The Tianji Martyrs Cemetery was quiet, and Xue Ba's tomb was in one of them, with a few bouquets of flowers placed in front of the tombstone.
At this time, Gu Jun put down the bouquet of flowers he brought in front of the tomb, silently looking at the photo of the heroic and resolute head on the tombstone.
"Captain Xue, thank you for taking care of me before, thank you for what you have done." He said softly, knowing better than others that Captain Xue's soul may have become a servant of the child of doom, living in that eerie and magnificent church inside…
After thinking about this for a while, Gu Jun had a throbbing pain in his aching head, which forced him to stop immediately, probably because the blood flow in the brain was increasing sharply.
Today he wanted to come here alone to visit the grave, to gather his thoughts, and to say goodbye, but he still followed a few colleagues from a distance, because they were afraid that he would faint and need first aid.
Today is January 26. As early as a week ago, Master Tong came back from Ross Country overnight and told him about the inspection results and the organization's decision.
"Ah Jun, I kind of know how you feel..." Master Tong sighed, "There are times in life that such crap happens, sometimes there are."
For this result, Gu Jun is naturally very difficult to accept, lost, dazed, frustrated, and depressed with nowhere to go.
When he just woke up from the coma, he thought that the next step would be to recover, and then devote himself to new work, such as the formation of goa, and the establishment of relationships with the tribes of the ancestors, return to the dreamland, and continue to do more for this world What a useful thing.
But now... In his heart, whether there is another sense of relief at the same time of depression, he doesn't know, he's not sure.
"Master Tong, I'm fine." He said at the time, "Since joining the Tianji Bureau, I have no regrets... I have long thought about when I can take a break." I don't even have time for a movie, it's really hard to live like this, I can finally get out of the sea of suffering."
"That's right." Master Tong also smiled bitterly, "You kid is on paid leave, and you are ordered to play! You just give us a good time and recover well."
"Well... these jobs are up to you..." Gu Jun didn't know what to say, and he couldn't think of more self-deprecating words.
Having said that, during the week, he tried some unconventional treatments.
Because whether there are any abnormal forces at work here, in fact, even he himself can't say for sure.
The power of the system was broken, but it didn't dissipate completely, and it became a chaos in my mind. Will this affect it? Or was it because of the sequelae left behind when he ended the ceremony and was almost swallowed by darkness? These are uncertain.
Gu Jun first tried the "spiritual barrier technology" that Deng Ximei had contributed to the bureau. This is like a psychological self-hypnosis method of aliens. It is through skillful meditation, self-imagination, filling in details, etc. to create a Layers can affect the protection of consciousness.
The bureau attaches great importance to this technology, because the mind barrier can not only be used to fabricate a fictitious self, and Deng Ximei did not explain it to the bureau in this way. The spiritual impact and spiritual erosion of the value, the transfer is borne by this barrier.
A mental barrier can be an imaginary self, some vision of the future that one is passionately looking forward to, or a fond memory that keeps strengthening.
This technology is very helpful to front-line combatants, and it also allows the Astronomy Bureau to master another world-leading psychic technology.
The Bureau has selected the first batch of personnel from the Magic Department and the Old Printing Department for training and learning. Lou Xiaoning and Uncle Dan are among them, but Peacock and the others are not in the first batch of lists, because they originally have dual selves, and then It's hard to say what will happen if you add a layer of mental barriers. It's not too late to learn after the bureau has figured it out.
But it was at this stage that Gu Jun tried to heal himself with a mental barrier, using a future expectation to build a barrier to fight against persistent avoidance symptoms.
But before he officially started, since he listened to Deng Ximei's detailed explanation, his headache gradually intensified, and the first attempt failed.
The second attempt was delayed for a day, but it also failed. He couldn't concentrate to that extent at all, and things that he could do easily in the past were now difficult.
It's like a thousand kilograms of weight is tied to both feet, and if you want to run, it's not humanly possible.
The mental barrier technique failed, and the old seal technique didn't work. Gu Jun also tried other methods, such as psychotherapy, burning incense and worshiping Buddha, as well as taking norepinephrine reuptake inhibitors for drug treatment, but also drinking some traditional Chinese medicine , also did some diet therapy. However, all of them have no effect.
One treatment option after another proved to be unworkable, and one hope was shattered. In the end, Gu Jun himself and the treatment team could only accept the bitter fruit.
Today is the 26th, and there are not a few days left before New Year's Eve on the 31st at the end of the month.
Thanks to the tranquility of these days, many people have a small vacation and can go home to visit relatives for the new year, but many of them are worried about Gu Jun.
Gu Jun was aware of this situation, so he proposed to start the vacation quickly, but in fact, he was leaving before the Chinese New Year, so that everyone could go home and have a good New Year.
"Captain Xue, I'm leaving this afternoon." At this time, Gu Jun said softly to the photo on the tombstone, "I don't know when I will be back."
He would still come back regularly for brain exams, but "come back" in another sense had no date.
He can't participate in frontline work, nor can he do logistics and clerical work. He can't even transfer to the Recreation Department to arrange food, drink and entertainment for everyone, or to be a mascot image spokesperson in the Public Relations Department, because as long as he is in Tianji Bureau and goa, he will inevitably be Expose him to a large amount of information about abnormal things, which is not conducive to his rest and recovery.
In the face of abnormal things, he didn't have a strong stress reaction when he came into contact with Zugjili, but only had a dull headache. It may be because of the special connection established by the sweet dream before, or it may be because of the creature like Zug It would not have caused stress to anyone.
Therefore, he will still participate in the matter of forming an alliance with Zuge in due course.
But in the end, the most appropriate arrangement for him now is to leave the Bureau of Secrets, leave these abnormal things, and return to his normal life.
"Captain Xue, don't feel sorry for me." Gu Jun said again, "Compared to you and many patients, I'm already much luckier. Captain Xue, even if someone like you sacrifices, there should be a hero. way, rather than sudden doom..."
He took a deep breath as he spoke, "It's just that there are a lot of regrets in this world. After leaving, I have to go back to the dormitory to pack my things and see you next time."
After Gu Jun finished speaking, he paid a military salute to the tombstone with a sullen face, then turned around and strode away.
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