The number of days before the college entrance examination on the wall is getting smaller and smaller, and life after school seems to be re-enacted from the previous semester. Day and night of heavy study, the closer to the college entrance examination, the greater the pressure to study.
For Gu Chaoming, the college entrance examination is like a difficulty waiting for him to overcome, and the review of the third year of high school is a process for them to recharge their energy and overcome the difficulty.
In the process of recuperating, there were many things he had never thought of before. Gu Tao's sudden disappearance, his move, Zhou Han's apology, Liu Yi's marriage, and the most unexpected thing for him was Lin Jianfan.
While recharging his energy, he also took care of Lin Jianfan with all his heart, tried his best to surprise Lin Jianfan, and hoped that Lin Jianfan could come out of the pain of the past and face the rejuvenating world outside the window.
The surprises and secret company that he racked his brains for always brought Lin Jianfan's tears, and Gu Chao obviously wanted to make him laugh.
Lin Jianfan's tears fell on Gu Chaoming's heart, and a spring color grew.
Despite being absent from class, Lin Jianfan still ranked first in the class in the quiz after returning to school. Gu Chaoming was still worried, but helped Lin Jianfan to take the test paper from the class representative and saw the scores on the test paper. Lin Jianfan is a five-body cast.
I have worked so hard to review and haven't been short of winter vacation tuition, and my grades have been tepid, but Lin Jianfan's grades seem to be unstoppable.
With the arrival of early spring, the temperature gradually rises, and the sky outside the window removes the gloom of winter and puts on new clothes of sunshine. After several days of fine weather, Gu Chaoming's mood was warmed by the sunlight that shone on the ground in the early morning.
During class, Gu Chaoming always sneaked a glance at Lin Jianfan, quietly and undetected.
Even if Lin Jianfan was sitting beside him.
The warm spring sun shines on the earth, and in the heavy review of the third year of high school, Gu Chaoming will also try his best to make time for a date with Lin Jianfan in the intensive study schedule.
Sometimes it's a Saturday with a full day off, sometimes it's on the way home after school, sometimes it's just a little bit of time left over after lunch at school.
After dinner with Su Bing and Cen Xili, Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan finished eating first, Su Bing was still eating slowly, Gu Chaoming pulled Lin Jianfan to slip.
Su Bing had vegetables in his hands and chewed rice in his mouth, but he still didn't forget to complain about Gu Chaoming's "forgetting righteousness".
Su Bing never changed his words to complain about Gu Chaoming, and Cen Xili could hear calluses.
The little time left in the afternoon meal seemed to be stolen from the intensive review.
Gu Chaoming pulled Lin Jianfan out of the cafeteria, the sunshine in the spring afternoon melted like butter on Gu Chaoming's wrist.
At school, Gu Chaoming was not as presumptuous as he was at home. The romance between him and the dean had recently started again for some reason.
The last time I saw that there was no one around, I wanted to hold Lin Jianfan's hand, but before the hand could be held, the dean of the seer came from far away, Gu Chaoming immediately reminded Lin Jianfan, and pretended to be with Lin Jianfan. I love learning, I love learning all the time, and I have to discuss learning with the masters on the road.”
When the dean passed by Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan, they both called out "Hello, director".
Gu Chaoming breathed a sigh of relief when the dean left. Although he was bold, he didn't want the dean to find out that he was with Lin Jianfan. When Cen Xili liked You Xin in his first year of high school, there was a lot of noise. In short, it would not be a good thing to be discovered at school. After all, they were still students of the school.
Gu Chaoming once again looked forward to time passing faster, to the college entrance examination sooner, and to college sooner, so that he could hold Lin Jianfan's hand whenever he wanted to, without having to look left or right, Be so careful, it's like doing something bad.
Recently, I met the dean of the school many times, and when I was with Lin Jianfan, Gu Chaoming did not directly hold Lin Jianfan's hand, but went back to holding Lin Jianfan's wrist when he was not with Lin Jianfan.
Pulling Lin Jianfan's wrist, he turned his head in the spring, and looked at Lin Jianfan's face in the sun.
The sun is warm, the flowers on the roadside are fragrant and fragrant, the breeze is not dry, and Lin Jianfan's eyes are bent and smiling. These make up Gu Chaoming's entire spring.
Looking at Lin Jianfan's smiling face, Gu Chaoming recalled that during the singing competition last year, it was also in the spring. Lin Jianfan confessed to him in the toilet. He took Lin Jianfan's hand and walked back to the classroom from the toilet.
That was the first time he held Lin Jianfan's hand as a boyfriend.
Gu Chaoming still remembers his silly smile at that time.
Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan's smiling face in the sun, and recalled the first time he held Lin Jianfan's hand. Lin Jianfan watched Gu Chaoming turn his head in the spring, and remembered that they were playing chess and cards in the school corridor when the dean found out that Gu Chaoming was holding his hand and running in the avenue.
At that time, Gu Chaoming also turned his head like now. That scene was deeply imprinted in Lin Jianfan's mind. After running, Gu Chaoming picked the most beautiful little yellow flower in the school garden and gave it to him.
The two looked at each other's faces and recalled the past, and the sweetness of the memories brought smiles on their faces that made Sunshine ashamed.
Pulling Lin Jianfan to lie down on a lawn in the school, Lin Jianfan was lying beside him, his whole body was covered in sunlight, Gu Chaoming turned his head to look, Lin Jianfan also looked over, the two lay on the lawn and looked at each other, Look at each other and smile.
Gu Chaoming looked into Lin Jianfan's eyes. Before he knew it, they had gone through so much together. Before he knew it, they were about to take the college entrance examination. Before he knew it, Gu Tao left his life. Before he knew it, they had been together for almost a year...
The trajectory of fate began to change from the evening when he met Lin Jianfan in the second year of high school. At that time, Gu Chaoming would never have thought that the rich man who gave him a pack of Band-Aid was lying beside him now. Take the big test of your life.
Thinking of the college entrance examination, Gu Chaoming turned to Lin Jianfan and asked, "The college entrance examination will be in a few months. Have you decided where to take the test?"
Lin Jianfan shook his head.
"Have you decided yet?" Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan and asked.
Lin Jianfan's eyes were a little confused, he looked at the blue sky above his head, and the sunlight fell into his eyes.
Lin Jianfan looked directly at the slightly dazzling sunlight: "Actually, I kind of want to learn photography."
"Photography is fine too," Gu Chaoming said, "becoming a photographer in the future?"
Lin Jianfan nodded and turned to look at Gu Chaoming, who supported him in learning photography: "I prefer photography."
"The photos you took now are already very good-looking, and photography is fine." Gu Chaoming said.
Lin Jianfan seemed to have his worries, Gu Chaoming teased him and said, "I think it's good to have a boyfriend who studies photography. I don't have to worry about taking pictures in the future. Hahaha... I'll be a model for you."
Gu Chaoming didn't like taking pictures very much, and he said this just to make Lin Jianfan happy.
In the past, Gu Chaoming would come when he opened his mouth with such a slippery tongue, but now Gu Chaoming carefully measured every word he said, fearing that if he didn't grasp the scale of the joke, it would hurt Lin Jianfan's heart.
He was doing what Lin Jianfan said made him blame himself, and he was too careful with Lin Jianfan. He once told Lin to tell Fan when he had something to say, don't beat around the bush, don't flatter him, but what about him now
When he became joking in front of Lin Jianfan, he had to go through it in his heart first. Gu Chaoming often reflected on himself, had he been changed by suffering? Shouldn't this be the case
He was just too worried about Lin Jianfan, and Gu Chaoming realized that he was becoming the next Lin Ma.
She became a Lin Ma who was so nervous about Lin Jianfan that she wanted to imprison Lin Jianfan by her side and prevent him from suffering a little from the outside world.
He seems to be turning into someone who makes Lin Jianfan blame himself.
After measuring his joke again, Gu Chaoming suddenly became flustered. Lin Jianfan looked at him and showed that he knew, everything he knew.
Gu Chaoming's carefulness, Gu Chaoming's measurement, he can actually feel it all.
Gu Chaoming persuaded him to forget the past, but Gu Chaoming was also changed by the pain Lin Jianfan suffered.
Lin Jianfan looked around and saw that no one moved his body around, moved to Gu Chaoming's side, and took out the gap between the two.
Lin Jianfan's eyes were deep and he said to him, "You don't have to be so careful with me, I'm much better now, to be able to have a good conversation with my friends, to be able to fall in love with you in hiding at school, this kind of life is something I've longed for before. Yes, and you gave it to me. With you by my side, I'm very happy, so happy that I don't need to be in the sun to keep my body warm."
Lin Jianfan paused for a moment, and his palm covered Gu Chaoming's hand on the lawn: "Thank you for your efforts, I always feel that I can't live up to your efforts, and I'm also trying to get better, so don't be so careful about it anymore. me, okay?"
He finally said his thanks, after Gu Chaoming's unprepared joke, on a sunny spring afternoon.
Gu Chaoming stared at Lin Jianfan's extremely close eyes, he sighed and smiled again.
He was on the verge of being changed by the pain, and Lin Jianfan pulled him back.
"Okay." Gu Chaoming turned over the hand covered by Lin Jianfan, and held Lin Jianfan's hand instead, clasping his fingers tightly.
Gu Chaoming grinned, and he confessed his panic just now: "Actually, I just felt that I had changed, not like me, and became someone who made you blame yourself in the name of worrying about you, but what you said to me Let me understand again, let me find my lost self."
Lin Jian Fan Wang smiled at Gu Chaoming's eyes. Gu Chaoming didn't change, he didn't change at all, he was still the same Gu Chaoming who didn't turn around, said something straight, and told him "don't beat around the bush in front of him".
Although the straight-talking Gu Chaoming will say some embarrassing or irritating things without looking at the occasion, that is the real Gu Chaoming and the Gu Chaoming he likes.
Gu Chaoming has many shortcomings, and Lin Jianfan, as his boyfriend, can't ignore it, but like it has a kind of magic.
All the shortcomings do not need to be filtered, not to like Gu Chaoming's shortcomings as advantages, but to like Gu Chaoming and even his shortcomings.
Disadvantages don't have to be advantages, that's part of liking.
Anyway, there was no one around, Gu Chaoming clenched Lin Jianfan's hand and raised his other hand to touch Lin Jianfan's face.
Just as the arm was raised and yet to fall, the class bell rang, and the arm stopped in mid-air. No wonder there was no one around. It turned out to be class.
The class bell rang through the campus, and the hand that stopped in the air fell on Lin Jianfan's face. After smiling and stroking a few times, Gu Chaoming got up and pulled Lin Jianfan to the third floor.
Spring day, sunshine, the palm of his hand, fate is too good for him, Gu Chaoming turned his head in the spring day, and when he turned around, he was Lin Jianfan with a smile on his face.
Running back to the teaching building and sneaking back to the seat through the back door, Su Bing saw Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan who were late and pouted. Cen Xili knew that Su Bing must want to say that again.
"Oh, people in love."
Cen Xili shook his head and couldn't help laughing.
After the lunch break, Gu Chaoming took out his mobile phone, only to find that Zhou Han had sent him a message just before class.
Lin Jianfan turned his head, and Gu Chaoming, who was reading the information beside him, frowned, his expression heavy.
"What's wrong?" Lin Jianfan asked.
Gu Chaoming did not speak.
The text message Zhou Han sent him contained the name of someone he didn't want to see, someone he thought had completely left his life and would never appear again.
"I saw your dad on the road. Your dad gave me an envelope and asked me to give it to you."
Seeing the words "your dad", Gu Chaoming's heart tightened.
That man is back
That man is coming to disturb his life again, breaking his tranquility.
Why does Gu Tao want to come back at this time? Why come back when the college entrance examination is only a few months away? Will Gu Tao come to him when he comes back? Will you block him at the school gate again? Will it disrupt his plan to escape from the college entrance examination
Will his senior year continue as he imagined
Will his college entrance examination become the only way for him to escape Gu Tao again
Just hearing the news of Gu Tao's return, Gu Chaoming thought about it a lot, only to feel that the panic from the past was suppressed again, and he was overwhelmed.
Seeing that Fan finally became more cheerful, Lin told him not to care about him so much on the lawn at noon. Gu Chaoming thought that life was getting better again and returning to the normal track.
But things backfired, and Gu Tao, who he never wanted to see again, appeared in his field of vision.
Maybe there is Gu Tao in the normal track of his life, Gu Chaoming said to himself, so as to explain why Gu Tao appeared so coincidentally.
In the face of Lin Jianfan's question, Gu Chaoming showed him the text message from Zhou Han, Lin Jianfan's expression was no better than Gu Chaoming's.
At first, he was still thinking about what caused Gu Chaoming to be silent for a while, but after reading the text message, he knew that the devil had returned.
When he came back, Lin Jianfan could imagine Gu Tao's harassment and torture to Gu Chaoming after he came back.
Lin Jianfan looked at Gu Chaoming, and Gu Chaoming never gave up on him when he needed company. Now that Gu Tao appears, he will always accompany Gu Chaoming.
Lin Jianfan said to Gu Chaoming, who was silent because of Gu Tao: "It's okay, I'm here."
When he wanted to give up and leave this world, Gu Chaoming had said this to him many times.
It's okay, I'm here.
A word of confidence and encouragement to Lin Jianfan, Lin Jianfan returned it to Gu Chaoming, hoping that he would no longer be afraid, no longer afraid of Gu Tao.
Lin Jianfan reminded him more carefully: "Don't be impulsive, do you remember what you promised me during the New Year?"
Gu Chaoming remembered, always remembered, that Lin Jianfan asked him to call the police if Gu Tao used violence against him again.
The two of them build a little kingdom, and they share their most unspeakable secrets together.
Gu Chaoming did not tell Cen Xili and Su Bing the news of Gu Tao's return. Su Bing and Cen Xili thought nothing had happened.
The next afternoon, Gu Chaoming walked to the school gate alone, and Zhou Han was waiting for him outside the school gate.
Lin Jianfan learned that Zhou Han would come at noon and wanted to go with Gu Chaoming, but Gu Chaoming disagreed.
Gu Chaoming was afraid that there would be an accident, that Gu Tao would suddenly appear, and that Lin Jianfan would be hurt.
As soon as he got on with Gu Tao, everything became uncertain.
With Gu Chaoming's firm disagreement, Lin Jianfan retreated again and again, until Gu Chaoming could go to see Zhou Han alone, but he must have lunch with him.
Gu Tao’s meeting with Fan in Lin is a symbol of violence and the source of Gu Chaoming’s wound. Having dinner with Gu Chaoming just wants to ensure Gu Chaoming’s safety.
After class, Gu Chaoming, Cen Xili, and Su Bing told them to go to dinner today. He and Lin Jianfan had something to do. Su Bing squinted at him and asked in a beating tone, "What's the matter?"
It would be great if I could smoke Su Bing like before so that he wouldn't talk nonsense. Su Bing and Cen Xili were still the same as before, while Gu Chaoming was thinking about how to deal with Gu Tao.
In the afternoon, Cen Xili and Su Bing left first. Gu Chaoming waved to them and looked back at Lin Jianfan.
Lin Jianfan also looked at him: "I'll be waiting for you at the boulevard where the cat was fed last time."
Once, together with Su Bing, Cen Xili, and the others, they found the school kitten lying on the side of the road basking in the sun on the boulevard, and a few of them ran over to feed the kitten.
Everyone was walking towards the cafeteria, and there were fewer people on the boulevard.
When they parted, Lin Jianfan told Gu Chaoming uneasy: "Don't be impulsive, I'll be waiting for you there."
Gu Chaoming smiled at him: "Don't be nervous, I'm just going to get something."
Gu Chaoming told Lin Jianfan not to be nervous, but in fact he never let go of his inner tension.
Going outside the school to pick up what Gu Tao gave him, with Gu Tao's name on it, the brief separation made Lin Jianfan nervous.
He walked towards the boulevard where he met Kitten last time, and Gu Chaoming walked outside the school gate.
Opposite Direction.
Lin Jianfan turned his head and glanced at Gu Chaoming who was walking towards the school gate. He only saw Gu Chaoming's back.
As soon as he walked out of the school gate, Zhou Han, who was waiting outside the school, waved to him.
Walking to Zhou Han, Zhou Han handed him a bulging envelope.
"I guess it's money." Zhou Han said to him.
When I met Gu Tao yesterday, Zhou Han originally wanted to avoid him, but Gu Tao had already discovered him and talked a lot with him. Gu Tao's preface didn't make sense, but Zhou Han barely understood it.
Gu Tao looked a lot thinner and older. Zhou Han didn't meet Gu Tao often, not sure if it was his illusion, Zhou Han truthfully told Gu Chaoming what he saw about Gu Tao.
"Your dad doesn't know what he did outside, his mental state is not very good," Zhou Han lowered his voice, leaned closer and said to Gu Chaoming, "I heard someone in the community say that your dad was tricked into pyramid schemes. , and some people say that your father is a drug addict."
After Gu Chaoming moved out, Gu Tao didn't go home for so long. The few times he went home, he smashed things like crazy at home. The neighbors didn't dare to argue with him, for fear that he would be a lunatic and beat people.
There is everything in the community. Zhou Han advised Gu Chaoming not to go home. He has also been paying attention recently. He will help to keep an eye on it.
"Thank you." Gu Chaoming said to Zhou Han, holding the thick envelope in his hand.
As soon as he touched the envelope, Gu Chaoming knew that it was definitely money.
He had to wonder, Gu Tao gave him money
The man who only asked for money from him actually gave him money
In front of Zhou Han, Gu Chaoming couldn't expand his doubts. Zhou Han promised him that he would help him stare, and Gu Chaoming thanked him very much.
When everything was said and he was about to leave, Zhou Han hesitated and decided to say to Gu Chaoming: "Let me first say I'm not sure if your dad said that, because he was crying while talking, and I don't care if he drank. I know if it's nonsense or sincere, so I don't dare to tell you, but I think I still have to tell you."
"What did he say?" Gu Chaoming asked.
What can make Zhou Han so entangled
"Your dad said he was sorry for you, sorry for both of you, and said that they all looked down on him and so on. I didn't hear it clearly."
Zhou Han was not sure, but he seemed to have heard it. He was afraid that he had misheard and relayed the wrong information to Gu Chaoming, which would make Gu Chaoming soft-hearted, which would cause Gu Chaoming, who had managed to escape, to return to the violence of Gu Tao, but Zhou Han felt it necessary to say that in the end he still said it.
Zhou Han emphasized his uncertainty again, and didn't want Gu Chaoming to change his mind because of his words: "He may or may not say this. But I advise you not to go home, even if he really says sorry, don't go back. ."
Zhou Han didn't know much about what kind of person Gu Tao was, but even he didn't believe that a person like Gu Tao would repent. He even believed that Gu Tao found out because of his conscience after drinking, and when he met him, he dragged him to vent. Alcoholism.
When Gu Tao started to hold him yesterday, it was normal. Later, he talked and shouted without tears. Zhou Han was extremely embarrassed standing on the side of the road.
I'm sorry for such a person, just listen and have some comfort in my heart. Zhou Han felt that he couldn't take it seriously. If he took it seriously, it would be really easy to be hurt again.
Zhou Han also didn't believe that Gu Chaoming would be so stupid.
Gu Chaoming, who has lived under the same roof with Gu Tao for more than ten years, is naturally not that stupid. He doesn't believe in Gu Tao's change, and he doesn't believe in Gu Tao's sorry, but it is undeniable that he heard Zhou Han say that Gu Tao cried and said sorry. At that time, Gu Chaoming's heart was touched.
Touched hard.
Holding the thick envelope and saying goodbye to Zhou Han, on the way to the school boulevard to find Lin Jianfan, Gu Chaoming kept thinking back and imagining Gu Tao saying sorry.
When he heard Zhou Han say that Gu Tao said sorry, he felt his own touch. He thought it was just a small touch. On the way to find Lin Jianfan, Gu Chaoming realized that he had been thinking about Gu Tao's sorry.
Knowing through the mouths of others that his father who often abused his own family cried and said sorry after not seeing him for a long time, Gu Chaoming had a complicated heart.
He is not an emotionless person, he is Gu Tao's son after all, even though he doesn't want to admit it. Hearing an apology that he had never thought of, Gu Chaoming felt as if his world had changed.
His disgust and hatred for Gu Tao did not change, or even diminished at all, but it felt as if Gu Tao should have treated him as his son the moment he said sorry.
Gu Tao, who was a father at that moment, should have a little love for him, right
The love he had lost all his life from birth attempted to seek in a sentence of apology.
Gu Chaoming felt that he was funny and pitiful.
He walked to the boulevard and saw Lin Jianfan who was gently stroking the kitten's head on the boulevard.
Rows of trees are planted along the tree-lined road in the school.
The sun in the spring afternoon gently wrapped Lin Jianfan. Lin Jianfan was standing there when he heard Gu Chaoming call him.
He turned around with a smile, the sun shining on him.
Gu Chaoming flew towards him and hugged him tightly, even the sun shining on him.
Gu Chaoming hugged him and squeezed the envelope full of money that Gu Tao gave him, the yellow envelope paper bag was about to be crushed by him.
The moment he embraced Lin Jianfan, his bones hurt. Gu Chaoming hugged him tightly, as if to hug him into his aching bones and into his heart to protect him.
His heart is so cold, only he can warm it up.