He was really speechless and ashamed.
At that time, he suddenly realized that he had always been so selfish and despicable.
Yes, if not for that, how could he have missed her because he was worried about rumors? How could he only see the overwhelming power of the East Palace but ignore her again and again
He always thought that he was deeply in love, but he was repeatedly teased by God. He felt that he was simply the most pitiable and pathetic person in the world. But overnight, the world was turned upside down, and he clearly saw his despicable, selfish and... There is cowardice.
It was obvious that he gave up on her early on, it was obvious that he chose the East Palace early on, and it was obvious that he gave her up to others early on.
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Lu Zhiyue looked at the bowl of tremella and lotus seed soup that had gone cold on the desk, and couldn't help but lick his lips bitterly.
His so-called infatuation is like the lotus seed soup during the Dragon Boat Festival, out of place and bland.
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Fang Mansion.
The court took a break during the Dragon Boat Festival, but Fang Zeduan was still busy in the study all morning. It was not until Zheng Zuoyang came to the study to invite him to have a meal in the backyard that he raised his head from the pile of memorials and rolled his sore neck tiredly.
"Dad, sit here and let me give you a squeeze." Zheng Zuoyang saw this and was so busy that he helped Fang Zeduan sit on the drum stool. While pouring Fang Zeduan a cup of tea, he pinched Fang Zeduan's waist and beat his back.
Fang Zeduan felt more comfortable now. He breathed a sigh of relief, took a sip of tea and asked Zheng Zuoyang, "Where is Shixiu?"
Zheng Zuoyang couldn't help but laugh: "That boy is learning how to make rice dumplings from Zhang Ma in the backyard. He said he is waiting to cook them for grandpa."
Fang Zeduan also laughed: "It seems that I will eat a few more rice dumplings today."
Zheng Zuoyang echoed: "If dad doesn't eat more, we won't even want to sleep. We will have to rely on dad all day long."
"That boy is getting more and more naughty now," Fang Zeduan smiled and took a sip of tea. He paused, then suppressed his smile, and said to Zheng Zuoyang in a deep voice, "Look, Long Live Master's intention is to revive the Xu family." The door is closed, this is not a trivial matter, Prince Ning has to make preparations."
Zheng Zuoyang also nodded: "As soon as Xu Qingzhou became the Minister of the Ministry of Household Affairs, Prince Huai's Mansion became lively again. Long live the Lord's attitude, while revitalizing the Xu family and re-employing Prince Hui, it is really inappropriate clear."
Fang Zeduan took a sip of tea, gently closed the tea lid, and said in a deep voice: "Although it is difficult to guess the thoughts of Lord Long live, there are still clues to be found. Prince Huai is the only legitimate son of Long live now, even if he makes mistakes again and again. , but Long live Lord also wants to protect him, so Long live Lord is using Xu Qingzhou to pave the way and build a bridge for Prince Huai. As for Prince Hui, his qualifications are not bad, and he is not sick or in trouble. Naturally, Long live Lord also takes a look at it, and Hui The county prince now has no support from his mother's family, so it is easier to control him, so Long Live Lord is willing to reuse him. I am afraid that Long Live Lord now has his eyes on these two princes. "
Zheng Zuoyang frowned: "Dad, what you mean is that Long Live Master plans to choose the new crown prince between Prince Huai and Prince Hui?"
Fang Zeduan nodded: "Long live the Lord is not young anymore, he is over sixty years old after all, and his body and bones are not as good as before, so he has to consider the candidate for the crown prince, and memorials for the crown prince are sent to him from time to time. Go up, in order to consolidate the imperial power, he also needs to select an obedient prince who can take care of him as soon as possible. "
Zheng Zuoyang raised his eyebrows: "Then based on Dad's understanding of Long Live Lord, who does Long Live Lord prefer?"