The cold wind is howling, and it is not yet night, but just after lunch, the sky outside the window has quickly turned gloomy.
If it is summer, I am afraid that there will be a storm, but in winter, the weather is not surprising. The weather was gloomy outside the window. Gu Chaoming stood in front of the open wardrobe, leaning on the door with both hands, thinking about which coat to wear to see Lin Jianfan today.
Outside the amusement park, Qu Yingyi told him to pay attention to the clothes that were checked and not signed by Gu Tao. Gu Chaoming had already obtained them and hung them in the closet and hadn't worn them much this year.
The clothes in the closet were not complicated and were neatly arranged. Gu Chaoming stared at the few cotton-padded clothes hanging in the closet and considered for a long time, then picked up the cotton-padded coat that his mother bought for him, which he hadn't worn much on the far side.
After wearing it, go to the toilet to change to a new vanity mirror and look at yourself in the mirror to see if it fits.
The clothes Qu Yingyi bought fit well, neither big nor small. When told by the courier that there were so many packages, Gu Chaoming was really surprised. After signing for it, take it home and hang it in the closet one by one carefully, call to tell Qu Yingyi that the clothes have been received, and tell her not to buy so many clothes, he still has enough to wear.
The style of the cotton coat is simple, with an embroidered pattern on the chest. The position of the embroidery is slightly different from the position of the school badge. Gu Chaoming stood in front of the mirror and stroked the embroidered logo with his palm.
Below the logo is a beating heart.
"You hit Lin Jianfan's heart."
Gu Chaoming looked at himself in the mirror, the touch of the logo made of silk threads on his fingers made Gu Chaoming smirk at the mirror.
It's kind of like a date.
The warm sun in winter, the almost clear feelings, the smile on the corner of the boy's mouth, are all bright.
Xu Shidongfeng was also infected by Gu Chaoming's smile, and the dark sky became surprisingly bright.
After changing his clothes, it was cold, and Gu Chaoming was going to wear a scarf to go out.
The scarf was in the living room, and Gu Chaoming tidied up his clothes and sneaked a glance outside the door of the toilet, which was not closed tightly.
Gu Tao was watching his favorite skits in the living room with a loud voice, and the funny jokes from the TV came in through the crack of the door.
The sketch was funny, but Gu Chaoming didn't have the slightest idea to listen to it. He packed up and sent a message to Lin Jianfan that he was going out early.
After sending the message, he put the phone into the pocket of the padded jacket, Gu Chaoming pulled the collar of the padded jacket, and pushed open the toilet door that was not closed.
In the midst of such noisy sketches and laughter, Gu Tao could still clearly hear the slight sound of Gu Chaoming pushing the door open. He sat on the sofa and turned his head to see Gu Chaoming pick up the scarf hanging in the living room and put it on.
Gu Tao looked at him wearing a scarf and asked, "Are you going out?"
"Yeah." Gu Chaoming put on a scarf and responded indifferently before opening the door.
Closing the door and welcoming the cold wind, the process of going out was unexpectedly easy for Gu Chaoming.
Gu Tao was able to go out so smoothly at home, Gu Chaoming felt like he was in a dream.
in a beautiful dream.
In ordinary dreams, only Gu Tao's figure with claws and claws, the butcher's knife he dropped, and the siren that lit up later.
The day after the fight with Yu Hangwei, Gu Chaoming had a dream.
A dream like a dream.
In the dream, the flowers are fragrant and fragrant, yellow, white, blue, red, purple... competing with each other, and all swaying in the gentle wind.
There was a path out of the swaying flowers. Lin Jianfan stood at the end of the path and walked towards him slowly, and said in his ear, "You are not the same person as Gu Tao."
The end of the road is sunny, the breeze is just right, and the spring flowers are in full bloom.
He came from the light source, covered in a radiant glow.
With him, the dream will be bright.
There is a strong Christmas atmosphere on the street, and there are young couples holding hands and shopping everywhere. Every couple's faces are filled with sweet smiles of you and me. Gu Chaoming was very special when he walked alone on the street. Fortunately, there were not so many people on the street in the afternoon.
Decorative Christmas snowmen and Christmas trees are displayed in most shop windows. Merry Christmas English glass stickers were posted on the window, and a decorated Christmas tree stood in the central square with small electric lights.
It should be bright at night, Gu Chaoming thought as he walked under the Christmas tree.
He took a picture of the Christmas tree and sent it to Lin Jianfan, telling him that he was waiting for him under the tree. Lin Jianfan replied, "I'll be there soon."
Lin Jianfan is a person who can't lie. He said that he will be there soon, and within three minutes, Gu Chaoming saw Lin Jianfan trotting in the crowd exuding the unique sweet smell of Christmas.
"This." Lin Jianfan, who was running from Gu Chaoming, waved his hand, and the same white breath that Lin Jianfan exhaled from the tip of his nose when he ran.
The weather is too cold, and one mouth is the proof of winter.
Lin Jianfan saw Gu Chaoming who was not far away waving at him, and he waved to him excitedly, speeding up and running to Gu Chaoming.
"What are you running for? Do you want to see me soon?" Gu Chaoming raised his hand to straighten Lin Jianfan's hair that was a little messy from running.
Asking this question, it seems that the person who ran to Lin Jianfan's side because he wanted to see Lin Jianfan earlier was not him.
"Well," Gu Chaoming was still fiddling with the messy hair on Lin Jianfan's head, Lin Jianfan nodded, "I want to see you soon."
With a nod and an affirmative sentence, Gu Chaoming's hand was hanging in the air while helping Lin Jianfan to straighten his hair that had been ruffled by the wind.
It was because of the sweet smell of Christmas, my heart slipped away and my arms stiffened for a moment.
The white breath exhaled from the mouth is the best proof of winter, and the stiff arms and the beating of the heart are the best proof of liking someone.
Gu Chaoming smiled.
Lin Jianfan's serious and nodding "I want to see you soon" is the best proof that he also likes himself.
I want to see you soon, I am very happy to be with you.
Me too, Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan, Christmas is really a heart-pounding holiday.
The hand hanging in the air fell, covering the top of Lin Jianfan's head, and the falling palm rubbed the hair that had just been arranged for Lin Jianfan.
Gu Chaoming smiled: "Me too, so I went out early."
Two twenty-eight.
The time they met under the Christmas tree.
three o'clock.
They agreed on a time to go out.
The Christmas tree in the central square was not lit, but the eyes they looked at each other lit up.
From the moment Lin Jianfan appeared in the crowd exuding sweetness, Gu Chaoming noticed that Lin Jianfan was wearing a black padded jacket that he had never seen, with a black hood on the back.
black.
The same color as your own cotton clothes.
There is a bit of a resemblance.
Gu Chaoming exhaled white air from the tip of his nose and took off the scarf around his neck.
The scarf is a warm thing in winter, and it wraps around Lin Jianfan's neck warmly with the temperature of Gu Chaoming's body.
The fingertips slid across the back of Lin Jianfan's neck as he adjusted the scarf, and he had touched it many times, but this small inadvertent touch still caused the two skins to burn together and the two hearts to beat together.
Gu Chaoming touched the soft scarf with his fingers and said softly, "I'm hot, I'll put it on for you when you're cold."
Under the tall Christmas tree on the side of the road, Lin Jianfan saw the temperature of the scarf on his neck, the white breath he exhaled, the air around him was icy cold, the sound of traffic on the road and the sound of propaganda on the street were in his ears, and in front of him was what he wanted to do. Gu Chaoming, who I saw earlier.
"Why don't you wear more clothes to go out, it's cold today, don't you read the weather forecast?" Gu Chaoming softly "challenged" Lin Jianfan and took Lin Jianfan's hand.
Lin Jianfan wanted to retreat, but Gu Chaoming grabbed his retracted fingers. Gu Chaoming lowered his head to check Lin Jianfan's long fingers to check for signs of frostbite.
Lin Jianfan's fingers didn't seem to have any signs of frostbite regeneration, but Lin Jianfan's fingers were still cold.
Gu Chaoming held Lin Jianfan's cold hand and rubbed it in his palm to keep him warm. Although this little action has yet to gain a real formal name, Gu Chaoming's heart has been warmed by Lin Jianfan's cold fingers.
After releasing Lin Jianfan's hand, Gu Chaoming took out the prepared gloves from his pocket and handed them to Lin Jianfan: "Put them on, don't get frostbite."
Lin Jianfan raised his eyes to look at Gu Chaoming, who handed out the gloves but didn't wear them.
Noticing Lin Jianfan's gaze, Gu Chaoming explained, "I don't suffer from frostbite, and I'm not afraid of cold."
Before Lin Jianfan took the glove, Gu Chaoming "impatiently" shoved a glove into Lin Jianfan's hand, raised Lin Jianfan's other hand and put it on him forcefully.
"Put it on for me, don't get frostbite."
"Thank you." Lin Jianfan said.
Gu Chaoming regained his strength with his gloves: "Thank you, thank you, this is given to you by your eldest brother, you just keep it, you have frostbite, and the eldest brother also feels distressed when he sees it."
"Got it, big brother." Lin Jianfan looked down at Gu Chaoming and put another glove on for himself. He buried his head lower and laughed secretly.
"What's your name, big brother? Call me... Forget it."
Chaoming.
The word Chaoming reached his mouth and was swallowed again.
Ever since he found out that Lin Jianfan still called himself by his full name, Gu Chaoming tried to persuade him that it was fine, but he still had a knot in his heart.
Hope to hear Lin see Fan calling him.
Chaoming.
"Then I'll call you Doraemon." Lin Jianfan smiled.
"Doraemon?"
"Didn't you wear Doraemon's doll costume to hand out flyers?"
Recalling that night, the extreme heat that was the complete opposite of the current severe cold, those slender fingers first entered his eyes.
"That seems to be the first time I see you."
Gu Chaoming tried his best to avoid Gu Tao that night, and only recalled his first encounter with Lin Jianfan.
"That's right," Lin Jianfan said, "Doraemon also has any door and an all-purpose pocket, which can make Nobita happy. Like you, it can make me happy."
"Then you are Nobita, the No. 1 Nobita in the grade, hahaha..."
"Then you are my Doraemon." Lin Jianfan said.
Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan, and Lin Jianfan raised his eyes.
Both eyes looked at each other.
Under the Christmas tree, in the cold winter wind, in the heart-beating festival filled with sweetness.
Doraemon proposed to take a photo under the tree, but Nobita did not refute. Doraemon took the mobile phone to Nobita, saying that Nobita's technology is good for Nobita to shoot.
A click.
Freeze the moment of the beautiful smile in winter.
With no purpose and no reason for a Christmas trip, the two walked tacitly on the streets full of couples.
The street was lively, Gu Chaoming lowered his eyes to look at Lin Jianfan who was beside him, and took a peek at his hand that was hanging peacefully beside his leg.
Gu Chaoming walked very close to him, the back of his hand was separated by the winter wind. As long as he stretched out his hand and held the hand he had put on his gloves, he could break the icy winter wind.
But Gu Chaoming finally held back.
He held back.
He looked at Lin Jianfan's hand that was close at hand, and thought, after he held it, could he really become the self that he affirmed? Can I accept the consequences for my actions
He didn't want to and wouldn't take Lin Jianfan's hand easily, and he wouldn't say those words easily.
He doesn't have Lin Jianfan's brain, Lin Jianfan's dazzling achievements, or Lin Jianfan's stunning appearance. He knows that these may not be problems, and he doesn't have to, but what he has is only Gu Tao's violence, and even the ability to The father who brought him disaster.
Gu Chaoming is making a promise to a person to become a certain relationship, with a firmness that is different from ordinary people, and an unspeakable cowardice.
If he can't give the other party a definite answer, he will never say it. This determination and cowardice benefited from his father, Gu Tao.
Influenced by his seventeen years, Gu Chaoming's attitude towards promises to others and his attitude towards feelings are more fancy than others.
He didn't want to have feelings that were eventually separated because of his impulsive confession, he didn't want to agree to any request or respond to any emotion because of his ill-consideration, and he didn't want to let others down because of his ignorance.
He was afraid that his emotions would end because he didn't see himself clearly in the first place, or because of violent factors that he couldn't control. He was afraid that his own unbearableness would not give the other party what he wanted, or even the basic courage to face the world.
In the final analysis, it is still his own cowardice, he is not sure about himself, but he sees his own insecurities clearly.
The most important thing is that Gu Chaoming doesn't want to be the same person as Gu Tao, and he doesn't want to let down other people and his own feelings.
He understands his determination and his cowardice. At the same time, he can't deny that he wants to hug Lin Jianfan, to hold his hand, and to have him.
Think of a heart that is about to burst.
He understands his feelings for Lin Jianfan, the long river of peace will eventually come to an end, the cold winter will finally usher in spring, and the young man's mind will finally be bright.
Gu Chaoming knew that his heart was warm, and he couldn't help himself. He couldn't control the eyes that followed Lin Jianfan, and he couldn't control what he said to Lin Jianfan.
He couldn't control his heartbeat.
He knew that he didn't like it simply, and he couldn't give up easily. When he thought of losing him because he gave up, he would be silent and lose him, and Gu Chaoming felt the sadness of losing the scorching sun and sunset.
It's like falling back into the previous hell.
He was struggling, he was yearning, he wanted to have him.
He wants to be with him for the rest of his life.
Since I was seventeen.
The author has something to say: The word count is a little short today, and tomorrow will be Christmas~(≧▽≦)/~
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