," she said.
"I'm not trying to make things difficult for you, but if it were the other way around, and you had to abandon me for the throne, you would definitely do so."
He looked at her with an extremely obscure expression.
"Asking you to make such a choice, as you said, is indeed absurd. How can a woman be compared with the country? Besides, everyone has difficulties. But do you remember what I told you in Guzang before? My beloved, if he is in trouble and needs me, I am willing to sacrifice my life for him. If I am in trouble, I know he will also do his best to treat me the same. I was not perfunctory to you that day, I was serious. In the end, you and I are not on the same path, why do you have to tie yourself up in trouble?"
The setting sun in the west, riding on the waves of Dongting Lake, sank beneath the water.
The dusk suddenly grew darker. On the cliff, crows circled the treetops, making a lot of noise.
"After your injury heals, you can leave. It's not suitable for you to stay here for long."
She wanted to move his hand away from her body, but his fingers were bent stiffly, as if frozen by ice and snow, and she couldn't move them even a little bit.
She slowly raised her eyes and looked into the eyes of the man opposite her.
"Chang Geng, the person I loved that day was the one who saved the little bird for me. You know that you have never been him."
She said, and waited quietly.
A gust of wind came from the lake in the distance, rolled up to the top of the cliff, and blew her skirt wildly.
The knuckles of those hands slowly loosened, and the strength seemed to slip away bit by bit. Finally, they let go completely and slid down from her body powerlessly.
In the dim twilight, Xie Changgeng's face was as pale as a mandrill emerging from the dark sky.
He stood stiffly under the old cypress tree that had been silent for a thousand years, motionless. After a moment, he slowly turned his head and watched her walk down the mountain path, her back like riding the wind.
"Lan'er..."
Just as the figure was about to disappear at the end of the mountain path, he heard an extremely hoarse voice calling from his ears. At first he thought it was an auditory hallucination, but soon he realized that it was the sound coming from his throat.
The beautiful figure in front did not stop, but continued to move forward, quickening its pace.
He subconsciously took a step forward and chased after him, but after a few steps, he stopped dejectedly. Finally, he closed his mouth, pursed his lips tightly, and stood under the tree like a stone stake until the sky darkened, and the mountain was completely shrouded in the dim night.
…
Mu Fulan was told by her followers that Xie Changgeng left alone by boat late at night.
Early the next morning, the east side of Dongting Lake was connected to the Milky Way at dawn, and Mu Fulan returned to the city by boat.
This was her last trip to Junshan Mountain in the next three years. She never set foot on Junshan Mountain again. Not long after she left, accompanied by thunder in the early spring of the following year, a lightning bolt struck from the sky, knocking down the thousand-year-old cypress tree on the cliff, uprooting it, and burning it to death.
The Junshan old cypress, which was regarded as a sacred tree by the people, was burned by thunder. For a long time, this news made the people panic, fearing that Changsha would suffer a disaster. Fortunately, although there was chaos outside and the flags on the city walls were changed, Changsha was safe. Although the regent was a woman, she was lenient and strict, and clearly distinguished rewards and punishments. She managed Changsha in an orderly manner, not inferior to the previous king of the Mu family. The hearts of the people finally settled down gradually.
The third anniversary of my brother's death. According to the century-old tradition of the Mu royal family, after worshipping at the ancestral temple, they must go to the Junshan Emperor Hall to worship the emperor in order to seek blessings.
On this day, three years after that night, Mu Fulan went to Junshan again. When she came down from the Great Emperor's Palace with the ministers and followers of Changsha State, the minister in charge of sacrifice told Mu Fulan that the sacred tree that was scorched by the thunder three years ago had sprouted new branches and was thriving.
The officials of Changsha State who were traveling with them were all delighted when they heard this. They believed that this was a good omen and should be widely spread among the people so that they could share in the joy.
Mu Fulan stopped, turned around, looked in the direction of the cliff in the distance, was lost in thought for a moment, said "OK", and then turned around and went down the mountain.
She returned to the palace and the first thing she asked was Aju.
After the king's brother left, sister-in-law Lu was too worried and died of illness a year later. Aju, who had lost her parents one after another, became Mu Fulan's own daughter.
Every year when it comes to the anniversary of her brother and sister-in-law's death, A-ju is in a very low mood. Two days ago, the maid told Mu Fulan that the little princess was crying secretly. Mu Fulan was worried about her, so when she came back from outside, she asked about her situation. She learned that Xi'er was with A-ju in the horse farm of the palace, so she went to look for her.
There was an area behind the palace that was used as a horse farm. When Mu Fulan went there, she saw Aju sitting on the back of the little dragon horse, and Xi'er was holding the reins for her and teaching her how to master the essentials of riding a horse.
In a blink of an eye, it has been five years since Xier returned to her side.
He was not even ten years old, but he was already very tall, taller than Mu Fulan's shoulders, and had grown into a handsome young man.
The little dragon horse is five years old now, and it is no longer the skinny horse that Xi'er had seen when she first met it. It is now a young horse with shiny hair, strong and majestic.
"Sister A-ju, don't be afraid. I met the little dragon horse when I was in Hexi. It followed me when it was only a few months old and it listens to me very much. It knows that if I help you get on its back, it won't drop you. Try touching its ears. If it makes a purring sound, it means it likes you."
Aju reached out and carefully touched the little dragon horse's ear, then lowered her head and moved closer to listen carefully.
The little dragon horse shook his head and made a soft gurgling sound in his throat.
"I really heard it! It really purred!" Aju stood up in surprise, and finally the first smile in many days appeared on her face.
"Little Longma likes Sister Aru. It will be better if you smile more, sister."
"Brother, please teach me how to ride a horse. The guards said you are amazing. Not only can you ride a horse and shoot arrows at the same time, but you are also very accurate!"
"Okay, Sister Aju, you listen to my commands."
…
Mu Fulan looked at the figure of the teenager who was accompanying his little sister in front of him and trying hard to make her forget her sadness. She felt extremely relieved and did not want to disturb her. She turned back quietly and was told that Lu Lin wanted to discuss something with her and was waiting for her.
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