Gu Chaoming was walking in the long corridor of the school. There were not many people in the corridor, only a few people stood chatting in the shade.
"Gu Shuai."
Cen Xili's shout came from behind, Gu Chaoming had not gone far when he heard Cen Xili's voice and turned around.
"what?"
Gu Chaoming put his trousers pocket in his hand, and the cigarette he took out of his schoolbag was hidden in his pocket. Gu Chaoming was extra careful. He always felt that he was unlucky today, and he didn't know when his relationship with the dean would end. Gu Chaoming didn't want to see the dean again for the third time.
Cen Xili lay on the edge of the back door of the classroom and shouted to Gu Chaoming: "The monitor told you to..."
Cen Xili's voice suddenly stopped as if it was cut off by someone with a knife, and his gaze towards Gu Chaoming also shifted behind him, stopped somewhere behind him, and then hid back to the classroom like a small animal.
Before he finished speaking, the person had already avoided, obviously seeing something.
Seeing Cen Xili disappear from the back door of the classroom, Gu Chaoming didn't have to think about who Cen Xili saw, either You Xin or the sea dog, except for the two of them who Cen Xili saw would react this way.
Gu Chaoming sighed indignantly for Cen Xili.
Although he guessed who it was, Gu Chaoming still had some doubts in his heart.
In the past, Chen Haiyang and the others found out that Cen Xili likes You Xin, and they made trouble again, causing Cen Xili and You Xin to "break up". At that time, the rumors were so powerful that Cen Xili didn't like to talk. Su Bing and Gu Chaoming thought he was suffering from depression.
Saying goodbye to Cen Xili that day, watching Cen Xili leaving the campus on a bicycle, Su Bing holding snacks in his hand, suddenly said to Gu Chaoming in a deep tone: "Xiao Xili didn't speak to me today, and he deliberately avoided me."
"He didn't talk to me very much today. I talked to him, and he didn't reply to me very much." Gu Chaoming said.
Su Bing grabbed the snack bag as if thinking of something, turned his head and looked like he was in a bad situation: "Xiao Xili doesn't have depression or something, right? It seems that depression is like this."
At that time, although Gu Chaoming thought that what Su Bing said about depression was ridiculous, but with the mentality that he would rather believe that it is not credible, he and Su Bing took this package of snacks in his hand, and took a mobile phone to check depression on the Internet. Symptoms, preventive measures for depression, how to help friends, what to pay attention to when talking with depression... I'm afraid Cen Xili can't figure it out.
The sun gradually went down, the physical trainees on the playground were running in circles, the yellow flowers that bloomed in spring and summer were blooming in the flowerbed, and the two teenagers were sitting on the stairs worrying about their companions.
"Hey, Gu Shuai, look at this, isn't that the point of Xili?" Su Bing pointed to the phone and said.
Cen Xili didn't know about these things, they didn't say it, if Cen Xili knew, he would definitely call them stupid.
At that time, as soon as Cen Xili saw You Xin, he reflexively avoided. Just like before, this situation continued for a period of time. Later, I don't know whether it was because of their hard persuasion, or whether Cen Xili figured it out by himself as time passed. Happy knot.
Anyway, Gu Chaoming and Su Bing were very happy that Cen Xili could think about it, but just now Cen Xili returned to his previous state and hid back in the classroom, like a snail hiding in his own shell, avoiding the gossip and Chen Haiyang's provocation.
At that time, Cen Xili, who was originally introverted, was forced to not talk much to the two of them. He also said that he was afraid that they would be discussed by others.
Seeing Cen Xili hiding back in the classroom again, Gu Chaoming worried that he would go back to that time and think wildly by himself.
If Cen Xili could hide in the classroom, Gu Chaoming guessed that it was more likely that You Xin was behind him. It was not necessary to see Chen Haiyang hiding in the classroom.
Gu Chaoming turned around with the cigarette in his pocket, and as expected, he saw You Xin not far away who was helping others.
You Xin carried the chemical equipment for the next chemistry class, and was accompanied by a playful girl with short hair. The girl was holding a small stack of test papers in her hands, smiling happily in the sunlight.
Gu Chaoming knew her, You Xin's chemistry class representative.
When Gu Chaoming turned around, the two of them were still standing in the same place and just started to walk. Although they did not see the process of You Xin taking the chemical supplies from the girl, but seeing the girl smiling and saying thank you to You Xin, Gu Chaoming could Guess the scene that Cen Xili saw.
It is nothing more than the old-fashioned scene of what grade male god You Xin is helping others and helping the chemistry class representative pick up chemical tools.
Cen Xili must have hid because he saw this.
Recalling how Cen Xili used to hide from You Xin, Gu Chaoming began to feel sorry for his family Xili again.
The girl beside her had a girly look on her face and said thank you to him. You Xin answered her, but her eyes fell on the back door of the second and second class of high school, which was empty.
Cen Xili called Gu Chaoming's "Gu Shuai" very loudly. He could hear it from so far away. When he took the chemical equipment from the chemistry class representative, he looked towards the back door of the second and second high school classes. At that time, the protruding head had disappeared.
You Xin hadn't had time to take back his sight from the back door of Class 2. The equipment for the chemistry class had just arrived within a few seconds. He received a thank you from the representative of the chemistry class, and at the same time, he also received the sight projected at him like a laser gun from Gu Chaoming. .
Gu Chaoming stood in the middle of the corridor with his hands in his pockets, his eyes were sharp, and he wore a black baseball cap on his head. The place where the corner of his mouth was cracked yesterday was slowly healing after a night, showing a black and red blood coagulation, not big, but a little conspicuous.
The wound on the corner of his mouth matched his sharp eyes now. It didn't look like he was beaten like this, but it looked like he was beaten up like this.
Gu Chaoming couldn't see what he looked like now, didn't know how fierce he was in the eyes of others, and he still felt sorry for his roommate.
You Xin was walking in the corridor with the chemistry class representatives carrying chemical utensils. Gu Chaoming beat them and walked over.
At that time, the Cen Xili incident was quite a big deal. Parents of both parties were invited. Gu Chaoming and Su Bing had a fight with You Xin. Almost the whole grade knew about the hostile relationship between Gu Chaoming and You Xin, and the chemistry around You Xin. Class representatives are no exception.
Seeing Gu Chaoming striding from the opposite side with his hands in his pockets, his face was unpleasant, the chemistry class representative was still a little scared, he pretended to look at the road in fear, and sneaked a few more glances from the eyes that looked at the road.
Gu Chaoming and You Xin passed by each other like this, and the representative of the chemistry class felt that they were like rivals in Hong Kong dramas.
Cops and bad guys.
A face-to-face, testing each other, eyes fighting, turbulent, full of hostility, she has automatically matched the combat bgm in her mind.
Su Bing once sighed: "The grandson of You Sanjin doesn't know what tonic his family gave him. How can he jump up because of his height. If it exceeds the two of us, we will be frustrated."
Borrowing Su Bingji's words, You Xin is indeed still growing, and now he is taller than Gu Chaoming, but fortunately it is not much taller, and it is hard to tell if you don't stand together.
When the two passed by face to face, the chemistry class representative was sandwiched between them, feeling that the sunlight was blocked, as if they were walking between two mountains.
From seeing Gu Chaoming's hostile eyes towards him, to the "passing by" between the two representatives of the chemistry class, You Xin never formally responded or paid attention to Gu Chaoming's eyes.
The surface is turbulent, but inside is Gu Chaoming's unhappiness alone.
The second and second classes of high school were noisy after class. The blackboard at the back of the classroom reported that the first two boys were arguing. They came and went in the back of the classroom, playing from the trash can to the back door, and then from the back door to the trash can.
Gu Chaoming guessed right. He guessed exactly what Cen Xili saw when he was lying on the back door and why Cen Xili hid in the classroom.
Cen Xili was lying beside the back door and saw You Xin at the other end of the corridor, and saw You Xin running from the shadows to the representative of their class of chemistry class.
The sun shone on the two young men, and You Xin took the heavy chemical utensils from the chemistry class representative.
Measuring cups, test tubes, alcohol lamps... Most of the chemical utensils are transparent. The sunlight gathers into a spot on the transparent glass and reflects into Cen Xili's eyes. He regretted calling out Gu Chaoming in the corridor so loudly, the light spot was too dazzling, and forced him into the classroom across the corridor.
Cen Xili returned to the classroom, his arm collided with another body.
The hard part is the human back bone.
The arm collided with the back, causing a silent and fast retreat.
Cen Xili glanced at Wu Shan, who was about to jump away from Wu Shan with just one touch.
Wu Shan took a step back and stepped on the foot of Li Zhao who was fighting with him. On Li Zhao's feet, the new sneakers he bought yesterday showed a clear footprint on the upper.
"I just met Cen Xili!" Wu Shan's voice sounded like something serious had happened.
"When you touch it, you touch it, why do you look like a monkey." Li Zhao bent over to wipe the dirty shoe upper, and wanted to say, "Cen Xili just likes men, not all men." This sentence only Speaking of the head, the tail was crushed to pieces by Wu Shan and a Mount Tai.
Wu Shan grabbed the neck of Li Zhao, who was bending over to shine his shoes, and pressed half of his body against Li Zhao's back.
Li Zhao exerted all his strength to free Wu Shan, who was pressing on him. There is no big reason for young people to fight, you hit me and I will pay you back.
The youth's vitality seemed to be exhausted, Cen Xili avoided it and sat back to his seat.
Although many classmates have no ill will towards him, Cen Xili clearly understands that he is always special in their eyes. He didn't want this special, but God just wanted to give it to him, just like giving him to meet You Xin.
He hid back in class not because he saw You Xin helping the chemistry class representative, but at that moment he seemed to realize whether he was the abnormal one
As parents said, as classmates said, as Chen Haiyang said.
Su Bing once said to him in the second place: "Listen to me, Xi Li, you are not wrong, let alone what they said is abnormal. You are not wrong at all, what is wrong is this world that cannot understand love."
Even Lao Chen talked to him: "This is a normal phenomenon, just like people grow up and develop, and children wet the bed, these are normal things that can no longer be normal. You don't have to care too much, don't suppress yourself, don't To deliberately change, just follow your heart.”
Whenever he was desperate, he would always think of these words and give himself strength, but when he saw the boys and girls in the sun, even the chemical tools in their hands were dazzling, all the words seemed to turn into wind at that moment. He whizzed through his mind and disappeared.
The picture he saw was so beautiful that he envied the beauty. Maybe You Xin should be like that, maybe that's what you mean by happiness.
You are not wrong, there is another voice in my heart speaking to him.
Cen Xili suspected that his thoughts had surfaced more than once, and he had also fallen into deeper darkness because of it, but every time it was the same as now.
Seeing that the excitement of You Xin and the representatives of the chemistry class subsided little by little, the heat wave that was surging in his mind receded. Old Chen and Su Bing's words were like stones covered with sand, and the wind was blowing, and they appeared little by little.
After the dizzying craze passed, he still believed that he was the same as them and that he was not wrong.
He is always up and down in his own world.
The fighting behind them continued, and when they were close to their ears, Li Zhao and Wu Shan shoved to the back door.
Lin Jianfan, who was sitting by the back door, pulled the chair to quietly avoid it, and accidentally wiped the floor with a sharp whimper.
The sound was harsh, Cen Xili turned around, but found that something was wrong with Lin Jianfan.
His eyes were uncertain, his face anxious, his fingers clasped at the edge of the desk.
"Are you uncomfortable?" Cen Xili asked worriedly.
Lin Jianfan put his hands away, hid under the table, raised his eyes to look at Cen Xili, and spoke slowly after a long while, his tone still light: "I have a cold, and I'm a little uncomfortable."
"Cold in summer? It's very uncomfortable. Do you want to go to the infirmary? Do you know where it is?"
Cen Xili moved the stool closer to Lin Jianfan.
Lin Jianfan looked at Cen Xili, who was worried about him, and wanted to thank him. Before he said the words "I'm fine" and "I'm fine", the world in front of Lin Jianfan suddenly shook.
He didn't pass out, but Li Zhao, who was playing with Wu Shan behind him, hit the chair and almost fell.
Cen Xili hurriedly stretched out his hand to support him, and the two people who were fighting stopped stopped.
Li Zhao accidentally bumped into a new classmate and wanted to say "I'm sorry". Originally, he wanted to talk to the new transfer student, but before he could speak, Lin Jianfan had already said something quickly to Cen Xili, who was supporting him, and ran out of the back door of the classroom after speaking.
Um? Why did you still run away? .
The conversation plan that started with "I'm sorry" failed. Li Zhao looked at Lin Jianfan's back as he ran away, and then looked at Cen Xili.
What did Lin Jian Fan Gang tell him
In Li Zhao's questioning eyes, Cen Xili told him, "Lin Jianfan said he had a cold and wanted to vomit, so he went to the toilet."
The corridor was dazzled by the sunlight, and the sunlight gradually invaded the shadows. Lin Jianfan ran in the corridor, bypassing the students in the corridor.
The wind rushed in front of him, and the blue and white school uniforms merged into color blocks and quickly passed in front of him.
The sun has passed, and even the toilet door has been invaded.
I thought that there would be many people in the toilet in the large classroom, but when Lin Jianfan ran in, only one person was walking out of the toilet cubicle. Lin Jianfan waited for the man to go out before going to the sink and turning on the faucet.
The water flushed his palms, and Lin Jianfan's hands were cupped into bowls, and a handful of water was poured onto his cheeks.
On a hot summer day, with the continuous high temperature, the water in my hands was roasted warm, and it poured on my cheeks with an unimaginable coldness.
The bangs on his forehead were wet with water, and the eyelashes dragged the water droplets. Lin Jianfan's eyes were blurred, and he wanted to blink a few times to shake off the water droplets on his eyelashes.
Before he could get it, the drops of water lay stubbornly on his eyelashes, and the world in front of him was briefly washed away.
The world at that moment was blurry, like a photographer's deliberately out-of-focus photo.
There was a sound of the door opening, and a new color appeared in the defocused photo, a blue-white block, with a white light behind the blue-white block, and Lin Jianfan knew that it was the light coming in from the window.
He came towards him in the light.
The water droplets on the eyelashes roll off, and vision gradually recovers. The world in front of me is a little bit clearer, and so are the people walking by.
Lin Jianfan saw him clearly and smelled the smoke on his body.