Later, whether Sheng Xinghe was interviewed by the newspaper, Shu Jin can't remember.
After parting again, he would always think of the way Sheng Xinghe looked at him in the car, and then returned to the moment when his heart beat faster. Ambiguous emotions seemed to breed quietly between them, Shu Jin seemed to be unable to grasp it, but he was vaguely expecting something.
During that time, I miss you crazy.
Whenever he thinks of Sheng Xinghe, he and his classmates run on the court, swim in the swimming pool, walk the dog, study, write sets of test papers, and approach him desperately when Sheng Xinghe is not around. , become a better person.
The youth's energy was fully released, Shu Jin was quickly lifted up by a limp child, his body stretched out, and he grew solid shoulders and a thin back.
Sheng Xinghe didn't come back for many days during the university, and the delicate balance allowed them to control themselves, neither going further, nor taking a step back.
By the time Shu Jin's college entrance examination was over, it was as if he had been reborn.
After receiving the admission notice, Shu Zhaoyuan entertained relatives and friends and entertained the Quartet.
Shu Zhaoyuan spent a lot of money, booked the best hotel in the area, and invited people to set off fireworks at night. He wanted everyone to know how promising his son Shu Zhaoyuan was.
The guests gathered, and Shu Zhaoyuan drank one cup after another. Which of the guests did not say that he taught well.
First, he subsidized orphans and poor students, taught them carefully, and sent them to one of the best universities. Then, his own son was not willing to be left behind and was admitted to the famous universities in one fell swoop. Shu Zhaoyuan's business is booming, and the children in the family also honor him. He can't help but blow a few words between the cups and the cups, saying that tigers have no dogs.
Sheng Xinghe came a little later that day.
Shu Jin is forced to attend the banquet and follow his father as the protagonist.
As soon as he turned his head and saw Sheng Xinghe walking in from the door, Shu Jin's first thought was whether it would be ugly to wear it like this.
For the first time in his life, he wore a formal shirt and trousers, which outlined his slender waist and long, straight legs. The refreshing young man stood beside his fat father, full of energy.
When the room was full of guests, Shu Jin saw Sheng Xinghe walking towards him. He firstly called out "Uncle" politely, and then whispered in his ear, "You've grown taller."
Shu Jin said nothing: "Oh, you just know, maybe I will catch up with you when you come back next time."
Sheng Xinghe stood up straight, lowered his eyes and said, "That's still a long way off."
Shu Jin had a fever in his ears and stood up straighter: "I haven't turned eighteen yet, and it will grow longer!"
Sheng Xinghe said, "It's coming soon."
Sheng Xinghe is not boasting, Shu Jin is always half a head shorter than Sheng Xinghe.
The two are only two years apart. One is growing and the other is growing too. After all, the fact that they have been elevated together makes Shu Jin secretly happy, as if only they have such a tacit understanding.
When Sheng Xinghe came, Shu Jin didn't think this occasion bored him. I was busy until the end, as long as I could look back at Sheng Xinghe occasionally, the dinner would become less difficult.
"The two of you are very proud of me!" Shu Zhaoyuan shouted, and praised them in front of everyone, "I will be more promising in the future! Let me, Shu Zhaoyuan, go out, not relying on money or power, just use the two of you. Proud!"
Shu Zhaoyuan turned red again and put his arms around Shu Jin's shoulder: "Son, you are Dad's pride!"
After everything was over, Shu Jin's mother called him to congratulate him and sent him a red envelope.
Shu Jin was very happy today.
Sheng Xinghe stayed at home for one night, played games and walked the dog with Shu Jin, the same as before, but a little different from before.
Shu Jin didn't dare to stand on Sheng Xinghe's right and look at him.
Because Sheng Xinghe's eyes were always on him, so Shu Jin knew that he was being watched all the time, stuttering even when he spoke, and the deer rammed.
But Sheng Xinghe was so natural, so Shu Jin didn't dare to ask or say anything, worrying about gains and losses.
During the summer vacation, Sheng Xinghe did not return to Yuecheng, but stayed in the city where he went to school. He said that he would do a small project with his classmates and set up a small company. Shu Jin watched all the movies about homosexuality he could find at home.
Some made him feel happy, some made him feel sad.
The beautiful plot of the movie gave him a new discovery, that is, liking someone has nothing to do with gender. It's not wrong to like the same sex, but it's really hard to be happy with each other.
If there are misunderstandings and wrong expectations, the best way is to keep silent.
On Sheng Xinghe's twentieth birthday, Shu Jin bought a ticket to see him.
That night, Shu Jin met Sheng Xinghe's roommate, classmates, and alumni who started a company together. Sheng Xinghe is a university that skips grades and is the youngest in the class. Now there is a younger Shu Jin, and everyone makes fun of how old he is.
"Is it my brother?"
"how old are you?"
"You look so good, do you have a girlfriend?"
"Where to go to college?"
These brothers and sisters were very gossipy, and Shu Jin was almost overwhelmed by their inquiries. Sheng Xinghe came to rescue him and pulled him up from his seat to sit beside him.
Holding hands, touching briefly.
Sheng Xinghe's eyes swept across his face, with a smile on his lips, he continued to talk to his friends.
Shu Jin looked at his perfect right face, looked at his gray eyes, and his heart was throbbing.
Someone made a joke between Sheng Xinghe and another female classmate who was not present.
Shu Jin listened and carefully ate the dishes on the table.
I heard Sheng Xinghe say, "No way, my eyes."
The man said: "You are so good, who cares about your eyes, don't use it as an excuse!"
Sheng Xinghe's tone did not change, and he said with ease: "Parents will mind, rather than being taken apart at that time, I should not waste girls' time."
Sheng Xinghe also used this excuse to prevaricate female classmates in high school.
Only Shu Jin knew that he didn't think so at all. He simply felt that falling in love was a waste of study time and precious energy. But girls are always braver and more frustrated, unless they use physical defects as an excuse, they can really be quiet.
But this time, hearing him say that again, Shu Jin felt a little tingling in his heart.
After the game was over, Sheng Xinghe's roommate offered to go home to sleep and let Shu Jin go to their dormitory for the night.
Sheng Xinghe said: "He can't sleep well, let me take him outside."
The roommate smiled: "Look at you, your brother won't sleep in the dormitory in his school?"
In the end, Sheng Xinghe took Shu Jin to book a hotel.
Shu Jin really didn't sleep in the dormitory. He was pampered and obsessed with cleanliness. On the first day of college, Shu Zhaoyuan rented him a one-bedroom apartment outside the school. Having never experienced collective life, Shu Jin must not be able to sleep in the stranger's dormitory.
On the way, Shu Jin asked, "Brother, do you really think girls will mind your eyes?"
Sheng Xinghe: "Why ask this?"
Shu Jin blinked: "I just wanted to ask, are you talking casually, or do you really feel that way."
Sheng Xinghe looked at him: "What's the difference between what you say and what you really think?"
"Oh, this." Shu Jin thought about choosing his words, "Don't say anything casual, I don't like listening to it, and I really think it's unnecessary. As your classmate said, you are so good, Who would mind?"
Sheng Xinghe responded lightly, as if he didn't care.
Shu Jin's heart was sour and a little anxious: "Are you listening?"
Sheng Xinghe said, "Yes."
Shu Jin was really mad at him.
The emperor is not in a hurry for the eunuch. Sheng Xinghe always has a way to make Shu Jin annoyed in this regard. In Shu Jin, there is no way to say that Sheng Xinghe is not good, not even Sheng Xinghe himself.
When you arrive at the hotel, swipe your card to enter the room.
Sheng Xinghe suddenly asked, "Do you mind?"
Before the card was inserted into the card slot, the room was dark, only the sensor light behind the door came on briefly.
Shu Jin thought he heard it wrong: "Huh?"
Looking up, he found Sheng Xinghe looking at him again, he unconsciously took a step back, the light shone on half of Sheng Xinghe's face, and that black eye was as bright as starlight.
Sheng Xinghe asked again: "My eyes will not be as convenient as ordinary people, and there are many things in life that I can't follow my heart. The world I see is half less than yours. If it were you, would you mind?"
The feeling of ambiguity that I felt before is coming again.
Like the dark road without street lights, and the dull back seat of the car after returning from Lingjiang.
Once again, Shu Jin clearly felt Sheng Xinghe's tentacles carefully stretched out from the depths, as if he was waiting for him to touch it, and then he could wrap it tightly.
"How could I, how could I mind?" Shu Jin stammered, "otherwise, why would I call you brother and be so good to you?"
"I don't need you and me to be so good." Sheng Xinghe said.
The sensor light is off.
In the darkness, Sheng Xinghe's voice sounded again: "Shu Jin, what I want is another kind of good."
boom-
Shu Jin heard a burning sound exactly.
He trembled involuntarily, and he didn't know how long it took, only to hear a soft "ding" sound, and the lights in the room were instantly bright.
It was the first time he saw Sheng Xinghe's uncontrollable expression, and it was also the first time he saw Sheng Xinghe showing the annoyed look that a person of this age would have. Although Sheng Xinghe hid well, but knowing Sheng Xinghe was like him, he immediately understood something: Sheng Xinghe He really likes him too.
Maybe it was because of his identity or his physiology, Sheng Xinghe hid it very well. He had to think more and endured far more than Shu Jin.
Tempting each other, needing each other, and becoming restless at the same time.
Feelings that are sour and fermented, I don't know when they have reached their limit.
Neither of them could control its expansion, not even Sheng Xinghe, so they could only say it vaguely.
They've longed for a little catharsis.
Before waiting for a response, Sheng Xinghe turned around and walked in.
Shu Jin called his name, then pulled the corner of his shirt.
Entrance to the hotel room.
They stand one behind the other.
"What do you mean by that sentence?" Shu Jin blushed like a tomato, "Do you secretly like me? Tell me now!"
About a minute passed.
Shu Jin started stammering and said nonsense: "Are you kidding me, I tell you, it's not funny at all, don't make such a joke on the basis of my magnanimity and kindness-"
"No 'sneak'."
Sheng Xinghe interrupted him.
"I just like you, Shu Jin."