Gu Chaoming had never faced an exam so seriously, as if he was facing a great enemy, and even in the middle school exam, he would have forgotten about it in a daze. It was the first mid-term exam since studying hard. The day before the exam, Gu Chaoming doubled down on his review. Lin Jianfan also sent a message to ask him what he didn't understand and gave him night tuition.
The night before the mid-term exam, Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan opened video one-on-one tutoring for the first time. Lin Jianfan explained to him, and Gu Chaoming listened carefully. Gu Chaoming felt very lucky to get the full-strength tutoring of the first grade for free, and he was also glad that he was able to switch to the group with Lin Jianfan at that time.
He came to the school with an uneasy mood, and met Lin Jianfan, who was tutoring him last night, in the corridor, and Lin Jianfan cheered him on.
During the exam, Gu Chaoming didn't have much confidence in his heart. He walked into the classroom with the prepared examination equipment, and he had no confidence in his heart, but he was full of momentum.
I never felt that the exam time was so urgent before. I always looked up at the clock on the blackboard in the classroom, and wrote each stroke to the last moment. An exam usually ended with Gu Chaoming's laziness.
Many times I met Lin Jianfan outside the examination room who was not on the same floor for the examination. Seeing him pass by the window, Gu Chaoming stopped him to chat. When asked how he got here, Lin Jianfan explained that a friend he knew was taking exams in this building, so he often came down, and also asked how Gu Chaoming did in the exam, whether he had confidence in the 300%.
Gu Chaoming shook his head: "I don't know if there is."
"I think there must be." Lin Jianfan stood in front of the corridor railing and said with a smile.
Gu Chaoming leaned his back against the railing, resting his hands on the railing, tilted his head to look at Lin Jianfan who was smiling, and said, "I want to borrow your auspicious words."
Lend you auspicious words.
Maybe Lin Jianfan is really the most favored son of the goddess of luck, so that it is just the sentence "I think there must be" that Lin Jianfan said to Gu Chaoming, and he has such a great fortune power. Gu Chaoming only said "borrow you auspicious words", and he really borrowed his lucky value from Lin Jianfan.
Once again, he was anxiously waiting for his grades. In the last test, the teacher changed the papers quickly and the test papers were small. Gu Chaoming was only tormented by waiting for the results for one day. This mid-term exam is a big exam, and the waiting time is naturally longer than an ordinary exam.
Su Bing advised him to relax and not be so nervous. As the waiting time lengthened, Gu Chaoming's unbearable nervousness was consumed by time into a faint unease every day.
The day of the announcement of the results finally came. Gu Chaoming came to the school early. As soon as the results were released, Su Bing immediately came over to inform him and took him to the announcement column to see the results.
Gu Chaoming was a little reluctant to be pulled by Su Bing at first, for fear that his grades would be unsatisfactory and he would be hit and slumped, so he really had to laugh at himself.
Gu Chaoming once thought that if his grades were good enough, he would call Qu Yingyi, and if his grades were not good, then forget it. Gu Chaoming regarded the mid-term results as a bet, as well as a reward or punishment.
As soon as the results were released, there was already a circle of people in front of the announcement column. Gu Chaoming stood in front of the bulletin board and searched for his name. Naturally, he would not start from the first place without his own power. He decided to start from the last. Most of the people gathered around the top 100 and talked a lot, but Gu Chaoming, Su Bing, and Cen Xili stood at the end of the bulletin board and were quiet.
Gu Chaoming passed the top 100 people surrounded by people, glanced at it, Lin Jianfan's name once again topped the list.
Gu Chaoming was not surprised at all, he glanced at it and walked over.
When Lin Jianfan came down to check the results, Gu Chaoming hadn't found his name yet. Lin Jianfan walked to Gu Chaoming's side, Gu Chaoming saw him, pointed to the top 100 surrounded by people in front of him and said, "Why are you here, you are number one, you can see it from outside the crowd. number one."
Lin Jianfan didn't answer, just blinked.
Gu Chaoming was looking for his name in front of the bulletin board. He didn't hear Lin Jianfan's reply. He looked back at Lin Jianfan and said, "That's right. You are used to being the first, so you don't need to look at the grades."
"Neither..." Lin Jianfan said.
There is a big tree behind the bulletin board, with thick roots and lush branches and leaves. Under the dense branches, the students gathered under the tree to look for their grades after every exam.
There was a missing branch from the cut off branch, and Gu Chaoming happened to be standing under the vacant branch. Gu Chaoming pulled Lin Jianfan, who was looking at the results, and said, "Come on, help me find my name if you have nothing to do."
Under the desk light, the phone screen is displayed on the contact page. The word "mom" will always exist on the screen of the mobile phone that is dark and bright.
Gu Chaoming has been holding the phone with both hands for a long time, since he walked into the room to study after eating.
In the living room only one door away, Gu Tao was turning on the TV, drinking his small wine, and eating the dinner prepared by Gu Chaoming.
Gu Tao was at home today, Gu Chaoming opened the door with the key, and the crumbs on the coffee table secretly reported to him that Gu Tao was back.
Gu Chaoming was lying on the desk with his arms on his side, the lamp was a bit dazzling, and Gu Chaoming once again lit the darkened mobile phone screen.
The words "mom" appeared on the screen again.
Gu Chaoming stared at those two words for a long time, but never had the courage to press them down.
He did well in the test, unexpectedly. Su Bing helped him find his name among the dense scores on the bulletin board, and was so excited as if a scientist had made a major discovery that changed mankind.
Gu Chaoming, Lin Jianfan and Cen Xili ran over together, Su Bing grabbed Gu Chaoming's neck and said, "Okay, Gu Shuai, 318, the Goddess Festival is coming, and next time I will take 618!"
"The Goddess Day is 38, okay?"
318 exceeded his goal by 18 points, which was enough to make Gu Chaoming satisfied and excited. Several people stood in front of the bulletin board to congratulate Gu Chaoming, and people passing by frequently cast curious glances.
The extra 18 points are enough to satisfy Gu Chaoming, but not enough to support Gu Chaoming's courage to call Qu Yingyi.
Gu Chaoming lay on his desk and lit up the darkened screen again. He suddenly sat up and turned to look at the closed door. The loud TV sound outside the door squeezed in desperately through the crack of the door.
Gu Chaoming had a faint expectation in his heart, and a faint expectation to captivate the impulse under the lamp. Light up the dimmed screen and stare directly at the dazzling lamp tube. The dazzling light burned the eyeballs, burning Gu Chaoming's inner desire and impulse to escape.
Gu Chaoming removed the stool, took out the suitcase under the bed, opened the zipper and started packing.
In the dark, he suddenly had the confidence that his mother would call him soon and take him to his new home. Perhaps it was the confidence given by the extra 18 points that made him so convinced.
Gu Chaoming, who didn't dare to call Qu Yingyi, began to pack his luggage, began to pack up his old life, and ran towards his new future.
Before the luggage was collected, the dazzling lamp on the table and the overhead headlight disappeared in an instant, and the loud TV sound outside the door also left.
The world is in silence and darkness.
The power outage was halfway through, which seemed to be an omen. Gu Chaoming had a bad feeling in his heart, and the burning impulse was extinguished by the darkness that poured in.
Filling the darkness of the room, the sound of the door lock turning, which is necessary in horror movies, appeared in Gu Chaoming's room.
Gu Chaoming stood behind the unclosed suitcase and stared at the door lock that made the sound, his heartbeat gradually accelerated with the rotation of the door lock.
The door was opened, and the silver-white light of the flashlight jumped from the open door to Gu Chaoming's body in the dark.
Gu Tao is the manipulator of the light source. Gu Tao leaned against the door frame, the flashlight swept across Gu Chaoming's body, swept across Gu Chaoming's room that was a little messy because of packing his luggage, and finally landed on the unclosed suitcase in front of Gu Chaoming.
Gu Tao leaned against the door frame and smiled at Gu Chaoming's unclosed suitcase: "Will your mother take you away with that thing? Wait for the next life, she can't figure it out herself."
Gu Chaoming didn't know when Gu Tao found out that he was packing his suitcase, and when Gu Tao knew that Qu Yingyi was going to take him away under his cover.
Gu Chaoming didn't believe Gu Tao's words. In the dark night, Gu Chaoming did not refute. He believed that Qu Yingyi would take him away, and Qu Yingyi promised him.
Gu Chaoming was full of determination and trust. He said to Gu Tao who was holding a flashlight: "She will definitely take me away and get out of here."
Gu Chaoming looked at Gu Tao with firm eyes, and Gu Tao laughed: "Hmph, how capable do you think your mother is, it's okay to be a junior, and it's hard to drag such a big oil bottle."
Xu is that the genes of violence and irritability are really inherited. Gu Chaoming persuaded himself to ignore Gu Tao and not get angry, but he could control his brain impulsively. Gu Tao's "little three" easily angered Gu Chaoming, who still believed in the last moment.
Standing behind the suitcase, Gu Chaoming roared, "My mother is not a junior!"
"What is your attitude?" The only silver-white light in the room disappeared, and the slag of the flashlight shattered beside Gu Chaoming. The flashlight let out a final whimper, and the silver-white light died away, leaving only the faint moonlight outside the window and the two people standing inside.
Gu Tao's eyes widened immediately, his eyes were yellow and bloodshot, he looked like a devil in Gu Chaoming's sleep as a child.
When Gu Chaoming was a child, he often dreamed of Gu Tao and a demon with angry eyes. The devil will burn the arm of the disobedient child with a cigarette butt laughing, the devil will laugh, the devil will be angry, and the devil will look like Gu Tao.
In the darkness, Gu Chaoming remembered his childhood dream, and he was terrified. When he was a child, he was afraid that the devil would take him away. When he was seventeen, Gu Chaoming was afraid that he would become another devil like Gu Tao and take Gu Tao away.
The fear of finally leaving came back into my heart, the fear of my father since I was a child, and the fear of my own humanity.
Gu Chaoming was afraid, but the fireworks still didn't go away. He insisted, "My mother will definitely take me away."
Get out of here, get out of you devil.
Gu Chaoming didn't know which point he touched Gu Tao's inverse scale, Gu Tao came over and overturned his suitcase. The clothes, books in the suitcase, the gift from Gu Chaoming's cherished Qu Yingyi, and the photos he kept were just Gu Tao's act of overturning the suitcase and scattered all over the place in the dark.
Not relieved that Gu Chaoming's things were overturned on the ground, Gu Tao's soles stepped on the photo frame that Gu Chaoming had dropped on the ground: "Fuck you go with that bitch, I see if you can go, if you dare Let's go, believe it or not, I broke your tendons and let you crawl to school, believe it or not?"
Gu Chaoming pounced like a young wolf, trying to push Gu Tao away and stop his trampling behavior, but was kicked to the ground by Gu Tao.
Gu Chaoming lay on the ground clutching his stomach, watching the scary Gu Tao under the moonlight trample on his luggage arbitrarily, as if he was destroying his future life and his hopes.
Gu Chaoming was afraid because he knew that Gu Tao dared to do this.
Gu Tao had done this before. He pressed his mother to the ground and beat his face with blood. After being reported by him, Gu Tao burned the back of his hand with a cigarette butt and warned him to kill him if he dared to call the police again. The burning cigarette butts scorched the skin, and the scars on the back of the hands hurt again after many years in the flooded night. Gu Chaoming will never forget the pain that day.
The sound of glass breaking, the sound of Gu Tao's sole stepping on the glass, Gu Chaoming knew that the photo frame he put in the suitcase was smashed by Gu Tao.
The sound of glass breaking raged in Gu Chaoming's ears, raging to kill his last consciousness and moral bottom line.
Gu Chaoming slowly climbed up to the sound of Gu Tao's stampede, leaned his back against the bed, his eyes were like a wolf in the wind and snow, and searched the room for something that could be used to fight back.
Hit with a stick or stab with a sharp object, Gu Chaoming looked at the crazy Gu Tao, thinking about where he would die if he stabbed him, so that he would not have the ability to resist, so that he would not destroy his life and his future. .
The bloody thoughts flooded Gu Chaoming's entire brain, and the mobile phone beside the table rang like an alarm bell, frightening the violent thoughts in Gu Chaoming's mind. In Gu Tao's rage, Gu Chaoming slowly moved to the table and took the ringing mobile phone on the table.
Gu Tao was in a rage. Gu Chaoming was afraid that it was a call from Qu Yingyi, and that Gu Tao would receive it.
Gu Chaoming took the phone, not Qu Yingyi, but Lin Jianfan, who was with him today looking for his name on the bulletin board.
Seeing this name, Gu Chaoming was shocked, even more frightened than seeing Qu Yingyi's phone call, as if Lin saw Fan beside him, watching him beside him.
There is a feeling of having one's own ugliness exposed in broad daylight.
Gu Chaoming was very scared, as if he wanted to solve Gu Tao's dirty mind was discovered.
Gu Chaoming panicked in his heart, his chest heaving, and he ignored Lin Jianfan's phone, hoping it wouldn't ring again, but it still rang.
Second sound.
Before Gu Chaoming could hang up, Gu Tao smashed his suitcase to the ground. The room was a mess. The photo of him, Su Bing, and Cen Xili at the sports meeting was shattered. The clothes were also torn by the mad Gu Tao, and the glass of the photo frame reflected a faint gray-white light in the moonlight.
After receiving the photo sent by Lin Jianfan, Gu Chaoming insisted on giving him the money to develop the photo. After returning home, he carefully selected his favorite group photo, framed it in a photo frame, and placed it on the desk. Packing up and wanting to bring photos to my new home too.
Gu Chaoming stared at the shattered glass on the ground, the bell still ringing in his ear, Gu Tao finished his madness and started hitting him again. Lin Jianfan's ringtone matched the sound of Gu Tao's fist hitting his body.
Gu Chaoming used his arms to protect himself, but his nose bone was still hit by Gu Tao's fist, and he experienced the feeling of a nosebleed from You Xin being punched by Su Bing.
Eyes swollen on one side, and even ringing in the ears.
Buzzing, sharp, a combination of red and black before the eyes. Gu Chaoming couldn't open his eyes a little, but he could see Gu Tao's fists waving at him constantly.
He remembered that night, when his mother was beaten by Gu Tao like this, and he begged bitterly that night.
Gu Chaoming was lying on the ground, feeling the pain of raindrops falling on his body, he saw himself kneeling on the ground in a corner of the room.
He was crying, he was begging.
The rain of pain and the high-pitched whistling in his ears, for some reason Gu Chaoming could still notice that the ringing of the mobile phone had stopped.
Just let him stop.
After being slapped by Gu Tao again, Gu Chaoming felt his stomach churning. He had just been kicked by Gu Tao and maybe kicked some important part, but he was disgusted but couldn't spit it out, so he could only cough.
In the dark night, Gu Chaoming couldn't see the bloodshot he coughed up. Gu Chaoming lay on the ground and saw that the photo of him, Cen Xili and Su Bing was thrown aside, and the pictures with bright and beautiful smiles were all broken glass.
Gu Chaoming got up immediately while Gu Tao's fist slowed down, and he vomited out after such a big movement.
Gu Tao took the opportunity to grab him, and Gu Chaoming shook off Gu Tao, his mouth was bitter, and there was still vomiting residue on his body, and his stomach was very uncomfortable.
Gu Tao still wanted to hit him, but Gu Chaoming was in pain. He used all his strength to push Gu Tao away, and the tumult in his stomach was able to push Gu Tao out of the door.
Gu Tao fell to the ground without standing, with a coffee table not far behind. Gu Chaoming looked at Gu Tao who was lying on the ground and rubbed his head and thought, "It would be great if I used more force, so that Gu Tao's head hits the coffee table, he may die, and he can get rid of him completely."
But then he also bears a life, the life of his father.
Gu Tao did not get up as he wished. Gu Chaoming stood at the door of the room. Seeing Gu Tao standing up, he immediately closed the door subconsciously, preventing Gu Tao from entering. He locked the door and blocked the door with his own body.
Gu Chaoming's chest rose and fell violently behind the door. He was as afraid of Gu Tao coming in as he was in the kitchen when he was a child.
He blocked the door, and suddenly cried out in fear in the dark.
There were still dim lights in the kitchen that day, but today only the silver moonlight accompanies me, and there are demons kicking the door outside.
The door was shaking, and Gu Chaoming could feel Gu Tao's power through the door.
He was afraid in his heart, afraid of the door opening, the most primitive fear in his heart since he was a child.
Gu Chaoming heard Gu Tao walking away through the door panel, and heard him go to the kitchen to get a knife.
Gu Chaoming is like a lamb to be slaughtered.
Gu Chaoming was shivering like a lamb to be slaughtered behind the door. He was so scared, so scared, that his hands were shaking so much.
Door panels vibrate and debris falls. The door panels were forced to leave one huge scar after another, revealing the sawdust inside.
The door panel was very painful and made a groan. The kitchen knife in Gu Tao's hand didn't care about the door panel's wound or groan, the sound of the kitchen knife hitting the door panel only made him more excited.
The kitchen knife collided with the metal door lock. The kitchen knife in Gu Tao's hand let go of the scarred door panel in the dark and pointed to the metal door lock on the door.
"When I unlock the lock, you will be next."
After all kinds of swear words gathered, Gu Tao started to kick the door again.
The sound of the kitchen knife slicing on the door, the sound of the kitchen knife slicing on the lock, is the song of death at night, and it is Gu Tao's life-threatening soul.
Gu Chaoming had no choice but to take the mobile phone on the ground to dial his mother, hoping that she would come to save him.
The kitchen knife cooperated with the crazy demon outside the door, and Gu Chaoming begged his mother to answer the phone quickly inside the door. Tears fell on his arms. Gu Chaoming didn't know why, but the tears fell rustling as he greeted the cold female voice on the other end of the phone after the countless beeps.
"Sorry, your call is temporarily..."
The mechanical female voice was cold, and after hanging up the phone, Gu Chaoming laughed from behind the door that kept making violent noises.
In the dark, he smiled.
He used to study hard to impress his new father, and it all turned into a joke, it was ridiculous.
It's like a big joke.
Gu Chaoming, who was beaten, felt abandoned by his mother.
He was frightened, trembling, his body ached, and the memories of the past came flooding in like a wave. The flesh was scalded, the buzzing in his head, the cold female voice in his ears, and the sound of Gu Tao slamming the door, made him shout, "I was wrong, I was wrong."
Gu Chaoming didn't know what was wrong with him, he only knew to repeat this sentence, hoping that Gu Tao would let him go.
"I was wrong."
Tears flowed into his mouth, Gu Chaoming didn't know what it tasted like, he just kept repeating that I was wrong.
Tears on his face, trembling pleading.
Gu Tao finally stopped slashing the door, he stopped and scolded: "You son of a bitch, if you don't hit you, you won't know who I am."
Gu Chaoming was still saying, "I was wrong."
In the cold and ruthless darkness, Gu Tao split the door lock and dropped the kitchen knife in his hand. Gu Chaoming heard the sound of the kitchen knife hitting the ground.
Gu Tao split open the door, walked into the room, and saw Gu Chaoming, whose face was full of tears in the moonlight, and wrapped his arms around him.
Gu Chaoming was very scared, afraid that Gu Tao would hit him again, but he knew that he had to get the kitchen knife off the ground first.
Before Gu Chaoming had time, Gu Tao had already squatted down, sighed, and roughly wiped the tears on Gu Chaoming's face with his hands.
The sudden warmth after the terrifying violence made Gu Chaoming almost tremble and retreat. Gu Tao roughly wiped his tears and said, "A 18-year-old is still crying like this, he's still a boy, shame on him!"
Gu Chaoming wanted to retort that he was only seventeen and not yet eighteen, but he didn't open his mouth. He was still in shock and disbelief from Gu Tao's sudden warmth.
Gu Tao patted Gu Chaoming's face and said, "Silly child, you just trust your mother? What's so good about your mother? Trust her in everything."
Gu Tao laughed and stood up and was about to leave. He walked to the door frame, turned his head and said to Gu Chaoming, "You don't even think about why your mother didn't take you there for so long, but just talked about it. She had long since divorced. I gave up your custody. Anyway, our family has no money, and she doesn't want anything. I only want your custody. After all, you are only one son. She promised to divorce me at once, and lied that she wanted to take you there just because she wanted to. Maintain her image of a good mother in your mind. Think carefully about who is good to you."
After speaking, Gu Tao smiled again, walked to the living room, opened the door and walked out.
The door was closed, and Gu Chaoming in the room sat on the ground for a long time without moving.
Undoubtedly, Gu Tao's words before he left were not an ordinary blow to him, but a shock of thunder, which directly burned his world and his expectations to the ground.
Together with him, burn to death.
Qu Yingyi was indeed procrastinating, there was no news for a long time, and Gu Chaoming also suspected it, but he chose to believe that for seventeen years, he believed that Qu Yingyi was the best person for him, and the person he should protect regardless of everything.
Is what Gu Tao said true? Can you believe it? Are the words spit out from Gu Tao's mouth high? Gu Chaoming actually knew that his heart had begun to shake, but he still chose to deceive himself and said to himself: "Gu Tao is all a liar, mother she will not do this, she will take me away, she said. "
Gu Chaoming heard the sound of Gu Tao going out and leaned on the door to calm down.
He was in pain and discomfort, and the mess all over the floor complimented with the moonlight. He waited for the pain to subside before standing up and cleaned up the things that Gu Tao had messed up on the ground.
Mother had said that she would take him to a new home, that he would leave here, that he would just wait.
Gu Chaoming picked up the photo in silence. His fingers were cut by broken glass, and blood was stained on the photo. Gu Chaoming wiped it off with his hand, but found that the more he wiped, the more he wiped it.
He took a tissue and wiped the photos first, then wiped his hands. After wrapping his hands with a tissue, he put the wiped photos into the suitcase.
My chest felt very stuffy, and I suddenly vomited again. Without any precaution, I vomited in the room. After I vomited, my chest didn't feel stuffy anymore.
There was a peculiar smell in the room, vomiting, often smelled from Gu Tao.
Gu Chaoming opened the window to breathe, and continued to pack his things. The tissue in his hand was stained red with blood, and he didn't care. He picked up the clothes on the ground and put them in the suitcase.
He didn't know if Gu Tao would come back, but he believed that his mother would take him away, his mother said.
Qu Yingyi would not lie to him.
His mother would take him away from this demon, he had always believed, and that was the reason to support him.
Gu Chaoming packed up and heard the bell ring again, thinking it was Lin Jianfan again.
Gu Chaoming felt annoyed, picked up the phone and looked - it was Qu Yingyi.
In the dark, Gu Chaoming walked to the window holding his phone. The air outside the window was much fresher than the vomit smell inside.
Tonight's moonlight is very bright and there are many stars. Gu Chaoming looked up at the starry sky, Qu Yingyi's voice came from the other end of the phone into the night outside Gu Chaoming's window: "There is something here, Chaoming, you... I may I can't bring you here, and Mommy..."
Looking up at the starry sky, tears gathered in his eyes, Gu Chaoming did not allow them to fall, and pretended to be fine and said to Qu Yingyi, "It's fine, I didn't really plan to go anyway, and my luggage was confiscated."
At that moment, at that moment, in the darkness of the night he seemed to fall into hell, he seemed to be abandoned again, it was ridiculous.
The moon was so cold, he saw darkness fall and stars fall.
That feeling of powerlessness is like being sentenced to death by the god of death and seeing hell in the next moment
"Welcome back," Hell said.
Hanging up the phone, Gu Chaoming stood by the window for a long time until Lin Jianfan called again.
The first time Gu Chaoming didn't answer, Lin Jianfan's stubborn temper made him hit the second one.
Gu Chaoming was very irritable when he saw Lin Jianfan's call, and didn't want to answer his call.
The tone of answering the phone is also very aggressive: "What are you doing? There is something wrong..."
After being yelled at by Gu Chaoming, Lin Jianfan was quiet and did not speak.
After scolding a few words, Gu Chaoming found that he was as furious as Gu Tao now. He shouldn't be like this to others, he shouldn't be so emotionally uncontrolled.
Gu Chaoming suddenly realized that he softened and said to Lin Jianfan, "I'm sorry, just now... I mean... um... something happened here... I didn't get mad at you... um... "
Lin Jianfan replied softly, "It's fine."
Gu Chaoming asked, "What are you looking for from me?"
"It's alright." Lin Jianfan said.
"Oh, it's okay, I'll hang up first."
Gu Chaoming didn't want him to get angry with unrelated people again, and he didn't want to be like Gu Tao again.
He hung up the phone directly and hung up on the possibility of him getting angry with Lin Jianfan.
He closed the window, closed the night outside the window, and closed the falling stars.