Yue Xingyao believes that the sun and the moon must be the same no matter where they are. No matter what the weather is, as long as the moon and the sun appear, they must be the same.
Then she and Elder Sister who looked at the same moon could also be said to be looking at each other from a distance to some extent.
Four years have passed, and she has grown from six years old to ten years old.
In the past four years, several small things have happened.
Yue Xingyao thinks that the bigger thing should be a showdown with his father.
She still didn't hold back from questioning, when she heard the queen's emphasis on those words again, and saw the queen's expression again.
Yue Xingyao still remembered the situation that day clearly.
"Yao'er, how did you learn today?"
"can understand."
"Compared to other princesses, have you suppressed them? You must be better than them, you know?"
Although the queen had a gentle smile on her face, Yue Xingyao, who was standing below, couldn't help but look up at him when she said the words.
Yue Xingyao was already tired of hearing such words, especially after knowing his identity, that boredom had become a kind of resistance.
Why do you have to compare with others, why do you have to be better than others, it's just for the queen's own face.
The queen who keeps saying she loves her father has always only cared about whether she has overwhelmed others with the Taifu and asked her to read books, but never cared whether she was tired or not.
"Why should I be better than them?"
The energy in Yue Xingyao's heart rushed up all of a sudden, and Yue Xingyao couldn't restrain himself even with so much resentment, he couldn't even care about calling himself a 'son'.
"Yao'er?"
The queen glanced at Yue Xingyao in surprise, as if she didn't understand why her always obedient and well-behaved daughter would suddenly say such words.
"Why did you ask this suddenly? Did someone whisper something in your ear? Isn't it a matter of course that you are better than them?"
In the end, there is only one sentence, the identity is different.
Because she is the queen's daughter, the queen is more noble than other concubines, so she should be better than others. If she is mediocre, she may be ridiculed.
Face is really an amazing thing.
"You go out first."
Yue Xingyao looked around at the palace guards around, and those palace guards immediately bowed and retreated.
In the palace, only the father and daughter were left.
"Yao'er, what's the matter?"
The queen also felt something unusual, especially Yue Xingyao's expression. She stood up from the chair and walked in front of Yue Xingyao.
The empress is indeed extremely beautiful. She spends all day alone in her empty boudoir, without the favor of her wife, which makes his brows a little melancholy.
"Father, tell me, am I the Queen Mother's daughter?"
Yue Xingyao didn't know what kind of answer she wanted to hear. She hoped that the queen would deny it, and even show strong evidence, but she knew in her heart that it was impossible.
"What nonsense are you talking about! How could you not be the daughter of your empress? Who told you something you shouldn't have said? Why would you question your empress?"
The queen's facial expression was abnormally stiff, but immediately turned into a sharp anger after the stiffness, as if someone questioned this thing and was very dissatisfied.
This should be a normal attitude, getting angry and then questioning, because it is too much for this kind of thing to be wronged.
But Yue Xingyao didn't miss it. When she questioned at first, the queen's expression was flustered.
Originally, the queen is usually good at hiding emotions, but maybe because the news he heard this time was too shocking and too sudden, he didn't have time to prepare, and Yue Xingyao kept staring at his face, so he caught that subtle Variety.
That's right, it's already a certainty, so why are you still struggling
Yue Xingyao is looking forward to the impossible answer, because that kind of answer can pull him out of this difficult quagmire, and she can return to the way she was before.
"Father, please tell me, yes or no."
"Of course it can't be. Who is spreading rumors around you? It seems that the people around you should be cleaned up."
The queen seemed to have calmed down, and he gently stroked Yue Xingyao's hair with his fingers that were dyed with flower juice.
"She came to see me."
"who?"
The Queen shook her body slightly, her eyes widened.
"The man in black who came to your house a few years ago, you should know who he is, don't you? Do you still lie to me now? I'm no longer a child."
Although, she is not an adult.
"She came to see you, when?"
"Last night, that's why I came to you today for verification."
"Why did she come to you suddenly?"
The queen's expression seemed to have received a huge shock, a mask on her face had been completely torn off, revealing the twisted ugliness inside.
"So did you admit it, Empress Father, did you admit that she is my biological mother?"
The queen pursed her lips, and there was a hint of sternness in her eyes.
"Yao'er, you're so smart, you should know that this matter should not be known by anyone, if the news gets out, both of us will be in a situation where there is no redemption, understand?"
The queen pinched Yue Xingyao's shoulder with a very serious expression.
"I know, so... Father, I am not the child of the mother, right... I don't have the right to inherit all this, do I?"
"No! I didn't intend to let you know this, but since you already know, you should work harder. You have to prove that you are better than all of them. What about the royal blood? Is the empress smart, but she is still being played by me in the applause, because she never cared about me, so she never doubted me."
The queen looked miserable.
"Yao'er, the queen father has nothing but you, you have to grasp this identity, and then go to the highest position."
Yue Xingyao nodded, and she closed her eyes, as if acquiescing to everything in front of her.
The father and daughter fell into an even more embarrassing and speechless situation. The relationship between the father and daughter who was not very close became even weaker. Yue Xingyao treated the queen more and more indifferently, but the queen had no way to teach him a lesson. She can only rely on it.
In the past four years, Yue Xingyao wrote a lot of letters, but he didn't send any of them, because he didn't know where to send them.
Another two years passed.
In the past six years, not a single letter has reached her. Yue Xingyao often thinks that perhaps it is because no birds are allowed to move in the palace, so she has not received a single letter, but it is also possible that the elder sister really did not send her any letter.
Eldest sister thinks that time can dilute the connection between them, and Yue Xingyao also thinks the same about the relationship between them.
On the day when Sister Dahuang left, Yue Xingyao thought that Sister Dahuang not only had her own things to do, but maybe she wanted to cut off the connection between them so as not to be embarrassed by each other when they faced each other in the future.
But feelings are the most irresistible thing. Day by day, Yue Xingyao became more and more lonely.
No one can talk to her, and no one can listen to her, maybe Liujin can, but Liujin is not good at talking to her too much, and their identities are different, it is really not suitable to be able to talk A person who speaks from the heart.
Liu Jin is much more sensible than she is now, Yue Xingyao has a lot of things in her heart that she can't let her know.
The palace is getting more and more boring, she will always unconsciously go to that small courtyard, there are still people cleaning it from time to time, those flowers and plants are not withered, but you have not received careful care, just maintain a sluggish look , growing freely, but it doesn't look pretty.
To be honest, she used to think that everything in this yard was good, whether it was the flowers and plants or the sunset in the yard, including the person who took care of them among the flowers and plants, who was clearly wearing gorgeous clothes, but doing the simplest things. The simplest things.
But since Su Xin left, Yue Xingyao came here to watch again, but he no longer felt what he felt at that time.
The past has not been forgotten, but it has become more profound as it has been dug out and chewed over and over again.
Yue Xing was sitting in the room, the window was half opened, and the setting sun shone in from inside, falling in front of her.
Light and shadow were divided, making her face flickering.
Liu Jin knocked on the door and walked in, lit the candle.
After she left, Yue Xingyao moved his hands and feet, rubbed his wrists, and walked to the desk.
Spread out a piece of letter paper, and carefully press the edges with a paperweight. The ink has been ground before, and it has a faint fragrance.
Yue Xingyao picked up the fine brush as usual, thought for a while, then dipped the pen in the ink and started to write.
Letter to Queen:
Elder Sister, this is the thousand and twenty-fourth letter I wrote to you. This letter will still not be sent. It may end up like all the previous letters. I put it in the box. Since It will not be sent out, so I wrote a lot of eloquently as before.
I heard that the scenery over there is very cold. It is already winter. It should be even colder over there. It seems that there is war again. I am too far away here, and I can’t receive any news from there. I am very worried about your safety.
I seem to understand the meaning of what you said at the beginning, but I don't care about those, unless we have reached the point of decisiveness, but I don't want that to happen, it's still the same as before, okay
Maybe we can be more intimate, I have been waiting for you for a long time, six years have passed, and you still haven't come back.
I will still wait for you here. I took good care of the potted flower you gave me. When you come back, I will show you.
Yue Xingyao smiled and wrote those small words, as if all the words in my heart were expressed through those words, although no one except her could see them.
"Master! Master!"
Liu Jin is knocking on the door.
"What's wrong?"
Yue Xingyao's face showed displeasure at being disturbed.
"His Royal Highness is back!"
Yue Xingyao was taken aback for a moment, and there was an ink spot smeared on the letter paper, but she didn't care, threw the pen on the table, and ran out in a hurry.