The hazy face in his sight smiled and was amused by himself.
Originally, there was a sentence after "I caught the wind", which Gu Chaoming thought was too hypocritical, so he omitted it.
The omitted sentence is "That way the wind won't get into your eyes."
The person who was supposed to laugh didn't laugh, but the person who made him laugh laughed first.
Looking at Lin Jianfan's watery eyes, Gu Chaoming knew that his stupid tricks only made him laugh, and it was of no use at all.
Lin Jianfan looked at him without a smile, Gu Chaoming laughed dryly and then put down his hands, without allowing time for the embarrassment, he put on Lin Jianfan's shoulder and said, "You are crying and hungry, go...!"
The words that stopped abruptly, the warmth of another person was in his arms, and before Gu Chaoming could finish his words, Lin Jianfan gave him a full embrace.
With the sudden hug, Lin Jianfan, regardless of what Gu Chaoming said, followed Gu Chaoming's arm around his shoulder, raised his hand and embraced Gu Chaoming's waist from the front.
A piece of warmth broke into Gu Chaoming's chest, and then his chin rested on Gu Chaoming's neck for comfort.
As they approached quickly, there was a burst of warmth on the cheeks, the large gray coat was thick enough, Lin Jianfan's body was very warm, and the warmth on the cheeks had small burrs, which pierced people even if they couldn't touch them.
Lin Jian Fan Huan hugged him, and with just a slight movement, his ears could touch the other's ears.
The ear bones were soft, and the fragile skin brushed inadvertently, and Lin Jianfan's ears, who took the initiative to embrace, turned red.
The hug came too suddenly, like a sudden heavy rain in a sunny day, making people unprepared, and being thoroughly drenched by the heavy rain, what followed was a high fever that did not subside after the rain.
His ears blushed suddenly, and Gu Chaoming felt that his brain was a little dazed in this cold night, like a computer that had been used for a long time—heating.
Lin Jianfan actually hugged him, he heard his heartbeat, thump, thump, very clear, and very chaotic.
In the bleak autumn night, two pairs of red ears, two beating hearts, and a pair of people who overlap.
Because of the face-to-face hugging posture, the hearts do not fit together, one is on the left and the other is on the right. The two hearts are separated by the physiological vascular tissue and separated by the distance of the autumn wind.
Lin Jianfan was sad because of a reason he didn't know and couldn't guess. Gu Chaoming, who was hugged, tried to raise his hand slowly back to Lin Jianfan's waist, hugged him back, and gave him a sudden Hug in response.
Lin Jianfan was very thin, and his wide coat was like an empty shell. When Gu Chaoming put his hands together, the empty shell slowly shrunk to the smallest along with his arm.
For the first time, Gu Chaoming touched Lin Jianfan's waist. From a simple wrist to his waist, through the heavy clothes in late autumn, Gu Chaoming could not touch the temperature of Lin Jianfan's body.
In the cold night, Lin Jianfan felt the tightening of his waist. He leaned on Gu Chaoming's shoulders. In the black world where the sun was fading, he saw the crowd surging ahead, the neon lights that were constantly flashing and changing, and looked at him. Go to the long snack street, see the balloons that the children accidentally let go of in the crowd, and see the cold wind and the boundless night.
The balloon flew towards the starlit night sky, the nose was so sour as if it had slipped into a vinegar vat, connected to the heart, endless grievances erupted in this warm embrace that I took the initiative to ask for.
The neon lights in front of me blurred into red, yellow, and blue light groups, shining in the night. Feeling the slight trembling of the person in his arms, hearing his nose sniffling, Gu Chaoming's silent silence, perhaps silence is the best comfort and companionship.
A tear fell onto Gu Chaoming's shoulder at the speed of a raindrop. The first tear is a preview of the heavy rain, which falls, followed by a torrential downpour. The raindrops fell on the land on Gu Chaoming's shoulders and penetrated into the soil layer.
Gu Chaoming held Lin Jianfan with his left hand and supported him, and gently stroked his back with his right hand, like smoothing an animal, like coaxing a baby to sleep.
Gu Chaoming patted it, so gently, so carefully, as if he were treating a fragile item.
The hands around his waist became tighter and tighter, and the clothes inside were rubbing against his skin. It was the first time that Gu Chaoming was hugged so tightly, as if he was someone he could trust and rely on, as if he was just comforting him like this. can already protect him.
Why is it so sad? The question that has plagued Gu Chaoming since he shed his first tear. Gu Chaoming believes that he is not a strong person. He has cried many times, and most, or the root cause of all crying, comes from Gu Tao.
Until now, he hadn't grown into an adult, he couldn't be alone, he couldn't protect others by his own strength, he couldn't even protect himself, let alone others.
The dark, bloody rainy night, the dim light in the kitchen, the burning and burnt smell of cigarettes scalding the flesh...
Gu Chaoming's life consists of these, but he is glad that he has Su Bing and Cen Xili by his side, and he also has a mother who loves him, although he knows that a large part of it may be self-imagination and wishful thinking. His mother had always been the object he wanted to protect since he was a child, and he also believed that it was his responsibility, his obligation, but he seemed to have failed to do it once for so many years, and it seemed that he failed to stop the devil once.
War broke out, demons roared, and he was too young to protect those he was supposed to protect.
The danger is approaching, but he is powerless. Gu Chaoming hates being powerless the most, and his resistance to Gu Tao is like a punch into the air, soft and without echo.
Gu Tao was not by his side, he hid in Gu Chaoming's subconscious, Gu Chaoming didn't want to think about him anymore, he followed the crying person in his arms. What is the reason for crying? Gu Chaoming couldn't answer, and the people in his arms were crying loudly from suppressing their voices at first.
Gu Chaoming frowned, Lin Jianfan's choking and trembling were like a small knife, not a stab, but a knife that slashed through his heart, not the pain that pierced his heart and lungs, but the distressed feeling of being pronounced Ling Chi.
The person in his arms trembled from crying, and kept shrinking his snot, as if the cry was vomited from the depths of his throat. The clothes on his shoulders had been moistened. Gu Chaoming kept stroking him, and also hugged him tightly, hoping to give him this. Sufficient response, so that his talk will not fall in vain.
He has tried the taste of failure, from being full of hope to falling into hell, the change in an instant, he does not want to let Lin Jianfan try. Gu Chaoming imagined how uncomfortable he was, trying to make himself feel the same. He patted Lin Jianfan on the back and said to Lin Jianfan in a tone that he was not familiar with, "Just cry."
He's not very good at comforting people, and he learns the comforting clichés.
"When you cry, you will find that there is nothing to make you feel so sad."
Gu Chaoming began to blame himself for why he was so smooth when he attacked Su Bing, and when he comforted people, he couldn't search the web like a computer without a network connection.
Gu Chaoming stumbled and stumbled with comfort, and while he was organizing his words, he finally heard Lin Jianfan's opening while choking and trembling constantly.
"Guo Guo." Lin Jianfan murmured two words in his throat, shrinking his nose.
Gu Chaoming finally heard Lin Jianfan speak, like a traveler trapped in the desert who saw a green leaf and ran towards the location of the green leaf.
"Guoguo? What's wrong with Guoguo?" Gu Chaoming asked.
Lin Jianfan just sobbed.
Gu Chaoming stroked him and then asked, "What's wrong with Guoguo, can you tell me? Huh? I won't tell anyone else."
Gu Chaoming knew that those who cried were the easiest to break down, so he didn't dare to be too eager. The soothing hand on Lin Jianfan's back was slowly raised, and instead he touched his exposed warm neck. His hands were cold, but he hoped to give him warmth.
"I'm here, talk to me."
Maybe it was the coldness that played a calming role, or maybe it was his stumbling words that played a comforting role, Lin Jianfan suddenly calmed down, he put away his crying and stared ahead.
"GuoGuo is dead, dead. You know? Guoguo died, it has been with me since I was a child, and when I went to study, it sent me off at the door of the house. When I came back, it ran out to pick me up first. It would come and lick my face when it was sad, but he died."
Lin Jianfan's words were filled with tears, but also with unimaginable calmness. Gu Chaoming was frightened by the sudden calmness of the person in his arms. Lin Jianfan's emotions were too different before and after.
Not a normal emotional transition, completely two extremes. The emotions were too reversed. When Lin Jianfan was crying bitterly, Gu Chaoming hoped that he would be calm, but looking at Lin Jianfan who was calm now, Gu Chaoming felt that it might be better for him to continue crying.
According to Lin Jianfan's statement, Guoguo should be a dog of his family. Gu Chaoming has never raised small animals and doesn't know much about the relationship between humans and animals, but he guesses that Guoguo is extremely important to Lin Jianfan. Its owner would cry so sadly after its death, if if it didn't die, I don't know what it would have done, would it have circled around the crying Lin Jianfan, or squeezed into his arms and licked his tongue with his tongue Face
"It's alright, everyone will leave. You and I will be the same in a few decades. We will leave sooner or later, so you don't have to be so sad, and Guoguo definitely doesn't want you to be so sad."
After Lin Jianfan heard this, he gave a soft "um".
Gu Chaoming did not continue to comfort him, he just remained silent.
He was waiting until Lin Jianfan really put away his tears and calmed down.
He jokingly said to Lin Jianfan as before: "You made my clothes wet from crying, you have to wash them for me."
"It's not an idol drama, and I'm still doing laundry. Anyway, it's black, so I can't tell." His voice was a little dry after crying. It seemed that he was in a better mood to be able to argue with him like this.
Now that his mood has suddenly improved, Gu Chaoming changed his method and returned to his usual complaining mode: "I found that you can cry more than a crying bag."
Lin Jianfan defended himself: "I didn't!"
"Obviously there is, and you don't feel ashamed crying on the street now? There are so many people watching, I knew it would be recorded with a mobile phone."
"You dare!" Lin Jianfan was so confident after crying, he dared to argue with him.
"Guess if I dare?" Gu Chaoming asked with a grin.
Threatened by Gu Chaoming, Lin Jianfan stopped speaking and knocked his chin on his shoulder in a fit of anger.
Gu Chaoming could not laugh or cry because of this child's temper.
Seeing that Lin Jianfan was back to normal, Gu Chaoming breathed a sigh of relief, quietly tilted his head, put his head close to Lin Jianfan's ear, felt the shallow temperature in his ear, and laughed where he couldn't see it.
"Thank you." The close ear suddenly heard Lin Jianfan's voice, which was amplified infinitely, clean and clear, flowing downstream, and flowing into Gu Chaoming's heart, forming a pool of clear pools.
His ears were sensitive, and when he received the thin breath from Lin Jianfan's nose, it was itchy, as if a feather was scratching, causing Gu Chaoming's icy hand resting on his neck to go up and stroke Lin Jianfan's fluffy hair.
Fingers run through the hair, a touch of anticipation. Gu Chaoming touched Lin Jianfan's head and did not speak. Lin Jianfan also learned to be silent. The two were speechless for a while, only the touch of hair remained.
Gu Chaoming felt enough and asked him: "Xinjin crying bag, enough crying?"
Lin Jianfan also stubbornly retorted: "I'm not."
Lin Jianfan said, in order to prove that he was different from the crying bag, he let go of Gu Chaoming.
Gu Chaoming looked at his still red eyes, and continued to tease him: "Who are you?"
Lin Jianfan suddenly raised the corners of his mouth, smiling brightly, a smile that can light up the night.
The sudden cry and the sudden smile, Gu Chaoming pierced him: "Crying and laughing, it's not that a smile can cover up the fact that you just cried."
Gu Chaoming took out a tissue, carefully wiped it a few times on Lin Jianfan's still red eyes, and wiped away the tears left behind. He didn't know whether he was distressed or ridiculed: "Your eyes are swollen from crying, no matter how much you cry. It's so beautiful to cry, how can we live?"
Gu Chaoming wiped his tears and handed him the tissue. Taking over the wrinkled tissue, Lin Jianfan whispered, "I don't look good."
"Hey, don't be humble."
"I do not have."
"Then you are beautiful without knowing it."
Lin Jianfan was speechless.
Gu Chaoming took a step closer and took his hand: "Let's go, beautiful little beauty without knowing it, my brother will take you to eat."
Gu Chaoming still wanted to go forward, but Lin Jianfan behind him threw away his hand. Gu Chaoming turned around and saw Lin Jianfan's reluctance in the dark night.
Thinking that Lin Jianfan didn't like his touch, Gu Chaoming raised his hands in a gesture of surrender, pursed his lips, tilted his head and smiled: "No hold, no hold."
Then he used his funny and poisonous nature, smiled and stepped aside, like a welcome lady: "You go first, you go first."
Lin Jianfan still didn't leave, he looked at Gu Chaoming and asked, "Did what you said in the morning count?"
"What in the morning?" Gu Chaoming wondered.
What did he say this morning? Recalling every word he had said in the morning, and picking up on the joke he had just made with Lin Jianfan, Gu Chaoming thought of the agreement he said in the morning, "If the other party gets angry with the joke, he can't forget it".
it is this? Gu Chaoming asked him, Lin Jianfan nodded.
"Ah? So you got angry just now?" Gu Chaoming really couldn't tell, this anger was born of air, Gu Chaoming didn't notice it at all.
Being angry can be so silent, and thinking about it is something Lin Jianfan can do.
"Are you still angry now?" Gu Chaoming asked.
Lin Jianfan shook his head. Gu Chaoming really felt that it was funny and confusing, and Lin Jianfan nodded and shook his head in front of him, there was a hint of cuteness.
"I'm not angry anymore, let's go eat." Gu Chaoming said.
Since Lin saw that Fan wouldn't let him lead him, Gu Chaoming respected him very much and then turned around and walked forward.
He didn't look back, Lin Jianfan stretched out half of his hand and put it down.
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