The last smear of ash belonging to the night was withdrawn from the sky, the sky slowly turned out the fish belly white, and a new sun silently crouched on the horizon.
Morning light jumped into the unclosed window, and his footsteps were so light that he could not hear, and did not disturb the boy who was lying on the desk sleeping. When the faint morning light touched the boy's face, the early birds downstairs also chirped.
A few minutes later, the boy sleeping in front of the desk finally moved. He was awakened by the sound of birds chirping, and sat up, but still closed his eyes, breathing evenly between his nose, sat for a few seconds, and got up in a daze.
Chenguang thought he was awake, but the boy just lifted the quilt and threw himself on the bed beside the table.
I don't know how long it took, the cell phone on the desk rang countless times, and the boy on the bed moved again.
The vague ringtone rang in his ears, Gu Chaoming rolled over, closed his eyes and raised his hand to touch the constantly vibrating phone to turn off the alarm clock. Turning off the alarm clock seemed to have exhausted all his strength, and in this position, Gu Chaoming fell into a deep sleep for the last three minutes.
Three minutes later, Gu Chaoming felt a little pain in his neck, and all the bones in his body felt a little uncomfortable, like an unoiled machine.
Gu Chaoming, who woke up, sat up from the bed, moved his neck, turned his head and looked out the window. It was another sunny day, and the sunlight outside the window painted on the bedroom floor, drawing the outline of the open window.
Glancing at the window, Gu Chaoming turned to the desk as far as he could see.
The homework book is spread out on the desk, the lamp has not been turned off, the schoolbag is hung on the back of the chair, the zipper is opened, and a large mouth is opened.
You seem to have slept there last night
Gu Chaoming sat on the bed and scratched his head. In his memory, there was a vague picture of himself walking from the desk to the bed.
The mind became more and more sober, and the memories came flooding in.
I seem to have fallen asleep while doing my homework yesterday, and then I woke up in the morning and ran to bed again
The hypnotic effect of this homework is even better than that of sleeping pills, Gu Chaoming thought while stretching.
Emotions are most sensitive in the dark.
Gu Chaoming, who had fallen asleep last night, thought about the life of Qu Yingyi's new home, the little girl calling him his brother, and the man asking him about his grades...
With a force, Gu Chaoming, who was already asleep, got up from the bed and started reading at night with a tube of chicken blood.
You can't embarrass your mother with your grades, at least you have to be decent.
Regretting that he didn't bring Cen Xili home with simple homework after school, Gu Chaoming opened his schoolbag and took out the messy textbooks and exercise books that were randomly stuffed into the schoolbag to prevent the dean from checking.
The beginning of anything is always confusing and the most difficult.
The number of exercise books and textbooks at hand basically do not match. If you bring textbooks without exercise books, you may bring exercise books without textbooks. Looking at the few books on the table, Gu Chaoming felt that he had no idea where to start.
With the strength of his wild thoughts at night, Gu Chaoming immersed himself in studying for several hours, and finally was pushed into a deep sleep by his homework, and ran back to bed like sleepwalking.
Gu Chaoming rubbed his sore neck and walked to the desk to look at the homework on his desk.
I didn't write a few questions for a few hours, and some of the answers were wrong. The Chinese books were folded into many corners, and the English books were turned in the word list.
After hours of hard work, I didn't get much results. Sure enough, the night is the most emotional and the most exciting.
The imagined new home, the unfinished homework, the unprotected mother, and the night outside the window are all urging Gu Chaoming to repeatedly recognize his own shortcomings.
It was a night of terrifying low self-esteem. Gu Chaoming even thought of all kinds of embarrassing scenes at the man's house.
The night exits, and the morning sun rises.
Gu Chaoming, who was clear-headed and no longer thought about it like last night, closed the textbooks, like a good student, took the schoolbag on the back of the chair and packed the textbooks on the table.
After brushing his teeth and washing his face, he saw that there was not enough time. Gu Chaoming didn't plan to cook breakfast at home, so he went out to buy some breakfast to solve on the road.
The warm sunlight poured into the rickety carriage through the glass windows, and the bus made Gu Chaoming doze off.
Gu Chaoming took a deep breath and breathed in the warm and warm sunlight, and his whole body became clear.
It's just that the textbooks in the schoolbag are neater, and a few more strokes and drawings are added to the textbooks, and the whole world seems to become lighter.
Not as rigid and heavy as before.
After talking on the phone with my mother yesterday, my mother said to wait, then he will wait.
Gu Chaoming once again fantasized about his life in his new home.
In the dark night, I repeatedly realized my own inadequacy, and in the sunny day, I longed for a new life that I would wait for.
Good things need enough waiting to be beautiful enough. I know that there are many deficiencies. Why not take advantage of the waiting time to make up for it and prepare for a better new life
Gu Chaoming looked at the sun outside the window and smiled, and the gentle sunlight through the car window filled his face.
Gu Chaoming walked into the classroom in a happy and comfortable mood. The classroom in the morning was always noisy and did not stop.
Gu Chaoming came late, and the class was full of people, who handed in homework, who cleaned up, and chatted and chatted.
Gu Chaoming laid down the stool amid the noise of the class and put the schoolbag into the table.
After putting away the schoolbag, Gu Chaoming also cleaned up the messy book wall on the desk. Yesterday after school, Cen Xili said that the easy homework was lying on the top of the book wall. Gu Chaoming took it over and flipped through it, wanting to see how easy the simple homework was, and whether he wanted to try it out and see if he could do it.
Open the workbook, wait, where did this work come from
Gu Chaoming raised his eyebrows to resolve his embarrassment.
Putting down the workbook in his hand, Gu Chaoming removed a pile of books on the table. The books were removed, and the field of vision opened up a lot.
Picking one book at a time and classifying it by size, Gu Chaoming carefully sorted it out, and some textbooks still had exam papers that I couldn't remember when they were issued...
Cen Xili saw Gu Chaoming tidying up his desk, and asked him jokingly, "Where's the cleaning?"
Gu Chaoming turned his head and smiled.
He sorted out a pile of waste paper and piled it on the table. Lao Chen passed by the back door of the classroom. He went to another class to read Chinese early. He passed his own class and took a look at the back door. He saw Gu Chaoming's table of waste paper and asked, "What are you doing? What are you doing?"
"Pack up." Gu Chaoming said.
Gu Chaoming said that when he cleaned up, Lao Chen didn't care. When he saw Gu Chaoming's clean desk and the state of listening to the class in his own class, he was shocked.
Gu Chaoming received a lot of books on his desk. The wall of books that had resisted external interference for a long time disappeared, and the textbooks were also stacked in an orderly manner. Instead of other strange novels, there was a Chinese textbook on the table. Old Chen wondered if he had gone to the wrong classroom.
Not only was Old Chen surprised, Cen Xili was also quite surprised. In the morning, after Gu Chaoming cleaned up his desk, Cen Xili gave him the homework he had done as usual.
Cen Xili glanced at Su Bing's empty desk. Su Bing hasn't come today, so he must be late. He glanced at the clock on the blackboard again, and heard Gu Chaoming ask: "Xili, what do you think is simpler? I will do."
Cen Xili turned his head in surprise, thinking he had hallucinated.
The person who said yesterday that he doesn't want to do it, ask him what simple things he can do today
"Gu Shuai?" Cen Xili looked at him, "Are you really Gu Shuai? Why did you think of studying?"
"Just suddenly, you still don't allow others to wake up suddenly," Gu Chaoming embraced Cen Xili, "I will ask you any questions in the future."
"Okay, but my grades are only average, and some are not, especially mathematics."
Mathematics is Cen Xili's weakness.
After listening to Cen Xili's words, Gu Chaoming couldn't believe it: "You're still talking like this, Xili, don't be humble in front of me, how can you let me live if you can't even be among thirty people?"
Cen Xili still said firmly: "My grades are really average."
Gu Chaoming looked at Cen Xili. The best scorer of the three of them actually said that his score was only average, so wouldn't he be the worst
"It's okay, anyway, you will definitely know what I can't do. If I can really meet something you can't do, I'll ask others." Gu Chaoming said.
Cen Xili suggested to him: "Actually, you can ask Lin Jianfan, isn't he number one? And Lao Chen has set up a study group, aren't you a group?"
After the morning reading, Gu Chaoming walked towards Lin Jianfan with the homework notebook given by Lin Jianfan.
"Gu Shuai, Xili's homework." Su Bing stopped Gu Chaoming.
Gu Chaoming lowered his head, and there was a lot of snacks on Su Bing's table, candy, potato chips, chocolate... everything.
"Where do you open a grocery store?" Gu Chaoming asked.
"Yes, do you want to buy it?"
Su Bing turned on the scene mode, Gu Chaoming smiled and asked, "How to sell?"
"The price of jumping off the property, nine hundred and ninety-nine."
"Fuck you," Gu Chaoming turned off the melodrama mode, "Don't you just fall in love? Why are you still preparing to come here for thirty-three days of falling in love? And so many snacks."
Gu Chaoming grabbed a handful of candy from Su Bing's table, tore it open and ate one, and patted Lin Jianfan's back in front of him.
Lin Jianfan turned his head.
Hearing Gu Chaoming and Su Bing chatting behind him, Lin Jianfan always thought that Gu Chaoming was looking for Su Bing and had nothing to do with him as usual. After all, when Gu Chaoming came over, they mostly came to play with Su Bing. Sitting in front of Su Bing, Lin Jianfan also "eavesdropped" on many of their endless sitcoms like the canteen just now.
Gu Chaoming only ate one candy, and gave the rest to Lin Jianfan.
"Su Bing gave it, you're welcome." Gu Chaoming said with a smile.
Lin Jianfan didn't know what was going on, but Gu Chaoming wanted to give it to him, but he caught it with both hands.
"Thank you." Another thank you, Lin Jianfan's style.
Gu Chaoming handed Lin Jianfan the homework notebook that he passed through after many hardships in class yesterday.
After Lin Jianfan took the record book, he turned around as usual.
"Hey, hey, don't turn around so quickly, I have something to tell you." Gu Chaoming saw Lin Jianfan turning his head and shouting.
Su Bing guarded his table full of snacks and glanced at Gu Chaoming who was calling.
Lin Jianfan turned around again and looked at Gu Chaoming with the usual confusion on his face.
Gu Chaoming coughed and said, "Aren't you number one? We are in a group again. You can teach me a lesson, okay?"
Lin Jianfan never thought that Gu Chaoming was going to talk about this, the confusion on his face turned to shock, and he was a little confused in the shock.
Lin Jianfan nodded in shock: "Okay...Okay."
"I will ask you any questions in the future." Gu Chaoming said.
Lin Jianfan nodded again and replied, "Okay."
The process was so smooth, and after a few words, Su Bing, who was sitting behind Lin Jianfan, was stunned.
Su Bing grabbed Gu Chaoming, who was about to leave, before he started chewing the candy he just put in his mouth: "Gu Shuai? Are you really Gu Shuai?"
Gu Chaoming stopped, looked at Su Bing who was holding him, and took a piece of candy from his table: "What's wrong? Is it stupid to eat candy?"
"Why did you suddenly change and want to study?" Su Bing asked.
"Just thinking about it," Gu Chaoming tore off the candy wrapper, "Last night I watched the astronomical phenomenon at night and thought today was a good day to start studying."
Gu Chaoming began to try to do his homework by himself, and he first asked for advice from his deskmate, Cen Xueba.
Gu Chaoming asked Cen Xili to pick some simple topics.
"Simple to explode, the kind you think I can do." Gu Chaoming said.
But even with the simple questions that Cen Xi has screened out layer by layer, Gu Chaoming only made a few questions in the morning, and he didn't know the rest.
It is much easier to learn the frustration of learning than to learn the sense of accomplishment by scribbling and drawing on scratch paper. It was another question that he couldn't do, Gu Chaoming was a little discouraged, scratched his head in anger, and even wanted to stop learning, but he thought of giving up halfway like this before.
No, he didn't reach it halfway, and he didn't count as a quitter, at most he quit at the beginning.
Will it be the same as before
Su Bing came over after class and saw that Gu Chaoming finished the task and recited the words: "Gu Shuai, you are so awesome, why are you working so hard all of a sudden?"
Gu Chaoming continued to recite the words and ignored Su Bing.
Su Bing couldn't look at it and told him, "You don't memorize words like that."
Su Bing's grades were all supported by English. Gu Chaoming thought he was noisy at first, but after hearing him say that his way of memorizing words was wrong, he asked, "Then how do you memorize them?"
Su Bing pointed to his head: "I rely on my smart head."
Gu Chao understood him with a glance: "Go away, don't disturb Lao Tzu's study."
The difficulty of learning was much more difficult than Gu Chaoming imagined. The good mood at the beginning was buried in the fatigue of studying hard for the next few days but feeling that there was no progress. The motivation to study hard is entirely supported by not wanting to embarrass my mother, and having good grades in my new home.
Gu Chaoming only knew that he couldn't memorize faces, but he didn't expect that he couldn't memorize knowledge points. Cramming was a headache, and within a few days, the exhaustion of studying hard could almost overwhelm Gu Chaoming.
Gu Chaoming felt that his life was numb in the past, thinking that studying hard would make things better, but now it seems to be just a different way of numbness, but in the numb learning life, it is also possible to find some shortcuts to solve problems for a while.
The world supported by his weak knowledge in the numbness makes Gu Chaoming's life clearer and more organized.
Sometimes when Cen Xili was not free, Gu Chaoming went to see Lin Jianfan. Lin Jianfan was worthy of being the first in his grade. Gu Chaoming had clearly sensed the gap between him and him when he asked him the first question. When Lin Jianfan talked to him, he had a lot of knowledge that he didn't understand. Gu Chaoming knew that the questions he asked, the first of their grades would not take them out to practice at all, and they could get the answers at a glance.
Lin Jianfan has never had the arrogance of being the first in his grade, and his top grades have not changed his submissive temperament, and he has not given him any support for his arrogance. He says "I'm sorry" and "thank you" every day as usual. The halo might just bring him a few days of discussion.
Gu Chaoming likes to hear Lin Jianfan give himself a topic. Gu Chaoming can hear from Lin Jianfan's words that he is giving himself serious answers. Gu Chaoming can feel that Lin Jianfan has broken the topic bit by bit, just because The day before I seemed a little bit incomprehensible.
Lin Jianfan explained slowly and meticulously. He also recommended tutoring materials to help him integrate knowledge points, although Gu Chaoming didn't tell him that he didn't understand a lot of it.
Gu Chaoming accepted the notebook that Lin Jianfan handed over, and Lin Jianfan was still explaining to him the scope of the knowledge points in the notebook.
Gu Chaoming opened the notebook and saw the neat and tidy fonts on it, and the formulas that he did not know were arranged in an orderly manner. Gu Chaoming knew the gap between himself and Lin Jianfan more clearly.
Gu Chaoming didn't want to compare with Lin Jianfan. His grades were the last, and Lin Jianfan was the first in grade. There was no comparison at all. Gu Chaoming would not be stupid enough to feel inferior because of these.
Gu Chaoming didn't feel inferior, but was very happy to see the formulas and symbols he didn't know on the notebook.
He does not compare with Lin Jianfan, he compares with his previous self.
In the past, he was confused, living in this world without knowing anything. He had no idea how far he was and how deep the water was under his feet. He was living in a mess. Now that he worked hard, he seemed to feel his feet on the ground.
There is a sense of frustration in learning, but as long as you work hard and persevere, the accumulated frustration will become a step by step and become a road to success.
The sense of achievement in learning is the quantitative variation of the accumulated frustration.
"I may not have written comprehensively enough." Lin Jianfan said.
Gu Chaoming flipped through the notebook that contained Lin Jianfan's hard work: "It doesn't need to be so comprehensive, anyway, I don't use a lot of it yet, take your time."
Gu Chaoming stood at Lin Jianfan's desk, Lin Jianfan sat in the seat and raised his eyes to look at Gu Chaoming, who was over 1.8 meters tall. Gu Chaoming turned over the notebook full of knowledge points and studied the knowledge he didn't understand above. Seeing Fan bow his head and smile.
During that time, Gu Chaoming studied every day, except for studying, he hardly touched his mobile phone. When you get up in the morning and memorize words, you also memorize words in the car. I do my homework every day, and when I get home, I look at the homework.
Days are the same as usual, day after day, but it seems to be different from before. The days pass numbly, and it is easy to become a lump. It is difficult to distinguish the time, and it only feels that it has passed in an instant. It is like cooking porridge. After cooking for a long time, the original grain of rice will become a lump.
Gu Chaoming has been living in a daze for many years, and only recently did he feel that his life was no longer a lump of sticky porridge.
"This is actually very simple, you don't even consider it here at the beginning, you split this..."
The tip of the pen pointed at the printed font on the book, Lin Jianfan's voice was quiet, and he explained every step carefully from beginning to end.
The class bell rang and the topic had not been finished yet. The class teacher walked in with a stack of papers and asked the class representative to pass it on.
"There are two classes today. Let's take a test." The teacher said.
This is Gu Chaoming's first test after studying hard.
Lin Jianfan said to Gu Chaoming, who had collected the textbook and was about to return to his seat: "Come on, take the test and see the results of your recent efforts."
Gu Chaoming turned his head and grinned.
"Let you see how good I am."