When Ling Xiao said this, his expression was extremely lonely, and Ying Feng even for a moment never wanted to know the truth in that box.
What he didn't even know was that, in fact, just yesterday, Ling Xiao had the idea of destroying the contents inside, but today Ying Feng defended his behavior and let him dismiss this idea. Agreeing to let Ying Feng open after his death was the biggest concession he could make, but even at that time, it was estimated that Ying Feng would only think that it contained a pile of useless junk.
Then, he saw Ying Feng pull out a dagger from his arms, because of the other party's action, his eyes were rounded.
"You can't wait to kill me just to see what's inside?"
Ying Feng's eyes twitched when he heard this, then with a cold face, he handed over the dagger backwards, and the hilt was aimed at him.
Ling Xiao stared at it for a long time, and then suddenly realized the other party's intention.
He tentatively took it half-believingly, "For me?"
Ying Feng did not deny it.
"mine… "
"It broke when I hit Kui."
It was only then that Ling Xiao remembered that the sudden accidents happened one after another, and trivial things like this were long forgotten by him.
Knowing that he had misunderstood, Ling Xiao used the dagger as a cover and lowered his head embarrassedly. Then he saw the pattern carved on it, and after identifying it carefully, he realized that it was Kui.
"What is this?" he asked.
"Kui," Ying Feng replied succinctly.
"I know it's Kyu... I was wondering why there is Kyu?"
"It's just a memorial."
Because of Kui's appearance, the life trajectories of the two people have changed. Like it or not, Kyu made them meet, so when the shop owner asked him what to engrave, Kyu was the first thing that came to his mind.
Ling Xiao hesitated to say anything. In this situation, he should say thank you, but thinking about what happened in the past few days, thinking about everything Ying Feng has done, these two words can't be said anyway. Just as he was struggling with the conflict, Ying Feng had already sat down at the table, ready to flip through the books he borrowed from the library.
Ling Xiao knew that Ying Feng didn't expect to get thank you from him, just like he didn't expect the other party to say sorry for what happened a few days ago, there was only the sound of flipping books in the room for a while. Ling Xiao never knew that Ying Feng was still such a person who loves to learn, but unfortunately he turned his back to himself, the book cover was blocked, and he didn't know what Ying Feng was looking at.
Ling Xiao was reluctant to stay in the dull atmosphere. He just opened the door, and Ying Lie on the side spoke without turning back.
"Where?"
The three words "I want you to take care" kept spinning around Ling Xiao's throat, and finally turned into a muffled "Go to dinner."
This time, Ying Feng didn't stop him any more. Ling Xiao took the supplementary card that Ying Feng gave him and came to the cafeteria to swipe it. Sure enough, the amount was much more than yesterday. With a few more living expenses, it seems that after becoming an adult, it is not as simple as multiplying the gold by two.
"Yo, here we go again," the cafeteria staff greeted him happily when they saw him, "do you want the most expensive one today?"
Ling Xiao smiled embarrassedly, "Nutritious meals are just fine."
"Your complexion is much better than yesterday," the canteen staff congratulated him. "Yesterday you looked like you hadn't eaten for a few days. If you don't take good nutrition during your development, you will not grow taller in the future."
Ling Xiao thanked him for his kindness and found a place to sit down and start enjoying his nutritious meal.
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Ying Feng, who was alone in the dormitory, opened the first book he borrowed, followed the table of contents and jumped directly to the chapter he was looking for, and carefully read the words on it.
- The body fluids of the deed owner will have different effects on the deed child according to the idea of the deed owner or the needs of the deed child, and each body fluid has its corresponding function.
The following are specific examples:
-Blood: Strengthen combat power, provide nutrients, refresh and aphrodisiac, delay death when Qizi's life is in danger, and strengthen it.
- Saliva: Calm and relieve pain, purify and detoxify, hypnotize and paralyze, can appropriately alleviate Qizi's negative emotions, and mainly inhibit.
-Semen: It can cause a psychedelic effect and produce a strange excitement, similar to the effect of drugs on other races, and it is easy to become addicted.
Ying Feng recalled what happened the night before, and confirmed that he had no intention of arousing Ling Xiao at all, because he had no idea that blood had such an effect.
Then, according to the book, the triggering conditions are first the idea of the deed master, and the second is the needs of the deed child, which means that all Ling Xiaozhi will have such a reaction, which is actually caused by the subconscious needs of the body.
If this guess is correct, the rumors in the mouth of the logistics staff are not rumors, but facts. Combination is the best way to smoothly pass the dangerous period, but what is the reason for it
Putting aside this doubt for a while, he turned to the next chapter of concern, which is the explanation of mental damage: - If the negative emotions caused by hormones are not sufficiently calmed during the disorder/dangerous period, these negative emotions will stay in Qizi's subconscious. , causing lifelong mental damage.
- Mental damage can be divided into mild, moderate and severe according to the degree, corresponding to the time when the pawn can live independently from the pawn owner. A Qizi with a completely normal psychological development will not be affected even if he is separated from the Qizi owner, while a Qizi with mild mental damage will gradually develop symptoms such as anxiety, restlessness and insomnia after leaving the Qizi owner for a month. Over time, symptoms will gradually deepen until they reach the point of a dangerous period.
- The acceptable separation period for a moderate degree is about half that of a mild one. Those with severe mental impairment cannot even leave their deeds for a day, otherwise they will not be able to fall asleep normally and can only rely on drug hypnosis.
Ying Feng's brows became tighter and tighter, and when he saw the last line, he simply buckled his book and set off to find Yaotai.
Ling Xiao came out after eating and happened to see Ying Feng passing by here. Under the premise of not being noticed by the other party, he secretly followed him and followed Ying Feng to the medical building.
When Yaotai saw Ying Feng, the first thing that came to mind was that something was wrong with Ling Xiao, "What happened to Ling Xiao?"
"His condition is much better than yesterday," but that's not what Ying Feng wanted to say, "You said earlier that he suffered from mild mental damage, does that mean that two people must live together forever in the future, as long as the spirit of Qizi is separated Will there be a problem?"
"What kind of answer do you want to hear?" Yaotai asked rhetorically, "When I first explained this to you, weren't you very dismissive? If it is a theoretical answer, yes, but in practice, no A pair of deed masters and deed sons live separately, and all the spouses live together. The so-called separation is only temporary, such as going on an expedition. Unless you join the military in the future and go to foreign planets, then you need to consider that there is a spiritual The question of the damaged chiko."
"It's really impossible to heal this kind of damage?" Ying Feng asked.
"Cure is impossible, deterioration is easy. If you let it go as you did before, it will be a matter of time before it develops to a moderate or even more serious level. You have no other way but to control it now."
Yaotai paused, "You should be thankful, Ling Xiao doesn't know about this yet, his dangerous period has not passed, to maintain a good mood, he must not stimulate his emotions, and wait for this period of time to pass smoothly. Then, think of a way to tell him the truth slowly."
Ling Xiao, who hid outside the door and heard every conversation between the two of them clearly, tightly covered his mouth. He originally thought that as long as he gritted his teeth and persisted for a few years, he could fly far and wide, but it was only at this moment that he realized how wishful thinking he was. The invisible shackles had already held him, and he naively thought that freedom would always come.
He couldn't hear what the people inside said, Ling Xiao left here in a hurry, and walked to a place that made him unforgettable. It was here that Lan Sheng jumped, and Ping Zong also left them forever on that day. It seems that from that moment, his luck in this life has come to an end.
He lost his best friend, he lost his freedom, he lost his dignity, he lost everything, he had nothing left.
He sat on the position where Lan Sheng had jumped, and looked at the scenery he had seen from his vision. The ground was so far away, but the clouds were within reach.
There has never been a moment when Ling Xiao felt that he had failed so badly - he once vowed to be the deed master, but he became someone else's deed; he once thought that he could get through the turbulent period with hard work, but in the end he still relied on the power of Ying Feng. ; once thought that a person could live a strong life, but in the end even such a right was deprived, and his whole life had to be attached to another person, and only death can bring real liberation.
"Lan Sheng," he said to himself, "we've made an appointment to meet again, but the place I don't want to meet again is the CDC. I've always insisted on waiting for you outside, but if you have to rely on the grace of others to survive, Is this persistence really worth it?"
"You know, even what happened last night was my initiative. My face has been exhausted in my whole life. I have no face to lose in front of him. He treated me badly, I think it was cruel. , he is good to me, I think it is charity, no matter what he does, I can't face him, I used to have the motivation to leave, but now even this motivation no longer exists."
"Lan Sheng, if you and Pingzong are still here, will you persuade me to continue? Or give up?"
Unfortunately, neither Lan Sheng nor Ping Zong could answer.
"Ling Xiao!" With an angry roar, Ling Xiao turned around and saw a very familiar scene. When Lan Sheng stood here in the past, what he saw was probably the same scene, but Pingzong would no longer appear at the door, and his position had also been reversed.
When Ling Xiao saw Ying Feng and Yaotai's expressions, he knew they had misunderstood. He didn't want to give them the illusion that he couldn't think of it. , definitely fell out of the wall by accident.
- What a joke, I'm not going to die yet.
His body lost its center of gravity, and Ying Feng's face disappeared behind the wall little by little, and he could see the shock in the other's eyes clearly.
Ling Xiao suddenly thought, after I die, will he feel a little bit sad
A swaying god, a force suddenly pulled him, his body froze out of inertia, and then the momentum of his falling stopped.
Ling Xiao raised his head and found that Ying Feng's whole body was hanging in the air, with one hand clasping the edge of the wall and the other tightly holding the corner of his cuff. Pulling him up, Ling Xiao could feel that he was getting out of Ying Feng's fingers little by little.
Ling Xiao didn't expect that he would fly to save himself. In fact, when he thought about it carefully, he was also very kind to himself before, buying bread for him, accompany him through difficult nights, taking him to escape at a critical moment, and dumping him at the moment of life and death. Kai, a man faces death - all on the premise that he is his classmate, not Chiko.
Just like he would save Zhuyue who was bullied by senior students, and would try his best to hold down Lan Sheng who committed suicide, his help was never stingy with any classmate in need.
Except for a Qizi he doesn't love.
Why can't we just be classmates
Because of the excessive force, Ying Feng's hand has been shaking uncontrollably. Ling Xiao wants to help him, but he wants to help himself. After raising a little distance, he could no longer move.
At that moment, he recalled Lan Sheng, who was once held by Ying Feng on the cuff, and then he chose to use his free hand, took out a dagger, and cut off his sleeve.
He suddenly understood why Ying Feng restricted his actions. If Pingzong could control Lan Sheng at that time, he would not have cut off his sleeve and fell off, and Pingzong would not have died.
However, it was also at this moment that Ling Xiao suddenly lost all his thoughts. Whether it was grabbing Ying Feng's hand or pulling out the dagger from his waist, whether he lived recklessly or died resolutely, he could never let him go. From the moment Kui appeared in front of them, it was already doomed to his death. It was his delusional desire to delay his life, and now everything has come to pay.
You can give up your dignity and live by deceiving yourself. In fact, what you long for most in your heart is freedom.
All the stubborn persistence in the past suddenly lost its meaning at this moment, and all the obsessions with life were let go without nostalgia.
Let this life come to an end completely. In the next life, whether it is the deed master or the deed child, I hope to find a person who is happy with both feelings.
Lan Sheng, it's a pity that the promise with you could not be fulfilled.
Pingzong, I don't know if I have a chance to sleep beside you when I go to the base.
Ying Feng, I am most fortunate that the words I didn't have time to say will stay in my heart forever.
Ling Xiao closed his eyes without any distractions, and calmly welcomed the end of his life.