When did Shu Jin find out that he likes Sheng Xinghe
It was about seven or eight years ago.
During that time, he could not help but secretly look at Sheng Xinghe's face several times unconsciously. It's not surprising that boys are good-looking and eye-catching, but Sheng Xinghe does not belong to this category.
Almost everyone felt uncomfortable when they saw Sheng Xinghe's face for the first time. The beauty of such a beautiful face was completely destroyed by the turbid and horrible gray right eye. It attracted all the attention and made people unconscious. To imagine what kind of tragic experience this young man has experienced.
If they are not very familiar, ordinary people can't calmly set their eyes on Sheng Xinghe's face. They will worry about whether such eyes will make Sheng Xinghe uncomfortable, and they will worry about being misunderstood that they are all looking at his incomplete parts.
Shu Jin was the same at the beginning.
But when he came back to his senses during that time, he would find that he was staring at Sheng Xinghe for a long time - Sheng Xinghe was always so indifferent, he accepted everything and tolerated everything, and he lived in it with ease, not like a poor family in a small town. from.
Shu Jin would think, what does it matter if you lose one eye.
Sheng Xinghe is so good, many times better than many healthy people. People who really like him should not care about this at all.
After peeking a lot, Sheng Xinghe occasionally turned his head intuitively and asked Shu Jin, "What are you looking at?"
Shu Jin was caught, his heart skipped a beat, and he said indiscriminately, "Who is looking at you, I'm secretly scolding you!"
Sheng Xinghe rubbed his head: "I just can't see, and I'm not deaf!"
Shu Jin blushed.
Later, Sheng Xinghe's accidental words would also cause his heartbeat to become disordered. If he was talking about compliments, he would even recall it unconsciously before going to bed, curling up excitedly, making it difficult for him to fall asleep.
Sometimes when Sheng Xinghe was doing a question, Shu Jin took a pen next to him to draw a picture.
Auntie cut the fruit, and he stuffed it into his mouth from time to time, bulging his cheeks: "Brother, do you think this design is perfect?"
His design ideas are all kinds of strange, he has everything, from cups to houses, he can draw whatever comes to his mind.
Sheng Xinghe stopped writing, looked over, and asked with a smile, "Are you going to be an architect?"
Shu Jin said: "I can be an architect, but I'm afraid I can't pass the test. But it doesn't matter if I can't pass the test. I can also be an interior designer, landscape architect, product designer or something." He pointed to the picture , can't wait to ask, "What do you think?"
Sheng Xinghe looked at it seriously and said, "I like this kind of house very much and want to live in it."
Shu Jin Nuonuo responded, took the paper back, imagined Sheng Xinghe living in it, and quietly modified the drawings according to his character, and then quietly clipped it into the book, took it out during class, and recalled Sheng Xinghe looking at the design The quiet profile of the picture.
When Sheng Xinghe went to college, Shu Jin decided his mind in the fear of discovering his sexuality.
Because of his eyes, Sheng Xinghe's favorite major has physical examination restrictions. He couldn't go, so he had to choose another famous university thousands of miles away from Yuecheng.
The first night Sheng Xinghe spent in the university dormitory, Shu Jin lost sleep.
The next day they called, and Shu Jin asked, "Brother, is there anyone bullying you there?"
Sheng Xinghe: "How come?"
Shu Jin said dully: "I don't want them all staring at you."
When Sheng Xinghe first came to school in high school, people always stared at him outside his classroom. Shu Jin hated this kind of situation.
"No one is staring at me." Sheng Xinghe's face could not be seen, only his voice could be heard, "Then if someone really bullies me, can you still come over?"
"Of course." Shu Jin pretended to be fierce and said, "I'll bring puffs and let it kill them."
Sheng Xinghe smiled over there.
Finally, he said: "The classmates in the dormitory are very nice, helpful and polite."
Shu Jin was very sad.
In the past, he was the only one of Sheng Xinghe, but now Sheng Xinghe is in a place he can't see, making friends with other people, and he no longer needs him to "support" him in school.
The longer they were apart, the more he missed Sheng Xinghe.
Gradually, he learned that this feeling is called liking.
He missed Sheng Xinghe's eyes, fingers, and smell, the feeling of two people walking side by side when walking the dog together, and the many nights they spent together in the video room on the second floor.
Shu Jin faintly knew that this was wrong.
He was only in his teens, and he didn't dare to tell anyone, and he didn't dare to share his feelings with anyone.
The frequency of phone calls changed from frequent to occasional. Sheng Xinghe was busy with his studies, and Shu Jin kept himself busy. Two months passed, and it seemed that everything had returned to the period when Sheng Xinghe had never been here, and he didn't miss Sheng Xinghe much anymore, and the dessert tasted like still water.
Maybe it was just an illusion, he told himself, and heaved a deep sigh of relief.
Until the end of the evening self-study one night, Sheng Xinghe led the dog and waited for him at the school gate.
The students filed out. Sheng Xinghe stood under a tree, and seemed to stand out among the group of students. Shu Jin saw him at a glance, and his heart beat instantly out of control, beating like a drum: Why did he come back suddenly? Has he grown taller
Did he see me
The friend also saw Sheng Xinghe and pushed Shu Jin: "Hey, your brother is here."
Shu Jin: "…"
A friend sighed: "Even if you only have one eye, your brother is really handsome—"
Shu Jin had already rushed over.
"Brother, why did you come back suddenly?!" Shu Jin's hair was messed up, and the strap of the schoolbag pressed against the neckline of one side of the school uniform, "You didn't tell me!"
Sheng Xinghe pulled out his collar at will: "I came back in the afternoon. I heard that a section of the street light at the door was broken, so I thought of coming to pick you up."
Shu Jin's heart was beating wildly, because the eardrums were also beating with excitement.
He didn't know what to do at the moment, how to make it more natural, so he stretched out his hand to lead the dog's leash: "Puff!"
The dog raised his foot and lay on his lap, he rubbed the dog's head randomly, and the two led the dog on the way home.
After reaching that section of the road, he regained some consciousness and said, "Yesterday the street light broke, and there were still stones on the road. I almost fell last night."
There are few cars leading to the villa area, and the road is dark.
Only the city lights in the distance reflected the sky.
Sheng Xinghe flashed a flashlight with one hand, and pulled Shu Jin with the other: "Go steady."
The two had not held hands before.
It was a normal contact, but the moment Sheng Xinghe's fingertips touched the back of his hand, Shu Jin almost jumped up: "I-I'll go to your right!"
Sheng Xinghe: "No need."
Shu Jin bit his head and said, "You can't see this side, it's safer this way."
Sheng Xinghe didn't force it any more.
The road was not too long, and Shu Jin occasionally reprimanded the puff who was trying to pick up something on the road, pulling it back with a leash.
The two did not speak much.
It seems that the separation of two months has caused a little subtle change in them, and Shu Jin can't say why.
After walking out of this section, the vision was filled with light again, and they were bathed in bright light, only then did Shu Jin realize that Sheng Xinghe was looking down at him, as if he had something to say, but he didn't.
Shu Jin couldn't help but wonder, would Sheng Xinghe just like him a little bit
He knew that such a thought was shameful, and intuitively thought that there should be no boys who liked the same sex, let alone the clean and proud Sheng Xinghe.
Sheng Xinghe turned off the flashlight and said plainly, "Let's go."
Shu Jin led the dog and followed behind him.
When they returned home, Shu Zhaoyuan was also there, and when he saw them coming back, he said brightly, "Why did Xiaosheng come back too?"
Sheng Xinghe politely called "Uncle".
Shu Jin asked, "Dad, when did you come back?"
"Just arrived, Xiaosheng came back just in time!" Shu Zhaoyuan smiled, "Uncle is about to call you, so it's better to have a face-to-face interview."
Shu Zhaoyuan received a new order. Over the years, his deeds of continuously subsidizing outstanding poor students have attracted the attention of the local town government of Lingjiang, and listed them as cooperative enterprises. The development of the factory can no longer be compared with the original.
The business was booming, Shu Zhaoyuan was busier than before, and Shu Jin often didn't see him for a month.
Shu Jin went to pour water for the puffs, and when he came out, he heard Shu Zhaoyuan say to Sheng Xinghe: "Uncle's side, there is an interview with a character in the newspaper, which takes up half of the page! They said they wanted to contact you, and they also did a small interview. , I don't show my face, I just ask a few small questions and let you talk about your growth experience over the years. When do you think you are free? "
Shu Zhaoyuan didn't ask "Can you?", but directly asked "When are you free?"
The living room was quiet for a few seconds.
His father's inquiry made Shu Jin very uncomfortable.
But Sheng Xinghe said, "Is it okay the day after tomorrow? I'm going to sweep the tomb of my grandfather tomorrow, and I have to go back to Lingjiang."
It was only then that Shu Jin remembered that these days happened to be Grandpa Sheng Xinghe's life sacrifice. He used to go back at this time, no wonder he came back suddenly.
Shu Zhaoyuan agreed: "Yes, yes, then I'll trouble you, remember to answer the phone!"
He patted Sheng Xinghe on the shoulder and went back to the room.
Shu Jin said dissatisfiedly: "Why do you agree? I don't want you to be in the newspaper. The questions asked by those people are all messed up!"
What's the use of such interviews other than digging out the past experiences of the parties involved and highlighting the good deeds of the main characters
Sheng Xinghe said, "It's okay, I should do it."
Sheng Xinghe's attitude made Shu Jin very angry all of a sudden, but he couldn't tell what he was angry about, so he went upstairs angrily and said as he walked, "Then let others laugh at you! I don't care about you!"