After a semester of hard work, Gu Chaoming didn't have much ambition in terms of grades. He didn't want to reach the sky in one step. He knew that he didn't have such ability, but he at least hoped to achieve his lowest expected results.
Hard work pays off, perhaps the best compliment to Gu Chaoming.
423 points, more than 20 points more than the highest score predicted by Gu Chaoming. Gu Chaoming couldn't believe it when he first saw the number of 423. The simple three numbers are checked again and again, and I don't know how many times I have read them.
After answering the answer with Lin Jianfan, Gu Chaoming estimated that the highest score for all questions with uncertain scores was only 400 points. Fifty more points. Gu Chaoming didn't know which questions the fifty-odd points came from, but this was tantamount to giving him a good start to the upcoming winter vacation.
Yuanyuan's joy is simple, a cookie, a piece of candy, and a ride on a merry-go-round can be easily obtained. Gu Chaoming's happiness sometimes comes easily.
A good grade, Lin saw Fan's smile.
"Yo, new Xueba, how does it feel to be at 400?" Su Bing walked to Gu Chaoming's table and patted Gu Chaoming's back.
"It's alright," Gu Chaoming turned to ask Su Bing, "Didn't you tell us to show us your true power at the end of the term? I've seen it."
"I won't make mistakes this time. Next time, see me next time."
Su Bing smirked while avoiding the topic of his grades, but Gu Chaoming said sternly: "I'm not joking with you, didn't you say that we are in the same university as Xili's exam."
"Xili, he must have improved again. I made a pure mistake this time."
Gu Chaoming glanced at Su Bing in disbelief, and agreed to take the same university entrance exam together. Gu Chaoming didn't want to be empty by then, and wanted to ask Su Bing if he had any answers, but when he turned his head, he saw Lin Jianfan walking in from the back door.
The worry on his face about whether he could be admitted to the same university in the future turned to seeing Lin Jianfan's smile.
Lin Jianfan was a peach-flavored candy, and when he saw him, the corners of Gu Chaoming's mouth were also peach-flavored.
"The teacher asked you to come to the office." Lin Jianfan came over and said to Gu Chaoming.
Lao Chen found out a few classmates in the class that he wanted to supervise and talk to, among them Gu Chaoming.
"I did very well in the test this time. There are more than 400 points."
Old Chen took out the score sheet this time from the folder and pointed it to Gu Chaoming to help him analyze: "You can do math this time, but your English is almost..."
"The winter vacation is coming, you should study hard at home, don't be left behind..."
After some instructions, Gu Chaoming stood aside quietly and listened carefully.
"Teacher, happy winter vacation." Gu Chaoming was in a good mood and said to Lao Chen before leaving.
"Happy winter vacation." Lao Chen smiled.
Walking out of the office, the long corridor was covered with a sunny duvet. In the flowerbed under the corridor, the flowers withered, and the green leaves were still radiating its tenacious vitality. The white snow that lasted for several days stopped on the path beside the flowerbed.
The most important people in his life, Su Bing, Cen Xili, and Lin Jianfan stood side by side in front of the fence in the corridor, chatting under the sunlight.
Su Bingming laughed the loudest and acted exaggeratedly. Cen Xili complained about him, and Lin Jianfan was standing aside and smiled lightly without speaking.
Hearing the footsteps behind him and noticing the figure of Gu Chaoming coming, the three of them turned to look at him, all with smiles that were amused by Su Bing.
Su Bing waved at him in a big way and told him to come over quickly, Cen Xili stood aside, Lin Jianfan smiled lightly and warmly.
Sunshine, green leaves, and snow come together.
All the people he loves are there.
This dreamlike scene made Gu Chaoming, who was highly praised in the office, add a heater to his heart to warm his heart that had been cold for seventeen years.
After meeting Lin Jianfan, his life became a little outrageously beautiful.
During the one-month winter vacation, Gu Chaoming dreamed of this day several times, of that winter full of sunshine and green leaves.
Not just one winter vacation, but the future too.
The winter vacation is not like going to school. Gu Chaoming has never seen Lin Jianfan since the vacation. Although he chats with him every day, his heart is always empty, like an inflated balloon, but it looks full on the surface.
There is always a voice in my heart saying, "You haven't seen him for many days."
In my heart, I automatically counted the days when I didn't see each other. Before the new year, Gu Chaoming was already looking forward to the start of school.
I seem to miss him a bit.
Gu Chaoming was ashamed to admit it, but he knew that he missed him, and that he had to see him.
I must find a reason to meet him, otherwise I will be too sad, Gu Chaoming thought.
The movie Su Bing had made an appointment with was the best opportunity. Gu Chaoming asked Su Bing last night if he could take Lin Jianfan with him. Su Binglian took Cen Xili to "besiege" him for a while.
"Of course, but the cinema will be lit by then," Su Bing said.
"?" Gu Chaoming didn't understand what he meant.
"Xili and I have two 1-kilowatt light bulbs that are so bright that they can light up the cinema."
"roll."
Su Bing also said: "Xili, when the time comes, we will buy two tickets sandwiched between them and let them sit on both sides, anxious to kill Gu Shuai, hahaha..."
Gu Chaoming sighed at the screen, it's not easy for him to ask someone to watch a movie.
After sending a message to Lin Jianfan inviting him to watch a movie, Gu Chaoming looked downstairs when he heard the sound of children scoffing outside.
The snow that fell a few days ago has not yet melted, and several children wearing thick cotton clothes are playing snowball fights downstairs.
The children downstairs were in high spirits, and each one smashed a snowball at each other.
Gu Chaoming walked downstairs wrapped in the red scarf that Lin Jianfan had given him. Seeing the children playing snowball fights, he felt itchy and wanted to grab a handful of snow to play with.
As soon as I went downstairs, I saw Zhou Han walking out of the corner. The children who passed by during the snowball fight were almost injured by them.
Gu Chaoming grabbed a handful of snow on the ground, shaped it into a ball, and smashed it towards Zhou Han.
The snowball cracked on Zhou Han's fluffy padded jacket, turning into scattered snow and falling on the ground.
Zhou Han avoided the children who were playing snowball fights, but not Gu Chaoming, who looked mature but still had a childlike innocence to play snowball fights.
Gu Chaoming hit him with a snowball, and without hesitation he grabbed a handful of Yuxue from the side of the road.
Snowball ran towards Gu Chaoming, who was standing in front of the unit building in the winter sun. Gu Chaoming ran away and grabbed a handful of snow in retaliation and threw it at Zhou Han.
Zhou Han also beckoned the group of children to come and help: "Come here and help my brother besiege him."
Gu Chaoming also accepted a few "little brothers" to help him deal with Zhou Han.
The sun shone on Gu Chaoming's smiling face, and the white air exhaled from his mouth melted in the sun. His hands were red from the cold, but he persisted in pinching the snow in his hands into snowballs and smashing them out.
Two seventeen-year-olds played a snowfight with a few children, or rather a few children accompanied them two seventeen-year-olds.
A few days after the snow battle is the New Year. On the New Year's Eve, Gu Chaoming still gets up early, lays down the quilt and opens the curtains, completing the actions he repeats every morning.
Downstairs, someone else's window was posted with the blessing of the New Year. Gu Chaoming stood in front of the window, staring at the blessing of the other's house in a daze. Fuzi also caused collective rejection, and the Fuzi on the opposite building gathered together to mock Gu Chaoming's desertion.
Gu Chaoming closed the curtains in a fit of anger, raised his hand and scratched his sleepy hair.
It's just the end of the year, and it's just an ordinary day. There's nothing wrong with the deserted home.
There was a loud noise from upstairs, and Gu Chaoming couldn't help but look at the door that could not close in his room. The pierced wound on the door is a thing of the past, the door does not heal like a human wound, it is always open, revealing the scars it cannot heal.
In the past New Year's Eve, Gu Chaoming always woke up to the sound of ping pong, which was Qu Yingyi cooking. In normal days, Gu Chaoming can overcome his sleepiness and get up to brush his teeth and wash his face to help, but on the New Year's Eve, he is always presumptuous, closing his eyes and going back to sleep amid the sound of ping-pong-pong in the kitchen.
For this year's Spring Festival, he could only wake up to the noisy preparations upstairs, look at the word "Fu" in the opposite building, and continue to listen to the noise upstairs.
Leaving his mother, he seems to have lost the capital to act like a child, and opening his eyes is the ceiling of reality.
This was the scene that Gu Chaoming had imagined long ago, but it was a little hard to accept for a while when he actually faced it. Just after the winter vacation, I was ready to deal with the lonely New Year. I didn't expect Gu Tao to stay at home, but Gu Tao is no different from staying at home and not at home.
Those New Years that carry the fragrance of mother's meals will never be seen again. Gu Chaoming sat by the bed and turned his head to look at the drawn curtains.
The mobile phone on the desk lit up in the silent room, and a loud beep interrupted Gu Chaoming's discomfort with the Spring Festival, which was completely different from the previous 16 years.
Gu Chaoming moved to the desk and picked up the mobile phone whose screen had not yet dimmed.
The meteor hit the earth, the waves flooded the village, Gu Chaoming's discomfort in the early morning of the Spring Festival, it should be said that since Qu Yingyi left his life without advance notice, all the discomfort and grievances are all split in that four-character message. .
He is the debris after the planet hit the earth, the ruins of the village where the waves flooded. All the discomfort and grievances hidden in the bottom of my heart are all broken, revealing the imprints that have been hidden for too long.
Gu Chaoming's heart melted in those four words.
"Happy Spring Festival."
Lin Jianfan typed a lot of words on the sofa with his mobile phone in his hand and deleted them. In the end, only the four words to celebrate the Spring Festival were left. It was the most appropriate to send blessings during the Spring Festival, and the rest... just wait.
Lin Jianfan stared at the screen and hesitated for a minute before clicking Send. He never thought that he was the first person to say Happy Chinese New Year to Gu Chaoming, and he never thought that the person who received his message was experiencing him. Great discomfort and grievances in life.
Gu Chaoming had no self-knowledge. He didn't know that his grievances could be piled up so secretly and so much that he couldn't believe it.
He couldn't control his heart when he saw that the simple four words sent by Lin Jianfan were twisted like a pair of big hands. He couldn't help swallowing all the grievances after losing his mother for a semester as before, and he couldn't control the tears in his rosy eyes.
His mother occupies a too important position in his life. His mother's sudden departure and his abandonment make his whole life empty.
The wind swept through the hall without taking anything away, because there was nothing left to take away.
One person's departure in exchange for another's seat. Gu Chaoming was sitting in a cinema alone, his mother beckoned to him to open the door of the cinema. His mother once came home on his birthday, and opened the door of the house, and the bright and warm sunshine outlined her figure. It was the same when he left the theater of his life. In the dark theater, the door that Qu Yingyi opened was the only light except for the movie being shown. The dazzling light outlines Qu Yingyi's figure like a birthday.
Qu Yingyi waved at him last, closed the door, the light disappeared, and the seat beside him was empty.
Gu Chaoming thought that the seat beside him would never be taken, but he soon heard a knock on the door, a cautious and cautious knock.
It took him a long time to open the door.
He sat back in his seat, turned his head, and there was already a person sitting beside him, a young man with a handsome face and a serious speech.
This is also good. Gu Chaoming looked at the boy's side face and smiled. He hoped that he would not leave the table halfway. He hoped that he could accompany him to watch the movie.
His whole life is shown on the huge movie screen.
Seeing the words "Happy Chinese New Year" sent by Lin Jianfan, Gu Chaoming's throat rolled for a while, tears were small streams flowing in his eyes, and behind the streams was the ocean in his heart.
Gu Chaoming managed to control his emotions and did not cry during the Spring Festival, even though his eyes were already red, even though the tears hit his eyes.
He never knew that he was so fragile, that four words could easily defeat him.
Hearing the noise that continued upstairs, Gu Chaoming sat on the bedside with red eyes in the early morning of the New Year's 30 and looked up at the ceiling. He saw Lin Jianfan smiling slightly, and Gu Chaoming followed him slightly. rise.
Human beings are complex animals, they can be happy and sad, they can be happy in pain, and they can laugh with red eyes.
"Happy Spring Festival."
thank you for your good wishes.
After returning to Lin Jianfan's information, Gu Chaoming also sent Spring Festival greetings to Su Bing and Cen Xili, and after sending them messages, he sent blessings to Zhou Han and some friends and classmates, and finally returned to Qu Yingyi's contact page, Gu Chaoming hesitated and clicked to exit.
He flinched for some reason. His mother had already divorced Gu Tao, so let her cut off completely and contact her less.
Qu Yingyi never thought that her son would think so.
Gu Tao slept until it was almost lunch time and woke up. The hearty breakfast was already colder than usual. Gu Tao lifted the vegetable hood to take a look. He was not in the mood to eat. : "Eat early, I'm hungry."
Gu Chaoming didn't answer, he didn't say a word. Gu Tao zipped up his clothes by the kitchen door. He didn't hear Gu Chaoming's response. He hated the most when others didn't answer his words.
"Are you dumb?" I don't know if he didn't wake up or if his nature was exposed again, Gu Tao's tone brought back the previous violence.
This is the tone Gu Chaoming is used to.
Gu Tao being kind to him is too weird, it's the snow in summer, and it's a sight that makes people know something is wrong.
"I asked if you are dumb?" Gu Tao took out a cigarette case from his pocket, shook it out and pulled out one, but did not light it, nor did he hear Gu Chaoming's answer.
Gu Tao asked again: "I asked if you are dumb?"
The lighter was pressed, the flame jumped out, the cigarette drew closer, and the red-hot cigarette butts gathered together. Gu Chaoming cut vegetables to prepare lunch, and smelled the smell of Gu Tao's smoke in the air.
Gu Tao lit a cigarette and approached, exhaling a puff of smoke. The smell of smoke could not escape in the small and closed kitchen, and roamed in the air of the kitchen.
Gu Chaoming cut vegetables for himself, Gu Tao saw that Gu Chaoming did not answer, and flicked the soot accumulated on the cigarette end with his fingers. After flicking the ashes, the cigarette was not put into his mouth immediately, but he held the end of the cigarette and looked at the cigarette in his hand inexplicably.
Just the act of looking at the cigarette made Gu Chaoming, who was cutting vegetables, take a step back and withdraw his hand.
Childhood shadows are monsters, subconscious avoidance that the body can never forget.
Gu Chaoming's heart, warmed by Lin Jianfan's Spring Festival blessing, fell to the bottom of his memory.
The body retreated, the palm retracted, and Gu Tao held the cigarette butt and didn't understand what Gu Chaoming was doing all of a sudden.
Gu Tao laughed at Gu Chaoming's subconscious actions: "Are you having leg cramps?"
Not answering is the shortest. Gu Tao's patience after waking up was exhausted little by little in Gu Chaoming's silence.
"I don't want to scold people for the Chinese New Year." Gu Tao shook the soot again and poked Gu Chaoming's head with his fingers.
Gu Tao also wants to be nice to Gu Chaoming. What he thinks is good is to take Gu Chaoming to eat desserts that he thinks young people like. What he is good for Gu Chaoming is to inherit his property after taking him home. Gu Tao never felt that there was anything wrong with what he did, and he felt that Gu Chaoming didn't listen to him, which was too worrying.
Little do they know that a child is not a sponge, and it can return to its original shape with a pinch. If you burn a hole in your clothes, you won't be able to see it unless you sew another piece of newer cloth. Gu Tao never reflected on the mark he left on Gu Chaoming's heart, but he didn't. Blame Gu Chaoming for being too rude to him.
I magnify a thousand times how good I am to him, and I forget about my violence towards him.
Upstairs is the lively New Year's noise, downstairs is Gu Chaoming's head that was poked to one side by Gu Tao.
Has life really changed? Will life really get better
Is it just his illusion that life is getting better little by little? With Gu Tao around, it seems like his life will never get better.
So what if Gu Tao disappeared forever
Gu Chaoming, whose head was poked to one side, was startled again by the thought that appeared in his mind. It was not the first time he had this thought, but he was startled every time.
He was thinking how to make a person disappear, disappear from his world.
Terrible and soothing thought.
Terrible is red blood and future prison.
Refreshing is escaping from Gu Tao's life forever.
Gu Chaoming was fortunate that the terrifying was still at the top and didn't make him lose his mind. The person he wished to disappear was by his side, and he had a sharp kitchen knife in his hand.
The green cabbage was cut into two sections, the head was poked to the side, and the knife fell from the hand.
The smell of blood, the color of blood, the red liquid.
A red liquid flowed out from Gu Chaoming's fingers, staining the water droplets on the vegetables.
The water droplets turned pale red, but Gu Chaoming's fingers were still blood red.
After realizing the pain in his fingers, Gu Chaoming threw down the kitchen knife, regardless of Gu Tao next to him, walked out of the kitchen, went to the room and took out the box of Band-Aid that Lin Jianfan gave him in the drawer.
"Be sure to stick it after you're injured." Lin Jianfan's instructions were still in his ears.
"Not posted."
"paste."
The disputes in the past are vivid in my mind, and it is also happy to argue over a small matter.
Gu Chaoming didn't want to post it, he had to go back to the kitchen to cook later, but the big band-aid maker asked him to post it, so he couldn't help it.
Open the Band-Aid box, tear one sheet and stick it carefully. He used to just stick it casually. Anyway, he had to tear it off in the end, but when Lin saw the Band-Aid sent by Fan, he posted it very carefully.
After sticking, hold up the injured finger and look at the flat bandage on the finger.
He will stick to it all the time, just like Lin Jianfan is with him, and he can meet tomorrow, giving him a little hope in his life.
Looking at the Band-Aid on his finger, the noise upstairs continued, and Gu Tao turned on the TV in the living room again. Gu Chaoming understood a truth in the New Year's Eve before the New Year and the old year.
Life is always beautiful, everything is always fresh, and the sun is always bright.
It just depends on whether you are thinking of Gu Tao or Lin Jianfan.