In the quiet room, Zheng Xiaoguang leaned against Qingshan: "Thank you."
Thank him for doing so much to put her at ease.
Qingshan asked softly: "Do you still hate him?"
He was probably asking about Su Han. Zheng Xiaoguang frowned slightly. If someone else asked her this question, she would probably say: "No, it's all over. It's over long ago..."
But those were all lies. She actually resented Su Han.
Zheng Xiaoguang answered seriously: "I hated him. He would always tell me that his parents were very stubborn, and all his relatives and friends in the family were very stubborn. He only had the authority of the elders, so he didn't even do anything for me. I gave up after trying to meet his parents."
She no longer remembers how many friends in Feixian asked her insinuatingly how she forced Su Han after she broke up with Su Han. She only remembered that after that, she never had sex with Feixian again. She even applied to the company to go on a business trip because she didn't dare to see her parents and close friends.
She was afraid that they would ask about Su Han, and she was afraid that she would have to explain to them.
But she hid outside for a week, but accidentally hurt her foot and was forced to return home. At that time, she was lying on the hospital bed. Even when Kazuki Rika came to see her, she could only lie and claim to be her senior at the university.
Zheng Xiaoguang pursed his lips: "Su Han doesn't know anything. He never knew that because of the matter between me and him, my parents were 'fearful of being bitten by snakes for ten years' and no longer wanted me and people on the Internet." He doesn't know. Because of his betrayal, I didn't dare to accept anyone's feelings or fall in love for a year. "
At first, she had low self-esteem.
Because Su Han's accusations made her feel that everything was her fault, and it was all her fault that she was not mature enough and did not trust the other party enough, which was why they ended up breaking up. She even thought that she was not suitable for love at all, or that she was "not qualified" to love.
Therefore, she did not dare to question Su Han, nor did she dare to "entangle" him. She could only hide herself and disappear in front of Su Han and all the friends she knew in Feixianli.
Later, many friends enlightened her, and she gradually understood that the failure of a relationship is often not solely the fault of one party. The fact that she and Su Han will separate is actually their problem.
But she still didn't dare to love. Because she felt that she had put all her sincerity and efforts into her love affair with Su Han, and she really didn't know what else to do to get a love that would never leave her. She was afraid that if she loved someone wholeheartedly, she would end up being betrayed by everyone.
"Xiaoguang." Qingshan hugged her gently, "I'm sorry, it would have been nice if I could have been by your side at that time."
Zheng Xiaoguang shook his head: "No, you are very good to me, really."
Inferiority, entanglement, worry, and fear made her accustomed to suppressing her feelings. Over the past year, she has refused to trust others easily or have extravagant expectations, because only in this way will she not be disappointed.
It wasn't until she met Qingshan that all this changed.
Whether it's Baby 520 sneaking up on her, or Xiao Nizi and Venus slandering her, Qingshan will always stand by her side. It was Qingshan who made her understand how lucky she was to have a man she could rely on at any time.
The joke Qing Shan made with Li Lei during the "Ben Xian Incident" even made her slightly shaken.
But God arranged a reunion between her and Su Han! What's even more hateful is that Su Han still accuses everyone that their past was caused by her, just like before.
Han Meimei and Li Lei also completely believed in Su Han. Han Meimei even complained about "her two years ago" in front of her.
What about Qing Shi? She couldn't help but test it, but Qingshan's slight hesitation made her make an immediate decision - push Qingshan away.
Zheng Xiaoguang hugged himself carefully: "When I first found out that Xiang Yuanqian was Su Han, I was very scared. I was afraid of being recognized by Su Han. I was even more afraid that you would hate me because of Su Han's evaluation of me, so I did it."
Take the initiative to tell the truth and ask for a divorce.
Just to keep the little bit of dignity I have, just to prevent myself from losing again.
"Silly girl." Qingshan touched her little head.
She is just stupid, stupid and timid. But fortunately, Qingshan still didn't leave her. He also used his method to open up the knot in her heart and gave her the support she needed most.
Suddenly, she was very grateful to God for meeting Qingshan. Because she met Qingshan, she was finally able to determine her true thoughts.
Zheng Xiaoguang took a deep breath and said: "Qingshan, thank you for letting me see him again. Now I can finally say from the bottom of my heart - I don't blame him anymore, because I have already let go."
Just now, when Qingshan took her hand and led her away, she realized that she had actually let go. The embarrassment of seeing Su Han again was not because she still loved him or hated him, but because when she saw Su Han, she would think of her silly self three years ago. She would feel ridiculous because she had been so stupid, but she would never feel sad for Su Han again.
She even found herself becoming more and more indifferent when talking about her past with Su Han. She thanked Su Han for saying so many callous words when they broke up, and thanked him for not coming to see her when her foot was injured. It was because he left so decisively that she was able to give up as quickly as possible. Only then could she hate him without any hesitation.
And hate is far easier to forget than love.
"Why do you keep saying thank you?" Qingshan touched her head, "You are my girlfriend."
Zheng Xiaoguang raised his head in disbelief: "But aren't you here to help me? Do you... really want me to be your girlfriend?"
Ever since she followed Kazuki Pear Blossom here, she felt everything that happened was unbelievable. When she saw Su Han just now, she thought Qingshan just wanted to help her put on a show so that she could meet Su Han calmly and overcome the hurdle in her heart.
But why does Qingshan say now...
"Xiaoguang, I like you." Qingshan raised the corner of his mouth slightly, "The man in front of you - Lu Mingxuan, is twenty-eight years old, unmarried, owns a car and a house, is running a small company, and has no loan debts. Now I implore you to be his girlfriend on the premise of getting married."
Will Qingshan like her
"You don't need to comfort me." Zheng Xiaoguang tried to make his voice calmer, "Don't say it deliberately just because you sympathize with me or pity me."
Why doesn't she want to believe that all this is because Qingshan likes her? Keren, you must be a little self-aware.
Qingshan looked at her and said something more calmly than her: "Before, in the alliance between Tianxia Wushuang and famous families, I was the one who proposed to marry you."