The sky outside the window was as dark as the last night of the year, and the sound of various programs celebrating the New Year on the TV lingered in the living room.
The jubilant program sound was blocked outside the door, and Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan sat bored in the room with nothing to do. I wanted to go out to help, but the three elders in the family completely treated them as three-year-old children, let them not worry about other things, and have fun during the New Year.
The bored Gu Chaoming sat on the chair, his chin rested on the back of the chair, his arms crossed the back of the chair, and he chatted with Su Bing on his cell phone.
"Enough is enough, this battle is to get the mother-in-law?"
Knowing that Gu Chaoming was in Lin Jianfan's house for Chinese New Year, Su Bing's thoughts of gossip never stopped.
Gu Chaoming received a text message from Liu Yi asking why he was not at home. Gu Chaoming did not want to lie to Liu Yi and told Liu Yi the truth.
Liu Yi went home very late this year for the New Year, and heard Zhou Han say that he brought his girlfriend back this time. Zhou Han didn't watch it last year, but this year, he ran over to see Fangrong.
Liu Yi is the childhood eldest brother of their group of children. The eldest brother is about to get married, and each of several grown-up teenagers has become the same gossip heart as Su Bing.
Gu Chaoming didn't look at it last time, and he didn't look at it this time. He only looked at a photo sent by Zhou Han.
"This is our future sister-in-law."
Gu Chaoming clicked on the photo that Zhou Letter sent to him. The photo was taken secretly by Zhou Han, a girl with long hair who looks very gentle from the side.
Brother Liu Yi is getting married, Gu Chaoming thought when he looked at the photo of their sister-in-law.
I knew Liu Yi was going to get married during the New Year last year, but it had just been decided at that time. Gu Chaoming was busy with blessings. Today, talking with Liu Yi about the wedding date, Gu Chaoming felt that Liu Yi was really going to be a husband.
The big brother who bought him the green good mood is getting married.
Realizing that Liu Yi was about to become a married man, the change of identity made Gu Chaoming feel Liu Yi's growth on the last day of the year, so as to feel his own growth.
They are all growing up, Liu Yi is no longer their big brother in high school, he has become a man on his own.
The legs of the stool were raised, and Gu Chaoming was stunned for a while. Can he also become a man like Liu Yi
The door was pushed open, Gu Chaoming turned his head, Lin Jianfan pushed the door into the room with snacks in his hand, and Gu Chaoming stared at him.
Can he be a man of his own in the future? In the past seventeen years, he has not been able to protect his mother from Gu Tao's violence. At the age of eighteen, he must protect Lin Jianfan, who is covered in scars.
Seeing Lin Jianfan walking into the room with snacks, Gu Chaoming kept smiling at Lin Jianfan without realizing it.
"What are you laughing at? Is there anything funny?" Lin Jianfan asked when he saw Gu Chaoming staring at him smirking as soon as he entered the door.
"No, just have a happy New Year." Gu Chaoming said no, but the more he talked, the happier he became, and finally he couldn't help laughing out loud.
For no reason, just thinking of you makes me happy.
Seventeen-year-old Gu Chaoming spent the New Year alone at home, transferred to his mother's new home, and then returned home. Among them, Gu Chaoming didn't feel angry about the journey, the unwelcome words, and the embarrassing New Year's Eve dinner. He just felt lonely.
He has a long secret forest growing in his heart, and the loneliness makes the fireworks outside the window extraordinarily beautiful.
It was just a New Year's Day after a year, and Gu Chaoming couldn't imagine that he was in Lin Jianfan's house, and Lin Jianfan was his boyfriend.
Within a year, many things happened, and Gu Chaoming jumped from last year's loneliness to this year's New Year's Eve without noticing.
"Happy New Year!"
The table is full of hot meals, and the warm and soft lighting in the dining room seems to be lively and cheerful with the clinking of glasses.
Gu Chaoming never thought that his eighteen-year-old New Year would be like this.
Beside him is his boyfriend, opposite is his boyfriend's parents and grandma. Although he was the only one without blood ties, Gu Chaoming didn't feel uncomfortable, he only felt the opposite warmth from last year's New Year.
Lin Jianfan asked him in the car on his way home from his former school, "Will life be good?"
It will be fine, you see, my life has become so beautiful.
After dinner, Dad Lin and Mom Lin talked at the table at the end. The adults had something to talk about. Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan set off fireworks at the door.
When the light of the fireworks illuminated Lin Jianfan's face, Gu Chaoming couldn't take his eyes off Lin Jianfan's face. What I saw on my phone on my way home last year is now reality.
Happiness is easy to pass, loneliness is unforgettable. Lin Jianfan was waving fireworks in his hand, and Gu Chaoming stood aside thinking about last year's loneliness and enjoying the beauty of this year.
As beautiful as a dream, like the future he planned.
The future is far away and the rallying point for all good things.
He stepped into the future he planned in one fell swoop.
The fireworks burned out, Gu Chaoming looked back at the empty living room and walked to Lin Jianfan.
"Happy New Year." Gu Chaoming hugged Lin Jianfan.
The fireworks in his hands fell to the ground, and Lin saw Fan Hui hug Gu Chaoming.
"Happy New Year."
There was a smile in Lin Jianfan's words, which rustled in Gu Chaoming's ear.
They hugged, and after they hugged, they walked outside the house despite the cold, holding hands, and walking through Yu Xue to finish the New Year.
Every year behind the New Year is always dragging the tail of Valentine's Day. Gu Chaoming has always known that he is a greedy person. Not only will the tail be full until Valentine's Day, but also the next day's New Year's Day should be booked early.
This year, Cen Xili didn't go back to his hometown for the Chinese New Year. He and Su Bing didn't know the reason and the story behind Lin Jianfan's leave, and they still planned to implement the light bulb plan last year.
How could Gu Chaoming, who was very familiar with the two of them, didn't know their tricks, and bought two movie tickets next to each other early to break their plan.
The same comedy movie as last year, when watching the movie, just like last year, I sneaked out from time to time to stare at Lin Jianfan, who was sitting next to me. The difference is that this year's Gu Chaoming is more daring. With the title of boyfriend, Gu Chaoming became "mad" in the full-house cinema.
In the dark movie theater, he touched Lin Jianfan's hand, and he used the reason of talking small talk to get close to Lin Jianfan's ear.
He knew that the cinema seemed to have some kind of infrared monitoring and could see it clearly, but he couldn't control himself.
In a dark theater, the person you like sitting next to you doesn't let them touch it. Isn't this a crime
The tip of his tongue was retracted from Lin Jianfan's auricle, his heart was boiling with enthusiasm, but he had to pretend to be calm on the surface.
After watching the movie and walking out of the cinema, last year, I was still in the mood to discuss the plot. This year, Gu Chaoming only remembers the touch of Lin Jian Fan's auricle on the tip of his tongue.
Seeing Lin Jianfan's auricle, the tip of his tongue and his lips, in the dark theater, there seemed to be a small electric current passing through the tip of the tongue, stabbing all the way, so that Gu Chaoming walked out of the cinema and was ridiculed by Su Bing, but he didn't even bother to respond.
Su Bing deliberately pulled Cen Xili to the front to make room for Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan.
Su Bing whispered to Cen Xili, "You know, when Gu Shuai falls in love, it's easy to focus on sex over friends."
Cen Xili snickered a few times and quietly turned his head to look at the two behind him with Su Bing. After reading it, he turned his head and snickered again.
The two talked small talk about separation. When Su Bing got into the car, Gu Chaoming kicked him in revenge, and said to Su Bing with his eyes: "Don't think I don't know that you two are laughing at me."
After closing the door, Su Bing was still smiling.
After watching the movie to send Su Bing and Cen Xili away, Gu Chaoming did not send Lin Jianfan home to end today's activities. Gu Chaoming took him to live a real two-person world and did not go home until evening.
Lin Jianfan and his mother sent a message saying that they would go home later today. Lin Ma knew that he was with Gu Chaoming, and Gu Chaoming would definitely protect Lin Jianfan. On the first day of the new year, when the children were having fun, Lin Ma only answered the word "good".
When he was sent home by Gu Chaoming, Lin Jianfan thought that his future life was the worry of his parents and the freedom to be controlled. Perhaps even more, Lin Jianfan was afraid that his parents would consider transferring him, so he did not dare to say that he was bullying thing.
He was afraid of transferring schools and leaving Gu Chaoming.
He thought about how he would persuade his mother if his mother persuaded him to transfer to another school, but he never thought that Gu Chaoming could use his efforts to persuade his mother to trust him as a mother all over the world.
It will also be easier in the future when their relationship has to be explained to the mother.
Every time he said that he was with Gu Chaoming, the word "good" that his mother reassured made Lin Jianfan extremely happy, as if the good word was because his mother accepted the good relationship between them.
Lin Jianfan didn't pay attention to his feet because of one of his mother's good words, "overwhelmed". Gu Chaoming immediately stretched out his hand to support him.
Sooner or later, he grabbed Lin Jianfan's hand and prevented him from falling. The person was fine, but the shoe somehow came off the foot and stepped on the ground with one foot.
Holding Lin Jianfan, Gu Chaoming wanted to hold back his shoes when he saw Lin Jianfan's shoes, but he couldn't help laughing at all. Squatting down with a smile, Lin Jianfan seemed to be angry with him, not letting him help him put on his shoes, so he stepped into the shoes on the ground.
"Hey, Ancestor, your socks are wet, you stepped on the ground, and it's uncomfortable to wear, so you just put them in like this." Gu Chaoming said.
"Who made you laugh at me?"
"Hey, don't go," Gu Chaoming grabbed him, "you really learned badly."
He said that his studies were bad, and he seemed to dislike it, but he hoped that Lin Jianfan would become more "bad".
Lin Jianfan has become worse and more willful, which shows that the more he trusts you, the more he likes you.
It sounded a little pampered and arrogant, Gu Chaoming smiled. Lin Jianfan's constant willfulness and petty temper made Gu Chaoming seem to be back in the last semester when Lin Jianfan was coquettish and wanted to drink two bottles of yogurt.
He thought that he had gained Lin Jianfan's trust again, and let Lin Jianfan like this world again. What he didn't know was that Lin Jianfan always believed in him, and he didn't know that Lin Jianfan just liked the world where he existed.
Gu Chaoming filled up Lin Jianfan on the first day of the new year. He was not satisfied with visiting Lin Jianfan's house every day as before the New Year. He must also fill up Lin Jianfan's Valentine's Day.
There seems to be no reason to take Lin Jianfan out to play on Valentine's Day. Gu Chaoming also knows that Lin's father and Lin's mother are in love through Lin Jianfan, and they send messages to each other every Valentine's Day. This shows that Ma Lin must know that today is Valentine's Day. On Valentine's Day, she told Ma Lin that she would take Lin Jianfan out of the house. Wouldn't it be too blatant
Gu Chaoming frowned, and Lin Jianfan thought he had something on his mind.
"How do you tell your mother when you go out on Valentine's Day? Will your mother doubt us?" Gu Chaoming asked with his head resting on Lin Jianfan's lap.
Lin Jianfan leaned on the back of the bed and ruffled Gu Chaoming's hair with his fingers, saying something Gu Chaoming didn't expect.
"Actually, I want to try telling my mother directly that we go out to play together and see how she reacts."
He wanted to know, he wanted to test it to see if his mother could see any clues, or whether he regarded Gu Chaoming as a brother like she said during the New Year.
Gu Chaoming said worriedly: "But will that kind of testing make your mother, who wasn't suspicious, become suspicious?"
"This..." Lin Jianfan just wanted to test it out, but he didn't expect this level.
"Then why don't I go out first and say I'm not coming, and then you tell your mother that I have something to look for you, and you come out again?" Gu Chaoming suggested.
Lin Jianfan's fingers touched Gu Chaoming's forehead: "Why is it so troublesome?"
"That's it..." Gu Chaoming paused for a while, "I just want to take you out, Valentine's Day, this is the first Valentine's Day after we've been together, and we will definitely come out."
Lin Jianfan bent down slightly, lowered his head, and scratched Gu Chaoming's nose with his fingers: "I know, I will find a way."
"Yeah." Gu Chaoming nodded, raised his waist and wanted to kiss Lin Jianfan's approaching lips.
A knock on the door interrupted Gu Chaoming's erect upper body.
As soon as there was a knock on the door, Gu Chaoming, who was lying on Lin Jianfan's lap, immediately got up, moved to the table and picked up a book at random.
When Lin Ma walked into the room, she saw a scene full of knowledge.
From time to time, Ma Lin pushed in the door like Cha Gang, and was not absent on Valentine's Day when Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan were thinking about how to get out.
Lin Ma pushed the door open again and entered, Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan put away the Valentine's Day atmosphere and looked at Lin Ma with an expression of questioning what Lin Ma was going to do.
Behind Ma Lin stood Papa Lin, and they both changed their clothes and were ready to go out.
When he first saw Dad Lin, Gu Chaoming thought he was a polite man. Later, he often visited Lin Jianfan's house. Gu Chaoming found that Dad Lin was actually a man who spoke very few words, but this did not hinder his love for Mom Lin. and his romance.
Not only Lin Jianfan wants to go out on Valentine's Day, but Lin's father and Lin's mother also want to go out. The two just came over to tell them, Lin Jianfan took the opportunity to tell his mother that they were going out too, and attached the reason for studying, pretending not to know that it was Valentine's Day and deceiving Lin's mother.
The problem of going out that has been worrying for so long was solved so easily. Gu Chaoming, who was sitting in the seat, didn't say a word, but was a little confused. Before Lin Ma closed the door, Gu Chaoming asked Lin Jianfan to help him.
The speed at which the problem was solved was so fast that Gu Chaoming was stunned.
Lin Jianfan, who was sitting beside the bed, walked over with a smile on his face and whispered to him, "We'll go out when my parents and my mother go out."
Going out smoothly to Gu Chaoming couldn't imagine, walking with Lin Jianfan on the street full of couples, Gu Chaoming accompanied him to go out casually as usual, eat dinner, watch movies, and the day went by like that.
It was so bland as if Gu Chaoming had never emphasized that this was their first Valentine's Day since they were together.
There was nothing special and no surprises on Valentine's Day, but Lin Jianfan was still very happy. Gu Chaoming didn't know that as long as Lin Jianfan was with him, it would be a surprise.
He deliberately stayed with Lin Jianfan for a whole day outside, and at night Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan took a taxi home together.
Gu Chaoming did not report the address of Lin Jianfan's house, but the address of his own. Lin Jianfan was not surprised when he heard that Gu Chaoming reported his address, as if they should have returned there.
Lin Jianfan believed him unconditionally.
Lin Jianfan got out of the car first, and was so happy that he trotted upstairs, took the key to open the door, turned on the light and prepared to change his shoes, when he turned on the light and looked at the house he hadn't come back to in some days, Lin Jianfan was stunned.
A pile of candles was neatly arranged on the living room floor. The candles were not lit, and they were arranged in a series of numbers that he did not want to face.
The date on the card Zhu Shengquan wrote to him when he jumped down from the upstairs and was recovering in the hospital.
Afraid that Lin Jianfan would be stimulated, Gu Chaoming followed Lin Jianfan and entered the door. The door slammed behind him, and when he saw the date, Lin Jianfan turned around and asked, "What do you mean?"
He believed in Gu Chaoming, but the date really appeared in front of him, it was Valentine's Day, at Gu Chaoming's house, and it was made of candles.
Lin Jianfan had to be excited, he couldn't understand what Gu Chaoming meant.
Gu Chaoming was afraid that Lin Jianfan would go mad, so he put down the things in his hand and hugged Lin Jianfan to comfort him, gently stroked his back, and said to him, "It's okay."
Gu Chaoming put his palm on Lin Jianfan's shoulder and asked him to turn around and face the date on the floor with candles: "Come on, look, I'll make a magic trick for you."
The dazzling date on the floor was the day Lin Jianfan didn't want to face. He didn't hate every number in the date, just put together a date he wanted to destroy.
Gu Chaoming lowered his head and kissed Lin Jianfan's mouth, so that he could calm down before he walked to the pile of candles, took out the lighters that had been prepared long ago from his pocket and lit them one by one.
That date was lit up little by little under Gu Chaoming's hands, like the day when the night broke, and the dawn came little by little, just like Gu Chaoming lit the day he feared in his memory, the flame ignited by Gu Chaoming burned the darkness and brought bright.
Lin Jianfan stared at Gu Chaoming's hands that lit the candles one by one. The lights above his head suddenly went out, leaving only the fire on the floor to illuminate Gu Chaoming's face and Lin Jianfan's figure.
Gu Chaoming turned off the light, he walked behind Lin Jianfan and hugged him, resting his head against Lin Jianfan's head, and grabbed Lin Jianfan's palm with both hands.
"That day," Gu Chaoming whispered in Lin Jianfan's ear, "you told me that the people who forced you to have sex with you that day. It was also that day that you and Zhu Shengquan had an intersection."
Lin Jianfan in his arms was very nervous and depressed. Gu Chaoming could feel Lin Jianfan's patience. For the first time, he wanted to break through Gu Chaoming's arms and run out to breathe fresh air.
He couldn't take it, remembering that day he couldn't take it.
"why would… "
"Shh, I know you want to leave very much, but after listening to me," Gu Chaoming grabbed the back of Lin Jianfan's hand and stroked, "Okay?"
okay
The breath exhaled from these two words sprayed on Lin Jianfan's ears, and Lin Jianfan shrank into Gu Chaoming's arms. Running out is not allowed, he can only go to a safer place.
Gu Chaoming pasted Lin Jianfan's face with his own face, and then said, "I know that day was scary, and you don't want to mention it again. As long as I mention that day, you will be very scared. We can't do this."
"I'm going to make a magic trick for you."
Gu Chaoming grabbed the back of Lin Jianfan's hand, and Lin Jianfan turned into his hands. Gu Chaoming held Lin Jianfan's hand, grabbed one of the candle cups, moved it to another number, and took the next one...
one, two, three...
The candle changes, and the number of candles changes under the hand.
"It doesn't matter, it was just an ordinary day, like today. It's over, like a candle in your hand, it's still on that day, and now you see..."
Lin Jianfan obediently looked at the candles on the ground, his eyes moist.
The date of the candle written by Zhu Shengquan on the card becomes the day they met under the movement.
"This is the day we first met at school, do you remember?" Lin Jianfan, who was trapped in his arms, nodded. He held back his tears, for fear that the tears would fall and extinguish the flame of the candle.
He had nothing to do with Gu Chaoming, a little trick could stab the softest part of his heart and hit his lacrimal glands,
Gu Chaoming raised Lin Jianfan's hand again and started to move the candle. He picked up the extra candle, and Gu Chaoming said to him softly, "Blow it out."
Lin Jian Fan did as he did, exhaled, and the light of the candle disappeared in this world.
"You blew it out." Gu Chaoming said.
Looking at the candles on the ground, the date is today.
"The extra candles are the ones you blow out, they're the extra pain of the day that makes you feel like it's pain you don't want to talk about anymore.
"Every day is normal, but something and someone makes it special. You can remember the day you confessed to me, and you can forget the day you don't want to face it anymore."
"The date now comes from the date you don't want to face, through your hand, and time passes little by little from that day. It may have made you not want to face it, but today it has It becomes the past, and the extra candles are blown out and cannot be rekindled, so why are you still struggling?"
Lin Jianfan trembled in his arms, Gu Chaoming could only see his face slightly sideways, he let go of Lin Jianfan's arm and embraced Lin Jianfan, as if wrapping Lin Jianfan in his body and using his body to go To be Lin Jianfan's protective shell.
Being hugged by Gu Chaoming, the heart seemed to be sleeping in the cradle, lying on a soft support. Lin Jianfan collapsed into Gu Chaoming's arms, and he approached Gu Chaoming's chest in Gu Chaoming's arms, and in turn wrapped his arms around Gu Chaoming's waist.
Gu Chaoming lowered his head and kissed Lin Jianfan's moist eyes: "Promise me, don't think about this day again, it's just an ordinary day."
Nodding his head on his chest, Gu Chaoming said again: "I don't force you, I just want you to feel better and not be bound by that date. You said you were afraid of seeing the worried eyes of your parents, you don't need it because of me today. I feel that I have to forget what I did to you. You don't have to blame yourself if you can't forget it. You don't need to blame yourself in front of me. Whether you forget it or can't forget it, you can tell me. Remember, I'm with you You can say anything to me."
Lin Jianfan is a very careful person. Gu Chaoming didn't want his kindness to Lin Jianfan to become Lin Jianfan's pressure. He only hoped that Lin Jianfan would forget the past, and he would explain to Lin Jianfan one by one, telling him not to blame himself, he knew Lin Jianfan, and that Lin Jianfan would take the blame for not being able to do it.
Gu Chaoming didn't want to become a copy of Lin's father and Lin's mother, and he didn't want to see Lin Jianfan stay away from him because of self-blame, or pretend to show him that he didn't care anymore.
Gu Chaoming hugged Lin Jianfan horizontally, and the sudden increase in height was supported by Gu Chaoming's solid arms, and Lin Jianfan was not afraid.
He was just crying, crying against Gu Chaoming's chest, like crying in the bathtub the day he confessed to Gu Chaoming in a chorus competition.
Not because of sadness, or pain, and not all happiness, but as if everything in the past was compensated.
He didn't receive an apology, what he got was Gu Chaoming's unremitting patience and various ways to enlighten him.
Lin Jianfan was so tired from crying next to Gu Chaoming that he had no strength and looked out of the dark window.
There was nothing outside the pitch-black window, just darkness.
There was no snow outside the window, Lin saw the snow in Fan's eyes and stopped.