When Jin Li heard this, she was stunned.
What is "can't live without you"
Is that what she thinks
How can it be
"You don't love me, and you have never loved me. This is what you said, just after our first time, you walked so decisively and left me alone in **. I had a fever that day. I was confused, but the tears never stopped."
Song Jing's heart pierced, "...I'm sorry. Before, I walked into a dead end and didn't see my heart clearly."
Jin Li shook her head: "I don't believe it. Song Jing, I don't believe you."
His voice choked: "Why?"
"You love my mother! Not me! For so many years, you have not forgotten her, even I adopted her for her. For you, I am just a tool to swear your loyal love. , A way of expressing remembrance and remembrance to my mother."
She was not even a complete person. He looked at her face and eyes, and he would always be stunned again and again, as if looking at another person through her.
Jin Li hated that kind of gaze the most since she was a child, but she also lusted for that kind of gaze and concentration.
She also deceived herself and comforted herself, and this would be good for the rest of her life, as long as she can stay with him...
But now she doesn't think so, "After leaving you, I discovered that there is another way of living in my life."
Song Jing's heart shook, and his throat became dry.
After a long while, he found his voice again: "...Ari, don't rush to say those hurtful things, give me a chance to explain, can you?"
The woman was amazed.
In the impression, he would never ask such things as "can it?" It seems gentle, but in fact it is tough. He observes the Buddha system and contains Shura.
"First of all, to your mother... I used to think it was love, but as early as the fifth year of her death ten years ago, I figured it out. It is not love, more like a kind of dependence and gratitude. ."
Ari's mother is eight years older than Song Jing. At the most desperate time in his life, she reached out to him and brought light and warmth to him.
But she has a childhood sweetheart, that is, Ari's father.
At that time, Song Jing looked like a younger brother in her eyes, and she was not hesitating to show concern and love for him, and even her lover also took good care of Song Jing.
Later, the husband and wife went to Guangdong and Guangxi to develop their business, and their business was booming. Within a few years, Xiao Jinli was born.
It's a pity that the good times didn't last long. When Jin Li was five years old, the couple were killed because they offended the local dark forces. When Song Jing arrived, the two had died, leaving only their scared daughter who was hiding in the closet.
From then on, Jin Li was brought by Song Jing and brought him up personally.
"I hope you are ordinary, at least stable, but you are not ordinary at all."
Marksmanship, fighting, fighting, driving, everything Song Jing taught, she can always master the first time.
She is talented, but works harder than others.
This caused Song Jing's gaze to fall silently and vaguely on her countless times.
But Jin Li didn't realize it, and even he himself didn't know what it meant.
"The first time it happened..." His voice was hoarse, "I was not completely drunk, I knew what I was doing, and I knew the consequences of doing so. But I still made a mess after waking up. A coward."
He didn't dare to admit it, and couldn't face this girl raised by him alone, and he was even more ashamed of Ah Li's mother.
Jin Li's eyes widened in disbelief.
"That was the first time I was torturing myself, how did I feel about you."
"So, what's the answer?"
Song Jing: "There is no answer, I can't think of why, but the body reacted very honestly, so there was a second and third time..."
The tears of the woman wrapped in her eyes couldn't help but burst into her eyes.
It turns out that her love is not unrequited love, and the person she loves is not hard-hearted.
After so many years of infatuation, she has never paid wrongly. She is pleased, but also tired.
"It's late... Everything is too late... Finally, you pushed me away..."
"Ari," he looked at the young woman's face, he didn't know whether his eyes were sad or sad, "I am seventeen years older than you. When I have begun to grow old, and you are still flourishing, don't push away. Do you let you spend the rest of your life with an old man not much younger than your father?"
"No," he laughed at himself, "I don't even have the qualifications to mention'the rest of my life', because I am destined to walk in front of you and cannot accompany you to the end."
In this relationship, it is not Ari who is humble, but him!
"So, I tried to let it go. But after this time, it took three years to realize that I can't live without you."
The woman was shocked.
This kind of confession, once the scene she dreamed of, now comes true, but there is a kind of unspeakable sourness and sadness.
"Ari, come back to me. I will bring the best in the world to you and your children. Even if I can't accompany you for the rest of my life, I will definitely protect you safely."
Jin Li's eyes are hot.
Yes, she felt relieved.
She could not escape, as early as the age of twelve, when he was carried through the rain of bullets in his arms, she knew that she would never escape this man in her entire life.
"Did you think about it?" On the day when Ari was sent away, Shen Hou stood on the pier on the bank of the Zama River.
The wind was very strong, entrapped in water vapor, messed up her long hair and moved the corners of her clothes.
"Sorry for letting you down."
Shen Wei cast his gaze into the distance, and the outline of his profile showed a touch of coldness: "Everyone has different ideas, so you don't have to force it."
As long as you don’t regret it.