Although he was Su Han's cousin, Zheng Xiaoguang didn't know how to wish him well. It is human nature to be filial to one's parents, and no one should allow him to sever ties with his parents just because he has a girlfriend, but Zheng Xiaoguang couldn't help but feel sad for the girl he had never met.
When she was alone, she didn't even know if she was feeling sorry for herself. Maybe she had a premonition at that time that one day she would be like that.
About three months later, Zheng Xiaoguang became more and more uneasy because he never received any news of Su's father and mother Su's softening. The more suspicious she became, the more she asked Su Han: "What if my parents don't want to see him all the time?"
She wanted to get Su Han's promise that he would not give up, but Su Han always said, "Don't be in a hurry, take your time."
He was no longer as firm in his answers as before, she could feel it.
Finally, one time they had a big fight. Su Han was actually not good at quarreling, but his words made Zheng Xiaoguang pierce his heart: "If I had known... In fact, he shouldn't have invited me to S City in the first place. If he hadn't pulled my leg that day, maybe he wouldn't be like that now. .”
She will always remember that Su Han was so regretful. He even said: "His mother was wrong, but it was a little too early for him to meet my parents."
If there is nothing wrong with her ability to understand, does he mean that they should not be together in the first place
She was confused and confused for many days, not knowing where they started to change. Su Han also began to gradually fade out of her life, and his communication with her became less and less.
That situation lasted until one day, when Su Han told her: "They must have broken up. His parents said that it's okay to fall in love with me, but it's absolutely not okay to get married."
It turns out that not only Su Han's cousin was denied, but Su Han also denied such a choice. She cried, crying very sadly, for the girl she had never met, and for herself.
She once thought that Su Han was cruel enough to her and a good man worthy of her lifelong trust, so she just begged them to be together. No matter how much she gave, she would never give up. She also knew that she was really calm sometimes, so she quarreled with him, but she did not expect that Su Han would choose to escape before the battle, destroying all her good expectations in the most cruel way.
His words were like a loud slap in the face, so hard that she even forgot to ask: "So, have I found someone I can marry, so I am in a hurry to tell him now?" Is it clear?"
The most painful relationship in this life was probably like that. I finally withstood everyone's pressure and persisted in the passion of my faith. But the person who was supposed to share the wind and rain with me told me, We should never have started.
In an instant, all my efforts became a joke.
That year, Su Han turned Zheng Xiaoguang into a complete joke.
He didn't know whether she would be with him or not, and how much effort she spent trying to convince her parents. He didn't know if she would get the approval of his parents, and she carefully tried to please his family. He just said: "Anyway, I can find a better one," and left easily.
Zheng's father and mother were not optimistic about her being with Su Han. It took her more than half a year to get them to accept it. At first, she begged her parents and said, "What we said was wrong. He did not abandon him at first." , he said his parents didn’t agree.”
Zheng Xiaoguang remembered his father's expression very well when he heard her say that. Father Zheng frowned and was silent for a long time, then sighed: "His parents didn't want to see me at the beginning. Shouldn't they have made up their mind and disagreed."
But they didn't expect to be rejected again and again. Zheng Xiaoguang didn't give up and didn't give up on his own initiative.
Zheng's mother also snorted coldly: "What's the use of me crying and begging him and my father to agree? My parents don't care about us. It's better to break up, lest they don't care about me if we get married. Instead, show me how to behave, and I won’t have a good confinement life by then. I will never mention anything about online dating again.”
She knew why her parents were so angry. Su Han's escape made them feel deeply betrayed and hurt.
Then, when her relatives and friends, everyone she knew heard about it, they would come over and tell her in an extremely sympathetic tone: "Tell me if online dating is unrealistic. I don't want to ask for it." I fell in headfirst. What now, have you been deceived?"
Every time Zheng Xiaoguang heard those words, he felt as if his face had been cut by a knife. Although she knew clearly that everyone cared about her and didn't want to see her jokes, whether her parents were friends or they didn't want to hurt her, she still couldn't face her mistake. Because that was not sympathy to her, but ridicule.
Therefore, she refused to go out or meet anyone because she was afraid of seeing their sympathetic eyes, and she was even more afraid of hearing people use her story to teach people who are dating online or who are thinking about dating online: "Look, Xiaoguang is an example. Online dating is too unreliable. She has been dating for almost two years, but she just disappeared without a trace because her parents didn't agree?"
No, when they first broke up, Su Han sent her a message to inform her of such an ending. She didn't even have the courage to tell her clearly in person.
The pain of deep love can actually kill people without blood.
Zheng Xiaoguang thought that she should hate Su Han. She should hate his lack of opinion, his cowardice, and his lack of firm stance.
His parents didn't know her. Could it be that Su Han, who had been dating her for almost two years, didn't know what kind of person she was? When his parents asked him to reject her, had he ever defended her even once
She should also hate Su Han for being irresponsible, hate him for letting her go, hate him for leaving her with such a mess, but she wanted to find a reason to make him believe that she had not been much hurt, so he had not. Leaving guiltily.
She had countless reasons for herself to hate him, but instead she hid in the room secretly crying alone until her eyes were red and swollen. Although her reason told her to be more relaxed and unrestrained, she could not be swayed by her feelings, and she could not hope that he would look back.
If you don't give up, it's because you give sincerely.
"Xiaoguang, I can't always be like that." Zheng's mother watched her daughter cry for a week without getting better. Her initial anger turned into sadness. "If mom goes to beg them, their family will agree to let us be together." , Mom must beg them.”
However, it was not because of those words that Zheng Xiaoguang finally woke up from a dream.
Although her ruthlessness was completely defeated and she lost people and hearts, she couldn't even give up her original dignity. Since Su Han has decided to give up, why should she beg? Although she was never in control of the outcome of that ruthless scene, she could at least end the scene according to her own script. Don’t ask to be entangled, don’t ask to hate, don’t ask to make yourself look more miserable.
However, for the first time, she gritted her teeth and held back all her sadness. She mistakenly said "take care" to him across a distant network.