The last bell of the college entrance examination rang, and the senior three journey that started last summer officially came to an end.
In the examination room, the candidates stopped writing, and the parents outside the examination room waited eagerly.
There were many people outside the examination room, and the examination room was so quiet that only the sound of the invigilator taking the papers was heard.
Lin Jianfan put the pen cap on, packed up the test equipment, and waited for the invigilator to collect the papers and announce that he could leave the test room. Some students in the exam room looked relaxed just after the exam, as if they had taken off an important task, while others had a heavy face and did not pass the exam at first glance.
Looking around the examination room for a week, I saw the happy or sad faces in the examination room. The stairs of the teaching building were crowded with people. The doors of the teaching building were not opened, and they were all waiting to open the door and go home.
Standing in the empty space at the top of the stairs, Lin Jianfan looked down at the candidates waiting to go home. He was standing in front of the railing. He didn't remember how he got there. He felt like he was packing things in the exam room a few seconds ago. It was like a movie editing. The next scene was directly spliced to the crowd in the stairwell.
Lin Jianfan never thought that his senior year would end in this way, a sudden and unexpected way.
The door of the teaching building opened, and Lin Jianfan walked out of the school with the test utensils along with the crowd. The next shot was spliced to his mother's face.
Mother asked how he was doing in the exam? He said it was okay.
The area of control and study in his mind is the coolest place. No matter what happens that might affect his college entrance examination, once he gets the test paper in the examination room, the area for control and study will work automatically, as calm as if he has no emotion.
Lin Jianfan felt that he was playing well, and he didn't expect to be disturbed by the recent worries.
He thought that Gu Chaoming's incident would bring a huge blow to his college entrance examination and would make him fail in the college entrance examination. Even Lao Chen and Lin Ma thought so.
When Lin Ma heard about Gu Chaoming's story, she thought of her son. Her son and Gu Chaoming were very close. She hadn't figured out the relationship between her son and Gu Chaoming. This happened to Gu Chaoming. Lin Ma was worried that her son's college entrance examination would be affected, but Lin Jianfan felt that he took the test. It was very good, and even when I left the examination room, I felt that F was within my reach.
The college entrance examination should have gone so smoothly, but Lin Jianfan was like a dying flower, waiting for his little prince to water it.
The air conditioner was on in the car, but Lin Jianfan still opened the window, letting the hot wind blow on his face. From the rearview mirror, Ma Lin saw Lin Jianfan looking out of the window in a daze. He has always been like this recently.
Lin Jianfan looked at the receding street scene outside the window. He only had the oncoming wind, and there was no one waiting to water him.
The document bag containing the test equipment was placed on his lap, and the strong wind from the window blew past the document bag. The document bag was bought for him by Gu Chaoming at the stationery store outside the school. Lin Jianfan took it for the college entrance examination and took it home.
In the file bag, except for the stationery used for the college entrance examination, there is also a yellow piece of paper. There was a crack on the yellow piece of paper, which was accidentally torn by Lin Jianfan. There was a line written on the piece of paper - look forward, don't look back.
The handwriting was dizzy with tears, and it was the Pikachu that Gu Chaoming gave to him. Lin Jianfan took it as a lucky charm for the college entrance examination.
Sure enough, it did well.
On the way, a car with ribbons that voluntarily picked up the candidates passed by. Lin Jianfan watched the car drive in the opposite direction to them.
His senior year of high school is over, on a sunny day with the sun glaring and the temperature rising to unbelievable heights.
The time of the third year of high school was like a car driving in the opposite direction to them, a little bit away.
The time gone by takes away the people of the past.
On the day of the graduation photo shoot, Lin Jianfan was standing at the very edge, and there was a space beside him. The photographer asked him to stand over a little bit, but Lin Jianfan was resolutely unwilling to move. Lao Chen, an old man who is almost half a hundred years old, knew what Lin Jianfan was doing, he sighed and asked the photographer to shoot like this.
Lin Jianfan had reserved a place for Gu Chaoming, but he was still missing from the graduation photos of the third and second grades of high school.
After taking the photo, Cen Xili stood aside with Gu Chaoming, watching his classmates gather in groups of three or five to take pictures.
Cen Xi patted Lin Jianfan, who was not very interested, on the shoulder, and wanted to talk to Lin Jianfan to make him happy. In the chaos of taking pictures, he suddenly heard someone calling his name behind him, and Cen Xili turned his head.
You Xin held the phone with his arms straight, his face smiling like a standard photo-taking smile—You Xin was taking a selfie.
As if feeling Cen Xili's gaze towards him, You Xin raised his eyes to look at Cen Xili who had turned his head forward. Cen Xili met his eyes for a second and turned his head slowly.
Hallucinations? But just now I clearly heard You Xin calling him.
Cen Xili looked back again, You Xin was still standing there, his arm still holding the phone to take selfies.
Did he hear it wrong? Cen Xili thought back.
Cen Xili looked back at You Xin twice, and both times he looked back and fell into the eyes of Guan Hui upstairs without knowing it.
When I was sleeping in the classroom, I heard a classmate say that a senior in high school was taking pictures downstairs, and Guan Hui rushed to the window. At that time, Cen Xili and his class hadn't started filming, and Guan Hui was in the classroom window and was integrated with his classmates who were curious to watch the high school photoshoot. Cen Xili never found him upstairs.
I don't like him anymore, why are you still standing here? Guan Hui, who was standing by the window, asked himself.
From the snowy night he talked with Gu Chaoming, Guan Hui decided that he no longer liked Cen Xili, and he wanted to find someone he liked again.
In half a year, he got to know many people like him, and he began to understand himself slowly and slowly to understand people like them.
He also wanted to gradually stop liking Cen Xili.
The story of Gu Chaoming was broadcast on TV, and their school was on TV because of this. Parents of the school spread it to each other.
Hearing the name Gu Chaoming again, Mother Cen had a chat with Cen Xili in the living room.
The last time I mentioned the name Gu Chaoming was when Chen Haiyang abruptly revealed that he liked You Xin in the first year of high school. At that time, Ma Cen, like those who talked about him in the grade, doubted all the same-sex friends around him. I didn't expect to mention Gu Chaoming again because of this.
Although Cen Xili has graduated, Cen's mother pays special attention to Gu Chaoming. Cen Xili pays attention to Gu Chaoming's affairs. Cen's mother doesn't say anything, and sometimes talks to him.
As for Lin Jianfan, who should be the closest to Gu Chaoming, and who should pay the most attention to Gu Chaoming, he retreated after the court heard Gu Chaoming's case.
He was afraid, he was afraid of seeing Gu Chaoming who was emotional, he was afraid of seeing Gu Chaoming who made mistakes because of him.
On the night of Valentine's Day, Gu Chaoming put a candle so that he didn't have to blame himself, but he didn't seem to be able to do it.
That's too hard.
In the courtroom, Gu Chaoming's emotions have not been obvious. He admits his mistake, and his calm face is expressionless.
Cao Zhan's mother, who lost her son, cried in the courtroom and kept asking Gu Chaoming why she wanted to kill her son.
Cao Zhan's mother kept asking, and Gu Chaoming kept silent until later.
Gu Chaoming told Lin Jianfan the reason for his murder.
Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan who was under the stage and laughed.
I said it, and I finally avenged you, albeit in the most extreme way I didn't want to.
"Did he bully you?" Cao Ma asked.
Gu Chaoming shook his head, he didn't know what to call Lin Jianfan. It seems that their relationship should not be brought up at this time, and it will only lead the attention of spectators to other places.
Gu Chaoming did not get an apology from Cao Zhan. He said in court that he killed because of Lin Jianfan, not to reduce the crime. He just wanted Lin Jianfan to know that he would never let the suffering he suffered that winter just go away with the disappearing winter.
School violence cannot be solved by transferring schools, nor can it be solved by passing a sentence.
Gu Chaoming's condition to Cao Xian was just an apology and an apology.
The cost of an apology is too low, and a fluttering apology is not as good as the wind.
Even if it is like the wind, those people stabbed him with sharp knives and sharp blades in his heart. How could a breeze heal the bleeding wound
Gu Chaoming hoped that Lin Jianfan would be happy, and he only hoped that no one would endure this irreversible imposed suffering at the age that should bloom and shine the most.
Lin Jianfan was already like this, and Gu Chaoming didn't want to see the next one.
Gu Chaoming hesitated for a relationship that could not be mentioned. He slowly said, "He bullied my classmate. He stole my classmate's cell phone, hit him, and put people into the river."
What made Gu Chaoming unbelievable was that after listening to his words, Cao Ma asked, "Is that so? Just bullying, are you going to kill him?"
Gu Chaoming, who had not responded much, was suddenly angry, and he almost shouted out in excitement: "Just like this? Just like this? Is bullying others just like this? Is bullying others just like this? Pushing others into the water in winter, Threatening someone to kill him is nothing more than that? Pushing others to death and ravaging them at will, is that just that? It turns out that this can only be called that? Then I will kill your son too. It can only be called this, because your son, like those people, is also a murderer, a murderer who uses his own violence for no reason and pushes others to death!"
When Gu Chaoming was interrupted by the judge and told him not to be so excited, he said a lot of words. He couldn't help but feel heartache. He looked at Lin Jianfan who was under the stage. He just wanted to hug him. He has nothing now. .
In the eyes of some people, Lin Jianfan's suffering is not worth mentioning, it's just "is that just this?" in his mouth.
Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan who was under the stage, and his heart was so painful that he couldn't make it any worse.
He saw Lin Jianfan crying, Lin Jianfan's tears flowed out of his heart like an unscrewed valve.
After all, Gu Chaoming is for him or for him, everything and everyone is for him.
Lin Jianfan felt that his heart was bursting, tears flowed uncontrollably, and he couldn't see Gu Chaoming's face in the hazy eyes.
The sense of self-blame is like a lofty mountain, like a vast ocean, crushing him at once, but he has to walk through nine years with a mountain and sea-like self-blame.
Gu Chaoming was sentenced to nine years.
Nine years, people often say that there are several decades in a lifetime, but Gu Chaoming lost nine years all at once, only one year less than ten years.
nine years...
When Lin saw Fan crying under the courtroom, everyone looked at him.
In the face of the nine years he lost, he was so fragile that when he heard that number, he couldn't help crying.
Gu Chaoming just wanted to rush down and hug him, hugging Lin Jianfan who was crying.
His boy was crying, and Gu Chaoming looked at him, helpless.
He said he would protect him, but he was crying, but there was nothing he could do.
Still can't do it, still became the same person as Gu Tao, still became the person he didn't want to be the last, still failed to become a man on his own, still failed to protect Lin Jianfan well.
The final destination is still unable to escape the prison where he determined the future for himself in the beginning.
Lin saw that Fan was fragile and timid. He would cry bitterly because of the nine years that Gu Chaoming lost, but he did not give up on Gu Chaoming because of the nine years he lost.
Lin Jianfan often came to see him, his grades were enough for him to go to F University, which he had long wanted, but he didn't want to choose F University, he wanted to choose a local university, and came to see Gu Chaoming if he had nothing to do.
F is big, it's too far...
Su Bing seemed to sense that his brother's boyfriend would do things in volunteering, so he deliberately called and asked him what school he applied for.
Lin Jianfan said the truth: "I want to accompany him, it's better to be closer."
Su Bing said to him earnestly over the phone: "If you want to accompany him, you can't take your future to accompany him, and he definitely doesn't want you to be like this for him. You should live your own life before going to accompany him, right? "
It's not like he's insane, Su Bing's words made Lin Jianfan understand, and he understood some of what he should do and what Gu Chaoming wanted him to do.
After listening to Su Bing's words, Lin Jianfan couldn't help but wonder what Gu Chaoming would want him to do, and whether he would bring a burden to Gu Chaoming by doing so.
He is pressing his future on Gu Chaoming's shoulders, and he is creating opportunities for Gu Chaoming to blame himself.
He has tried the taste of self-blame. He wants Gu Chaoming to be the sunshine boy he knows after he comes out of it. He doesn't want himself to be his self-blame.
Lin Jianfan finally chose F University and showed it to Gu Chaoming on the day he got the admission notice.
Show him the first time.
"Look," Lin Jianfan held up the admission notice, "F is very far away, I may not be able to see you often in the future. If I don't see you, you must not forget me."
"What did you say?" Gu Chaoming smiled.
Lin Jianfan was always smiling in front of Gu Chaoming, and he didn't want to be sad in front of Gu Chaoming.
Taking the graduation photo firmly left a place for Gu Chaoming, and Lin Jianfan did not reluctantly at the banquet of the promotion wine.
Lin Jianfan figured it out, Gu Chaoming is not dead, he just left him for a while, and he doesn't need to wait for him to eat.
During dinner, he sat at a table with Su Bing and Cen Xili, and Lin Jianfan also drank a little wine.
Only Gu Chaoming was so impressed that he couldn't drink, and only Gu Chaoming would never allow him to drink.
Cen Xili and Su Bing just persuaded him, Lin Jianfan shook his head and said it was fine, so they stopped talking and watched him drink.
If Gu Chaoming was here, the beer bottle wouldn't be in his hand, right, Lin Jianfan thought as he looked at the table full of guests.
Gongchou staggered, Lin Jianfan looked at Cen Xili and Su Bing's faces, the boy who said he would fight for the future with him is now behind bars.
When Lin saw Fan smiling, I would wait for him to come out.
One night not long after Lin Jianfan's entrance wine, Cen Xili was chatting with Su Bing. Talking about Lin Jianfan, editing the message to Su Bing, a phone call came in.
The name displayed on the phone made Cen Xili pause for a second while editing the information.
He picked it up and heard crying on the other end of the phone.
Cen Xili heard the cry and immediately asked, "What's wrong? Why are you crying?"
You Xin's tears could not be found in his memory.
He had never seen You Xin cry.
Cen Xili couldn't help but get anxious.
On the other end of the phone, You Xin said vaguely, "Cen Xili, do you think you like me?"
I like you, I like the whole high school, I like you being known by the whole school, do you still want to ask...
Cen Xili's voice softened: "...I like it."
But what's the use of liking it
"Just like it." You Xin said.
Cen Xili felt wrong and asked, "Have you been drinking?"
You Xin didn't lie: "Yes, I..."
As soon as he heard that he had drunk, Cen Xili didn't listen to him and interrupted him directly: "Don't move, where are you, send me a location and I'll find you."
The taxi stopped in front of the restaurant You Xin mentioned. Cen Xili searched the restaurant and found no one, but finally found You Xin on the side of the road far away from the restaurant.
You Xin, who was almost 1.9 meters tall, was sitting in a group on the side of the road. There were two girls who were obviously interested in him and asked him what was wrong. Cen Xili frowned and ran over to explain to them, thanking them for taking care of them. But You Xin said to the girls, "Everyone said he would come to pick me up, and he said he would come."
After speaking, You Xin suddenly stood up and hugged Cen Xili, who came to pick him up: "I knew you would come."
When a girl saw this scene, she was surprised: "Damn, so handsome is a gay."
Another said: "It seems that picking up boyfriends on the side of the road won't work."
You Xin didn't care about them, holding Cen Xili in a tone like he wasn't drunk: "Say you like me or not?"
Before Cen Xili could answer, You Xin said to himself, "I know you will come, because you are Cen Xili, the one who will always like You Xin."
Hearing this, Cen Xili said, "This is the last time I will come to pick you up."
Cen Xili felt the person in his arms froze.
Cen Xili continued: "You Xin, it's been three years since I started painting with my classmates in high school, and I've been in love with you until now, throughout high school. I'm tired, the college entrance examination is over, and maybe I won't see you again in the future. , Cen Xili, who has liked you for three years, also wants to make a difference and try to like others."
You Xin smiled: "Impossible, how could Cen Xili like others?"
Cen Xili still wanted to speak, but was kissed by You Xin: "Cen Xili can only like me. If Cen Xili doesn't like me, it's not Cen Xili."
"What is this?" Cen Xili asked.
You Xin suddenly said loudly: "Xili, let's be together, so you can continue to like me."
"you're drunk."
"I don't, I'm sober, and I can recite formulas."
In order to prove that he was not drunk, You Xin began to memorize the formula foolishly.
Cen Xili was a little confused, and grabbed You Xin, who was reciting the formula: "Don't memorize it, I'll take you home."
Cen Xili was afraid that he would fall, so he pulled him to stop the car on the side of the road, and You Xin suddenly hugged him.
Cen Xi was startled, and You Xin asked, "Are we together?"
"Do you like me?" Cen Xili asked him back.
You Xin's head fell beside his ear, his ears rubbed together, and he said, "Well, I like it, I like it very much."
Cen Xili felt that You Xin was lying to him. You Xin was just afraid that he didn't like him anymore. He knew clearly that he was going to give up, but he still held You Xin's hand.
Feeling his palm being held, You Xin smiled and said, "I said it before, it's impossible for Cen Xili not to like You Xin."