Ying Feng sat alone on the bench in the corridor of the medical building, and subconsciously continued his previous habit, took out the peach pit and rubbed it in his hand slowly. But usually doing this would immediately calm down his mood, but today he was even more restless, and the thing in his hand became inexplicably heavy, so that he had to shove it back hastily.
Ling Xiao spent much longer in it than he did. I don't know what Yaotai said to him took so long. The corridor was very quiet, and I could vaguely hear a little sound from the room, and if he wanted to, he could actually hear it more clearly, but he deliberately turned off the function of processing external information in his brain, so the dialogue on the wall It became a foggy and indistinguishable mass.
After a long time, the closed door was opened, and Yaotai personally sent Ling Xiao out.
"Go back and pack your luggage first, it will be too late later, I will inform you of other things."
Ying Feng didn't know what she meant by "packing your luggage", until Ling Xiao left, Yaotai said to Ying Feng, "You can come in now."
Entering the medical room again, Yaotai didn't speak, and just stared at Ying Feng with inexplicable meaning, staring at Ying Feng, making his heart tremble.
"What's the matter?" In the end, even Ying Feng couldn't hold back his temper, so he had to ask.
"Have you already done it?"
This question was too straightforward, and Ying Feng's expression was unnatural for a moment, but then he acquiesced.
In fact, the appearance is too obvious. When Ling Xiao took off his shirt, Yaotai found something suspicious, and his medical report turned this into a fact that was sealed.
"Other than that, I can't think of any reason to suppress the side effects of burning embers in Ling Xiao's body. From the medication records of the medical station, they didn't even inject purifying agent into Ling Xiao. They saved each other's lives, and even though I am a scientist, I have to admit that fate is sometimes really weird."
No matter how mature and calm Ying Feng usually behaves, after all, he has only been an adult for less than a day, so he can't discuss such things as sparsely as Yaotai. So even though he didn't understand a lot of what the other party said, he pretended not to care and decided not to ask.
Yaotai could see that he was not comfortable with this topic, so he simply skipped it and put two medical examination reports in front of Ying Feng.
"Ling Xiao's psychological rating was still low risk when he was at the medical station. In less than two hours, it turned into high risk. Can you explain it to me?"
Ying Feng didn't expect such a big change. "He was taken directly from the medical station to the detention center by the military, but we released him on bail soon, within half an hour." He summed it up succinctly in one sentence the whole process.
Yaotai guessed it would be like this, "Ling Xiao's current psychological evaluation level is E, E is high-risk, and F is serious warning, which is Lan Sheng's mental state at the beginning. If Ling Xiao also drops to F, From the point of view of safety, we must isolate him, but in fact I am quite reluctant to do so. Because no matter how advanced medical methods are, they can’t compare with the company of the master. The result of forced isolation is often that the psychological condition of the master is getting worse and worse. , until down to G."
"Once the psychological rating drops to G, the suicide rate is 99%, and the difference is only success or failure. Although Ling Xiao looks calm on the surface, this calmness may also be a precursor to despair, which must be paid attention to. "
"I don't care whether you came together subjectively or passively. The fact has already happened. This is irreversible. He is now your pawn, and you have the responsibility to protect him."
"Chizi, especially those who have just completed the coming-of-age ceremony, their psychological fluctuations are very easy to be influenced by the contract master. Your words, deeds, and every move may cause him to develop in an extreme direction. Ten days after the coming-of-age ceremony is over. Very critical, any slight error can cause irreversible mental damage."
"The more indifferent you are to him, the more uneasy he will be in his heart. Once the negative emotions accumulate to a certain level, ranging from self-harm to destruction. As a school doctor who has witnessed nearly a hundred tragedies, I have never been there. Alarmist."
Ying Feng was silent for a moment, "Then what do you want me to do?"
"Hugging and caressing, meticulous care, these can ease Xin Qizi's anxiety, it's up to you whether you want to do it or not."
"Then what if I don't want to?"
"Then control him, control his heart, control his behavior, so that he will not do things that endanger his own life."
"How to do it?"
"Concentrate on thinking, break through his mental barrier, no matter how his spirit resists, how painful he shows, don't pay attention."
"Did you treat the Doctor like this back then?"
"We are different. I have never faced such a severe situation. I have plenty of time to soften his mental barriers a little bit and gradually penetrate into his heart. It took about half a year to master this ability."
"Then how can you be sure that the ability that it took you half a year to master, I can master in a short period of time?"
"As long as you concentrate on thinking, you can do it, and it shouldn't be difficult for you."
"Since it's so simple, why didn't Pingzong do it?"
"Because he has feelings for Lan Sheng, do you have feelings for Ling Xiao?"
Yaotai's words hit, but Ying Feng didn't speak again.
"Ying Feng, Lan Sheng and Ping Zong are also your classmates. You were there when they had an accident. I believe you won't be touched. Do you have the heart to let Ling Xiao follow in their footsteps?"
"You and Ling Xiao have been together for ten years. Even if you don't have love, you should have other feelings, even if it's classmate friendship? Just when I beg you, I really don't want to see any soul from this academy. flew away."
Ying Feng's eyes flashed, avoiding her expectations.
"One more thing, maybe it's inappropriate for me as a school doctor to say it. Of all the tenth graders, the one I least want to meet at the coming-of-age ceremony is the two of you."
"But if the two of you inevitably meet each other and a winner must be decided," Yaotai looked at him with complicated eyes, "Ying Feng, I hope that person is you."
Ying Feng moved slightly.
"I admit that it's unfair to Ling Xiao to think this way, but if you are the loser, you will definitely not choose to live."
"But if the loser is Ling Xiao, whether he can survive or not depends on you, not to mention..."
Yaotai's voice stopped abruptly, and Ying Feng felt strange, "What's more?"
—I've been embarrassed enough, so please save the last bit of self-respect for me.
Yaotai shook his head and expelled the lingering image from his mind, "It's nothing, Ling Xiao should have been waiting outside your dormitory by now, you should go back quickly."
"Why is he waiting outside?"
"You don't know yet? Qizi has no right to own the main card. When he becomes a Qizi, the card will be demagnetized, the dormitory will be cancelled, and he can only live with you. This is also for the sake of his psychological condition. Anxiety, especially at night, remember what I said, only you can help him."
Yaotai sent Ying Feng out, and when he was gone, he could no longer see, and when he turned his head, he found that there was still a person standing in the dark part of the corridor.
"Principal? Why are you here?"
The principal slowly came out of the dark, "I'm not worried, so I'll take a look."
"Everything that needs to be said has been said. As for whether it can be done or not," Yaotai's hopes are also very low. "It's up to them."
"What do you think will happen?"
Yaotai sighed heavily and shook his head, "If a person doesn't realize his feelings for a long time, then when he realizes it, it's often too late."
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Ying Feng returned to the dormitory, and sure enough Ling Xiao was already waiting outside the door.
He and his suitcase stood alone, like a homeless stray dog.
Ying Feng slowed down his pace and deliberately extended the time of the scene in front of him. Ling Xiao thought about it, and didn't realize his presence until the last moment.
He turned his head away immediately, there would never be a more embarrassing moment, not even the last time he came to him and was mercilessly pressed against the door.
Ying Feng opened the door and went straight in. The door was not closed, but there was no sign of letting him in. Ling Xiao didn't want to enter at the door, nor did he not enter.
It wasn't until he couldn't drag it any longer that he gritted his teeth and stepped in. The layout of Ying Feng's room is the same as his. He now knows why the single bedroom is equipped with double beds. He thinks how ridiculous it was to say that it was to prevent people from falling asleep when they fell asleep.
Ying Feng didn't say anything about having one more person in his bedroom, as if Ling Xiao was there or not had nothing to do with him.
He did his own thing without saying a word. He washed, turned off the lights, and went to bed. Ling Xiao stood there like a superfluous decoration. The decoration can also play the role of beautiful decoration, but the owner of the room even gave a stingy look. Disdain to fall on him.
The lights went out, but Ling Xiao felt better. He looked at the bed, Ying Feng had already fallen asleep, he occupied the left half of the bed, and the entire right side was empty.
He still remembered that when Ying Feng didn't want to share the same tent with others, he preferred to sleep in the wild, let alone the same bed. But he looked around and saw that there was nowhere for him to lay the floor, not to mention the whereabouts of the place where the sleeping bag was taken to the internship is still unknown.
Ling Xiao stood in the darkness for an unknown amount of time, and then reluctantly took a small step.
Although Ying Feng had already fallen asleep, he did not fall asleep until the sound of Xi Xi Susuo came from inside the house. He heard Ling Xiao enter the bathroom, and the sound of water came from inside. After a while, the sound of water stopped, and people came out of the bathroom and stopped by the bed.
He could imagine the battle between heaven and man in Ling Xiao's heart, but he didn't know how long it took. Ying Feng felt the bed sink behind him, and knew that someone had finally lay down. His movements couldn't be lighter, for fear of being noticed by himself.
Ling Xiao occupied a narrow edge on the other side of the bed, and the double bed was vacated by the two of them by a whole shoulder-width distance, which was more than enough to lie down.
The room was extremely silent, and no one made any sound. This was their "wedding night", and it came silently like this.
—
Ying Feng is really not suitable to live with people. It took a long time for him to fall asleep in a daze, but it seemed that he was woken up by a strange movement not long after.
He half propped up his body and turned his head to look, and saw Ling Xiao, who had already been lying down, hugged into a ball and huddled in the corner at this time. Despite the strong control, his body was still shaking, and Ying Feng was awakened by the shock.
He bit his wrist so hard that he didn't make any sound, and his eyes were fixed on one point. Ying Feng remembered that they had learned in class that this method could forcibly lock their attention when they were in great pain. strength without causing confusion.
Because it can capture any subtle light in the dark, Ling Xiao's translucent eyes are particularly bright, as if they will glow at night, but unfortunately there is no vitality in them, full of fear and anxiety.
It turned out that this was the most difficult night in the so-called disorder period. If Ying Feng hadn't seen it with his own eyes, he would never have imagined that even a strong character like Ling Xiao would have such a performance.
"you… "
As soon as he uttered a word, a pillow flew towards him. After knocking it off, Ying Feng saw Ling Xiao, who was completely different from Bai Ri, and his anger pierced through those eyes that seemed to glow. , seems to be annoyed that Ying Feng sees himself like this.
"Don't worry about it!" His voice was now out of his control, almost hysterically shouting out.
Ying Feng was originally someone who softened him and made him stronger, and made him stronger when others made him stronger. Hearing this, his eyes sank, and he felt that the concern he had vaguely bred just now was superfluous.
He rolled over heavily and fell down, Ling Xiao said that he didn't care, he really let it go, ignoring how painful Ling Xiao was at the moment, and forgot the three words "disorder period".
At this time, Ling Xiao, as long as he closed his eyes, was like being in the boundless darkness. No matter front and rear, left and right, or up and down, he completely lost any support. Sometimes I feel like I'm drifting, sometimes spinning, sometimes falling endlessly.
Yaotai personally warned in the medical room that if there is no physical contact between Xinqizi and Qizhu, it is like the separation of soul and body, and it is impossible to sleep at night. But instead of humbly seeking Ying Feng's care, he hoped that he would be able to raise his head proudly in front of the other party until the last moment, but he didn't expect that even such an embarrassing scene would be seen by the other party.
I originally thought that the day was long enough, but I never imagined that one night would be enough to replace several days. When the sun finally dawned, the feeling of separation of human beings and spirits finally faded, but the energy was already exhausted.
Because his sleep was disturbed, Ying Feng woke up a little later than usual. His first reaction after waking up was that his body had undergone a different change. Although the pre-awakening period also had such changes, it did not reach the To this extent now.
Ling Xiao pretended to be asleep before he woke up. Ying Feng glanced at him, then got up and went to the bathroom to wash away the "trouble". When he came out, he found that Ling Xiao was also up and saw that the bathroom was empty. You have to go in there too.
How did Ying Feng know that he couldn't fall asleep at all. He thought that after going through something like last night, he would sleep a little longer, so he asked without a good tone, "What are you doing?"
Ling Xiao answered coldly than him, "Go to school."
Ying Feng reminded him, "You have a vacation." During the 15-day honeymoon vacation, when he overheard other classmates discussing this vacation, his tone was very intriguing.
How could Ling Xiao not know, because he was one of the members who talked about this vacation in an intriguing tone, always saying that he did not go out on vacation, but wanted to take honeymoon leave, presumably because he was prevented from going out by the deed owner, and because of this, he wanted more Keep going to class.
"I don't have to take a break," he said before slamming the bathroom door.