There was a heavy building to lead the way, and there were no surprises and no dangers along the way.
Seven days later, Lin Chujiu and Zhonglou walked out of the forest and walked to a path.
Chonglou pointed to the north direction, "That's the way back to Dongwen's capital," he moved his arm lightly and pointed in another direction, "That's the way to the magic palace, where are you going?"
The two directions seemed to give Lin Chujiu a choice, but in reality there was no choice.
Lin Chujiu hesitated for a moment, then asked weakly, "Can I choose none of them?" She doesn't need to be constrained by the doctor system now, she can be regarded as half a freelancer, and she doesn't want to go back to the capital. Of course, she didn't even want to go to the magic palace and face the heavy building.
"What? Want to go alone?" Chonglou's words were biting very hard and speaking very slowly. He was obviously angry, and he was still very angry.
"I..." Lin Chujiu hesitated for a moment, then gritted his teeth, "I didn't want to go to the magic palace, nor did I plan to go back to the capital, especially now."
"Why?" What did Xiao Tianyao do? Make Lin Chujiu so disgusted to go to the capital
Lin Chujiu didn't answer Chonglou's words directly, but tried to pull out a smile that didn't care, "You know, why did I fall into that forest?"
Without waiting for Zhonglou to speak, he replied, "It's because I want to go back to Beijing by myself and travel alone, so that the potential enemy in the dark place sees an opportunity and sets up an ambush to kill me. You know, in order to let me leave safely. , the people who protected me died in front of me one by one. Because of my willfulness, because of my darn indescribable self-esteem and inferiority, I killed them."
As she spoke, Lin Chujiu's face was covered with tears, and she cried silently, which made her sad to see.
"I killed so many people, how can I... how can I have the face to go back." Lin Chujiu blamed herself more and more, and finally couldn't hold it any longer, squatted on the ground, and cried with her head lowered, "They could have died without having to die. It's because of me, it's me who killed them, I really have no face to go back."
She is not a coward, nor is she timid, but she is really afraid, afraid of facing the accusations of the dead bodyguards and the accusing eyes of their family members when she goes back.
"It's me being willful, it's me being ignorant, and it's me who killed them. Dozens of lives were lost because of them. They, they... didn't need to die originally." Lin Chujiu bit her lip, trying her best not to let it go. I cried myself, but the effect was not good.
These days, she has been plagued by conscience and unease. These days, when she closed her eyes, it was the pictures of those guards who died tragically.
These days, she has been hypnotizing herself to forget those things and stop thinking about it, but she can't.
It was fine in the woods, the enormous pressure of life made her have no time to think, and when she walked out of the woods, no matter how much she hypnotized herself, she could not say that she was innocent.
She was guilty, she was the one who killed them.
"I regret it, I really regret it. I shouldn't wantonly ask to go back to Beijing alone, I shouldn't be arrogant and think that I can protect myself. In the end, I survived, but the person who protected me died. My willfulness has killed so many people, I really have no face to go back to Beijing."
"If it wasn't for my willfulness, if it wasn't for me and Xiao Tianyao getting angry, things wouldn't have turned out like this."
"I killed so many people, how can I have the face to go back to face them, how can I..."
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The more Lin Chujiu cried, the more sad, the more she cried, the more self-blame and guilt in her heart. Chonglou stood aside and tried several times to come forward to comfort her, but he stretched out his hand halfway and retracted it.
He doesn't seem to be comforting!
Also, he doesn't seem qualified.
After waiting for a long time, she didn't see Lin Chujiu stop. Instead, there were signs of crying. Chonglou finally couldn't help it, and said with a dark face: "Cough...don't cry, it's so noisy." The people who protected her were all dead. , Lin Chujiu will feel guilty and blame himself. He can understand, but can he carry all the faults on his own
Besides, they weren't killed by Lin Chujiu, they died because they were not strong enough to protect Lin Chujiu. It would be fine if they didn't hold them accountable for their dereliction of duty, why did Lin Chujiu blame herself
"Isn't it just a few guards. Their duty is to protect you. If they didn't protect you well, they died in the hands of their opponents because they were not strong enough. What's the matter with you?" In the face, how can such a woman be Princess Xiao
"It's not the first time someone has died in front of you, why are you sad?" I didn't think Lin Chujiu was soft-hearted before. There are not a few people who died to protect Lin Chujiu before. Although Lin Chujiu was sad, he did not blame himself and did not dare to face it.
Lin Chujiu shook her head and said in a choked voice, "That's different. It's not because of me. This time it's entirely because of me. They could have died."
"What's the difference? Isn't it all detrimental to protect you? Lin Chujiu, my patience is limited, you get up and wipe my face, I have no spare time to accompany you to cry here."
It's not just crying, a group of people are half-dead to find Lin Chujiu, she's good, she doesn't want to report the letter when she's safe, but she doesn't dare to face it because of self-blame and guilt, it's useless.
"You only think about the dead, have you ever thought about the living? Lin Chujiu, don't be too selfish." Chonglou saw Lin Chujiu holding a ball, crying like a pitiful little girl, and her heart jumped out for no reason. A nameless fire.
"Who is alive? Who? No one in the Lin family cares about my life or death. They want me to die early." Lin Chujiu was also tired from crying, but after crying a bit, she felt less uncomfortable.
She is not a weak, kind woman after all. Although self-blame, although guilt, although all the faults are on their own shoulders, they will not die because of excessive sadness.
She is selfish, she blames herself, she feels guilty, she is uneasy, but she never thinks of dying.
"The only people alive in your eyes are the Lin family? Idiot!" Chonglou's heart was already strangling Lin Chujiu.
Isn't this woman always articulate and talkative? What's wrong with this now? Every sentence was so irritating that I could not wait to slap her to death.
"Yes, and King Xiao Xiao Tianyao. However, my life and death don't matter to him, right? If I die, he can just marry another man. He is a man and doesn't need to be a feast for me." Lin Chujiu wiped away the tears on his face. , pulled out an ugly smile, "I have been missing for more than 20 days, Xiao Tianyao's people did not find me, they must think I am dead, I return to the capital at this time, it is not good for anyone. Trouble, the difference is to return to the bridge from this bridge and pass the road."
go back for what
Going back to the capital is just troublesome...
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