It was hot outside the window, but not cool inside. The fan spins tirelessly and quickly, picking up the corner of the unsecured page on the table.
The pages of the book couldn't stand the poking, and finally turned a page. Gu Chaoming didn't care, and looked down at the red dot displayed on the text message icon on the mobile phone.
You have a new message.
The black baseball cap was stubbornly fastened to his head, fine sweat oozing from his hair, and it became cold when he saw this new message.
Gu Chaoming has lived in that dilapidated community for 17 years. He doesn't remember how many times he has called his father in the past 17 years. It seems that he has never called him since he was sensible.
Gu Tao rarely called him. If he had no money, he could just stay at home. Gu Chaoming would always go home.
Gu Chaoming had nowhere to go except to go home.
In a hurry, Gu Tao went directly into the house to search. At first, he could always find a few hundred dollars. Later, Gu Chaoming learned to lock the door, but for Gu Tao, locking the door was nothing but a pair of pliers or a hammer. Later, Gu Chaoming learned to take all his belongings with him, and Gu Tao also practiced to become more cheeky. When he returned home, he just had no money. By the way, let's see if his son died of starvation recently, and how he was doing. Can you give it to him? He has more money.
The number of text messages keeps increasing, and the number on the little red dot keeps getting bigger and bigger.
If only Gu Tao called him and sent so many text messages, Gu Chaoming would really think that Gu Tao had no money again, but the missed calls also contained Qu Yingyi's missed calls.
Gu Tao has no money to go to the hospital to find Qu Yingyi
In just a few seconds, countless pictures flashed in Gu Chaoming's mind.
Bloody sheets, angry men, messy wards.
Too many scenes from the past seventeen years have provided him with the resources to imagine a horrific vision.
Gu Chaoming was afraid, not because he was afraid of Gu Tao, but because he was afraid that Qu Yingyi would be injured.
For seventeen years, the person he wanted to protect the most, the person he wanted to protect with his own body, Gu Chaoming didn't want her to be hurt a little.
The number of text messages officially ended when it reached thirteen, and when it stopped at that number, Gu Chaoming still didn't open it.
Gu Chaoming looked at the red dot on the phone, and Lin Jianfan behind him looked at him.
Gu Chaoming slightly bent his waist and lowered his head, his eyes were straight, while Lin Jianfan listened to the lecture and paid attention to the bald teacher on the stage, he quietly "peeped" at Gu Chaoming in front.
The first day after arriving, Lin Jianfan's initial impression of Cen Xili was friendly, his impression of Su Bing was lively, and Li Zhao and Liu Xiaopang were friendly. It is easy for people to classify things that they have just come into contact with according to their first impressions, but for Gu Chaoming, Lin Jianfan couldn't completely classify him into which category.
He has his temper, he can yell at people, he also has his friendliness, he will give him exam papers and bring him books. He is Doraemon from last night, and he is also the young man with a gloomy face now.
Lin Jianfan's peeking eyes were hidden, Gu Chaoming's whole mind was on the red dot on the phone screen, and he had no intention of paying attention to Lin Jianfan's eyes.
Gu Chaoming finally clicked on the thirteen text messages.
There are twelve from Gu Tao and only one from Qu Yingyi.
When eating, there are what you like and what you can eat on the plate. Some people will eat what they like first, and some people will leave what they like last. Gu Chaoming is the latter. Even when he reads the text messages, he chooses to first read the text messages of Gu Tao, which must be bombastic and meaningless, and then read the text messages sent by Qu Yingyi.
Before all of them were opened, Gu Chaoming saw a lot of dirty words in Gu Tao's text messages.
Thirteen text messages were lined up, and countless meaningless swear words caught his eye. Gu Chaoming directly ignored those filthy words.
In seventeen years, this was the first time Gu Tao sent text messages to scold him. If you get a call, you will definitely hear more swear words than what you heard yesterday when you watched the fight between the little girls with crooked braids.
Gu Chaoming thought that Gu Tao was scolding himself, but he turned up and saw Qu Yingyi's name accidentally.
A curly word made Gu Chaoming stop, and Gu Chaoming scrolled down again to look at the short and long texts below, and there were some text messages with only one or two words, which were mixed with some typos.
Only then did Gu Chaoming realize that many of Gu Tao's cursing text messages contained words that were abusive to women.
Gu Tao is not only scolding him, but also scolding Qu Yingyi.
Gu Tao's usual favorite sentence is also in it, scolding both of them at once - the same dog thing as your mother.
In the end what happened
Gu Chaoming opened the text message from Qu Yingyi.
Having experienced the storm of Gu Tao's swear words, Qu Yingyi's gentle words are the buds that have just bloomed on the branches of spring.
Before Gu Chaoming finished reading Qu Yingyi's text messages, he received three more messages from Gu Tao. Gu Chaoming didn't care, he read the text message from Qu Yingyi carefully, word by word, but Gu Chaoming read it seriously.
Gu Chaoming looked at it carefully, as if reading a parting letter.
The first sentence begins with those three words - sorry.
There's nothing to be sorry for, Gu Chaoming thought, what's wrong with you raising me for so many years.
"I'm sorry, my mother didn't tell you, and I asked Gu Tao not to tell you. I don't know why, but I always feel that the sooner you know, the better. You are seventeen years old and can choose and think independently, but I'm still afraid. An incomplete family can hurt you..."
Qu Yingyi didn't say it clearly, perhaps because she thought the word divorce was too cruel to Gu Chaoming.
He used to have a home, and now he has no home.
Seeing the phrase "incomplete family" in Qu Yingyi's text message, Gu Chaoming already understood what was going on, and also understood the swear words in Gu Tao's text message.
In fact, since he was sensible, Gu Chaoming also hoped that they could get a divorce. Although others said that a divorced child would suffer a lot of damage and would lack what the family should give him, Gu Chaoming felt that what was wrong at the time, he could bear it completely, but he really took this moment. When it came, Gu Chaoming only felt confused.
Confused about the suddenly broken family, confused about his future life.
In addition to being confused, he was still confused. Gu Chaoming didn't know what mood and expression he should use to accept this fact.
He is the last insider of this broken home. In the past, he thought that there was no home as long as there was Qu Yingyi, but when he truly knew that his home was gone, it seemed that something was pumping out of his body and from his life alone. Li, without telling him, the place where it left was empty, and Gu Chaoming didn't know what to use to fill it.
A strange sense of unfamiliarity surged up in his heart, a sense of unfamiliarity with his own perception of the world, and his own world was quietly undergoing the changes he originally expected when he didn't know it.
I should be happy that my mother finally got divorced and escaped the clutches of the devil, but the loss and helplessness in the confusion accounted for most of it.
Their crumbling home is still broken, and the already broken home is even more broken.
Gu Chaoming didn't know what to do for a while, like a child who was abandoned on the street, standing there blankly.
After reading Qu Yingyi's text message little by little, Gu Chaoming opened the text message that Gu Tao had just sent.
Nothing but swear words.
When he opened it, Gu Chaoming felt that he underestimated Gu Tao's strength.
"Stealing things like your mother."
"If you have the ability to go home today, I will kill you with a knife."
"I'll wait at home."
Gu Tao's swear words have risen to intimidation.
"Hit you to death with a knife" may be an angry word in the mouth of ordinary people, but when it came out of Gu Tao's mouth, Gu Chaoming really believed that he could do it.
The dim light in the kitchen at night, the sound of punches hitting the meat, and the cigarette butts burning on the back of his hands are all proving to Gu Tao that he can do what he says.
Gu Chaoming was scared, very scared. He believed that Gu Tao could do it, and the original fear in his heart would not diminish with age and height.
Qu Yingyi said sorry once in a text message, using the broken family to euphemistically tell divorce, but she did not talk about her son.
Qu Yingyi is just apologizing to her son who loves her.
After all, Gu Chaoming's place of return was the dilapidated house with a damp roof and broken toilet mirrors.
He could never get rid of his surname, the father that fate had chosen for him, the blood running through him, and the family that broke when he was seventeen.
You never want to leave Gu Tao!
you murderer!
You must atone for your sins!
Cold dream, last night's panic, broken family.
Many mixed up to form a torrent, slamming and dispersing.
Gu Chaoming's heart was complicated, irritable, even lost and desolate.
Have you been abandoned? Mother didn't mention it, Gu Tao waited for him at home with a knife.
He's the one who really doesn't have a home.
The heart is impatient, the air is more sultry, and the leisure of listening to cicadas also melts in the sultry air.
Gu Chaoming threw the phone into the drawer irritably. Under the irritability, he used too much force. The phone hit the drawer and made a bang in the silent classroom, instantly attracting the attention of the whole class.
"Gu Chaoming! What are you doing in a class? You'll be there for the whole class. What are you doing?" The bald head threw the textbook on the podium. Turn and turn, you think you are a top, you, reminding you with your eyes is not enough, you even gave me to play with my phone underneath, I didn't tell you when I was playing with my phone, you still made such a big move for me, are you looking at me? If I say you, you will be itchy and show your ability, and I don't know how you can get into the second class. Can you stop for a while when I am in class on this stage, don't act like a sketch below, you don't know what to do all day long what, not thinking about anything all day..."
While feeling bored, the bald-headed teacher was busy with gongs and firecrackers. Gu Chaoming didn't listen to a word. He just thought it was as annoying as the buzzing of bees around his ears in biology class yesterday. irritable.
The bald head became more and more vigorous, Gu Chaoming leaned on the back of the chair and endured, enduring, and finally couldn't help but goug out the bald head on the podium with an eye knife.
The whole class stared at him, watching him gouging out the eyes at the teacher. Lin Jianfan finally knew why the dean of the school said that Gu Chaoming was a thorn in the second class.
The bald head was obviously not as good-tempered as Lao Chen, so he was gouged out by Gu Chaoming and walked down the podium with a beer belly.
Cen Xili pushed Gu Chaoming: "Gu Shuai, don't be impulsive, the more you face him with a bald head, the more aggressive he will be, obey him softly, and don't make trouble."
The bald head rushed off the stage, tried to suppress his temper, and persuaded himself not to be angry, not to be angry, and not to care about a seventeen-year-old child.
"It's pretty good," the bald head suppressed his temper, "I think I'm very good, right? The teachers are all idiots, right? You are the only one who is invincible in the world, right..."
Cen Xili was right, the bald head is the type that the more you hate him, the more he wants to respond to you. Gu Chaoming just had an impatient face, and the bald head kept scolding him.
Everyone in the class looked over, and Wu Shan sat in the seat and stuck his head out to watch the show.
The bald head held back his temper. Gu Chaoming also held back his temper after listening to Cen Xili's words. He didn't retort. He didn't want to be invited to the parents because he retorted, and no one could invite the parents.
Gu Chaoming was scolded in silence. After almost three minutes, Su Bing felt that it was enough, and said loudly, "Teacher, I want to listen to the class, and I don't want to hear you scolding."
The bald-headed teacher turned around and saw that the person who said this was Su Bing: "Su Bing, if you listen to the class, you can fall down this day."
"Teacher, you really know how to joke," Su Bing said, "I've changed my mind. You didn't mean to delay one minute in class or one minute for the whole class. Now we have been delayed a lot. Teacher, hurry up and give a lecture. "
Normally, when Su Bing made such a clearance, Gu Chaoming would definitely say with a smile that he was a liar, but now Gu Chaoming is not in the mood at all.
With a few words from Su Bing, Gu Chaoming finally got rid of the curse of the bald head.
"Give me to stand in the back, I heard that today is not the first time you have been punished for standing." The bald head said.
We all know this, Gu Chaoming thought.
Gu Chaoming squeezed sideways through the gap between his bald head and the desk, walked to the back door and stood.
When Gu Chaoming didn't resist, he felt that Gu Chaoming could still be educated, but when he saw Gu Chaoming standing by the door, his hands were empty and he didn't hold a pen.
"Take the book!!!" The bald head growled.
Cen Xili quickly took the textbook on Gu Chaoming's desk, inserted a pen and passed over Lin Jianfan and handed it to Gu Chaoming.
Gu Chaoming took the textbook and let him go with a bald head: "Listen to me well."
Gu Chaoming didn't respond, not even a single "um".
The bald head turned back to the podium and patted the podium: "Don't look at it for me, and continue the class."
The cicadas chirping outside the window continued, and the duet cicadas chirping kept playing. Gu Chaoming successfully completed today's third penalty station task in the duet cicada chirping.
The back door of the classroom next to him was opened for ventilation, Gu Chaoming leaned against the wall boredly, the midsummer breeze was engulfed by the heat waves and sunlight, and he refused to move to the classroom at all.
With sweat in his black baseball cap, Gu Chaoming looked at the class from the perspective of an invigilator who likes to stand at the back of the classroom during exams.
An extraordinarily clear perspective, everyone can see at a glance what everyone is doing. The classmate who was sitting behind them on the edge of the podium was in a daze, and Su Bing was secretly playing with his mobile phone. The second class was considered a key class. Most of the classmates were still listening, but there were also some who used their position to hide and eat. Yes, Gu Chaoming stood behind and just stared at her a few times, and saw that she and her tablemate had successfully eliminated a pack of biscuits. After eating the biscuits, they took out a pack of toffee from the drawer.
Gu Chaoming glanced at the girls who were eating in class, and said in his heart, "It's the third time."
For the third time, I felt the beam of sight that was secretly projected.
Although the projected line of sight was so careful, Gu Chaoming captured them all without exception, and never let them escape.
It wasn't Wu Shan, if Wu Shan Gu Chaoming would stare back early.
That beam of eyes was as cautious as its owner, his head was only willing to tilt slightly, and after a short while, he immediately turned his head, pretending that nothing had happened.
Maybe he thought that his peeping would not be discovered, but Gu Chaoming still felt that it could not be ignored.
The new good student must be curious about the poor student who can punish him three times a day.
Gu Chaoming was not in the mood to care about him, standing behind the classroom with nowhere to rest his eyes and wandering around. The mobile phone was lying on the table, and there was only a textbook and a pen in hand.
With nothing to do, he stopped and looked at the cell phone lying quietly in his desk. Gu Chaoming told himself not to think about Gu Tao and Qu Yingyi. Their divorce is a certainty, and you can't change anything. That's them. Two things, not to mention you don't want them to divorce? Since I hope you're still thinking about it, what's the point
Gu Chaoming persuaded himself to stop thinking about it, cicadas were ringing in his ears, and you wanted to do what you were not allowed to do. Run in the hospital.
Gu Tao would actually agree to a divorce? What happened to Qu Yingyi? Are they already divorced, or have they just negotiated a divorce
Gu Chaoming doesn't know everything, like an outsider who doesn't know anything about his parents' lives. The more Gu Chaoming thought about it, the more he realized that he didn't know more.
At the age of seventeen, he has no autonomy, not even the right to know that his parents are divorced.
I am just an insignificant individual.
A sinful individual who would want to kill his own father.
I recalled Gu Tao yesterday, the noodle soup sticking to the table yesterday, the sound of Gu Tao sucking noodles, the lights in the living room yesterday, the hand that I stretched out and the appearance of Gu Tao’s rage.
The night of sin last night was replayed in my mind, but there was a scene of youth in front of me. Young and vigorous, the teacher lectures on the podium with a beer belly, listening to lectures, playing with mobile phones, stealing food, being in a daze, peeking at the girls you like, and chatting with classmates, everyone will have the appearance in youth.
The sins of last night did not match the picture in front of them at all, like two time and space in the same world.
One crawls in the dark, the other grows in the sun.
Gu Chaoming crawls in the dark and grows in the sunshine. He hides his inner darkness in the sunshine, hides in a place that no one knows about, and is buried in the deepest soil. No one tells him. He is afraid that others will discover his own. sin.
During the duet of cicadas, Gu Chaoming raised his hand and touched the brim of his hat, which was just right on his head. He clearly felt the presence of sweat in his hair.
Gu Chaoming put down his hands, the sin in his heart and the loss and confusion of the broken family mixed together, making people unable to ignore. It is also impossible to ignore the sight that is secretly projected in front of him for the fourth time.
There were only three things, Gu Chaoming knew that he was not a good-tempered person, and was irritating his head. Gu Chaoming frowned and broke through the pretense that he didn't see it before, and asked Lin Jianfan, who kept peeking at him, "Why are you looking at me?"
Obviously not prepared to be discovered, Gu Chaoming saw the same panic as always on Lin Jianfan's face.
The panic was followed by his signature smile. Lin Jianfan bent his eyes and asked with an embarrassed smile, "What's wrong with you? You seem to be very angry."
Seeing Lin Jianfan's panicked expression, Lin Jianfan also helped him yesterday, and Gu Chaoming didn't want to take his anger out on others, but Lin Jianfan really had the ability to lift a pot without opening it, so he poked him and didn't want to answer point.
The originally planned good voice disappeared: "Can you stop asking? It's none of your business, you're annoying."
Lin Jianfan seemed to have made a mistake, and it seemed that he said the wrong thing, not because Gu Chaoming was in a bad mood, but because he made Gu Chaoming angry, Gu Chaoming murdered him.
Gu Chaoming hated his expression, and seemed to take the blame on himself at once. His anger at others seemed to be Lin Jianfan's fault.
Gu Chaoming couldn't understand this new transfer student, and seeing his expression as if he had made a mistake, Gu Chaoming realized that he was a little too fierce.
"Tsk."
Gu Chaoming sighed irritably, scratching his neck, he shouldn't be angry with him, he shouldn't be angry with him.
Gu Chaoming was a little embarrassed. Lin saw that Fan had helped him, and he was angry with others for his own reasons twice in one day.
Lin Jianfan didn't think about how to apologize again, did he? Thinking of Lin Jianfan's apology, Gu Chaoming was really afraid of him.
Gu Chaoming didn't have a word to talk to, obviously he could be called Cen Xili, but Gu Chaoming quietly knocked Lin Jianfan's back with his textbook while his bald head didn't pay attention, and pushed his foot against his chair.
When Lin Jianfan turned his head, Gu Chaoming said what he had long thought of: "Help me get my Sudoku book."
Seeing that Fan didn't look angry at all, Lin turned around to help him get the Sudoku book.
Handing over a Sudoku book, Lin Jianfan asked, "Are you all right?"
Gu Chaoming tried his best to control his temper this time, raised the corner of his mouth and said with a smile, "It's okay."
Lin Jianfan looked at Gu Chaoming and asked him to take a Sudoku book. Maybe he wanted to get acquainted with a topic. Lin Jianfan asked, "Do you like to play Sudoku?"
"I just play, it's very interesting." Gu Chaoming said.
"I just saw you playing in class." Gu Chaoming didn't have the anger that he had just now, and Lin Jianfan laughed again.
Gu Chaoming was not in the mood to respond to his smile, but he felt a little more comfortable when he saw Lin Jian Fan's hearty smile.
"I have nothing to do in class, just pass the time." Gu Chaoming said.
"It seems to be very interesting. You must be very smart if you like to play Sudoku."
Gu Chaoming couldn't help laughing, and it was the first time he heard someone say this: "Who said that playing Sudoku is smart? I'm just passing the time, but you, I heard from Lao Chen that your grades are good."
"My grades are average." Lin Jianfan said.
"I was told by Lao Chen that the results are definitely not ordinary."
"Who is Lao Chen?" Lin Jianfan asked.
"Just our head teacher, Brother Chen, Lao Chen."
Gu Chaoming also wanted to tell Lin Jianfan that the bald head on the podium, they all called him Tietou. As for who came up with this name, Gu Chaoming didn't know, only that everyone called him that.
Before Gu Chaoming finished teaching Lin Jianfan, Lin Jianfan tilted his head and smiled slightly. Gu Chaoming found that he had dimples when he laughed, and just said, "You laugh..."
The bald head called him by name: "Gu Chaoming, he was punished to stand and talk to his classmates!"