"How long ago did you fall in love with him?" Zhou Chi also regained his composure, staring straight at the moon-white curtains.
"It's been so long that I can't even remember," Xie Lun shook his head, with a smile on his brows and eyes. He was in his thirties, but at this time, he seemed to be a young man who had fallen in love for the first time. His eyes were clear and distant. , as if recalling the past, after a long while, Xie Lun said softly, "Maybe I fell in love with him from the first time I saw him."
"First sight?" Zhou Chi murmured.
"Yes, when I first saw him in Southern Xinjiang, my eyes never left him." Xie Lun smiled, bright and brilliant.
Zhou Chi glanced at him, then turned his head in a hurry, as if if he looked at it one more time, he would be burned by Xie Lun's smile. After a pause, he asked in a deep voice: "What about him? He is again When... did I fall in love with you? Have I also liked you for a long time? "
"No, although I have been with him in southern Xinjiang for twelve years, I am afraid that he will never remember that there is me," Xie Lun said softly, hugging his knees with his hands and resting his head on his knees, so that the gentle breeze In the early morning, it was actually a pleasant and comfortable thing to confide your concerns to an old friend. Xie Lun scratched his hair and continued, "At that time, I didn't dare to tell him clearly. For one thing, I was really afraid of making him sick. He, after all, I am a man. There are many such things in the army, but it is not normal. I am afraid that he will avoid me in the future. Secondly, I am really not worthy of him. Although I have never behaved well. Now, I'm used to being domineering in front of you, but every time I'm in front of him, I always feel so inferior that I don't even dare to speak, let alone confess, so I've been holding back for so many years, and I thought I had to hold it in I have been prepared to hold it in for the rest of my life. Who would have thought that there would be a day when I couldn’t bear it anymore.”
"After the defeat in Southern Xinjiang, he went from a highly decorated General Longhu to a down-and-out military general who endured humiliation. He came to the capital every year to collect pension funds for the fallen soldiers. Such a proud man, he endured the humiliation and ran from one yamen to the next. He begged from house to house, and even knelt down outside the Prime Minister's house." Speaking of this, Xie Lun's voice was a little hoarse. "In the cold winter, he would kneel at the door of other people's houses. From that time on, I knew I had to do it. Follow him, no matter what future he pursues, I will accompany him. If he comes to the capital to ask for pension money in the future, whether it is to apologize or to kneel down, I hope there is someone who can bear the humiliation with him. "
Zhou Chi looked sideways at Xie Lun's calm face, and his heart also calmed down: "So, that year you begged the general for permission and followed General Zhao to the wild land of Kulun?"
"Yeah, I really can't hold it in any longer," Xie Lun said with a smile, "Whether it's good or bad, I will recognize him for the rest of my life."
Zhou Chi lowered his head and asked in a low voice, "Does the general know?"
"I know," Xie Lun nodded with a smile, his tone full of relief, "At the end of last year, Jingting wrote a letter and told the general. What's rare is that the general did not object, but was very supportive, and even gave blessings with the princess. What about us."
"Then I also wish you the best." Zhou Chi looked at Xie Lun and said solemnly.
"Zhou Chi, thank you." Xie Lun looked grateful.
"You have a good rest, I'm leaving first." Zhou Chi waved his hand, got up and left the dormitory.