Du Heng was puzzled: "Which prince does the general think Long Live Lord prefers?"
"It's just me after all," Lu Zhishan curled his lips mockingly, and walked towards the backyard, "Du Heng, go collect the current situation in Jiangnan. I will go to the palace tomorrow to discuss Jiangnan with officials from the Ministry of Industry and Household Affairs. About the drought."
"Yes, I obey." Du Heng hurriedly bowed and agreed.
Lu Zhishan returned to his bedroom. He took off his clothes, shoes and socks, and lay down on the bed. There was still the smell of a child on the bed, as well as the faint fragrance of lily. He rested on the child's pillow and covered himself with the quilt covered by the child. It seemed that the child hadn't left yet and was sleeping beside him obediently.
He stared straight at the huge gourd hanging on the wall, staring at the pattern of "Two Immortals of Harmony" on the gourd. Thinking of the children's happy faces when they were picking the gourds that day, he suddenly closed his eyes again. Eye.
"From now on, I will only wait for my cousin to go shopping without Ji Xiang. My cousin is much more discerning than Ji Xiang."
"As long as my daughter is in need, I will be there for you."
…
I really miss my child.
I really wanted to chase him out of the city without caring about anything, and follow the child up Mount Wutai.
…
Lu Zhishan took a few deep breaths and buried himself in the quilt. He fell asleep after not sleeping all night.
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Lu Zhishan slept deeply. When he woke up again, it was already dark. He didn't move, just lying on the bed with his eyes empty.
I don’t know where the child is now, I don’t know if the newly made cakes suit the child’s appetite, I don’t know if the child is tired after a tiring day of travel, and I don’t know if the child is crying secretly.
Lu Zhishan's mind was filled with children. He faced the silence of the room and thought about children fiercely.
The child is very well-behaved in front of others and doesn't talk much. He always likes to lower his head and avoid looking at people. This is due to the child's character. The child is born without father's love and the mother is unable to protect her. There is still a need underneath. The younger brother she took care of, so the child was very sensible and did not cry or make trouble. Such a well-behaved and sensible child was sent to a foreign country to be a hostage when he was only five years old, so the child became more sensible and well-behaved. Yes, this kind of sensible and well-behaved person is a forced choice, and it is also out of fear, helplessness and inferiority.
Who doesn't want to be an innocent child? It was the age when it should be annoying, but the child had nothing, except an estranged concubine Liang, and Aunt Xiang who was poisoned to death.
Lu Zhishan imagined what the child would look like when he faced Grandma Xiang's body alone, what the child's expression would be like, he was so distressed that he could hardly breathe, why was he not by the child's side at that time to protect her? Airtight
He felt guilty, regretful, and even more distressed. Although he loved her even more now, he could no longer make up for the deep wound in the child's heart.
He doesn't like children to be well-behaved and cowardly in front of others. He hopes that children will have no inferiority and no shadow, only happiness and sweetness. No matter who they are in front of, they can hold out their small chests, be arrogant, and even domineering. He wants to pamper the child until he is as crooked as a crab.
But this child who has lived alone for more than ten years with fear and fear, this child who is wary of everyone, can open his heart to himself without reservation, without any defense or hesitation. .
How precious.
All characters in the article are adults~