[Private Chat] Strawberry Ice Cream: Yuanqian, I really like you~
Su Han looked at the private chat information displayed on the computer and sighed helplessly. He knew that this girl named Strawberry Ice Cream liked him very much, but there was no way that online dating would be fruitful.
Just like him and Xiaoguang before, once they faced real problems, they had no choice but to go their separate ways.
[Private chat] Always on the same page: Strawberry, forget me, we are not suitable.
After sending this message, his heart finally felt a little more relaxed. However, when he saw the Q-version figure of the Feixian online game on the table, he couldn't help but think of Xiao Guang.
She always feels insecure.
When his parents refused to see her, she always asked him over and over again if he really liked her. He said it so many times that he felt tired of it, but she never seemed to get tired of hearing it.
Once, he even felt that he was just perfunctory. He clearly knew that she was worried, so he used the matter of his cousin at home to excuse her.
Maybe, at that time, he thought she was a burden? That's why I said those words and compared them with my cousin's affairs. It seemed that he quite agreed with his cousin's choice.
Later, he and Xiao Guang broke up, which was "natural". After all, he couldn't accept a girl who put him in a dilemma, so even now, he has never regretted it.
But sometimes he wonders, is she really living a happy life? Will she meet someone she likes without him
He asked himself, even if he no longer loves her, he still hopes that she can be happy. Because he actually knew very well - he hurt her. Even if he was so decisive when they broke up, even if the reason for the breakup was because of her willfulness, he didn't even have the courage to look at her sad look at the end.
That's why he chose to send messages to break up.
It's not that he's afraid of her entanglement, it's not that he's reluctant to let go, it's that he doesn't dare to face his cruelty.
After all, she really liked him. For someone who really liked her, he cruelly abandoned her. This was his fault.
How many times did he couldn't help but think of Kazuki Rika's words: "People like you don't deserve love at all! You trample the sincerity of others under your feet and deceive yourself and others about breaking up peacefully. You think you don't love deeply. If the injury is not serious, doesn’t it matter to others?”
He felt as if he had really lost something, but he couldn't quite tell what it was. Therefore, he was a little scared. He wanted to see Xiaoguang's new boyfriend as soon as possible. It seems that only in this way can he live his life completely without guilt.
But Xiaoguang left Feixian and disappeared from his world forever.
Her doctor number was left to Yishu Lihua, who would only come up occasionally to help rescue people and collect materials. He clearly knew that she was no longer playing with that account, but every time he saw her doctor account online, he would always be inexplicably stunned.
Whenever he saw Kazuki Rika using her doctor number to speak to the world, he always had the illusion that she was still gone.
In Feixian, there are many friends who know about their Benxian. Friends will more or less ask about him and Xiaoguang. At the beginning, he can still say confidently that the two people are not suitable, why should they be tied together? . But as time passed, he could no longer speak.
Because no matter what, he hurt her, even if it was just a little bit, even if he felt that to her, this little bit of injury was just a wound that a band-aid could cover.
Unable to play anymore, he gave up Feixian and didn't even play another online game for more than half a year.
Until one day, he saw Yaokong. He used a new game ID "Xiang Laiyuan Qian" and restarted his online gaming career. Only this time, he was determined not to marry any girl again.
Unexpectedly, he actually met Strawberry Ice Cream, a girl who looked a bit like Xiaoguang.
Strawberry relies on him very much and often asks him for help. He will also help her when he has nothing to do. After getting along like this, he felt that Strawberry didn't look much like Xiaoguang. Because Caomei Ice Cream prefers to take the initiative to ask for help from everyone, but Xiaoguang always finds ways to solve tasks on his own.
Of course, regardless of whether she looked like Xiaoguang or not, he would not like her. Even though Strawberry took the initiative to pursue him and mobilized Han Meimei to persuade him, he still remembered his decision to come to Yaokong in the first place.
However, he didn't expect that he would meet Xiaoguang again, and Xiaoguang would choose to be with Qingshan.
It's not that Qingshan is not good - he has been teaming up with Qingshan since he started playing Yaokong. Qingshan's character is absolutely no problem. He believed that Qingshan would not deceive Xiaoguang's feelings, just like he did before.
But the real problems they face are the same as he did back then.
No matter how good Qingshan said, he didn't believe that Xiaoguang and Qingshan would be happy together. After all, he has been there, experienced the struggles, and has the best say.
Helpless, Qingshan didn't listen to his advice at all. No matter how bad he said about Xiaoguang, Qingshan would only defend her.
Why do they continue to walk on this path even though they know it is a dead end? Especially Xiaoguang, she has obviously been injured once.
Yes, he told her that she could meet the right person again anyway, but that person couldn't be Qingshan! Sooner or later, Qingshan will leave her like him, so it's better for them to separate now!
He wants to tell Qingshan that he and Xiaoguang were together. In this case, even if Qingshan ignores the real problems, he will break up with Xiaoguang. After all, Hikaru is his brother's "former woman."
But when he really wanted to tell Qingshan, he hesitated.
Kazuki Pear Blossom's words appeared in his ears again: "Su Han, you can tell me everything, but I want to know, who are you to judge who Xiaoguang will be happy with? How do you know that you do Isn’t everything destroying her happiness?”
No, he couldn't say. Even if Xiaoguang wants to be with Qingshan, he can't say it. Those past mistakes were all his fault, and he himself couldn't face them.
He took out his cell phone and wanted to call Zheng Xiaoguang. He wanted to ask her if she really wanted to be with Qingshan? Does she really feel happy now? Also, he was particularly eager to hear her voice.
Unfortunately, after looking through the address book for a long time, he couldn't find her phone number or even her name.
"Since you have broken up with her, break it off completely and delete all her contact information."
By the way, his mother asked him to delete all Zheng Xiaoguang's communication methods a long time ago, and he has been unable to contact her for a long time.
Only then did he realize that he was so heartless.
"I'm sorry" he suddenly muttered to himself in a confused voice, not knowing who he wanted to hear.