After a tiring day, Gu Chaoming took out the earphones from his pocket and put them on to listen to music.
Summer is hot and autumn is golden. The sunlight that penetrates the clouds in the morning is golden yellow, and the evening dusk is the warm yellow of the wheat grass in the fields, spreading like butter, covering everything in the world.
Gu Chaoming liked this kind of weather, and gentle tunes flowed from the earphones.
In the ever-changing street scene outside the bus window, the sunlight is blocked by tall buildings, hidden and released, like naughty children playing among tall buildings and tree shadows.
The bus slowly took Gu Chaoming closer to the house. Even though Gu Tao "showed his favor" to him in the morning, Gu Chaoming still hoped that the bus would drive slower and slower as usual, hoping that Gu Tao would not be at home.
He didn't know how to deal with Gu Tao's fake good intentions. Those good intentions, like broken glass, made him troublesome.
When the bus stopped, Gu Chaoming got off the bus and walked into the community. The children from Aunt Cheng's family in front of the canteen where the sound of mahjong was heard were playing with other children in the community.
"Brother Chaoming." Aunt Cheng's child called him.
Gu Chaoming smiled.
Going to his own floor, Gu Chaoming didn't hear anything other than his footsteps and the faint sound of the TV coming from the opposite door.
Gu Tao is not at home? Still sleeping
The children's laughter came from downstairs. Gu Chaoming held the mobile phone and habitually took out his other hand into his pocket. He only found a few pieces of change, but no keys. There was not even a piece of iron in his pocket.
Gu Chaoming then remembered what Gu Tao said last night, "You only have one key and you can handle it yourself."
After Gu Tao finished speaking, he went on a date with Mahjong, leaving him alone.
In the morning, he was messed up by Gu Tao's 100 yuan, and he forgot about the fact that he didn't have a key. He went out with dessert and was now trapped outside the door.
Gu Chaoming stood in front of the door and tried to raise his hand to hold the doorknob.
No way, it's locked.
Gu Chaoming slammed the door hard, but only slapped the door without shouting.
I don't know what to call Gu Tao. There has been no father-son address between them. Maybe it's just that he didn't unilaterally. Gu Tao still called him Chaoming when he was happy.
He patted the door for a while without shouting, but no one answered, and Gu Tao went out.
Gu Tao's whereabouts have been uncertain. When he goes out, he doesn't know when he will come back. Home seems to be just his stop, a place for him to come back to rest and get money.
Being locked out of the door, the tenderness of autumn also became dry, igniting the smoldering fire in Gu Chaoming's heart.
Just as dinner was being made, the faint sound of the TV and the smell of the food floated in the air, and Gu Chaoming's hunger was filled with irritability when he entered the community.
Looking at the locked door, Gu Chaoming just wanted to turn around and leave. He is not a child who has nowhere to go. He can go to Su Bing's house, but Gu Tao didn't see him when he came back, or if he had no money, he would definitely go to school again. It happened again.
Gu Chaoming suppressed the burning anger in his heart, picked up his mobile phone and prepared to dial. The number of times he called Gu Tao was very rare, and it was Gu Tao who called him. When Su Bing lived at his house, there were rows of red Gu Taos in the call log, but Gu Chaoming didn't answer any of them.
It was the devil's call to bring him back to hell.
The demon brought him back and locked him out again.
Gu Tao just wanted to drag him, dragged the only blood-related child after his divorce to support him.
After all, Gu Tao once said: "People say you are a good and filial boy who will make money to support your father in the future."
Gu Chaoming opened the dialing page, ready to meet the rows of red missed calls.
The page opened a little bit, and the top row of the dazzling red was the two words that Gu Chaoming changed yesterday.
Those two words caught Gu Chaoming's eyes, climbed into Gu Chaoming's heart, and a little bit suppressed the annoyance in his heart.
In the dusky evening, in the dilapidated small building, Gu Chaoming saw those two words, smiled and clicked on Gu Tao's phone.
The long dialing sound slowly consumed Gu Chaoming's relief when he saw the word "Jianfan", and swallowed Gu Chaoming's patience little by little. Finally, a mechanical female voice apologized for Gu Tao who didn't answer the phone.
"The number you dialed..."
Gu Chaoming hung up without waiting for her to finish speaking, the smoldering fire in his heart had already started a prairie fire with the sound of dialing.
A smouldering fire was suffocating in his heart, and there was nowhere to release it.
Gu Chaoming advised himself not to be angry, you should have gotten used to people like Gu Tao. Do you still expect him to get better? You shouldn't be mad about it, didn't you always want to go? Gu Chaoming suddenly understood the reason for his anger.
If Gu Tao doesn't answer the phone, he doesn't need to be angry, he can be free, and he can leave directly. The heart of love has been touched unconsciously, and she is vaguely looking forward to it, otherwise she would not want Gu Tao to answer his phone.
Having been unable to love for many years, Gu Chaoming didn't want him to be like a pug. Gu Tao gave him a little favor, and he believed it.
He thought he didn't look forward to it, and when he saw what was hidden in his heart, Gu Chaoming only felt panic.
Gu Tao didn't answer his phone, but reality gave him a slap, telling him that what you're expecting in your heart is a joke.
The sunset slanted westward, and the warm and thick sunset slowly dissipated along with the temperature, unable to outline Gu Chaoming's shadow.
The setting sun took away the temperature, and Gu Chaoming felt cold all over. He decided to leave, leave here, and go to Su Bing's house, where his luggage was still uncollected.
He's not an abandoned kid, he's not someone locked out with nowhere to go.
You can do it alone.
Gu Chaoming groped in his pocket again, hoping that he had brought the key of Su Bing's house, but he didn't need to touch it, the other pocket was empty.
Because he didn't expect to be locked out, Gu Chaoming didn't bring anything except his mobile phone and the remaining change.
Touching the empty pocket, Gu Chaoming couldn't help but scold: "Fuck."
On the dry evening in autumn, with a smoldering fire in his heart, Gu Chaoming kicked his door in a vent. The door panel made a thud, causing the man who happened to take the child upstairs to look sideways.
Gu Chaoming saw the person who went upstairs pulling the child to his side, as if he was afraid that his violent behavior would hurt the child, so he walked upstairs quickly, Gu Chaoming could even hear him say to the child, "Don't imitate him. , his father is sick."
The simple words of others made Gu Chaoming realize that he and Gu Tao were becoming more and more alike, and that he could not control his temper more and more. Gu Chaoming scolded again: "Fuck!"
Will he eventually become the person he hates the most
I had to admit that I became more and more like Gu Tao, the air at the door became depressed, and Gu Chaoming walked downstairs quickly, holding the handrail of the stairs.
After walking out of the stairs, the rest of the children were called home for dinner, and the children of Aunt Cheng's family sat alone in front of the store and played with toy forklifts.
"Brother Chaoming, are you going out to play?" The child was innocent and could not understand the joys, sorrows and sorrows on Gu Chaoming's face.
Facing the child's innocence, Gu Chaoming did not want to involve his anger on others. Although he was full of sullenness, facing the child, he still smiled and said to the children of Aunt Cheng's family with a tone of voice when talking to children: "Yes, my brother is gone."
The child waved goodbye to him, and Gu Chaoming also raised his hand and waved.
Saying goodbye to the child, the smoldering fire that was left aside returned to its original position and continued to burn the prairie fire. Gu Chaoming strode out of the community, took out his mobile phone and wanted to call Su Bing and Cen Xili, telling them that he was very upset now, he really wanted to eat, he wanted to Eat a lot, come and dine with Lao Tzu!
Gu Chaoming knew that Su Bing and Cen Xili would definitely come no matter what they were doing when they heard him being so abnormal, but he didn't want to bring the emotions that Gu Tao brought him to them.
Cen Xili and Su Bing have always been the warmth by his side. When he studied hard but his test scores were not satisfactory, when his mother left him, when he had no choice, they were always by his side, Gu Chaoming was glad that he lived There could be both of them.
When he was about to call the two of them, the dialing page opened, and the word Fan appeared in front of his eyes like a firework that suddenly bloomed. It was the call from last night, and the phone that hit him in the face.
Lin Jianfan...
Inexplicably, seeing the name Lin Jianfan, Gu Chaoming's heart moved. At that moment, he wanted to see him and have dinner with him, but they only met in the supermarket this morning.
Lin Jianfan had an inexplicably reassuring ability to make Gu Chaoming call him.
There was still a mechanical dial tone on the other end of the phone, but unlike calling Gu Tao, the owner on the other end of the phone picked up immediately.
"Hello." Lin Jianfan's voice came from the other side.
"It's me." Gu Chaoming said.
Gu Chaoming was walking on the side of the road, and a car passed by. A driver called a horn. Lin Jianfan on the other end of the phone heard him. Lin Jianfan asked, "Are you on your way home?"
Gu Chaoming thought for a while and replied, "Almost."
Lin Jianfan's side was extraordinarily quiet, which made Gu Chaoming's voice more chaotic. The green light at the intersection turned red, and pedestrians stopped. Gu Chaoming stood behind the zebra crossing and looked at the red numbers on the opposite side and asked Lin Jianfan, "Have you eaten yet?"
"ate."
"Didn't eat together...?"
Gu Chaoming's second question came a little late, almost in sync with Lin Jianfan's "eat" answer, and they bumped into each other, creating a silent embarrassment.
Gu Chaoming: "..."
Well, he refused before he finished asking the question, and Gu Chaoming couldn't help but feel a little sad.
On the other end of the phone, Lin Jianfan was a little flustered. His "eat" was just answering Gu Chaoming's question, "Have you eaten yet?" He answered, but he didn't expect that there was another sentence after Gu Chaoming, and he inadvertently refused. he.
Gu Chaoming's tone did not show disappointment, he only said: "Oh, it's okay, I just want to say that if you don't eat, let's go to dinner together, there is no one in my house."
Lin Jianfan was still thinking about how to remedy it. Gu Chaoming said the reason, and he immediately followed Gu Chaoming's words: "That's fine, I'll accompany you."
Gu Chaoming wondered: "Didn't you finish your meal?"
"I ate, but I wasn't full and wanted to eat more."
Lin Jianfan told the reason why he couldn't coax anyone at all. He originally thought that he would get Gu Chaoming's joke just like in the morning. He was already waiting to get on the phone with Gu Chaoming and put on his jacket to find him, but he was full of anticipation in exchange for it. But it was Gu Chaoming's sudden silence on the other end of the phone.
Silent and terrifying silence, like entering a different time and space where communication is impossible.
The other party was silent. Lin saw that Fan wanted to say something and started to talk, but he felt that anything was wrong. He didn't know the reason for Gu Chaoming's silence. He had no way to deal with it, so he could only keep silent.
A few seconds of silence separated the air and connected to the phone, smashing an invisible hole between the two.
The red light turned green, and Gu Chaoming stepped on the zebra crossing and crossed the crowd. Opposite the zebra crossing was a crowded snack street. It was meal time, and people were confused.
Gu Chaoming passed by the street in a hurry, and the noise came unstoppably, reaching Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan.
Lin Jianfan received a call from Gu Chaoming while doing homework in his room shortly after dinner. When he is doing homework, his parents usually don't come into the room to disturb him, and even turn off the sound of the TV, hoping to give him a quiet environment. The closed curtain leaked a crack, and the air in the room was quietly pressed, trying to escape along the exposed crack of the curtain.
There was chaos on Gu Chaoming's side, and the sounds of traffic horns, hawking, and discussions about eating were mixed together, which further set off the silence of Lin Jianfan's room.
In the noisy voice, Gu Chaoming called out his name again: "Lin Jianfan."
Gu Chaoming's voice was formal, without the slightest joking or slapstick, but with a hint of loss and helplessness.
Lin saw that the children of Aunt Fan Rucheng's family could not distinguish the joy, anger and sorrow on Gu Chaoming's face, just as he could not distinguish the loss and helplessness in Gu Chaoming's voice.
He didn't understand the reason for Gu Chaoming's sudden silence, so he could only respond a little strangely and tremblingly: "Well, I'm listening, you say."
Gu Chaoming walked through the crowded Snack Street and stopped at a bus stop next to the Snack Street. Lin Jianfan thought he was going to say something important, but only heard Gu Chaoming ask, "Have you eaten?"
Same problem again.
Lin Jianfan didn't know what happened to Gu Chaoming, and he didn't know how to answer Gu Chaoming's repeated questions. Lin Jianfan said cautiously, "Eat it."
Gu Chaoming asked again, "What did you just eat?"
"Um."
"Eat at home?"
"Um."
"Are you full?"
Hearing this question, Lin Jianfan was speechless for a moment. He was indeed very full. Today, his mother prepared his favorite dishes, and he ate a little more than usual.
It was Gu Chaoming's speechless silence before, but this time it was replaced by Lin Jianfan.
Silent silence indicated his answer.
Gu Chaoming leaned against the bus stop sign, his heart turned back and forth, and he had a backlog of words. Gu Chaoming let himself forget it, stop talking, and returned to his usual brisk appearance.
"Just tell me when you're full. I'm not forcing you to eat with me. I just said that you want to accompany me if you're not full. Now that you're full, I'll go eat too. Goodbye."
Lin Jianfan on the other end of the phone paused, unable to understand what Gu Chaoming meant, why he suddenly changed his tone, why he was suddenly silent.
"Goodbye." Lin Jianfan said calmly.
Gu Chaoming hung up the phone, leaving Lin Jianfan with a series of beeps.
Looking at the darkened mobile phone, did he say something wrong to make him angry? Lin Jianfan thought.
But recalling the simple conversation he had just had with Gu Chaoming about eating, he couldn't find the reason for Gu Chaoming's anger at all.
After hanging up Lin Jianfan's phone, Gu Chaoming felt even more depressed, and the sullenness in his heart did not call Lin Jianfan as expected, and he suppressed the smoldering through his sense of security.
Lin Jianfan must feel that he has a weird temper, Gu Chaoming thought.
He and Gu Tao became more and more alike. The violence of kicking the door and the eccentric temper were passed down from generation to generation.
After talking on the phone with Lin Jianfan, there was no joy in his imagination. Instead, he poured a layer of lost tar on the smoldering fire that was locked outside the door.
The bus stopped, and people poured out of the back door. Gu Chaoming didn't get on the bus, but continued to call Su Bing against the billboard at the station.
Su Bing answered after a while: "Gu Shuai, what are you doing? Miss me?"
"Yes, I miss you." Gu Chaoming said.
Su Bing was surprised: "Wow, Gu Shuai, you finally admit that you miss me. I know you love me, but you don't have to miss me that much."
"Go away, have you eaten? If you haven't, let's go together?" Gu Chaoming sent an invitation.
Su Bing agreed without hesitation: "Okay, I happened to be hungry and didn't eat?"
Su Bing agreed, and he felt something was wrong when he heard the chaotic voice of Gu Chaoming. At this time, Gu Chaoming also got off work. He was taken home by his father. Shouldn't he be at home now? How can I ask him out for dinner
Noticing the difference, Su Bing's first reaction was that Gu Tao hit someone again. Su Bing's voice was instantly anxious, and he asked worriedly: "I heard your voice is outside? Your dad won't hit you again, right?"
"No, he's not at home." Gu Chaoming said, "By the way, do you still have the key to your house?"
"What's the matter? Are you going back to pack now? Don't you have the key? Lost it?"
Gu Chaoming didn't want to talk about the fact that he didn't have a key and was locked out of the door by Gu Tao, and the key to the house was locked at home. Gu Chaoming lied and said: "Hey, I don't want to go back and get it. Today, Gu Tao didn't want to go there to sleep, and he didn't want to be at home."
Su Bing asked, "Then you're not afraid that your dad will come back at night?"
"It's okay, do you have any? Come out quickly, I'm going to starve to death."
"Okay, uncle, I'll be here soon, where are you?" Gu Chaoming told Su Bing his location.
"Okay, I'll go get the key and sleep there with you today." Su Bing said.
Su Bing couldn't find the key for a while and asked Gu Chaoming, who had been screaming hungry, to go eat something to bolster his stomach, and come when he found the key.
The end of autumn is about to enter winter, and the sky is getting darker and earlier. After a while, the air is gray and the temperature is lost along with the luminosity.
It was cold at night, but fortunately, the clothes Gu Chaoming wore when he went out were thick enough to withstand the cold at night. Clothes could keep out the cold and hunger. Gu Chaoming walked into a soup shop carrying the snacks he bought for Su Bing, and ordered a crock pot of soup to warm himself up.
The pot of soup that was served kept steaming hot, Gu Chaoming sent the location of the soup shop to Su Bing and drank the soup himself.
The warmth unclogs the bones and muscles frozen by the autumn cold, and conveys it to the limbs and bones.
The TV hanging on the wall in the store was playing a dog-blood TV series at this point. Gu Chaoming took a few glances, and after listening to the lines while drinking the soup, he knew that it was a movie that he loved her, she did not love him, she loved him, He doesn't love him, anyway, no matter how the hero and heroine love each other, it's a TV series.
There were not many people in the store, and the boss was sitting at the table looking good. He even caught a student sitting across from him drinking soup and chatting.
"This man is too, he is so awkward, he likes this heroine for so long and doesn't say anything..." Gu Chaoming was glad he didn't sit there, otherwise he would have to listen to the boss babble a lot.
Gu Chaoming took out his mobile phone, took the drawer box on the table as a mobile phone holder, opened a movie, plugged in his headphones, and watched a movie while drinking soup.
The sky was completely dark outside, the neon lights of the snack street flickered, and various fragrances wafted in the air.
When Gu Chaoming heard someone entering the door, he looked up to see if it was Su Bing.
There is a large food stall not far from the soup shop, and rows of large round tables are surrounded by table after table of people. Snack Street is a night goblin, dressed in a glamorous garb. The table was filled with beer bottles in a short while. Gu Chaoming looked at the drunk people, they were all different and different.
Some sang loudly in the endless night, some laughed loudly, some choked and cried, and some fell asleep on the spot. Alcohol numbs the nerves and blurs consciousness, not caring about the strange eyes of others. His stomach was churning, and he spit out the pain and unhappiness of life by the side of the road.
The girl cried loudly, was supported by her friends, and walked crookedly like an immobile crab.
The owner of the soup shop looked like he had been through many battles and was not surprised: "The girl is sure that she is broken-hearted and cried so sadly."
Then he said to the students who were drinking soup opposite: "You children, fall in love..."
Hearing this, Gu Chaoming put on his earphones to isolate the shopkeeper's words.
He glanced in the direction the girl had gone. Whose life is smooth sailing without disaster? What's the point of being forgotten and locked out
Gu Tao didn't know when he came back. His schoolbag, textbooks and keys were still at home. If Gu Tao doesn't come back, it's impossible for him not to go to school, why don't he find a locksmith to open the lock
Gu Chaoming didn't pay much attention to the various unlocking phones in the corridor before, but he didn't expect it to come in handy now. Fortunately, his luggage was still in Su Bing's house, so he could take a shower and change into clean clothes when he went to see his mother tomorrow.
From the day that his parents divorced and his mother was discharged from the hospital, Gu Chaoming never saw Qu Yingyi again, and only called him. Qu Yingyi also asked him how Gu Tao treats him? Did you hit him? But as the saying goes, good news is not reported. Gu Chaoming didn't mention the matter of running away from home. He said every time, "Gu Tao hasn't been home for a few days, and he was sleeping when he got home."
He is going to see his mother tomorrow. Gu Chaoming has expectations in his heart. Although he already knows that he is not the person his mother loves the most, and that his mother has given up custody of him, he is still looking forward to it, as his mother said before. Like going to a new home.
Look forward to.
The movie didn't start until the soup was finished. Noticing that someone walked into the store and walked in his direction, Gu Chaoming took his eyes off the screen of his mobile phone and turned to the person coming. There were a lot of people entering and leaving the store. After seeing it many times, it was not Su Bing. This time, Gu Chaoming had intuition that it was not Su Bing, so he just glanced at him slightly.
With just a slight glance, Gu Chaoming almost choked his throat with a mouthful of hot soup, coughed a few times and pulled the headphone cord, which pulled the phone on the table and slipped off.
A burst of dominoes.
Gu Chaoming calmed down and coughed, looked at the person who came and asked, "Why did you come here?"