Xuan Yi was escaping, not daring to see Luo Ran, kneeling in front of the Buddha every day, but losing weight day by day.
After Lin Fei went down the mountain that day, she notified her family and picked her up, fearing that she would never come to this place again in the future.
After half a month like this, the abbot found Xuan Yi, he looked at Xuan Yi's increasingly silent appearance, sighed, and said, "If I knew this earlier, why bother?"
Xuan Yi looked at him, and seemed to be a little dazed and said: "Master once said that Xuan Yi should go with his heart, but can Master tell Xuan Yi, what is his heart?"
These days, he had asked the Buddha many times, but he could not get an answer.
The abbot looked at him as if he could read people's hearts. He said, "What do you think in your heart, you don't even know it, how will others know?"
"Master, I would like to devote my whole heart to Buddha, but why do I always think of her?" He couldn't find the answer.
The abbot saw that he was still puzzled, so he asked him again, "Why do you dedicate your heart to the Buddha?"
Xuan Yi frowned, why did he focus on the Buddha? He doesn't know.
The abbot shook his head and said, "You don't know why you always think of her, and you don't know why you are devoted to the Buddha. Since you can't find the answer, then you should put it down. Do you want to stay now, or leave with her?"
Xuan Yi raised his head suddenly, his expression changed slightly, and asked with a vague emotion: "Leave, leave?"
The abbot nodded and said plainly: "Master Luo Shi is not a person from Qingling Temple, so he will naturally leave."
Xuan Yi's eyes seemed to be a little gray, he narrowed his eyebrows, and asked after a long time, "When will she leave?"
"If you want to know, you can ask in person." The abbot looked at the disciple he was proud of, an inexplicable emotion flashed in his eyes, like regret and anticipation, and he added, "Let or stay, it's all in Between your thoughts, don't regret it."
He was the only one left in the hall. He lowered his eyes and thought of her again. He hadn't seen her for a long time.
He knelt on the futon, put down his folded hands, something suddenly fell from his sleeve, and his eyes narrowed.
It was the sachet he picked up from her room that day.
He also owes her a plum blossom.
He picked up the sachet, and in front of him he seemed to see the plum blossom on her bun in the snow that day. The flowers were beautiful and the people were even more beautiful.
Since that day, my mood has been chaotic, and now it is even more chaotic. Xuan Yi closed his eyes and finally stood up and walked out. The Buddha statue behind him was still smiling, as if he was looking at his back. Watch him leave step by step.
He approached her wing, and before he knocked on the door, he heard a coughing sound coming from inside, with a little fragility, Xuan Yi's eyes moved, and suddenly he didn't dare to knock on the door.
How can you catch a cold? Is it that day
Xuan Yi immediately closed his eyes and covered the look in his eyes. He was still hesitating, but the door was opened from the inside. The moment he heard the sound, he took a step back and looked away slightly, not knowing how to face it. she.
Luo Ran stared blankly at the person in front of her, and when she saw him turn her eyes away, she took a breath and calmed down her emotions, but she couldn't hold back the redness in her eyes and coughed softly.
Xuan Yi suddenly looked over and saw that she was clutching the door rail with one hand, her joints were white, but within half a month, her chin became sharper and thinner, her eyes were slightly moist, but she smiled lightly, Whispered softly:
"I thought you would keep avoiding me."
Xuan Yi was dumbfounded, unable to speak. He looked at her, and a trace of distress flashed in his eyes. Before he could think about what to say, he saw the person in front of him and said again:
"I'm leaving."
Xuan Yi stiffened and said with difficulty, "Why?"
The tears fell from the corners of Luo Ran's eyes, but she indifferently reached out and wiped them away, then smiled and said, "I went to find you when you didn't see me, but if you wanted to avoid me, how could I find it? you?"
Xuan Yi wanted to say no, but he couldn't. Luo Ran bit her lip and smiled again, tears fell in a string, but she didn't care at all, her voice was a little choked, with a little hoarseness, but continued:
"I thought, no matter how you decide, you always have to see you and let you tell me in person, so that I can give up."
Her eyes were a little blurry. It seemed that someone wiped her tears for her. She moved gently, as if she was afraid of breaking her. She couldn't hold back her tears in an instant. The person in front of her didn't say a word.
"So I went to the main hall to look for you, but before I found you, someone stopped me. That person was my aunt. I came to Beijing to go to her, but I didn't want to stay here at Qingling Temple. half a year."
She turned her face to the side, wiped it with a handkerchief, and then turned to laugh again, like a hibiscus, soft and gentle, like a breeze blowing, Xuan Yi looked at her, her hand in her sleeve tightly Hold that sachet.
Luo Ran didn't seem to see the pain in his heart, and said with a smile: "My aunt said that she will pick me up tomorrow, and I suddenly lost the courage to find you. I think, it's better to leave like this, as if I didn't know you regretted it. , so I also have a little memory left."
Xuan Yi tightly closed his eyes, his indifferent expression could no longer be maintained, there was some pain in his voice, and he seemed to beg, "Aran, stop talking."
Her voice sounded again, with a little cry: "Don't close your eyes, I'm leaving soon, look at me."
Xuan Yi only felt a little wet in his eyes, he just didn't know how to face her, but he never thought she would leave, he almost never rejected her, even at this time, he also leaned on her and opened his eyes to see she.
It was still daytime, but she threw herself into his arms, cried around his neck, and after soaking his clothes did she lift her face, looked at him with wet eyes, and asked him crying:
"Xuan Yi, do you like me?"
There was pity in his eyes, but she was still crying: "don't lie to me, I'm leaving soon, and I'll never see you again."
Then she cried again in frustration: "You still lie to me, say you like me, I will think of you in the future, and I don't want to cry like today."
He stroked her blue silk, and said in a choked voice, "I like you."
She cried more and more fiercely, holding her hands and not letting go, crying and saying, "Xuan Yi, I like you too."
Tired of crying, she finally let go of him, as if embarrassed to dry her tears, looked at him with reddish eyes, took a step back, returned to the room, and said to him with a light smile:
"Don't come to see me tomorrow, I'm afraid I'll be reluctant to leave."
Xuan Yi looked at her, clenched the sachet in his hand, opened his mouth, but didn't know what he wanted to say, he could only watch her close the door, and then she seemed to squat down against the door, and she heard her from the room. whimpering cry.
Xuan Yi stood in front of her door, but he couldn't walk away. He wanted to say that he didn't lie to her, he really liked her.
The woman he loved was crying in the house, but he didn't even have the courage to knock on the door.
The next day, he didn't listen to her for the first time. He stood on the trail in the back mountain and watched a carriage take her away. She seemed to notice something. Before entering the carriage, she turned and looked in that direction. At a glance, someone urged her, and she withdrew her gaze, got into the carriage, the curtain was lowered, and he could never see her again.
The carriage was getting farther and farther, and the only thing he left behind was the sachet. He hadn't asked her yet, was this a birthday gift from her
One day later in the morning chanting, Nian Wang suddenly ran in, holding a letter in his hand and handing it to him: "Senior Brother Xuan Yi, this is what fell from Master Luo Shi's room."
Xuan Yi's eyes moved slightly, looking at the letter, which read: "Xuan Yi personally opened", her words were the same as hers, graceful and gentle, and he remembered that when he first met her, she was sitting on a bluestone, casually. Like plucking the strings.
He took the letter, Nian Wang also said a word before exiting: "Senior Brother Xuan Yi, Lord Luo Shi's qin is still in the room."
He was silent for a long time before opening the envelope, which only had one sentence written on it:
"My aunt lives in the capital, Changtongxiang, Baifu."
Just a simple sentence, nothing else was said, but Xuan Yi instantly understood what she meant, he pursed his lips, and he looked out, there was the direction of the capital.
***
Luo Ran arrived at the Bai Mansion. Her aunt married a businessman. There were two sons and one daughter in the family, and their status was stable. One daughter was married, and the other son was married. , especially Bai Yu, who called her cousin.
Half a year later, in mid-September, Bai Yu stood at the door of Luo Ran's yard and called out, "Cousin Ran'er."
A maid opened the curtain, and Luo Ran came out. She had a broken jade hairpin slanted on her bun, with a few pearls hanging down. She was wearing a long pink dress, the skirt was slightly mopped, and the blue silk was draped over her shoulders. The warm man in front of her, she showed a slight smile and whispered:
"Cousin, are you calling me?"
Bai Yu looked at her smile, her eyes were a little stunned, she didn't react until she heard her voice, she held a box with a blushing face and brought it to her, and said warmly, "Cousin Ran'er, I heard from my mother that today It's your birthday, send it to you."
With a smile in Luo Ran's eyes, he took the box and opened it in front of him. Inside was a white jade hairpin. Luo Ran's eyes flickered, and he heard Bai Yu's hard-to-cover voice: "Do you like it?"
Luo Ran smiled casually: "Thank you cousin, I like it very much."
Bai Yu breathed a sigh of relief. Ran'er's cousin was an orphan. She came to the house for more than half a year. Some time ago, she was unhappy and only smiled occasionally. Moreover, Bai Yu's face turned a little red. Cousins are more gentle people.
He coughed lightly and said, "Cousin Ran'er likes it."
Later, he seemed to remember something, and he said sternly: "By the way, cousin, sister-in-law is pregnant, and my mother said that she would go to Qingling Temple to repay her vows. Let me ask you, do you want to go together?"
Luo Ran played with the jade hairpin for a while, and looked at him with beautiful eyes, Qingling Temple? Before Bai Yu showed a puzzled look, she nodded and said softly, "Of course, thank you cousin."
Bai Yu waved his hands again and again: "No thanks, so, I will go back first." Although he said this, he looked at Luo Ran reluctantly.
Luo Ran didn't seem to see his expression, and said with curved eyelashes, "Cousin, walk slowly."
Bai Yu nodded in disappointment and left.
Only then did Luo Ran go back to the room, and put the box in her hand on the dressing table. She looked at herself in the mirror, her appearance becoming more and more dazzling, and she stroked her hair down with her hands. She left Qingling Temple and left a sachet behind. , Qin and a letter, but Xuan Yi did not find her in the future.
She looked at the person in the mirror, her eyes faint, if it wasn't for the fact that her role had been increasing, she would not have been at ease in the White House for so long. It has been half a year, and I don't know if he would lose his color when he saw her again.
Three days later, Luo Ran sat in the carriage and went to Qingling Temple, and Bai Yu also followed. The carriage was very big. She and her aunt sat in it. Bai Yu sat in another carriage, and her aunt talked about that. topic:
"Ran'er, your mother died, and your aunt treated you as her own daughter. You are now sixteen. What do you think about your marriage?"
Luo Ran's face immediately put on a pleading for mercy: "Good aunt, Ran'er doesn't want to marry yet."
Aunt glared at her, she looked like her elder sister, but she was more outstanding, a trace of sadness flashed in her aunt's eyes, and she didn't want to force her, but she still said: "Marriage matters, aunt does not want to force you, but you can't either. Don't take it to heart."
After a pause, my aunt said again: "If you don't dislike it, Yu'er is about the same age as you..."
Luo Ran frowned and interrupted him: "Aunt, it's absolutely impossible, Ran'er knows her identity, and she doesn't dare to mistake her cousin. Aunt, please don't say this again."
My aunt looked at her helplessly. She didn't understand her own son. Every time she saw this girl, her eyes became straight, and she couldn't look at other people anymore. Ran'er's cousin wrapped around him, not because she was a mother who didn't want to fulfill him, but because his Ran'er cousin didn't have this idea.
Her son still has a choice, but Luo Ran is her sister's only child. As a woman, she suffers a loss. She is full of pity and naturally does not want her to marry a man she does not like. She can protect her as long as she can.
The carriage quickly arrived at Qingling Temple. Bai Yu walked to the carriage and helped his mother get off the carriage, then stretched out her hand to help Luo Ran. His mother glared at him from behind him. The son just wanted to help Ran'er logically, but he just followed along.
Luo Ran naturally understood Bai Yu's meaning, but he didn't know it at all. He gently got off the carriage with his hand, and then took it back. He frowned and followed his aunt. Glancing at the smile between her eyebrows, she followed as if nothing had happened.
Mrs. Bai shook her head, and did not deliberately create opportunities for him. She let Luo Ran support her arm and walk towards Qingling Temple. Bai Yu put the fan in her waist and took two steps forward quickly. , holding Madam Bai's arm on the other side. If someone who doesn't know sees this scene, they might think that the two are a couple.
Luo Ran's face seemed to be the same as usual, but Yu Guang was looking around. When she was about to walk into the hall, she finally saw the man standing on the steps, with an indifferent expression. Except for being thinner, it was the same as when she first saw it. Luo Ran Looking up at him, it may be different, at least, when he saw her, the trace of fluctuation in his eyes was never there.
Xuan Yi had thought many times what it would be like when he met her again. Maybe it was under the misty rain, she was walking in the alley with an oil-paper umbrella. It was more likely that he would never see her again, but he never thought about it. It's like this when you meet her.
She and another man each supported a woman's arm, stood under the steps, and looked at themselves from a distance, and he seemed to see her sitting by the window, holding her cheek in one hand, and shouting with a smile: "Xuanyi! "
She went up the steps step by step, the man beside her was talking to her, she seemed to look up at him, then turned her face to respond to the man, Xuan Yi's hand in his sleeve tightened, and he turned his eyes to the man , the emotion in that person's eyes was obvious, undisguised, making his face pale, and he never even said a word of liking to her in a fair and open manner.
She Tingting walked up to him, like a stranger, and passed by, his eyes dimmed slightly, her figure seemed to pause for a while, and she sighed softly, she let go of the woman's arm and turned around , facing him, folded his hands together, and said softly:
"Master Xuan Yi, long time no see, how are you doing?"
Xuan Yi's eyes moved slightly, and the hand in his sleeve finally stretched out. The two were once so close, but now they are so unfamiliar, so they could only politely say: "Master Xie Luo Shi cares, Xuan Yi is all well."
He seemed to pause for a moment before he finished speaking. He looked at the person in front of him who was thinner than before. She was more dazzling than before, with a hairpin and Luo Shan. He knew that she was weak and she was wearing a cloak. , looked at him softly, with an inexplicable affection hidden in her eyes, just as he had heard her blowing the bamboo leaves that day.
She nodded, her eyes paused on him, and then she retracted her eyelashes with trembling, and continued to walk towards the hall. The man glanced at him, his eyes dimmed.
Mrs. Bai and the abbot asked for a signature in the hall, and they talked to the abbot. Luo Ran turned her eyes and said softly to Mrs. Bai, "Auntie, I want to go out for a walk."
Mrs. Bai nodded, knowing that she had lived here for a long time, and she confessed uneasy: "Okay, don't go far, I'll be here waiting for you to come back."
Bai Yu interjected at this time: "I'll go with cousin Ran'er."
He didn't notice that after he said Luo Ran's name, someone in the hall moved slightly, as if he was relieved.
Luo Ran stopped him: "No need, cousin, I want to walk by myself."
Bai Yu paused, her face seemed a little down, and when she saw her frowning, she quickly said, "Okay, okay."
Luo Ran nodded with a smile, and seemed to look in someone's direction before she walked out of the hall.
Luo Ran didn't go directly to the back mountain, she went to Xuanyi's yard, she went to find the violin, she didn't go to the wing where she used to live in vain, and sure enough, she pushed open Xuanyi's door, that one Qin was placed in his room. She had only been to his room once. She glanced sideways, her eyes paused, and she saw the oil-paper umbrella placed by the window.
Lightly pursing her lips, Luo Ran looked away, picked up the violin, and followed the path up the back mountain. When she saw the bluestone, she seemed to think of something, and a slight smile appeared on her brows before she knew it. In the past, he sat down like he used to, put the piano in front of him, gently stroked it with his hands, and plucked the strings at will.
But a quarter of an hour later, a figure in green shirt appeared on the path. He was holding a scripture in his hand. This scene was too similar, but instead of walking to the other side of the path, he walked over to her and looked at the piano under her hand. Xian, after a song, he closed his eyes and said:
"Where did you get the violin?"
Luo Ran smiled and whispered softly: "Xuan Yi asked, knowing that the piano is in your room, where else can I get it?"
Xuan Yi looked at her brows and eyes, her face as white as the moon, and finally asked the words that had been hidden in her heart: "How are you, how are you?"
Luo Ran moved for a while, then raised his eyes to look at him, his eyes were clear, and he chuckled: "Okay, everything is fine, my aunt is very kind to me, it's just..."
When she said this, she stopped, her smile faded, causing Xuan Yi to frown, as if hiding a bit of worry and asked her, "Just what?"
She raised her eyebrows and said in a low voice, "It's just, I miss you."
The gentle and soft words hit Xuanyi's heart hard, like soreness and swelling. He opened his mouth, but he was dumbfounded. He watched her sit on Qingshi's side, half of the place was left, and then looked up at him, He smiled casually:
"sit."
Xuan Yi twitched her eyelashes and sat down silently. She turned her body slightly, leaned her head on his shoulder, and wrapped her arms around his waist. She closed her eyes and seemed to be enjoying this moment, Xuan Yi couldn't see it. Her expression, but when she leaned towards him, her whole body froze, he looked down the mountain, and the two cuddled together, silent for a long time.
I don't know how long it took, Xuan Yi felt his shoulders lighten, his eyes sank slightly, and he looked at her sideways, but he could only see that she had blue hair, and she lowered her eyebrows slightly, as if she understood that the time to part was coming, she He sighed lightly, looked up at him, did not hide the reluctance in his eyes, and forced a smile:
"My aunt is waiting for me, I'll go first."
She didn't stop, and she didn't even look at the qin again, but the moment she stood up, she was pulled by another person. She paused and did not dare to turn her head until Xuan Yi spoke with an inexplicable emotion:
"Will you come again in the future?"
She didn't turn around, but smiled lightly, with a hint of sadness: "Xuan Yi, you are really unfair."
Xuan Yi's face was instantly pale, she left him the address, but he never went to see her. Instead, he went to ask her if she would come again, took her hand, and couldn't help loosening it up.
She pulled out her hand and walked straight to the path, Xuan Yi's hand in his sleeve clenched tightly, he couldn't bear to see her, it was already the limit, but when she appeared in front of him again, could he still stick to "devoting himself to the Buddha"?
Luo Ran stopped on the path, she still didn't turn her head, it seemed as if she had left, afraid of reluctance, she spoke softly, with a slight choking: "Aunt has already mentioned marriage to me several times, Xuan Yi, I Can't wait too long for you."
Xuan Yi understood what she meant, her eyes were a little red, but she continued to say:
"I'm already happy with you, so I won't marry anyone else. I'm already dirty, and I'll never discredit my parents."
After she finished speaking, she lifted the hem of her skirt and ran away quickly, only Yu Xuanyi stayed in place with a pale face. He stared blankly at the path down the mountain, and her figure gradually disappeared.