The night market is noisy and the smell is cluttered. Today is Saturday. The more people walk forward, the more people walk. Although it is not a point of rubbing shoulders, it is not possible to pass all the way, stop and go, stumbling and stumbling.
The noise floated in his ears, and when he passed a snack shop that seemed to be delicious, Gu Chaoming asked him, "Do you want to eat this?"
Lin Jianfan nodded, and Gu Chaoming said to the boss, "Two copies."
The first copy handed over was passed to Lin Jianfan through Gu Chaoming's hand. Gu Chaoming then remembered that he forgot to tell Su Bing that they had left the soup shop, so don't go to the soup shop alone. Li Ben.
Waiting for his snack, Gu Chaoming took out his mobile phone and typed a message to Su Bing.
Halfway through typing, Lin Jianfan heard a bell from his pocket.
Gu Chaoming was typing, and was attracted by the ringtone. He turned his head and accidentally glanced at the screen of the mobile phone taken out of Lin Jianfan's pocket.
"Young man, yours." The boss handed the wrapped snack to Gu Chaoming, Gu Chaoming took it over and paid for it, while Lin Jianfan was on the side and called "um" and "immediately".
He opened the bag and took a bite. When Lin saw Fan hanging up, Gu Chaoming asked, "Did your mother call you?"
Lin Jianfan nodded.
"Oh." Gu Chaoming replied thoughtfully, nodded slightly, and swallowed the food in his mouth. No matter how late he stayed outside, no one would call to care, but Lin Jianfan was different.
"Then go back early." Gu Chaoming said.
"It's okay, I'll accompany you to wait for Su Bing."
Gu Chaoming smiled: "I'm a big man who wants someone to accompany me? Go back."
Saying that the two had reached the end of the snack street, Gu Chaoming wanted to ask him what he wanted to eat, would he like to buy some to take back
Before he could say anything, a taxi stopped not far away, and someone got off. Gu Chaoming asked Lin Jianfan, "You go back by car? If you take the car, I will stop you."
After hesitation, Lin Jianfan nodded.
Gu Chaoming waved to the taxi and put Lin Jianfan inside. The taxi started, Gu Chaoming stood there and watched the taxi take Lin Jianfan away.
After seeing Lin Jianfan away, Gu Chaoming found a sheltered step and sat down, took out his mobile phone and called Su Bing, who had not come yet.
As soon as Su Bing answered the phone, Gu Chaoming immediately asked, "Why haven't you come yet? Lin saw that Fan has left."
"Without Xiao Fanfan, Gu Shuai, are you lonely?"
Gu Chaoming scolded him: "Fuck you, you are lonely."
"I have my girlfriend, so I'm not lonely."
Gu Chaoming wanted to tell him to come over quickly, but when he heard that this kid Su Bing has a girlfriend
"When did it happen?" Gu Chaoming asked.
"Just now, a girl confessed to me, and I agreed."
"It seems that your reputation as a scumbag hasn't spread far enough, and someone still confesses to you." Gu Chaoming said.
Su Bing refused to accept the title of scumbag: "I'm not scumbag at all. And I'm here, in the soup shop you posted, where are you?"
Gu Chaoming stood up and patted the dust on his trousers: "Stand there and don't move, Dad will come to find you."
Hanging up the phone, a gust of cold wind passed through the clothes, bringing layers of coldness, and the temperature cooled down as Cen Xili said at night.
This is really going to be winter, Gu Chaoming thought.
On the shoulders, Lin Jianfan's tears were still wet, but Gu Chaoming put the phone in his pocket and reached out to touch the wet.
The scene of Lin Jianfan crying came to mind again, he hugged him, the neon lights flashed, passers-by hurried past, the moonlight was thin and the cold wind was rampant tonight, and he hugged Lin Jianfan for the first time.
Although Gu Chaoming has never raised cats or dogs, he has also watched news and TV shows, and sometimes he can see people who are sad and depressed because of the death of a pet he has been with for a long time. Gu Chaoming can understand. When he went back through the snack street to find Su Bing, he would look more than usual when he saw someone holding a puppy on the road.
Gu Chaoming wondered what Lin Jianfan's Guoguo looked like as he walked, and his pace quickened. After a while, he saw Su Bing standing next to a few stone piers not far from the soup shop, looking this way.
"You're pretty fast, I thought I would have to wait a little longer." Su Bing took out the key in his pocket and threw it to Gu Chaoming, who caught it: "Thank you."
"What do you want to thank me for? If you want to thank me, take me to dinner quickly." Su Bing said.
Gu Chaoming made an ok gesture and took Su Bing to dinner. After dinner, he accompanied Su Bing to the supermarket to buy a bunch of snacks. He didn't take a taxi home until ten or eleven o'clock.
In the car, Gu Chaoming held a large bag of snacks on his lap, and said to Su Bing who was playing with his mobile phone: "There's still a lot in the refrigerator. You've bought so much, so you can finish it."
Su Bing didn't take his eyes off the screen of his mobile phone, and replied as he typed, "Just in case."
After speaking, he turned his head and asked Gu Chaoming seriously: "You really don't plan to move out again? I think the house we looked at last time is pretty good, and the rent is not expensive."
Su Bing still wanted to persuade Gu Chaoming. Who is Gu Tao? After only a few dealings, Su Bing felt that he was an unreasonable person.
Gu Chaoming is like a sheep in a tiger's den in that kind of family. Maybe one day when Gu Tao goes crazy, Gu Chaoming comes to school injured again the next day.
"I thought you would resist moving out." Su Bing said.
"I think so too, but it's not that easy. Now that I'm still in school, he wants to come to me, just block me at school, I can't help it."
After saying three words, Gu Chaoming clearly understood in his heart that his life was tightly shackled by the words Gu Tao.
He looked out the window, there were no pedestrians on the street, only one street lamp retreated.
The night was quiet, the driver was less chatty and wanted to talk to them, and the voice of the radio anchor filled the car. Gu Chaoming leaned against the back of the chair and tilted his head, and continued: "With the money I have, I can support myself now. I can't say for sure in the future. There are thousands of places where money will be used."
"Where's your mother? You're his own son, so he won't leave you alone." Su Bing asked.
Gu Chaoming moved his fingers, and the plastic bag in his hand rattled. He had thought about following his mother before, but her mother already had her new life, and Gu Chaoming didn't want to disturb him.
Gu Chaoming replied to Su Bing: "I'm going to see her tomorrow, and she will give me living expenses tomorrow."
"Okay, then when are you going to carry your luggage? I can only live in the old house for one day. You keep the keys yourself. Don't lose them. The last one has no backup." Su Bing said.
Gu Chaoming yawned and nodded while holding a pile of snacks.
"Tired?" Su Bing asked.
"Who is like you, who is alive and kicking all day, and can toss in the middle of the night."
Su Bing was not convinced: "I am also a person who has been fighting with homework all morning. Is it okay?"
"How do you feel? Is it useful?" Gu Chaoming asked.
"The teacher is fine."
"How many points are you going to take this time?"
"It's about the same as you."
"So low?"
"Gu Shuai, you are humbled. I think your grades are okay, and you are working so hard. Two of our auspicious three treasures are studying so hard. I have to keep up."
"You got a new tube of chicken blood today? You have to study hard after you figured it out?" Gu Chaoming asked.
Su Bing, who didn't want to study for a hundred years, actually nodded.
"Gu Shuai." Su Bing called him.
Gu Chaoming turned his head: "Huh?"
"Have you thought about which university to go to?"
"Why do you ask this all of a sudden?"
"My new tutor asked me today, and he saw that I didn't want to study at all, so he chatted with me a lot."
"And then brainwashing you?"
"... Anyway, that's it, have you ever thought about it? The three of us can go to the same university in the future."
Su Bing's words evoked Gu Chaoming's memory, the night of studying hard to please Qu Yingyi's new man, and the night of searching for college online for the first time.
Gu Chaoming shook his head: "No."
Su Bing sat closer and persuaded him: "You are still a high school student, you can't leave school, there is a fixed location where your father can find you, but if you go to university, it will be different, you can leave this school. City, as long as you don’t tell your dad the school you applied to, you will be free when you leave with your suitcase. Your dad doesn’t know where to find you if he wants to. At that time, the three of us will go to the same university and choose the same one. Major, let's see if we can be divided into one class, a dormitory is better, then the three of us don't have to be separated. Four years, there is still a long way to go in the future, and now you are bound by your father, in another year or two, After you finish the college entrance examination, you can take off as soon as the cage is opened."
Su Bing no longer thought about how to persuade Gu Chaoming to escape from Gu Tao's clutches. They are still immature fruits and cannot be separated from the trunk, so they have to wait until the day when they are capable.
Gu Chaoming didn't answer Su Bing, and looked out the window again. He suddenly wanted to see the snow, even though winter had not officially come yet.
When it snows, it's white and everything is clean.
Leave the city, leave Gu Tao, stay with Cen Xili and Su Bing who can make him happy, have a free life, don't have to worry about being beaten, don't have to worry about Gu Tao every day, all the conditions are so attractive , attracted him.
It seemed to be a beautiful life across the clouds, which he couldn't touch. What Su Bing said was wonderful, almost like Plato in his life, but Gu Chaoming also thought of many exceptions when he was looking forward to that wonderful world.
If he didn't get admitted, if Gu Tao knew his school from other people's mouths, it would be extremely simple, where should he go home for the New Year during the university holiday...
All kinds of problems, a small mistake can repeat the same mistakes.
The world depicted by Su Bing is so beautiful that even though Gu Chaoming can list all kinds of accidents, he can't help but look forward to it, hoping that there will be such a day.
Others hope that high school will end early because of fatigue from study, while Gu Chaoming hopes to leave the city and Gu Tao as soon as possible.
He planted a seed of hope on the night of the handover of autumn and winter, hoping to reap a lot of fruits in the summer of the third year of high school.
When the car stopped, Gu Chaoming opened the door and got out of the car with a plastic bag of snacks.
Su Bing closed the car door and was hugged by the cold wind: "It's so cold, winter is coming."
The car started and drove away slowly. Su Bing pulled on his coat to resist the cold. He wanted to enter the house earlier, but Gu Chaoming behind him stopped him.
"Mother Su."
Su Bing turned around and saw that Gu Chaoming was still standing where he had just gotten off the bus, and there was a taxi's distance between them.
In the cold night and the strong wind, Gu Chaoming's forehead hair fluttered wildly, and the scar on his forehead only left a very shallow, invisible layer.
Wearing a black jacket with Lin Jianfan's tears on his shoulders, Gu Chaoming carried a bag full of snacks in the supermarket, and said to Su Bing in the dark night, "Mom, let's go to the same school as Xi Likao."
The wind was freezing cold, piercing the skin, and the young man's words were hot and scorching hot.
Su Bing looked at him and smiled clearly.
Young people are congenial, needless to say.
Su Bing put his hands in his pockets to keep out the cold, smiled and nodded and said, "Okay."
Su Bing strode up to Gu Chaoming's side, raised his hand and put it on Gu Chaoming's shoulder: "Brother, Xili's family is also in the top 30 of the grade. It will be difficult to enter a school with him."
Gu Chaoming also smiled: "You finally realized that the gap is big?"
Su Bing took him to the house: "So we can't hold back Xili when we are scumbags. Come in, it's freezing outside."
After entering the house, Gu Chaoming sorted out the things he bought and put them in the refrigerator. Only then did he realize that Su Bing had bought some strange little girl's things. They were pink and pink on the table. Practical use, specially used for gifts.
Su Bing is taking a shower in the bathroom, don't think that something from such a little girl must be given to his new girlfriend.
After finishing things, Gu Chaoming turned on the TV and watched it for a while. Su Bing came out of the steaming bathroom, wiped his hair with a towel on his head, and said to Gu Chaoming, "I'm done, you go to wash. Bar."
Gu Chaoming stuck his head out from the sofa, pointed at the pink gift on the table and asked Su Bing, "You bought it for your new girlfriend?"
Su Bing walked to the table, hung the bath towel on his head around his neck, and the ends of his hair were dripping with water. He picked up what Gu Chaoming pointed on the table and shook it: "You said this?"
Gu Chaoming nodded.
"This is for Fang Niya. She won the competition without going out this time. She told me, and I just wanted to send something to congratulate her."
Su Bing took the gift box and looked left and right, and explained to Gu Chaoming while reading the manual: "Fang Niya likes this kind of pink stuff."
"Your new girlfriend's name is Fang Niya?" Gu Chaoming asked.
Su Bing turned his head to look at Gu Chaoming strangely: "Why do you always mention my new girlfriend? Who said Fang Niya was my girlfriend?"
"Didn't you say that you made a new girlfriend today, so why don't you give her away?"
"What she hates most is pink, and she likes outdoor sports. She is good at mountain climbing and rock climbing." Su Bing said.
Gu Chaoming couldn't help but ask, "Are you sure you can beat her in the future?"
Su Bing thought for a while: "It should be possible..."
Su Bing's words became more and more unconvincing. Although the girl was short and small, she seemed to have a lot of strength listening to the sports she liked.
Su Bing regretted a little: "Do you think it's too late for me to exercise now?"
"It will be faster for you to dream now." Gu Chaoming said solemnly.
"Go and take your bath, she's not that violent and won't do anything to me."
Gu Chaoming saw Su Bing's sweet expression, "Huh", sat up, leaned back on the sofa, folded his hands behind his head, and asked Su Bing, "Since it's not your girlfriend, who is Fang Niya?"
Su Bing took the pink gift and looked at Gu Chaoming: "People still remember you, but you don't remember them."
Gu Chaoming said, "Ah?" With doubts creeping up his face, he searched for the words "Fang Niya" in his head. After searching and searching, he couldn't find any fragments of the name Fang Niya.
Seeing Gu Chaoming's confused face, Su Bing kindly reminded him, "She is a first-year high school student, she is a pretty girl."
No matter how Gu Chaoming searched, he still couldn't remember it.
Gu Chaoming: "...Are you sure I've seen her? Do you have a photo? Show it to me, maybe you can remember it."
Su Bing was helpless, put down the gift in his hand, dragged his slippers to go to Gu Chaoming and sat down, picked up his mobile phone on the table, opened the photo album and complained about Gu Chaoming: "Gu Shuai, you are the memory of the fish!"
Gu Chaoming leaned over to Su Bing's side, looked at Su Bing's mobile phone, and rows of photos slid with Su Bing's fingers.
I don't know if I don't see it, I was startled when I saw it.
"Damn it, you took so many ugly photos of us, and you didn't tell me, you were hiding it as black material."
Su Bing endured a laugh. Most of the places where his fingers crossed were snaps and candid shots, including Gu Chaoming and Cen Xili. Even if there were good ones captured, they would be invisible in so many black photos.
"Delete it for me!" Gu Chaoming threatened Su Bing.
"Don't think I don't know you have it in your phone, more than me." Su Bing shot back.
Gu Chaoming turned off the fire. Indeed, there were a lot of black photos in his mobile phone. Some of them were shown to Su Bing so that Su Bing could strangle him on the spot.
Su Bing scratched for a while, Gu Chaoming was a little impatient when he saw that he hadn't found it yet: "Why do you have so many photos... Hey, wait."
Among the piles of photos, one hurriedly caught Gu Chaoming's attention.
Su Bing released his hand and said, "I haven't found it yet, what did you see?"
Gu Chaoming swiped up on the screen and found a photo that caught his attention. When he saw the photo, he couldn't help but sigh: "This person is good-looking, no matter how you take it."
The photo is an ordinary to unremarkable photo, the composition is also messy, and there are many redundant people and scenery next to it.
The photo was taken on a sunny playground with good lighting, and the white shirt on him could tell at a glance that it was during a sports meeting.
In the photo, Lin Jianfan was carrying a box of mineral water in his hand, the camera was shaking around his neck, and his hair was soaked with sweat.
"Is this the day of the opening ceremony of the Games? Still wearing that shirt." Gu Chaoming said.
"It should be, anyway, it was the few days of the sports meeting. I forgot whether you and Xili went to the toilet or what. I was there by myself waiting for the two of you. I had nothing to do, and then I saw Lin Lin. When I saw Fan, he was carrying a box of water. I wondered at the time that he only needed to take pictures, why did he go to carry the water again, and then I thought that it might have been thrown to him by someone else.”
Su Bing continued to look for Fang Niya's photos. Gu Chaoming retracted his gaze and sat on the sofa with his head on the back of the sofa, his eyes looking at the roof.
A huge crystal chandelier hangs from the roof, and the light repeatedly reflects golden light.
Gu Chaoming was fascinated by the sight. It was dark outside the window, and the interior of the house was as bright as day. It was cold outside and warm like spring inside. Gu Chaoming looked at the golden chandelier on the roof, looking directly at the light would be very dazzling, leaving black shadows in his eyes.
Su Bing swiped his phone to find Fang Niya's photo. The colorful photos flashed across his eyes. He heard a quiet Gu Chaoming ask, "What do you think about Lin Jianfan?"
Su Bing turned his head questioningly: "Why do you ask this all of a sudden?"
Gu Chaoming also turned his head, his eyes met Su Bing's.
"I'll just ask."
"Just ask?"
Gu Chaoming nodded.
After hesitating for a while, Su Bing said, "I think he's nice and handsome. He just likes to please others and is easy to be bullied. But now he's better, and I've heard him refuse for the first time ever."
"Then what do you think our relationship is with him?" Gu Chaoming asked after Su Bing's words.
"Classmates? Are you friends?" Su Bing said.
"It's a friend." Gu Chaoming repeated with a bit of disappointment.
"What? You don't have enough friends, and you still want to develop further? You figured it out?" Su Bing came over with a gossip face, and sure enough, he was right to wait until so late to see Gu Chaoming on purpose tonight.
"Where did you want to go?" Gu Chaoming pushed Su Bing away and continued to look at the chandelier on the roof.
"Do you think he will think we are his friends?" Gu Chaoming asked again, looking at the dazzling chandelier.
"What tongue twister did you say?" Su Bing asked, "Why do you have so many strange questions today? Did Lin Jianfan tell you anything when I wasn't here?"
Gu Chaoming shook his head: "Don't ask so much, just say whether he thinks it is."
Su Bing felt strange, something must have happened when he didn't come. After thinking for a while, Su Bing replied, "Lin Jianfan should treat us as friends, I think."
After speaking, Su Bing asked him, "Do you think he doesn't consider you a good friend?"
Gu Chaoming also thought for a while, looked at the chandelier and hummed softly.
Su Bing couldn't find the photo anymore, so he asked Gu Chaoming, "Why do you think so?"
Gu Chaoming leaned against the sofa, his eyes fixed on one point, as if he was in a daze but not in a daze: "I think I regard him as a friend, but he doesn't regard me as a friend."
After hearing this sentence, Su Bing probably understood what Gu Chaoming meant by asking this question. The "we" after the "we" just now was just incidental. The problem was Gu Chaoming's feeling. What he actually wanted to ask was "Lin" See if Fan treats him as a friend", not "Lin sees if Fan treats us as a friend".
Based on his understanding of Gu Chaoming, Su Bing guessed that the reason why Gu Chaoming asked the strange question was because he had already divided Lin Jianfan into his own circle, and his division had not received a response from Lin Jianfan.
Su Bing asked Gu Chaoming: "Why do you think so?"
"That's what I think." Gu Chaoming said.
"What do you think?" Su Bing cast aside his usual funny look and asked, "What did he do to make you feel so?"
Gu Chaoming thought that Lin Jianfan didn't do anything, so he shook his head.
"I just think, in his eyes, we are the same as those in our class, and there is no difference. Well... It's not that our classmates are not good, how should I put it..." Gu Chaoming's heart was complicated, he wanted to describe himself clearly This strange and unpleasant feeling in his heart haunted him all night.
Gu Chaoming retracted his gaze from the chandelier, sat up, and said to Su Bing in a formal tone, "I don't know if I can understand what I say, and whether you can understand it. He is friends with many people in the class. On the surface, he will try to please them, such as running errands, sweeping duty, and topping the bag, but I think he definitely doesn't take those people as real good friends, just superficial friends. He told me that he wasn't trying to please others, he didn't know how to refuse, I said it's fine, we are all friends, you can't refuse others, you don't have to be so restrictive to us, just talk straight, but he's still like this, today I asked him to eat, and he said he was not full after eating, and he was afraid that I would run over in anger. I think he is just as good as the person who made him run errands. "
Gu Chaoming omitted Lin Jianfan's cries that stopped abruptly in his arms. The abrupt cries made Gu Chaoming feel that it was impossible for him to walk with Lin Jianfan as close as Su Bing and Cen Xili.
After listening to Gu Chaoming's words, Su Bing looked at him: "Gu Shuai, I think you think too much. Lin Jianfan won't refuse people, and I don't think he will let him run errands. As a friend, I think he treats you more as a friend. You say that he treats you the same as his classmates, which makes you uncomfortable, right?"
Gu Chaoming turned his head to look at Su Bing, Su Bing continued: "Don't always think according to your fixed thinking, think about it the other way around, maybe Lin Jianfan really regards you as a good friend, that's why he Your invitation has been eaten and you still don’t want to refuse you. You want to eat with you. This is also a reason. You don’t have to think that he is trying to please you. And you say that he is afraid that you will come over in anger, which means that he I still value you as a friend. You can focus on Lin Jianfan's desire to be with you and to value you, not the premise that he wants to please our classmates, which is also an answer. "
Gu Chaoming lowered his eyes after listening, because Lin Jianfan's impression of pleasing people was too deep, so he had never thought like Su Bing, he always had only one way, he wanted Lin Jianfan to learn to refuse, not Lin Jian Fan will please use it on himself.
"You ask this kind of question, it shows that you also regard him as a good friend, and you really care about his attitude towards you, or that his attitude towards you is not what you want or think, so There will be some imbalance in the mind, and you are thinking how he treats you? As long as you don’t lie to you? Don’t please? Or something else? It's just in your own heart that you want yourself to be special to him and not the same to others. And once you start to think that way, he is also special to you, because you want yourself to be special in his heart .do you understand?"
special
Gu Chaoming repeated in his heart.
Unconsciously, have you expected yourself to be special to Lin Jianfan? Gu Chaoming seemed to understand.
Su Bing went on to say: "From my point of view, just from my point of view, I think Lin Jianfan actually cares about you. Among the three of us, his best friend is you. I heard others say that he just came here. When we met Wu Shan and him, he said bad things about us, but Lin Jianfan didn't believe it. Although I sat close to him, the intersection between me and him was on the plane, and the intersection between you and him was from top to bottom. Not at the shallow end like we are."
Su Bing continued to use gestures and strokes as he spoke, afraid that he would not understand: "I think he cares about you as much as you care about him. I don't have any specific reasons for thinking this way. It just feels like this, the sixth sense. You said that you would give him to me at the beginning of school. I think you are more suitable. If the two of you are together, I will not be surprised at all. But since you said that you are still friends, then you are friends. "
Gu Chaoming didn't tell Su Bingtang what happened in the store, and he comforted Lin Jianfan. This is the deep communication Su Bing said.
He also cares about you, he just wants to eat with you, he will say his thoughts to you, cry in your arms, he believes in you, and you think you are special to him.
All kinds of thoughts are like a flood to clear the boulders blocking the road, a sharp sword to split the layers of dark clouds, the depression that has been pressing in my heart for a night is resolved, the fog is cleared, and the world is clear.
Gu Chaoming was understood by Su Bing in a long paragraph. Su Bing looked at the dazzling light in Gu Chaoming's originally dull eyes, and Su Bing knew that what he said was not in vain.
Gu Chaoming unconsciously raised the corners of his mouth slightly, and the sullenness of the night suddenly disappeared, like unloading a burden that had been carried for a long time.
Gu Chaoming figured it out and was no longer troubled by the problems he had imagined. He stood up from the sofa briskly, took the prepared clothes, and trotted to the bathroom to take a shower.
Su Bing grinned and shouted to Gu Chaoming who had left: "I just said nonsense, and Fang Niya's photo, do you still see it?"
Gu Chaoming had already walked into the bathroom, and his voice was muffled through the bathroom wall into the living room: "You can watch me when you find me."
Then there was the sound of water in the bathroom, Su Bing smiled, raised his legs, took a pillow to cushion it, and lay leisurely on the sofa to continue looking for photos.
In the end, Gu Chaoming didn't see the photo of Fang Niya that Su Bing said.