Shu Jin couldn't escape.
As a family member, Shu Zhaoyuan needs Shu Jin to come forward for the examination and wait for the results, because the fight and the affair between Shu Jin and Sheng Xinghe made him anxious and irritable, and Shu Jin had to bear the scolding from other patients and nurses.
Two hours later, the police came to the hospital to take a record, and Shu Jin realized that Shu Zhaoyuan had beaten the other party to death.
In the evening, amid Shu Zhaoyuan's increasingly weak scoldings of "eating inside and out", "unfilial son", and "betraying my good son", Shu Jincai had to close the door and send a message to Sheng Xinghe again in the empty corridor.
Shu Jin: [Go back first, really, don't wait for me. ]
Sheng Xinghe: [I bought you rice. ]
Shu Jin replied: [I have eaten. ]
Afraid that Sheng Xinghe would be worried, he sent another message: [When you go home, I will feel more at ease. ]
Shu Jin repeatedly refused, but Sheng Xinghe did not insist.
But when Sheng Xinghe called again the next morning, Shu Jin said that he was not free - apart from the injury on his forehead, there were five more bulging fingerprints on his face, and Shu Zhaoyuan had not touched him for more than 20 years. Complete this time.
The corner of Shu Jin's mouth was broken, and it hurt when he moved.
"I'm sorry, brother." Shu Jin said on the phone, "I can't accompany you for the New Year. Tomorrow is the Spring Festival. I can't leave him in the hospital alone."
"Okay." Sheng Xinghe didn't ask for it, but also cared about Shu Zhaoyuan's situation, and then said, "I brought you a change of clothes, you can come out and get it."
Shu Jin walked to the door and looked outside. The glass of the ward door was a corridor. He didn't dare to let Sheng Xinghe see what he looked like now, so he just glanced at it quickly and didn't tell whether Sheng Xinghe was there.
"Can you put me at the nurse's station, I can't get out now." He lied.
"Don't carry it yourself." Sheng Xinghe knew that Shu Jin had something to hide from him, but he didn't ask, just said, "As long as you want, I can stand in front of you at any time."
Shu Jin was almost overwhelmed with guilt.
Sometimes he just wanted to throw it all away and run home, no matter what, as long as he rushed into Sheng Xinghe's arms, but he couldn't.
Not only because of their own injuries, but also because of an invisible but tangible barrier between them.
Shu Zhaoyuan's condition was not too serious, and after a few days of observation in the hospital, the doctor suggested that he be discharged from the hospital for conservative treatment.
In the past few days, he didn't have much contact with Sheng Xinghe, but knowing that Sheng Xinghe was living in his house, Shu Jin had a sense of hope. They didn't discuss any more emotional issues, and Sheng Xinghe didn't ask any more questions. On the morning of the first day of the new year, someone brought a small cake to the hospital with a blue whale painted on it.
Shu Jin watched it all day, and was willing to eat it at night.
On the early morning of the third day of the new year, Sheng Xinghe said that he had to go back to work first.
Shu Jin panicked: "So soon?"
Is Sheng Xinghe angry because he is avoiding him
"The next time I come, I might have to wait until the end of March." Sheng Xinghe said on the phone, "My schedule is full before the end of March. There will be a few days at the end of the month. affect your work."
Sheng Xinghe was not angry.
Shu Jin wanted to cry a little, but reluctantly held back: "It doesn't matter."
Sheng Xinghe: "Or you can come over."
Shu Jin: "…"
"Basically, I won't travel for the whole month of March. You can come over on weekends, they all know about you." Sheng Xinghe asked, "Can you?"
Shu Jin felt a panic.
For this kind of remote living mode similar to after the relationship is determined.
He didn't know why this happened.
He knew that he should at least give Sheng Xinghe an affirmative answer, a reassurance, instead of a vague "I don't" or "I don't know", which would make Sheng Xinghe feel insecure, but he failed to do so.
Sheng Xinghe asked again: "Can you?"
He finally replied in a low voice: "Okay."
They didn't meet before Sheng Xinghe left.
On the last day of Shu Zhaoyuan's hospitalization, Shu Jin came forward to seek reconciliation with the other party, and under the adjustment of the police, he paid a sum of money to apologize.
When the man whose head was broken saw him, he couldn't lose his temper, and after complaining a few words, he asked his son to see him off.
Shu Jin walked out of the alley with the young man, and the other party said, "I'm sorry, my dad is not targeting you, don't care."
Shu Jin nodded: "I know."
The other party is round and round, and he is no longer the boy who worked in the barbecue shop. He has been married and had children over the years, and he has not lived much. The young man scratched his hair and asked embarrassedly, "Your father, did he blame you for knowing that?"
Shu Jin still had a small piece of gauze on his forehead, looking a little haggard, he couldn't deny it.
The man said again: "Shu Jin, you are very good. You are different from your father. Although I blamed you before, I have long forgiven you."
Shu Jin lowered his eyelashes, not knowing what he was thinking.
Man: "Actually it's not your fault, it's normal for you to forget, we were all too young at that time. Just like me, I remember that I should have told adults that it wasn't me at the time, and one of my teenage boys didn't start out. I told the adults that it wasn't me, but when they asked and said it several times, I felt that I did it."
It was the first time he had said these words to Shu Jin.
Shu Jin originally wanted to calm down, but he didn't expect to hear the sentence "We were all too young at that time, it's not your fault" would be so sad that tears almost fell uncontrollably.
"Actually, in the end, we can't help it." The man said, "You did that, and my dad went to report Shu Zhaoyuan to get revenge on him..."
Shu Jin wiped his eyes, shook his head and said, "It's him who has to do things against the law and discipline."
Before parting, the man asked, "Do you still have contact with Sheng Xinghe?"
Shu Jin was stunned by the question, not knowing how to answer this question.
"He's been in your house for so many years, and I think you had a good relationship at that time." The man felt that he was asking inappropriately when he said this, and said in a salutary manner, "He's actually a really nice person. Someone scolded me in the past, He even talked for me, and it doesn't necessarily mean that if I hurt him, he will hate me to death."
Shu Jin: "…"
"Let's end this matter, you don't owe us anything for a long time." The man said, "Even if you want to compensate, he is the one who should compensate."
After Shu Zhaoyuan was discharged from the hospital, he insisted on staying in the hotel instead of staying at his son's house. Shu Jin guessed that this was related to his shameful sexual orientation.
The father and son rarely spoke, and Shu Zhaoyuan almost regarded him as an enemy. The strange thing was that Shu Jin didn't feel bad about it.
Returning to the empty home alone, Shu Jin suddenly felt very tired.
The moment he entered the door, he lost all his strength, leaned against the door and slowly slid to the ground, feeling that his life hadn't really improved, as if he had never come out of the murky days five years ago. .
He kept remembering the phrase "you don't owe us anything" from the man, trying to comfort himself to live easier.
At least that's what he did well.
He sat on the floor and called his mother to explain the situation here. After chatting for a while, he obviously felt that the depression was fading away.
The mother said: "You have done a good job, Xiao Jin. The child is not wrong, the fault is the adult who did all this. You just corrected the fact, what causes and what results, what he does will backfire on himself sooner or later, he This day should have come."
Except for the unacceptable incident with Sheng Xinghe at the beginning, my mother almost never blamed him. After so many years, my mother asked the same question as that person this night: "You and Xiaosheng, is it still possible now?"
Shu Jin didn't tell her about the reunion with Sheng Xinghe.
So she didn't know that Shu Zhaoyuan's rage this time was related to Sheng Xinghe.
She said: "If you still like him, can you still contact him? Xiaosheng is a good boy who works hard and is motivated. I heard from your father that at that time Xiaosheng told him that even if it was you who hurt him, he I want you too."
"He said that he would not look down on you or neglect you because of this matter, and would treat you well for the rest of his life. If you are afraid that the future will change, then he can guarantee that he will never change. He also said that he does not want any compensation, as long as You are enough."
"At that time, you were both children, and you didn't know if what you said was true or not," she said. "I didn't plan to tell you this at first, but you are still alone for so many years, and I always feel that I did something wrong."
Hanging up the phone, Shu Jin stood up from the ground in a trance.
He opened the thin shoe cabinet to change his shoes, and saw a pair of new men's slippers, which he personally selected and belonged to Sheng Xinghe.
Walking into the living room, there were two more pillows on the sofa, and the books that were piled in a mess on the side became neat.
He walked into the room again and found that the bedding had been changed. The original heavy but not warm quilt had been replaced with a light and comfortable duvet. There were two fluffy pillows on the head of the bed and an extra one for him to use at night. desk lamp.
In the bathroom, there are two toothbrushes in the mouthwash cup, next to each other.
Shu Jin only regards it as a temporary residence, but some people regard it as home.
His nose was sore, as if he was completely awakened by something.
It's not five years ago now.
They met again five years later. Sheng Xinghe came to his city under uncertain circumstances and was close to his life. Even if he never opened his heart, Sheng Xinghe did not stop. Shu Jin has always been a coward, but when they met again, he only gently stretched out a corner and asked Sheng Xinghe's phone number in the guest room, and Sheng Xinghe grabbed him.
Shu Zhaoyuan's sudden release from prison and the fight ruined their Spring Festival.
It was strange to him that at this moment five years later, when everything had not been dealt with, he suddenly wanted to be self-willed. The feeling came suddenly, as if the backlog should have exploded five years ago.
It's neither too early nor too late.
Even though he was still escaping the last moment, the desire to run to Sheng Xinghe's side filled his chest at this moment.
Five years later, he should be brave.
He took out his mobile phone and looked at the high-speed rail tickets and plane tickets. Unfortunately, during the return journey from the spring break, he was not given a choice at all during the Spring Festival travel, and all the tickets were sold out.
He started looking at suitable ride-hailing.
Running such a long distance, few drivers may take orders during the Spring Festival holiday, and the process is a bit long.
During this period, Shu Jin kept thinking about what the people around him said.
Lin Xiang said, "He must have forgiven you long ago."
The person who has been the culprit for him for more than ten years said, "The one you should compensate is him."
Mother said: "He doesn't want any compensation, as long as you have enough."
Sheng Xinghe said: "If you still feel sorry for me, from now on, you will be atonement."
He was going to take an online car-hailing car that would run all night and go to the city of Sheng Xinghe.
He wanted to tell Sheng Xinghe whether it was "I'll talk about it later", not "I don't have it", and it wasn't a word "good" that had no meaning and no guarantee. He wanted to tell Sheng Xinghe—
He is greedy, he has always wanted him, and wanted him without burden.