Valentine's Day is closely linked with the start of the third year of high school, and we have to rush to school the next day on Valentine's Day. In the third year of high school, the report on the opening of the school was omitted, and the review started directly.
Yesterday night, he sent Lin Jianfan, who was tired from crying against his chest until he fell asleep. Gu Chaoming's chest was wet. After sending Lin Jianfan home safely, he went back to his house to clean up the candles that were blown out on the floor, thinking about Lin Jianfan. Fan's crying face.
The candles were put away one by one, and Gu Chaoming hoped that his efforts could lift the curse in Lin Jianfan's heart, instead of just letting Lin Jianfan shed tears.
Back on campus, the tense life of senior year did not stop because of anyone. Lin Ma promised Lin Jianfan that he would not repeat the study and would continue to study this semester. On the surface, he let him go to school by himself, but behind the scenes, he kept in close contact with their homeroom teacher, Lao Chen, on numerous phone calls, just praying that Lin Jianfan would be able to spend the third year of high school in a safe and secure manner.
Yesterday, he sent Lin Jianfan home. The next morning, Gu Chaoming, who lived closer to the school, deliberately took a detour and waited for him at the station where Lin Jianfan went to the school.
Lin Jianfan went out early, and Gu Chaoming was earlier than him. When he saw Lin Jianfan approaching at the station, Gu Chaoming hid behind the station license plate to prevent him from finding out.
It was like the first time a child went out to school, the mother at home was worried, and Gu Chaoming also ran over to accompany him.
Not wanting to show his worry so obviously, Gu Chaoming pretended to be later than Lin Jianfan, and also pretended that he had something to give him before coming to the station, not because he was worried.
Taking the yogurt that Gu Chaoming handed over, Lin Jianfan touched the yogurt in his hand, lowered his eyes and looked up at Gu Chaoming. Gu Chaoming caught Lin Jianfan's look, tilted his head and smiled at him.
Back to school together, Lin Jianfan, who didn't even attend the final exam not only during the winter vacation last year, walked into the classroom and immediately received unlimited attention from his classmates.
After receiving the concern from many people in the class, Lin Jianfan had a slight smile on the corner of his mouth.
He has reached a distance previously imagined. Here is Yu Hangwei, who dislikes him, but more of his classmates' concern, and Gu Chaoming, who came to accompany him to school in the morning.
Others smiled at him, but Lin Jianfan returned them a smile. Yu Hangwei looked at him coldly, Lin Jian Fan Xue ignored it, and Gu Chaoming, who was walking behind him, glared back for him.
A classmate asked him how the winter vacation was. Lin Jianfan returned a smile and looked back at Gu Chaoming who was behind him. Gu Chaoming was busy staring at Yu Hangwei who gave him a cold look.
Gu Chaoming has made so much effort for him, and he should also learn to work hard to move forward.
This is not the first time he thinks this way. It is always easy to imagine, but difficult to realize.
He still likes to stay by Gu Chaoming's side, and still has a sense of distrust in the class he has been familiar with for two years.
With this sense of distrust, Lin Jianfan worked hard to reintegrate into the class, and tried hard to discover the rest of the beauty in this world.
When he first transferred, the only old Chen who knew about Lin Jianfan's past also tried to talk to Lin Jianfan and called Lin Jianfan to the office. This year, Chen did not, nor did these things happen. Old Chen only kept in close contact with Lin Ma, afraid that if he asked Lin Jianfan to go to the office too much, it would add pressure to Lin Jianfan.
Lao Chen is no different from usual, he still started school with a small speech "Don't think it's still winter vacation, pull me back to study", then said a little notice, and then started the class.
There is nothing different from usual, no one can see that Lao Chen is actually very concerned about the person in his class who needs special attention - Lin Jianfan.
In class, Lao Chen didn't name Lin Jianfan's name. After class, Lao Chen briefly took Lin Jianfan's leave and had to make good remedial lessons.
Lin Jianfan nodded to show his understanding.
After Lao Chen finished talking, Lin Jianfan told the students that they could change their seats a little when the school started today.
"Do you want to change positions?" Lao Chen asked on the podium.
Originally, it was best not to change the position of the third year of high school. It was already in the second semester of the third year of high school. Changing the position would not have a big effect, and changing the position was not Lao Chen's original intention.
It was Gu Chaoming who called him who persuaded him to change his position. Gu Chaoming's winter vacation can be described as "full", meeting with his mother, going to Lin Jianfan's house every day to see Lin Jianfan, and calling Lao Chen to ask him to change Lin Jianfan to the table with him.
"This..." This position is a bit difficult to change, and it's almost graduation, who wants to change positions
Old Chen thought about it, who would have guessed that Gu Chaoming proposed a plan for his position change.
"I have already told Ma Lin about changing positions, and she agreed, saying that Lin Jianfan is fine when he sits behind him, and I can take care of him by sitting next to him. I can take care of him and study with him. Cen Xili changed to Lin Jianfan's seat, and Su Bing sat behind them, they were familiar with each other..."
Before calling Lao Chen, Gu Chaoming had proposed to Lin Ma about changing positions. After Lin Ma agreed, Gu Chaoming would ask Lao Chen again.
During a winter vacation, Gu Chaoming did a lot of things that he shouldn't have to do, and did a lot of things that he didn't tell Lin Jianfan.
After colluding with Lao Chen, when Lao Chen said on the podium to change his position, Gu Chaoming was the first to raise his hand.
"Teacher, I want to sit with Lin Jianfan," Gu Chaoming said with a smile, and pretended not to make his intentions too rigid, "I want to take care of the sick students in our class."
"Are you willing to be at the same table? There is also Lin Jianfan." Lao Chen looked at Gu Chaoming's current tablemate Cen Xili, and then at Lin Jianfan.
Cen Xili was about to change positions for some reason. Old Chen looked at him, and he looked at Gu Chaoming who raised his hand.
Gu Chaoming gave him a look, and Su Bing, who was in front of Lin Jianfan's back table, heard that Cen Xili could switch over and give Cen Xili a look of "Xili, Xili, come here quickly".
Cen Xili nodded confusedly, Cen Xili nodded, and Lin Jianfan also nodded.
Li Zhao was a little reluctant to be replaced at his own table, and Su Bing at the back table was so happy that he wanted to run over to help Cen Xili move the table.
Now that's all right, Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan sat at a table, and Xili came over, Su Bing thought about it, and quickly raised his hand: "Teacher, teacher, I want to sit with Cen Xili!"
Change the table again? Li Zhao's tablemate changed from Lin Jianfan, who had been sitting for more than a year, to Cen Xili, and he would change again in an instant
Li Zhao looked back at Su Bing's tablemate, and Su Bing whispered to him, "What are you waiting for? Raise your hand quickly and say you want to sit with Shi Cancan."
Li Zhao turned to look at Shi Cancan again. Shi Cancan noticed that he was looking at him, and Li Zhao immediately turned his head and said to Su Bing, "No, no!"
"Coward!"
Old Chen was still adjusting the seats on the podium, and other students raised their hands, and the Su Bing section became noisy again after adjusting the seats.
Su Bing wanted to raise his hand for Li Zhao, but was pressed down by Li Zhao. Lao Chen glanced at them and reminded them.
Looking at their film like this is too noisy, it should be changed.
There is a slight movement of seats in the class, all of which are voluntary. With Su Bing's unremitting efforts, Li Zhao moved to a position closer to Shi Cancan. Su Bing and Cen Xili were at the same table, and Lin Jianfan got rid of his front table and Yu Hangwei changed to Gu Chaoming's side.
"Don't thank me, brother?" Su Bing helped Li Zhao to change his position and put his hand on Li Zhao's shoulder and said.
Li Zhao opened Su Bing's hand: "Thank you ghost."
He was very hard on Su Bing, and when he came to Shi Cancan, Li Zhao was too cowardly. He only dared to peek at her when he passed Shi Cancan.
Su Bing shook his head and smiled at Li Zhao, and walked to Cen Xili's desk to help Cen Xili move things. Lin Jianfan had Gu Chaoming to help him move. Putting things down and sitting beside Su Bing, Cen Xili heard Su Bing teasing Gu Chaoming who came to help Lin Jianfan with the things: "You can only hear the new people laugh but not the old people cry."
Gu Chaoming ignored him, rewarded Su Bing and walked back to Lin Jianfan.
He walked across the aisle with his things and saw that Cen Xili was sitting next to Lin Jianfan, and the corner of Gu Chaoming's mouth twitched into a smile.
Lin Jianfan was sitting beside him, and he would not let the past happen again.
He walked over with the things and put them on Lin Jianfan's table, Gu Chaoming moved his seat and sat down, turned his head and said to Lin Jianfan with a smile, "Sit at the last table and study hard, and I must study hard so that I can work hard. more than you."
Gu Chaoming smiled brightly, Lin Jianfan looked into Gu Chaoming's eyes, he saw his own reflection in Gu Chaoming's eyes, and saw a bright future.
The third year of high school was tense and boring. The class time took up most of the day. Gu Chaoming was serious in class. Even if Lin Jianfan was replaced by him, he could only give Lin Jianfan some small surprises after class or during lunch break.
Gu Chaoming didn't have any specialties. He wanted to make Lin Jianfan happy during his lunch break. The first thing Gu Chaoming thought of was origami.
They used to give origami to Lin Jianfan in class, before they were in the third year of high school and Su Bing's senior sister had not graduated.
At noon, Lin Jianfan was lying on the table to catch up on sleep. When he woke up, he saw a pile of cardboard and a few folded origami on the table.
In the past, origami was still torn from workbooks. This time, Gu Chaoming specially bought special origami and learned several new folding methods.
Lin Jianfan was lying on the table fiddling with the origami doll that Gu Chaoming gave him.
Gu Chaoming's fingers danced skillfully in Lin Jianfan's eyes. Lin Jianfan was lying on the table with his chin on the back of his hand, staring at Gu Chaoming.
At the beginning, he stared at Gu Chaoming's flying fingers, climbed up along Gu Chaoming's arm, climbed to Gu Chaoming's neck, caught Gu Chaoming's neck and climbed up to Gu Chaoming's face, Gu Chaoming's eyes looked at the table.
In the afternoon, a sense of light filled Gu Chaoming's edge, just like when Lin saw Fan Chu come to class and met Gu Chaoming in the toilet. At that time, Gu Chaoming was also covered with the same light as now.
At that time it was the light coming in from the window behind, what about now
A folded little rabbit was presented to Lin Jianfan, who was staring at him in a daze: "I am a little rabbit, and I saw a handsome guy, wow, the handsome guy is so handsome, ah, the handsome guy smiled."
Lin Jianfan smiled cooperatively.
Gu Chaoming once said that he was very good at coaxing people, but Lin Jianfan held the little rabbit that Gu Chaoming had folded and felt that Gu Chaoming was even more good at coaxing people.
A colorful origami becomes so much fun in his hands, a piece of origami can make him laugh.
It didn't take long before the rabbit in the hand had not had enough fun, and a rose was brought to the front.
There were too many people in the class who were hard to say. When Gu Chaoming gave out the roses he had folded, he only said to Lin Jianfan softly, "What I said on the night of the trip is what I want to say now."
You are a unique rose.
Holding the rose forest and seeing Fan raised his head, Gu Chaoming was always smiling.
Lin Jianfan held a rose in his hand, and the corners of his mouth grinned, giving Gu Chaoming the same smile.
The two smiled face to face, seeing Lin Jianfan's smile, Gu Chaoming's eyes were sore, and tears were hidden behind his eyes.
He wanted to hug Lin Jianfan, and hug Lin Jianfan who finally laughed.
Lin Jianfan felt that the pain in the past with Gu Chaoming was compensated, and Gu Chaoming wanted to say that he was too.
The hard work of the past has finally paid off.
He kept working hard and constantly enlightening Lin Jianfan just for a smile of Lin Jianfan.
Now he's heading in that direction.
Can't do anything in the classroom, Gu Chaoming began to worry, anxious to want the time to pass faster, to go home after school for dinner sooner.
Waiting anxiously, time passed more slowly, and after school was finally over, Gu Chaoming quickly took Lin Jianfan home, and he completed the idea he wanted to complete at noon as soon as he entered the school.
Gu Chaoming hugged Lin Jianfan from behind, and walked to the living room with him. The moment he hugged Lin Jianfan, he was eager to grow up.
He desperately wanted to be on his own, and wanted to wrap Lin Jianfan in his arms to protect him, so he didn't need to cover up and endure all the time.
He wanted to go back to their home with Lin Jianfan every day. All the housework was thrown to him, he cooked, Lin Jianfan watched TV, he washed the dishes, Lin Jianfan was eating, and even the headstrong Gu Chaoming would pamper him.
Willfulness is what Gu Chaoming wants to see most in Lin Jianfan.
He wanted to live under the same roof with Lin Jianfan, without heavy studies, without complicated disturbances, just the two of them, he slept with Lin Jianfan, took a bath with Lin Jianfan, on the bed, on the sofa, in the bathtub, The kitchen has left traces of them.
Now they are still only 18-year-olds, and they are only students who spend half of the year at school and don't know anyone other than their teachers and classmates.
They are about to graduate, and they are getting closer to their desired future.
In addition to his expectations for a better future, Gu Chaoming also understands that there will be setbacks in a better future.
Ultimately, they want to reach more people and a wider world. In that world, among those people, there are many people who are better than him, and many people who are more upward than him.
Gu Chaoming knew that he was only a small piece of dust floating in the world, and when he arrived in the vast world, Lin Jianfan would also meet better people, thousands of times better than him, and able to shine in thousands of dust. Glowing man.
In front of those people, he has no strength to compete. The only thing he can compete is to meet Lin Jianfan earlier than them, and to compete with Lin Jianfan's love and trust in him.
It's not that he has no confidence in Lin Jianfan's love. The moment he was with Lin Jianfan, he already knew that he would never let him go, and he also believed that Lin Jianfan's love for him would never change. He just wanted to make himself better, so good that he felt that Lin Jianfan loved him for granted.
Thinking of this, Gu Chaoming, who wants to grow up quickly, has enough motivation again.
After eating together and going back to school, neither of them told Mom and Dad Gu, the address of Gu Chaoming's home—their nest.
Lin Jianfan went home with Gu Chaoming for dinner every day. Gu Chaoming felt that Ma Lin seemed to have noticed something, but Ma Lin did not say it clearly.
The wind in winter brought news of spring. There was something that happened before. In the second semester of senior year, Lin Ma promised Lin Jianfan to go to school by himself in the morning, but someone must pick him up in the evening.
Lin Jianfan had no objection, and Gu Chaoming sent Lin Jianfan to the car after the evening class every day. Lin Ma said to send him home. Gu Chaoming didn't want to expose his and Lin Jianfan's home, so he always rejected Lin Ma's kindness.
Not only is he afraid that Ma Lin will know their address, but Gu Chaoming is also afraid that Ma Lin will know that his parents are divorced and not living with his mother, and that his father does not know where he is. Tell Old Chen. That would cause a lot of trouble, so Gu Chaoming simply told Mother Lin that his father had gone home and that he did not live alone.
He sent Lin Jianfan to the car again, and waved to Lin Jianfan by the car window. The car was moving, and Lin Jianfan's eyes were still on the window, watching Gu Chaoming's figure getting further and further away.
It was like this every time. Lin Ma drove the car and didn't say anything when she saw it.
The relationship between the two children was beyond her expectations.
No matter how good the relationship between classmates and friends is, Lin Ma could not have imagined that it would be so good.
It's not that Gu Chaoming's side treats Lin Jianfan well, Lin Jianfan will also make Lin Ma feel that her son has responded.
Gu Chaoming would visit Lin Jianfan every day in the big winter regardless of the wind and snow. Lin Jianfan would rely on him and stare at him from the car window.
Lin Ma peeked at the son in the back seat. He and Gu Chaoming were not like a connection between friends, but more like a bond.
A special bond.
Lin Ma just felt that she didn't ask much when she went home and stared at the back of her son entering the room.
She dared not ask.
She lived up to the trust of seeing Fan once, and chose to trust their head teacher. That wrong mistrust made it impossible for her to ask questions like before.
Walking into the room, Lin Jianfan didn't notice his mother's eyes staring at his back. Lin Jianfan dug out his homework and carefully took out the origami that Gu Chaoming gave him today from his schoolbag.
Origami is easy to be crushed in a schoolbag. Lin Jianfan put the origami in the outermost pocket, and when he got home, he was protected by various kinds of protection, but he was still crushed by a Pikachu.
Gu Chaoming likes origami, and Lin Jianfan is like collecting Gu Chaoming's origami. Every time Gu Chaoming gives him origami, he puts it in a box.
Today's Origami has his favorite Pikachu, but unfortunately it was crushed. Lin Jianfan sat on the chair and carefully pulled the shriveled Pikachu away.
Be careful and be careful, the folded paper is very fragile, and when Lin Jianfan pulled it a little harder, Pikachu cracked.
Lin Jianfan's fingers paused, as if his heart had been torn apart, and he hurriedly wanted to make up for it. In a hurry, he seemed to see a black thing inside Pikachu, like words written with a black pen.
After confirming again and again that it was written by Gu Chaoming, Lin Jianfan tried to open the Pikachu folded by Gu Chaoming, and spread out the origami that was torn apart by him.
A small line of writing is written on yellow origami paper full of creases.
"Look forward, don't look back."
What he once said on Gu Chaoming's eighteenth birthday.
It is now written on this yellow origami.
Lin Jianfan thought of something. He took the box he specially used to store the origami that Gu Chaoming gave him, and opened up all the origami that Gu Chaoming had given him during this period. There are all the words Gu Chaoming wrote to him.
Pieces of colorful origami were piled up on the table, and Lin Jianfan had read them one by one, like reading a letter from Gu Chaoming to him.
Reading letters is like physical labor, using most of Lin Jianfan's strength. After reading all the letters, Lin Jianfan held the table with his hands, tears lingering in his eyes. He tried hard to hold back, but a drop still fell on the yellow one in his hand. A slit on the origami paper.
"Look forward, don't look back."
It says so on the yellow origami.
Gu Chaoming is too bad, his tear ducts are too fragile.
Then look forward and don't look back.
Lin Jianfan packed up the origami papers on the table, folded them one by one and put them in the box. Clean up the origami on the table, clean up your mood, and clean up your past.
In the past, Lin Jianfan thought that there was no light ahead, and it was always dark. Later, in the endless dark corridor, he saw Gu Chaoming who had been waiting for him for a long time. Gu Chaoming smiled and reached out to him with the light of the rising sun.
His lips opened and closed as he said, "Don't be afraid, I'm with you."
He held the hand that Gu Chaoming stretched out to him, he would run forward, leave the past behind, and never look back.
That night he had a dream, dreaming of the god of death, the god of death was dressed in black robes, not the cruel and cruel appearance in the movie, the god of death sat down and talked with him for a long time.
Death asked: "Don't you want to see me? I've been summoned many times, so I'm here, and I'll take you away. Let's go, child, the world is ugly and it's not worth staying."
Lin Jianfan looked at the god of death and opened his mouth.
He said: "It's really cold in the water, but there's a boy who's warm, and I don't want to."