"It was that night that I found out that I was one month pregnant."
Zheng Zuoyang suddenly raised his head and looked at Fang Zhenli. A hint of bitterness appeared on the woman's pale face. He couldn't bear to look any longer, so he lowered his head again in a hurry, but his hands in his sleeves were clenched into fists.
"At that time, I was so happy that I couldn't bear to look at it. I wanted to write to him immediately and tell him the good news, but I was afraid of disturbing his mood. He had suffered so much and struggled so much to go to Beijing to take the exam. Over the years, I really didn’t want to bother him, so I just held it in. But when I thought about the surprise and excitement on his face when he came back, I became even happier. He was smiling every day in the backyard. Take care of your child and wait for him to come back."
"It's just that I never thought that what I was waiting for was not his surprise and excitement, but a divorce letter and even a bowl of abortion pills." At this point, Fang Zhenli paused, took a deep breath, and then He continued, "If my father hadn't arrived in time that day, he would have poured the bowl of abortion pills into my mouth. He said he was elected to the Golden Palace, and he became famous. Now he and Princess Linglong are in love. He wants to be the consort, and he doesn’t want to have anything to do with me in the rest of his life. The child in my belly is also a bastard that he doesn’t recognize, and then he left Gannan City in a big way. "
"He said that he and Princess Linglong were in love, so what did those five years of mine count?" Fang Zhenli chuckled, laughing so hard that tears came out, "I couldn't figure it out, so I hung myself up that night. I really can’t live anymore.”
Zheng Zuoyang's Adam's apple slid up and down. He wanted to say something, but he didn't say anything. He just listened quietly to Fang Zhenli's continued talk.
"Later, my father saved me. To be honest, until now, I still don't know whether I should be grateful to my father or whether I should hate my father. My father told me to forget about that heartless man and to live well for him and Shixiu. I listen to you, father. "I gave birth to a baby, but why are my days so sad?" Fang Zhenli's tears fell on the floor tiles, and soon they became wet. "Shixiu's health has never been better. I was about to get sick. I felt really tired. I dreamed about my mother and brother every day. I was so scared that they were going to take away my Shixiu. Later, Mr. Zheng, you took me and Shixiu out. I’m going to Gannan, Mr. Zheng, I won’t say it with my mouth, but I’m really grateful to you in my heart.”
"Actually, you and dad knew this a long time ago, right?" Fang Zhenli stared at Zheng Zuoyang with moist eyes, "You knew a long time ago that Chen Shi'an wanted my life and wanted to take away my child, right?"
Zheng Zuoyang looked into Fang Zhenli's eyes and couldn't bear it. He nodded slowly after a long while.
"You are hiding it from me, of course, for my own good," Fang Zhenli smiled bitterly, her tears getting more and more violent, "But why can't you hide it better? Why can't you hide it from me for the rest of your life?"
Zheng Zuoyang hurriedly took out the handkerchief and handed it to Fang Zhenli. He was always the most sharp-tongued, but at this time he could no longer be sharp: "I'm sorry... Miss Fang... I'm sorry..."
Fang Zhenli did not accept his handkerchief, but buried her face between her knees again. She was crying hysterically and her heart was broken. Her thin body was shaking violently. She kept crying and asking: "Why are you doing this to me? Why do you do this to me?”