After so many years, no matter how slow Zhao Jingting is, he naturally knows that Xie Lun is deeply in love with him, but as for how long Xie Lun likes him, he doesn't know. Zhao Jingting once curiously asked Xie Lun, But Xie Lun was too proud. No matter how he asked, Xie Lun never wanted to tell him. When he asked anxiously, the thin-skinned and soft-faced Mr. Xie would fall out with him and ignore him for several days. Gradually, Zhao Jingting stopped asking. Somehow, at this time, Xie Lun actually took the initiative to tell him this.
Zhao Jingting was surprised and excited at the same time. His voice trembled for a moment: "Alan, why didn't you tell me earlier? Why do you have to be alone in your heart?"
"Because I don't dare," Xie Lun curled his lips slightly, obviously smiling, but his eyes were so bright that it was scary, "Zhao Jingting, I really, really like you, ever since I first met you in southern Xinjiang and never before I have already fallen in love with you since I was a child. Because I like you, I have low self-esteem and timidity. I never dare to look at you again, and I never dare to say one more word to you. At that time, every time you When I come to look for the general in the tent, I am always too busy to leave, but I can't help but sneak back in, close to the tent, and listen to your voice. You don't even know how important your laughter is to me. It stays with me. I grew up from an ignorant child to an adult day by day. At that time, I never dared to think about what happened next. I knew that this road was not only difficult, but also destined to have no future. Sometimes I would hate it, why did I just do it? I will like you, but more often than not, as long as you smile, I am extremely glad that I can like you, Zhao Jingting, I really like your smile so much. In a place like southern Xinjiang, where swords are shining and swords are shining, I have never been lonely or sleepless. late at night, because your smile is always with me.”
"Zhao Jingting, you are so beautiful when you smile. You usually have straight and straight eyebrows. When you smile, your eyes will be slightly curved, and there will be a few shallow wrinkles in the corners of your eyes. Your eyes will be particularly bright, with a little... If you are childish, there will be dimples here, and they are only on the left side, but not on the right cheek," Xie Lun said while gently pinching Zhao Jingting's cheek. He was obviously talking about laughing, but Xie Lun's eyes But it got wet, and tears fell on Zhao Jingting's hands drop by drop, "But then Dali suffered a tragic defeat. From then on, you stopped smiling. Zhao Jingting, I felt that my life suddenly became gloomy. At that time, you It's like you've changed into a different person. There's no sparkle in your eyes anymore, and your whole person seems like a dead tree. So I secretly followed you around the capital like a dead tree, from the Ministry of War to the Ministry of Household Affairs, and from the Ministry of Household Affairs to the Ministry of Personnel. In front of the Prime Minister’s house.”
"Zhao Jingting, I have never suffered so much. I have never wanted to disturb your life. I know it is wrong for me to do this, and I am not worthy of you at all, so I just need to watch you from a distance. As long as you live a good life, as long as you can smile every day, no matter who you are with, or who you are smiling for, it’s enough for me, it’s really enough.”
Xie Lun's lips trembled violently, and Zhao Jingting's throat hurt so much that he really couldn't look at Xie Lun's face anymore. He reached out and took Xie Lun into his arms, holding him tightly, like a father hugging a child who has returned after a long absence. Lun just let him hold her like this. He was usually so proud and stubborn, but now he was so docile and well-behaved.